People in Tokyo, the world is clear

Chapter 5 You Can (K)

It is actually not a blessing to work in a career that is highly related to your dreams.

For example, literature and art, sports, and athletics.

What a hotbed of miracles and fairy tales it sounds like.

But in reality, the stairs leading to the temple are made up of stepping stones, and the soil under the blooming flowers is buried with tears, blood, and corpses as the base.

The dream-chasing journey of a small person is like searching for direction in the long night in the wilderness with a lantern in hand.

Perhaps the losers won't even be eligible to choose the time and place of their funeral, and will disappear quietly on a simple and unremarkable morning.

All that was given, in the end, nothing could be taken back. Everything that was done seemed meaningless.

The pain and frustration brought by twists and turns are like a howling and rushing wind, echoing in the hollow drum of the heart.

Lin Sen wasn't a very observant person. In fact, he was often perceived by those around him as indifferent and careless.

But I was once a dream chaser and experienced similar lows.

So, it was not difficult, as his experience allowed him to be aware of the condition of the girl in front of him.

Even my breathing was trembling, my voice was choked, and my laughter sounded like I was crying quietly.

But she emphasized that she had made up her mind and said that she should give up and end her dream.

Strength is probably the most distinctive characteristic of this girl. So, no matter what situation she faces, she always appears strong and optimistic in front of others.

But when such a personality encounters bad things at bad times, it can be troublesome.

Letting things take their course will turn into showing off one's strength.

To put it simply, it means that one is obviously in great pain, but still pretends to be stubborn.

I clearly wanted to cry like a child, but I was still forcing myself to act like the most mature person.

However, it's not something to be criticized.

The root of this is probably another equally distinctive characteristic of Miss Qingshan. If I were to describe it in one word, it would be sensible.

She is well versed in the ways of the world and considerate in all matters. Even if you meet a stranger, you will give her a thumbs up after just a few words.

She understands other people's likes, dislikes and difficulties too well, especially those who are closer to her.

Following this conclusion and thinking about it, Lin Sen remembered two small things that happened in the past.

During every festival, she would borrow a phone from Uncle Ohgawa, the owner of Ryuhu-ya, and call the grocery store in her hometown, asking the owner to contact her family to come over and chat and let them know she was safe.

When she occasionally has different opinions with customers in the izakaya, she will smile and make amends after a moment of hesitation. After casually mentioning that she has different ideas, she will stop arguing and quietly continue the conversation with the other person.

She always gives in to others and cares deeply about her family. But when these two things come together, troubles arise.

A letter from home a few days ago showed that the attitude of her family in the countryside had begun to change from ordinary concern to worry about her future.

There are many hints and suggestions urging Qingshan girl to go home and not waste her last years of youth.

Thus, the slight pressure mixed with the frustration of having accomplished nothing, making the already turbulent thoughts chaotic and messy.

The girl in the green mountain still had a warm heart. When she sang, it was obvious from the perspective of an observer that her eyes were filled with longing, yearning, and the simplest joy.

But she was sensible, so she decided to respect her family's guidance, not wanting to worry or even cause a quarrel.

So, she didn't talk about the pain and regret this decision brought her, but just smiled and said, "It's okay, I thought so anyway."

But the human mind is like a still pond. The rushing currents of mountains and rivers will always sweep across its surface. When you want to do something, you must calm down. Only then will the true answer within you emerge, and you will not regret it.

You cannot see your own image clearly in turbulent water.

In his previous life, Lin Sen had been pursuing his dream of e-sports for a long time and was an older professional player.

He'd met many colleagues younger than him who had been forced into retirement due to frustration. Over dinner, he'd often be hugged and wept by some of his younger, alcoholic brothers, who'd tell him about a hero who was a dud, or about the unfortunate moments they'd faced on their way to fulfilling their dreams.

Among these truths, the one I hear most often is somewhat unexpected.

"Brother Sen. Now that I think about it, actually, at that time, I clearly wanted to play for another year."

As cups were being toasted, the clinking sounds were clearly the sounds of dreams being shattered.

On those nights, many drunkards who urged others to drink more dreamed of yesterday.

Over the years of his career, Lin Sen has witnessed too many such regrets.

Now, he doesn't want to watch a similar cycle happen again.

In front of him, whole and complete.

It's not about forcefully stopping the woman in front of him who has the passion, energy and good qualities that he admires, but about being the one who forces her to continue chasing her dreams.

I just hope that now that I am financially comfortable, I can give some time and leisure to this person whom I have always admired and who is pursuing his dreams.

Let her calm down and take a good look at what she is doing. In this way, the voice of her heart will gradually emerge.

This was probably what he could do for her.

As a friend, as a confidant, as a soul as simple as hers, in the past or now.

