Matsueda Jun sighed, "Of course you can go if you want to. The director will probably welcome you."

"Will you welcome me?" the girl's voice trembled.

"It's not that you're not welcome, but I'd probably be happier in the orphanage if you didn't come."

"Why?" Mochizuki Yao spoke with a faint cry in her voice.

"Because when you're around me, I feel pressure from everywhere."

"Did I do something wrong again?" Wangyue Yao took two steps closer, she lowered her head, and big tears fell to the ground between them.

"What should I do? Can't you just tell me?"

The girl sat down on the ground weakly. She raised her head to look at Matsueda Jun, but her eyes were blurred by tears.

Jun Matsueda didn't intend to look down at the girl. He squatted down, took out a tissue and handed it to Haruka Mochizuki to wipe her tears.

"You did nothing wrong."

"Maybe your only mistake was falling in love with me."

Chapter 174 Things You Can't Take Away

"..."

"what are you talking about?"

"When did I say I liked you?"

Mochizuki Haruka slumped on the ground, she turned her head away, trying poorly to hide her love.

The girl never lied to him. She didn't know that Matsueda Jun had broken their original agreement, and she was the only one who was still foolishly insisting on it.

Matsueda Jun sat next to Mochizuki Haruka. The girl with tearful eyes looked to the left, and the boy with a calm face looked to the right. Their eyes no longer met.

The golden cat jumped in from the balcony and looked at them with its head tilted. It didn't understand what was so beautiful about the floor.

"You never said you liked me."

"But every movement of yours, every sadness, every smile, is saying that you like me."

Mochizuki Haruka's shoulders trembled. "Is it that obvious?"

It was hard to tell from her tone whether she was crying or laughing.

"Yeah." Matsueda Jun nodded. Mochizuki Haruka was ignorant in her first love, but in his eyes, the girl's feelings were as dazzling as walking on the plains at night with a torch in hand.

"So, am I rejected now?"

Wangyue Yao has lost her way, but she insists on walking to the end, and will not give up until she sees a wall in front of her with no way to go.

"Ah."

"But I haven't confessed yet..."

The girl turned her head and looked at the profile of Matsueda Jun, but he didn't react at all.

"Can you please take back what you said?"

"Can't you give me some time to prepare myself mentally?"

"I was wrong. I shouldn't have kept asking you."

"I shouldn't have asked you how to do it."

"I shouldn't have asked you if you could take me back to the orphanage."

"Can you please forget what I said and go back to the way we were a few days ago?"

"Go back a few days and let me not have to think about anything, I beg you..."

Mochizuki Haruka turned around and knelt on the ground, leaning forward and hugging Matsueda Jun's arm. She sobbed and her speech became intermittent.

"I clearly haven't confessed yet!"

The girl burst into tears, tears and snot streaming down her originally delicate and beautiful cheeks. Her mouth opened wide, and her whole body twitched as she cried, making her look as helpless as a child.

Jinzhi, who was curled up on the sofa, screamed in fright and ran into the bedroom.

Jun Matsueda felt that he had done nothing wrong. He was indeed moved by the girl's unconditional kindness, but he knew very well that such a relationship was not normal.

He couldn't let her get deeper and deeper into this trap and end up unable to extricate herself.

However, looking at the once noble, indifferent, and arrogant Mochizuki Haruka, whose smile carried the innocence and pampering unique to a young girl, now crying so miserably, Matsueda Jun's heart still ached.

A short pain is worse than a long one, Jun Matsueda told himself.

"I can't be with you forever."

Matsueda Jun picked her up and put her on the sofa. "You see, loving others without thinking about loving yourself will lead to this kind of pain."

"Didn't we agree that you would stay by my side until I'm no longer in pain?"

Jun Matsueda stood up, and the girl held his arm tightly, trying to make him fall on her.

"Are you going to go back on your word?!"

He sat next to the girl. Compared to the hard floor, the sofa was so gentle and soft that it made people want to stay in it forever.

"Of course I want to support you."

"I want to teach you how to be independent, how to develop normal relationships, and how to adapt to living alone."

"But you just want to stay with me, how can I support you?"

"In the final analysis, it's because you don't like me." Mochizuki Haruka's loosened hands tightly grasped the surface of the sofa, leaving deep marks.

"If you like me, you will be happy with whatever I do, just like I do with you."

"But you don't like me, so whatever I do is wrong."

He looked at the silent TV, and the two people's distinct shadows were projected on the screen.

"So you're leaving me? Are you just going to abandon me like this?"

Matsueda Jun shook his head. "That's not what I meant, but I think we need to keep a sufficient distance."

"That way you can calm down a little and I can really relax."

As soon as he finished speaking, Mochizuki Haruka cried out.

"That means you're abandoning me!"

"Relationships between people are not limited to love and abandonment." Jun Matsueda was helpless about the girl's thoughts.

"But I don't want anything else!!" Mochizuki Haruka got up from the sofa and stood in front of Matsueda Jun. The girl's tears dripped on the toes of Matsueda Jun's shoes.

"I just want you to love me! I don't need any other relationship at all!"

Matsueda Jun looked at Mochizuki Haruka's red eyes from crying and said, "Then I can only disappoint you."

The unlit living room gradually dimmed as the sun set. Mochizuki Haruka didn't know how long she and Matsueda Jun had been staring at each other. The girl didn't see any hope in his eyes.

