The social phobia substitute will not dream of the band girl

"Like a cute doll" and "as cute as a doll" may seem similar at first glance, but they actually have completely different meanings. The latter emphasizes appearance and is often used to praise someone for having a petite and cute figure, a pure and kind face, good skin, and big eyes. In short, it focuses on the surface.

The former also seems like a compliment at first glance, but it can actually be interpreted as something completely different. For example, the other person is like a doll, easily manipulated. After all, no matter how cute a doll is, it's just a toy in the hands of humans, right?

Higuchi Enka's outfit tonight was completely different from usual. She wasn't as casual as usual in a weird sweatshirt, but she wasn't wearing autumn-like or winter-like clothes as others thought. Instead, she wore a shiny dress that was like the stereotype of "what idols wear."

It might seem okay, but Enka is not used to it. After all, she only sees being an idol as a job and a responsibility. Deep down, she never considers herself a true (pure) idol, just like she never "self-indulgently" considers herself the only one for Hiranobu...

Ah--

"Well, whoever you want to give it to and what you want to give it to is your freedom. It's not my business, and it's not my turn to manage it."

From the way she spoke, it seemed as if Enka had taken a step back, but from Hirashin's perspective, she looked like she was throwing a tantrum. But it was no wonder—

No matter how much she pretends to be ignorant on weekdays, once she arrives at Heishin's house, it means that she has officially entered "their" sight, and Enka has to face the hateful reality that she is not the only special one.

But Pingxin doesn't feel sorry for this, because it was actually a mistake, and what he should do is to give everyone as much love as possible while maintaining a balance. Even if this process is difficult, this is the ending he longs for, a happy ending that can make everyone happy...

"Well, I'd like to take this opportunity to ask you specifically, what kind of Christmas gift does our Miss Enka want? You can ask for anything, just make a wish for me."

"what?"

There was a sense of "You really think you're a god" in Enka's expression, and Pingxin could sense it, so he could only smile bitterly.

It was you who mocked me for being omnipotent and like a god before, and it is you who is now mocking me for thinking of myself as a god. It is always difficult to reason with women, and it is actually difficult.

To Heishin's surprise, Enka quickly told him what gift she wanted.

"...Then, I want you, the one who belongs only to me."

"..."

"Can't do it?"

"If you don't use tricks, you really can't do it."

If he said something like "I only think about you when I'm with you", it would be difficult to achieve even if he said it, not to mention that this would not satisfy Enka's wish at all. Being clever would only bring humiliation to himself and further hurt the relationship between them, so Pingxin decided to tell the truth.

Although Enka's aggression was significantly higher today than usual, in a sense, this was also a sign of her becoming more open. Heishin couldn't tell whether this was a good thing or a bad thing at the moment, but he had to deal with the present situation first before considering the future.

"So you're 'weak'... Give up on becoming a god and just be a human."

"Yeah, I know. Actually, I'm very weak, not even as strong as you, Enka, so I've long since abandoned those unrealistic dreams."

Ping Xin nodded, and then asked, "Is there anything else that Enka wants?"

"...I don't want anything. But if I said I didn't, you would definitely keep buying things for me, even if it wasn't a special holiday or anniversary."

That's why I choose something you absolutely can't give me.

Even though she already knew the answer, Higuchi Enka still felt a little pain in her heart when she actually heard it...so Hirinbu might feel a little pain next.

"..."

Does that mean don't spoil them too much?

If I think about it carefully, Ping Xin seems to be a little bit overly doting and protective of the people around him. Did Enka see this and take this opportunity to say it all at once?

so cute~

"...Tsk, what an unpleasant expression."

"[Tsk] That's not the kind of sound that should come out of an idol, is it?"

"How dare you, a producer who stole from the company, speak like that?"

Pingxin threw up his hands, admitting defeat. If they continued to argue, he'd be the one who got hurt in the end, regardless of who won or lost. Besides, neither of them had set out to become an idol or producer in the first place, so they were both equally matched, so no one should criticize the other.

“…sometimes I don’t understand it either.”

"what?"

"I can't figure out whether you love me or you love me for the sake of loving me. Are you someone who can give everything for love, or someone who forces himself to be someone who can give everything for love. Are you someone who can do everything, or someone who has to do everything for others."

Enka's words were spoken softly, but they were very clear to Hirayuko, just like the feelings he had already understood.

"...Maybe my initial love at first sight was just based on lust, but now I'm a true lover of Enka, you know?"

"......I know."

That's why I feel unhappy.

The falsehood became true, but the true is not necessarily completely true, so the true and the false are mixed together. Being with this cunning man always requires wasting extra brain energy, which makes people unhappy.

The most annoying thing is that he never lies, but instead brushes over the questions without leaving a trace, just like he did with the second and third questions. Although it may seem dishonest at first glance, in a sense he has already placed the answer in front of you, and you can grasp it with just a little step forward.

Ahh, it still makes me feel uncomfortable.

"What a strange man..."

