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The man in front of her didn't like her that much.

This is a conclusion that can be simply inferred based on some evidence.

Sasagawa Rimei knew this.

But she still made it clear now that he had decided or had given up on being single.

When he already has a lover.

It looked like a stupid, suicidal charge.

Although such scenes have been commonplace throughout history in this country, which hides madness beneath its restraint, historical experience shows that the successful ones are, if not everywhere, at least one in ten thousand.

But the flamingo chose to do it anyway.

Although the behavior seems intense, it is not an impulsive decision made by following emotions.

Actually, before.

Every sleepless and lonely night, while sorting out work letters related to him, she thought about a lot in her wild imagination in a half-awake state.

When imagining possible futures, we need to include this very situation.

Then, further, she probably also thought about the consequences of all the decisions she could make.

Now - should we uphold our self-respect and not disturb other people's love?

It seems like a sensible and good decision.

But then what? Pretend to hide your feelings, continue to pretend to be friends with this man, and then put on a mask of pain to watch his affectionate and happy appearance that has nothing to do with you?

If she were the old her, she might have made this choice. But, it was probably also thanks to him.

He said that we should not be like the sewer rat-like protagonist in the book "Sea of ​​Plenty" who only dared to secretly watch and admire but never dared to get in-depth contact.

The descriptions and expressions of the writer Mishima in his works also prove how painful and tragic it is to want to hide one's thoughts and not dare to speak them out.

People should be moderately brave and enjoy life while they can. This was the consensus we reached during our discussion with him.

Since he admitted this himself - then, it shouldn't be something to be blamed for her behavior just now feeling a little at ease, right?

So Sasagawa Rimei did not choose to give up.

But sometimes, can good results be achieved by just holding on to something and not letting go?

How could she turn the situation around by relying on his ordinary feelings for her?

What could she hold him back with? This bleak so-called home in this impoverished old street, the hopeless sunset, the dilapidated suburban moon, or the sadness of someone staring at the lonely moon for so long?

She has nothing.

She couldn't even figure out how to pass on concrete happiness to others.

She was on the edge of a cliff. Even if she clutched at a protruding rock, it would only slow her fall.

The thought of this made her feel a kind of despair that almost made her tremble all over - perhaps, one day in the future, she would think of someone for no reason. He had once given her hope for tomorrow, but he did not exist and would not appear in her tomorrow.

This was too painful - especially since she could not stand darkness in the first place, and there was also light around her that she had seen, thought about, and recalled.

This is so sad - now, all the struggles seem foolish and ridiculous, and she seems like an unreasonable woman.

A complete dead end?

Probably so.

But she still had one last thing she wanted to hold onto. It was something about her philosophy of life, and it was also the same thing she and a certain man had agreed upon.

Even if the result is meaningless, the process cannot be included in the qualitative analysis.

Happiness is like a palace guarded by a giant dragon on a magical island. Whether you have the ability to defeat it or not, it is there waiting for you.

The process of obtaining it is bound to be a fierce battle.

There may be three types of people: the warriors who win, the warriors who lose, and the cowards who never take action. However, the romantic nature of human beings always tends to lump the first two into the same category.

The journey was probably both serious and funny. After all, after so many twists and turns, the final result was to interfere with other people's relationships - to borrow the words of the man in front of me, it was a mess.

But Rio Sasagawa just didn't want to let her love die so cowardly.

Because, she knew in her heart that with her ridiculous lifestyle, dull circle of friends, and extremely shrinking future life plan, such a precious fate might never come again.

She was like a person carrying water on his back in an ancient battlefield.

In short, there is no way out and the situation will not get worse.

So the potential survival instinct that all living things have came into play at this moment.

She knew that her decisions and actions might hurt some people, such as the girl who liked him and was liked by him, and herself.

Apologies and reparations may be made later. But for now, please allow a soul headed for despair to leap for a bit.

So, for the first time, the usually awkward woman spoke her mind. She even omitted the linguistic twists and turns, giving people the impression of almost giving up on herself:

"I believe that vulgarity is inevitable in human nature."

As she said this, she sat down and unbuttoned her outer shirt, leaving only the thin clothes on her body that were obviously not enough to cover her figure. "So, am I still not pretty enough?"

"I'm a little scared of what you're doing, Sasagawa Riya." The young man turned his head away.

"Why did you look away? So, the situation is better than I thought? At least you are still interested in my youthful body."