She smiled through her tears.

"I like you, so of course I have to listen to you."

The girl packed her things while crying, her water cup, her toothbrush, the umbrella she left at the entrance, and the clothes she left in Jun Matsueda's closet.

Mochizuki Haruka opened the refrigerator and found the bread she hadn't finished eating that morning.

The girl from a wealthy family never left any leftovers, and her habit changed because of her life in 507.

She stood in front of the refrigerator and ate the remaining bread. It tasted cold and dry, but with her tears, it was not difficult to swallow.

The girl went back and forth several times by herself and moved the things back to her room.

Jinzhi slowly walked from the bedroom to Songeda Jun's feet and rubbed his trouser leg as usual.

Wangyue Yao walked over, squatted down and said to it, "Stay a little longer, you won't have the chance later."

She held the golden cat in her arms, "He doesn't want us anymore..."

"Just keep your distance, don't make it sound like we'll never see each other again." Matsueda Jun couldn't help but speak.

"They just don't want us anymore, they just don't want us..."

The girl's tears dripped on Jinzhi's furry head. It twisted its body uncomfortably and was carried back to the next room by Wangyue Yao.

After packing up everything, she walked up to Jun Matsueda and stretched out her hand. In her palm was the spare key to 507.

"I'll give it back to you. From now on, I won't come in without your permission."

"After the New Year, I will find someone to remove the connecting part of the balcony."

Her best side, her worst side, her pride and dignity, her attachment and dependence, have all been shown to the boy in front of her.

She lost all her love.

Jun Matsueda watched her leave the room through the main door. The sound of a door opening came from next door. After a while, the door was closed. The footsteps and cat's meow disappeared in the corridor. The car downstairs started, and the sound of tires rolling on the ground gradually faded away.

Jun Matsueda glanced at the spare key in his hand. The key chain and metal tag were both hung by Haruka Mochizuki.

There are two lines of text on the tag.

“No matter how close we are, there is always a time to part ways.”

"So love with all your might and with all your might."

A sigh was left in the empty living room.

Chapter 175 Return and First Snow

When Kurusu Yoshi returned to the apartment, the living room was dark. She pushed open the door of Matsueda Jun's bedroom, but no one was there.

The girl took out her cell phone and looked at Matsueda Jun's chat box. Apart from her information that the company was going to have a year-end party, there was no new message.

"what's the situation?"

She returned to the living room and turned on the light. Matsueda Jun just opened the security door and walked into the entrance hall to change his shoes.

"Songzhi, where have you been?" Lai Qi Yangshi took off his warm coat and hung it on the coat rack in the entrance hall.

"Running to relax." Jun Matsueda poured himself a glass of water. The number of water glasses on the dining table had been reduced from three to two.

"You don't look happy?" After drinking with his beautiful female colleagues, Lai Qi Yang Shi didn't quite trust his own senses.

After finishing the water in the cup, Matsueda Jun finally spoke, "I drove Mochizuki Haruka away."

Only then did Lai Qi Yang Shi realize the strange feeling he had after entering the room. It turned out that something was missing from the room.

"Then it's just the two of us in 507 again?" The girl didn't care why Mochizuki Haruka left. The eldest daughter of the Mochizuki family was not as attractive as her cat.

"Then we have to buy vegetables ourselves again?" Lai Qi Yangshi's mood was not so good.

"There's no milk from Hokkaido either." Matsueda Jun smiled and went into the bedroom to get some clothes to change.

"Never mind, there's always a payoff." The girl sighed. At least no one was competing with her for Jun Matsueda. "I've been eating too much dairy lately, and I keep feeling like I'm going to break out."

Jun Matsueda walked out of the bathroom and dried his hair with a towel. "What are your plans for the New Year, Kurusu?"

"Me?" The girl sitting on the sofa turned her head and looked at the ceiling, lost in thought. "I should go home in a couple of days and spend New Year's Day with my mom before coming out."

"Then remember to close the doors and windows of the house before you leave to prevent rain and snow from blowing in." Matsueda Jun walked into the bedroom, and Kurusu Yoshi followed behind him.

"Matsueda, are you really an orphan?" She only found out the day before yesterday that Matsueda Jun was going back to the welfare home.

The girl's tone of questioning was very natural and did not make Matsueda Jun feel uncomfortable at all, although he himself did not mind his background.

"I grew up in an orphanage, what's wrong?"

Kurusu Yoshi looked around him, studying his face. "I'm just curious what kind of parents would give birth to such a perfect child and then abandon him."

"If it weren't for me, your words would be like rubbing salt into someone else's wounds." Matsueda Jun rolled his eyes at her.

"I'm only saying this because it's you." The girl grinned. "Hey Songzhi, can I go into your welfare home? It would be boring to go back to the apartment early."

"If you want to come, tell me a day in advance." Matsueda Jun pushed her out of the bedroom. "Go take a shower quickly. You smell like alcohol."

Tonight is a dreamless night, no bedtime fairy tale and no insomniac girl.

At nine o'clock in the morning, Matsueda Jun pushed his suitcase out of the door of 507, and Kurusu Yoshi followed him yawning. The girl shivered in the cold wind as she walked outside.

"It's so cold!"

"I told you to wear more clothes. The lowest temperature today is zero degrees." Jun Matsueda frowned and looked back at her.

"It's okay, I'm just taking you to the bus stop anyway."

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