"Isn't it the same with you, Enka?"

She craves recognition, and despite appearing a bit precocious, she possesses the same passion and desire to win as anyone. However, growing up alongside the "perfect" genius Toru Asakura, she was constantly compared to him, so she's learned to suppress her own desires, pinning her own aspirations for freedom, success, and beauty on Toru.

The two of them are like light and shadow, inseparable from each other. At first glance, Fukumaru Koito, who left her prestigious school to attend high school with the other three, seems to be very attached to her childhood sweetheart, but in reality, Higuchi Enka is the one who relies most on this relationship.

Reason told her that "wanting to be beautiful" was impossible, as she could never become Asakura Toru, much less surpass her. However, her unyielding nature led her to adopt the motto "If Asakura can do it, Higuchi can do it too" as her lifelong motto...

No, these are simply words like a spell or a curse, but in the end, by chance, Enka and Heishin have developed the twisted relationship of love and hate that they have now, which makes people sigh at the fate.

Asakura Toru has deep feelings for Hira Nobu, and Enka is 100% sure of this. Although this title may have to be given to Hira Nobu now, at least she used to be "the person who knows Asakura Toru best."

She wanted to "win over" Asakura Toru through this relationship, but she was also worried that he would change his mind when he met Toru again, causing her to lose completely. That's why she kept acting distant after Hiranobu confessed his love, which led to many twists and turns, many routines, and a long way to go.

But she dreamed of surpassing Asakura, so she was happy to accept even the "false" affirmation conveyed through letters. In the end, like a fish attracted by the false light above the head of a lantern fish, she was preyed upon by Hirashin.

In interpersonal relationships, there are many people who are half-truthful, who appear gentle but actually keep their distance from everyone, who desire love but are afraid of it, and whose initial motives are not pure...

In short, the two similar yet different people gradually saw each other's sincerity through constant testing and contact with each other, but because of their awkward lifestyles and suspicious personalities, they were pulled apart for a long time. It was not until Enka got "that" and "that" that they really settled down.

Now it seems that the whole process can only be summed up in two words...

miracle

Chapter 4000 Night Talk ()

"—Maybe I'm a ghost."

Midnight has arrived, and it’s time for Pingxin’s favorite NetEase Cloud Music.

"...At least eliminate the shadow first. How about starting by eliminating you physically?"

These words were like lifting a skirt and not recognizing the person. Feeling this familiar attacking force, Ping Xin just wanted to say that it had that feeling, ladies and gentlemen.

There was no point in saying more; all Pingxin had to do now was hold the beautiful girl tightly in his arms. After the initial period of exploring both the soul and the body, the passion driven by his lower body gradually transformed into a heartfelt tenderness.

Although they kept developing new ways to play and each "fight" was very intense, so much so that Enka, who had poor physical fitness, would sometimes even faint while awake, but in fact, the proportion of time they spent simply hugging each other naked like this was gradually increasing.

To put it simply, both lust and love become purer, that's it.

"Everyone is so awesome and shining. The pressure is so great, and I feel like a loser every day. It's so annoying~~~~" Ping Xin complained quietly, completely different from his usual confident and carefree demeanor.

After a long pause, Enka was certain that Hirayuko wasn't just pretending or saying he was annoyed, but was genuinely annoyed. She was curious about this. For someone who (in her opinion) could do almost anything with just his powers, what in this world could he not do?

First, rule out "exclusive"...

"——Songs are something you can just write down, right?"

Although it's not quite right to say so, in her opinion, writing songs is something that she can do by herself, so it's really not worth mentioning to Ping Xin. At least the so-called commercial songs can definitely be made easily.

"But that won't work. You can fool others but not yourself."

A song that incorporates one's own experiences, thoughts, and even one's entire life—a cry from the heart, a roar from the soul, a portrait of life—isn't something that can be written easily. While not necessarily earth-shattering, such an idea will certainly surprise many. After all, not everyone thinks about writing an autobiography in their teens, and not everyone has such a rich experience.

Seeing that her attempts to comfort her weren't working, Enka didn't bother to bother anymore. After all, she was feeling a bit sleepy. She'd been playing all day and had been busy all night, and with some changes in her body...

But I didn't expect that comforting a man would be so troublesome.

The person being despised for being troublesome was completely unaware and continued to mutter, "They are all professional-level artists at such a young age, and they release high-quality new songs every few days.

I have no idea how they manage to do so well while juggling studies, performances, and daily life. They play a lot but never fall behind in their training. A mediocre person like me can only sigh a few useless words in the end—"

In the past, Hirayukobu would never show such a "weak" side in front of her, but Enka's joy was just enough. After all, listening to a man's nagging really tests one's patience, and staying conscious and not falling asleep is also a challenge.

"...Isn't it the same with you? To ordinary people, you are a genius, a perfect genius."

"That's different. First of all, I'm a 'second-round player'. Secondly, I have unreasonable powers like superpowers. Excluding these factors, I'm just an ordinary mortal."

