In the third year of high school, I exchanged bodies with Yukinoshita

She remembered the game called "Blue" that Zuo Yu asked her to play yesterday. She seemed to have stopped after only playing the first level.

Should I take advantage of today to complete it... It would be a good opportunity to compare the number of deaths between me and Zuo Yu.

With this thought in mind, Yukinoshita Yukino opened Zuo Yu's computer, clicked on the game Zuo Yu asked her to play yesterday, and continued with the saved game she had not completed yesterday.

Yesterday, Yukinoshita Yukino finished the first level of the game, which means she just came out of the city. Now it is night in the game, and the heroine (Madline) has fallen asleep by the campfire.

Madline woke up from his dream and set out on the mountain climbing journey again.

Yukinoshita Yukino controlled Madline to walk to a dead end and watched the woman looking at another side of herself in the mirror, and then the dark side of her broke the mirror.

Then Yukinoshita Yukino manipulated the heroine to pursue her dark side. After talking with that dark side, she learned that her name was Badline.

Then the chase scene began. At this time, Yukinoshita Yukino, who was controlling Madline who was being chased by Badline, realized that Zuo Yu had other intentions in choosing this game for her to play.

Are you being chased by your dark self?

After watching the Badline split into three and five chase scenes, Yukinoshita Yukino got rid of her and walked to a telephone booth. It turned out that the heroine wanted to climb the mountain to change her mood because she was dumped. Yukinoshita Yukino watched the heroine being swallowed by the shadow transformed from the telephone booth.

Afterwards, seeing the heroine suddenly wake up, Yukinoshita Yukino realized that the chase just now was just a dream of the heroine.

The heroine did not split into two personalities.

In this game, Yukinoshita Yukino, who entered a dream and recalled bad memories, awakened her memories from some time ago. It seemed that this situation also occurred when she exchanged bodies with Zuo Yu for the second time.

The two of them understood each other's deep inner shadows.

His own story was about being bullied as a child due to the malice of others, and Zuo Yu's story was about the death of his parents.

This game doesn't seem that simple.

Yukinoshita Yukino watched the people in the game enter a hotel full of black coal briquettes, and she perked up. Her attitude towards this game had begun to change, from just wanting to play to kill time to wanting to understand why Zuo Yu asked her to play this game.

Zuo Yu must have chosen this game for some purpose. With this thought in mind, Yukinoshita Yukino started the third level of the game.

The third level of the game takes place in a run-down-looking hotel filled with black and red coal-like objects, which makes people feel very uncomfortable.

The innkeeper wanted the heroine to stay in his run-down hotel, and the heroine followed him in. She watched the innkeeper float away, while she had to manipulate people to jump over these black coal balls one by one to catch up with the innkeeper. Yukinoshita Yukino really wanted to complain, "Why can you just go straight past?"

Then the owner of this hotel actually lost his own hotel key? Yukinoshita Yukino manipulated Madline to help the owner of this hotel clean the hotel and tidy up the space, and then find the key.

Halfway through the walk, Yukinoshita Yukino saw that the store manager's malice had turned into a black coal ball.

So this is how black coal balls come from.

She sighed about the origin of the black coal balls, and then realized that she was also familiar with this plot. It seemed that Kujikawa Hikaru was also like this at that time. The malice caused by jealousy had a great impact on his life.

Seeing that every time Madline walked a certain distance, that distance would become impossible to walk forward again, Yukinoshita Yukino felt that this was just like the malice she had received in the past, no matter what she did, there would always be people blaming her behind her back.

That's why I chose to go abroad.

Yukinoshita Yukino watched as the store manager was stimulated by Badline and turned into a monster, with a big mouth that seemed able to eat Madline. She managed to get through this level.

By the time we entered the fourth chapter, Yukinoshita Yukino had completely entered Madline's perspective.

Looking at the people in the game drifting in the strong wind and the clouds changing colors in the sky, Yukinoshita Yukino felt that this was probably the state of mind she felt when she was bullied.

There were rumors everywhere trying to make me compromise and change schools, but I still spent those dark years in elementary school.

At that time, no one talked to her, and she could only watch the clouds in the sky and spend her lonely elementary school life.

Yukinoshita Yukino, who was still an elementary school student at the time, faced rejection from the entire class. She was dissatisfied with her thin figure, so after school, she began to learn Aikido.

Then came the fifth level. Just before the fifth level, when Madline was riding a cable car with another boy who was climbing the mountain together, the dark side of her heart broke out. She started to lose her temper and wanted to destroy the cable car.

Seeing the people in the game using deep breathing and focusing on the feathers to get rid of the control of their inner darkness, Yukinoshita Yukino was worried for her. When she saw Madline successfully controlling her inner darkness, Yukinoshita Yukino was also happy for her.