"I think we need to calm down. How about I go out for a while and you think about it. Then, I'll come back in half an hour and we can talk about it."

"I am calm and sober now."

"Your actions don't make me feel that."

Lin Sen gritted his teeth and turned around, "Then I'll go out first..."

"Kara."

He was interrupted by the sound of something being pulled out of a pen holder.

Then, out of the corner of his eye, he saw the woman pointing the tip of the scissors at her neck, instantly making him break out in a cold sweat.

"what are you doing?"

"Nothing. I just suddenly had the urge to study how to use scissors. I thought, Mori-kun, you should go out for a walk first. I think I really need to be alone for a while."

"no..."

It's a matter of life and death, so I can't get away.

There is no longer an option to separate and calm down temporarily.

Lin Sen glanced at the woman's serious eyes, then followed the direction of her finger and sat down next to her.

Some people don't know where to start, so they try their best to squeeze out some words:

"I didn't expect your intentions."

"I didn't intend to tell you at first. Now... I think it might seem like I'm blaming you. After all, if you'd stayed single, I would have kept this secret to myself."

"Would it make you feel better if I apologized and admitted my mistake?"

"No need. It's not your fault. You are just following your usual principles."

The woman emphasized the pronunciation of the last few words.

Lin Sen couldn't help but smile bitterly:

"Are you really mocking me?"

"No. It's probably more of an expression of my own inferiority complex. I'm not as good as Ito, the person you wrote the book for. It's obvious to some extent."

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"It ended up being self-deprecating."

"Yes. I don't have that charm, or a story that carries enough weight in your heart to change your principles. In a way, that's sad."

"I feel like you've said everything I was going to say in advance."

Lin Sen turned around and looked at the woman who gave him a bright look.

She seemed to be as calm as she said.

There is rationality in his eyes, as well as a kind of determination that people cannot understand but subconsciously do not want to face.

"Although it's an invasion of privacy and an overstep...how far have you gone?" she asked.

"Can I not answer?"

"Of course. But I can guess that this is the end of the road for you to break your own principles?"

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In a moment of surprise and daze, Lin Sen felt his hand being grabbed and moved towards a certain position of the person next to him——

"Hey!"

He barely braked, but still managed to reveal something.

To immediately make someone look down.

"Your body's response to external stimuli has become faster."

Flamingo honestly described his observations, "They're much more alert than the last time we hid from the rain. It seems they've been constantly prepared, eager to go out on the spot. Their subconscious will to fight is incredibly strong."

"I'm going to be angry."

"sorry."

Almost instantly, Lin Sen remembered the short-haired girl who had hugged him from behind in the hotel last time.

In terms of sliding and kneeling speed, are they all made from the same mold?

Lin Sen didn't have time to think further.

Because he heard an even more explosive speech:

"Mori-kun. If I wanted to do the same thing with you as Ito, would you agree?"

"of course not."

"Is that so? But, Senpai's body feels like it's constantly being prepared...isn't that uncomfortable?"

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Another girl's voice suddenly rang in my ears, catching me off guard.

Suddenly my heartbeat quickened and my breathing rate increased——

But the next moment he realized that it was just someone's increasingly skilled imitation.

But while my mind understood, my body didn't obey my command at all——

"Senior, do you want it? I can do it...mm."

Lin Sen reached out to cover the other person's mouth to interrupt, and glared at the woman who was gently pressing her fingers against her throat.

She carefully put herself into the role of Xiao Dingdang, with a serious expression as if she was doing some academic research.

I had no choice but to put my hands on my thighs to cover them while shouting:

"Almost done!"

But no matter what, the current situation is indeed difficult to deal with.

Of course, you can be firm in your attitude, but your actions cannot be too cold - the image of someone calmly holding a pair of scissors to their throat is still vivid in my mind.

But being too soft isn't a good thing either. Once she's shorn of her awkward mask, the rather sharp and direct Flamingo doesn't miss any opportunity to stir up her emotions.

We can only wait and see how things develop, and see if there is a chance to sort things out little by little through the struggle.

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But the obvious problem comes to mind -

Lin Sen discovered somewhat helplessly that in fact, during the past few months of getting along, they had often come here and often sincerely confided in each other.

In fact, to some extent, his personality and some of his thoughts felt like they were placed under a glass cover in front of this woman.

She understood his thoughts almost instantly.

Then, another early shot from her followed:

"I don't want to have a sticky discussion."