So, Lin Sen said:

"In the days ahead, Qingshan, just focus on the things you enjoy. Don't overthink it. There's still time, and there's no rush. As a friend, I only hope you don't dwell on the past, don't be afraid of the choices you make now, and don't think too far into the future."

At this moment, I try to put aside material or other factors and simply regard the present moment as a face-to-face encounter with the essence of my soul, expressing it sincerely and genuinely.

But it seemed that the girl in front of him did not understand Lin Sen's original intention for the time being.

An expression of disbelief crossed her face. Then, she quickly pursed her lips, reached out to pull the chair slightly further away, and stood up.

Smile.

"N-No... Krillin!"

"how."

"What on earth are you talking about?"

"Don't you understand what I mean?"

"No, I mean..."

The girl seemed to be holding back something. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and swallowed hard.

Open your eyes again.

"Stop joking."

"What makes Qingshan think I'm joking?"

Lin Sen stood up. It was a simple movement, but it felt like some kind of pressing pressure.

In the sight, Miss Qingshan even stumbled and couldn't stand steadily. She took several steps back and finally leaned against the tall cabinet on the east wall of the small living room of the rental house, which was filled with tapes, music magazines and music manuscripts.

She lowered her head.

"Really, no."

"Why not?"

“Isn’t this a waste of money?”

"To put it clichédly, this is called sponsorship."

"No, no..."

She was at a loss for words for a moment. But finally, she frantically managed to steady herself. When she looked up again, a look of solemn anger had appeared on the face she was meeting:

"Xiao Lin, are you feeling sorry for me?"

He looked genuinely angry. However, Lin Sen took a step forward and responded with a calm anger.

"Is this how Qingshan views my personality and our relationship?"

"..."

For a moment, it was probably the understanding of Miss Xia Zhi that helped Lin Sen.

"No, no! I, I am..."

In her sight, she panicked again, and this time she couldn't even stand, and slowly slid down the cabinet to the ground.

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He lowered his head deeply and remained silent for a long time.

Lin Sen just stood there and waited.

Wait for the clock in the house to tick.

When the night wind slowly came in, lifted the curtains, and rubbed the arm of the girl sitting on the ground.

Wait until a low and somewhat hoarse voice slowly sounded in the room.

This time, the previous sense of distance and politeness seemed to be lost.

"I say, what on earth do you want to do?"

"I made it very clear at the beginning. Well, let me add one more thing. Everyone has their most difficult times and reasons to be forced. I have seen such things and have experienced similar torment."

Lin Sen took two tentative steps forward. This time, Miss Qingshan didn't react.

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So, he stood in front of her, squatted down, and put his hand on her shoulder.

"I know what a shame it would be if I hadn't followed my heart in the past. So, now that conditions permit, I want to give you the time and environment to carefully consider whether to persevere or give up. If you persevere, I'll support you until next autumn. If you give up, you can always come home."

Pat the hand on your shoulder gently:

"Don't think there's anything wrong with that. We're brothers. Besides, I'm mostly motivated by the desire to make up for my own shortcomings."

After saying this, Lin Sen withdrew his hand, remained squatting, and continued to wait.

Looking at her in front of me, she lowered her head deeply to hide her expression and reaction.

Watch her clench and unclench her fists around her legs.

When she raised her head, her eyes reflected his vague swaying shadow.

"I'm a money-losing piece of shit. Whenever a new star releases an album, I'll be the first to buy it."

"Buy it. They're pretty good. Songs released by peers are a good reference for the industry's standards. Buy them, buy them all!"

"Several famous music magazines, subscribe to every issue without missing a beat."

"If you want to understand current music trends, this is crucial and is definitely a necessary cost."

“The rent for the rental house...”

"My apartment's rent is pretty much the same as yours, you know. Honestly, it's not that much."

Lin Sen's calm attitude left Qingshan Xiazhi somewhat helpless.

So, in the end, she gritted her teeth helplessly:

"I, I have to eat three meals a day!"

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After saying this, Qingshan Xiazhi saw that the young man in front of her was unable to hold back in front of her for the first time.

He also sat down on the ground and smiled at her.

It was a simple smile that was relaxed, freehand, and unconcealed. It was incomparable and rare to see.

"Indeed. Eating three meals a day is a rare glutton in the world. Normal humans eat only once every three months. Now, it's a bit unaffordable."

He laughed so hard that his body shook, and the room briefly echoed with laughter.

But he was finally stopped by a louder growl with a crying tone.

"I'm not kidding you idiot!!!"

"I know."

Lin Sen still had a smile on his face as he watched the girl bury her head in her knees again.

Her body trembled rhythmically, but she tried hard to suppress her sobs.