Mortal, huh... I didn't expect you to have such a talent for joking?

Even if she wanted to say something sarcastic, it would be difficult for Higuchi Enka, who was half asleep and half awake, to say something so "clever". In the end, only her true feelings came out intermittently: "You are still as strict with yourself as always..."

The heroic woman who had been galloping on her before was now lying quietly on his chest, like a gentle and well-behaved kitten. Although her consciousness was shaky, she relied on her unyielding personality and tenacious will to maintain the last bit of consciousness. Perhaps this kind of gentle strength was her nature.

Hirayuko gently caressed her face, smoothing down her hair, now tangled from sweat and intense exercise. The gentle touch of her short brown hair and face lulled Enka further into a state of half-sleep, a state of comfort that made her want to fall asleep, yet a combination of her own will and external influences prevented her from truly falling asleep. Even this was a very awkward moment.

Looking at the girl Ping Xin smiling in his arms, the cold moonlight on the snowy night poured into the room from the window, calming his thoughts.

Higuchi Enka knew about her past life but not the Halo World. Firstly, it had nothing to do with her and would only cause her more trouble. Secondly, if she knew, she would definitely be jealous. After all, although someone kept it to herself, she was very satisfied with her "Heavenly Sweetheart" attribute. However, even Heavenly Sweetheart was inferior to the highest level attribute like "Past Life Bond". People like her strive to reach the pinnacle of everything they do.

Tiaoyue Liyin knows part of the situation in the Halo world, most of the power currently displayed by Ping Xin, and many arrangements of this world, but she does not know about her previous life.

Both of them knew many of his secrets but did not understand the entire existence of [Ping Xin]. The two of them were like his last bastion of emotion and rationality, sharing many of his secret mental pressures. From this perspective, he was very grateful.

The situation where someone knows many secrets but lacks sufficient ability can easily lead to disaster. Even if no trouble occurs due to the inconsiderate actions of the incompetent person, doing nothing will bring them a lot of pressure.

To give an inappropriate example, it is like the people in the lower levels of the social pyramid. They don’t need to know so many things and just need to dance to the tune of the consciousness of the upper levels.

Although it may not sound nice, this is the reality of human society.

But when it comes to the people I love, the situation is a little different. If I had to find a word that best describes them, it would definitely be "protection"...

I love you.

After hearing those three words, Enka's consciousness quickly returned to clarity. However, when she opened her eyes, nothing had changed: the moonlit room, the warm bed, or the man beside her. Yes, aside from Hirayobu's slightly surprised smirk, nothing was different from before, as if those three words had just faded from a dream.

"coward..."

After mumbling twice in a voice so faint but definitely loud enough for Hiraishi to hear, Enka changed her position slightly and pressed most of her weight onto the man even more roughly.

This is a sign of dissatisfaction and a provocation—

"If you don't behave, you won't be able to go to school tomorrow~"

“…Heh~”

Faced with Hiranobu's empty and powerless threats, Higuchi Enka just laughed it off.

Just kidding, I'm not afraid!

"...Stop it."

Enka had never expected the patience of a man who tore up clothes as a gift the very night he'd just given her. He probably thought clothes were something he could have as many as he wanted, so he didn't care. But it was a gift, idiot!

Just thinking about it made her so angry that she woke up!

"Alright, alright, don't be angry... Damn it, calm down! You have to know that the future is in your hands now--!"

After sincerely admitting his mistakes, Heishin finally received forgiveness from the beautiful, generous and gentle Ms. Higuchi Enka. It is really gratifying...

"Actually, that dress was just a deposit for inviting you to the party tonight. After I asked the designer to make it, I copied many of them according to the drawings, so it doesn't matter if I treat it as a disposable item like your pantyhose."

"..."

Sometimes Enka really doesn't know how to evaluate Hiranobu, just like she doesn't know whether she should be happy or angry.

To say Ping Xin doesn't understand human nature is unfair; after all, most of the time, he's incredibly reliable and intelligent. But to say he understands women, he often seems clueless and insensitive, always adding his own twist to the popular image of romance, turning it into something bordering on the bizarre.

After thinking about it, Enka decided to sleep on it if she was undecided.

Please, she is just a woman who can barely tie a chicken. Even though she often takes the initiative, Pingxin always gives in to her. She is not stupid enough to think that she is so powerful.

"The real gift will stay with me for now... Let's spend Christmas together next year, okay?"

"Um......"

Even if she wanted to give a forceful reply or a sarcastic remark, Enka was about to fall asleep again. It was hers anyway, so it didn't matter whether it was sooner or later.

But she certainly could not have imagined that the real gift Ping Xin prepared was the key to a property, which he planned to use after college and turn into their love nest bit by bit.

But even the omnipotent Heishin could not have imagined that Enka also had a "big gift" waiting for him at that time, and he didn't know whether it would be a surprise or a shock.

"Go to sleep..."

When I wake up tomorrow, I'll...

......