The temple in the fifth level is very scary. There is no light around and the background music is very depressing.

This reminded Yukinoshita Yukino of the time when she was studying abroad. It was the same thing. People around her were looking at her with strange eyes, and she couldn't see any light at all.

Fortunately, my sister was with me during that time, otherwise I really wouldn’t have been able to bear it...

Looking at the scene of Madline dragging the boy away, Yukinoshita Yukino remembered that if she put herself in Madline's shoes, then the boy represented Zuo Yu.

But why did Zuo Yu feel like he was in a sealed state? Didn't he say he had already come out?

Or is he just pretending to be strong?

Yukinoshita Yukino was a little confused.

As Madline successfully escaped from the temple, she also talked with the boy (theo) about the problems they had on both sides.

While the two of them were having a heart-to-heart talk, Yukinoshita Yukino recalled her conversation with Zuo Yu. Since that time when they looked at each other's memories, their relationship had made a breakthrough.

Just like the two of them, watching Madline flying in the air, Yukinoshita Yukino felt that this was probably a hint that her living environment has been getting better since the two of them exchanged memories.

She watched Madline in the picture cutting off her dark side, just like watching herself cutting off her elementary school self.

Yes, we have all made changes and are no longer the weak selves we used to be.

Then when she saw the madline in the picture being knocked into the water by the badline from the top, Yukinoshita Yukino stopped operating her hand.

It seemed that she had to face something deep in her heart here.

After Yukinoshita Yukino swapped bodies with Zuo Yu, her surroundings changed significantly. The reconciliation with her sister, the formation of the Service Club, the resolution of the car accident, and the fact that she had someone to speak up for in the class were all orchestrated by Zuo Yu, and she only needed to follow his plan to change her circumstances.

However, while enjoying the changes in her surroundings caused by Zuo Yu, she has been avoiding one thing: if one day Zuo Yu no longer exchanges bodies with her, will everything around her disappear with Zuo Yu's disappearance?

Watching Madline climb out of the water, he said, "I'm going to... go home and live my sad life, and be miserable forever."

Yukinoshita Yukino also empathized with her. If the body swap was over, when she faced the problem again, would she be able to give answers that echoed their inner feelings like Zuo Yu?

If they leave because of my failure, will I continue to live a lonely campus life and be miserable forever?

Chapter 133 Reach for the Summit

Yukinoshita Yukino suddenly felt that everything about her was fake. Her new friends were made by Zuo Yu, and the service club she was in was also run by Zuo Yu. It was Zuo Yu's idea that she could reconcile with her sister.

If all this would disappear with Zuo Yu's disappearance, then he would have to go back to his previous life.

Going to school alone, eating alone, living alone...

Although Yukinoshita Yukino has become accustomed to living alone, there is a voice deep in her heart telling her... she no longer wants to live that kind of life. She wants to maintain these things and prove that she is no worse than Zuo Yu. What's more, she thinks... everything she has now is proof that Zuo Yu has been here.

If the body exchange between the two really ends here, then Zuo Yu, who does not belong to this world, can only leave behind the changes in himself.

However, the game that Zuo Yu recommended to her was denying this change... Yukinoshita Yukino thought that she had drawn a clear line with the past and was no longer the weak self she was in elementary school.

But the voice in her heart kept saying, "You are just like this. You haven't changed at all. Your change is just following the path Zuo Yu has laid out for you. You are still the weak self."

Yukinoshita Yukino listened to her inner thoughts. Yes, she has always been a weak person, someone who makes choices that appear to be strong, but in fact those choices are just avoiding the essence of the problem.

When I was bullied, I had many choices, such as changing schools, but I chose to continue to complete the entire primary school curriculum in that primary school in order to avoid the issue of whether I was really a member of the privileged class.

When I was in junior high school, I didn't have the option of studying abroad, but I chose the lonely road of going abroad alone. I was speechless facing my parents who had high expectations of me. They believed that I could change my elementary school situation, but I had achieved nothing...

It seems difficult to study abroad alone, but for Yukinoshita Yukino, escaping from the depressing atmosphere at home and going to a place where no one knows her is a pleasure.

She always makes choices that seem difficult to outsiders, but in fact those choices are very much to her liking.

This was also the case when I moved out to live alone in high school. Even after studying abroad for three years, my situation didn't change after I returned home. I was still lonely...

So she moved out alone on the pretext of the car accident, and after a semester, she started exchanging bodies with Zuo Yu during the summer vacation.

At this moment, the life she had been avoiding was suddenly changed by an intruder.

Zuo Yu helped her sort out her sister's inner thoughts, which she was afraid to face.

I thought that the car accident would once again bring me into the crusade against the privileged class, but Zuo Yu also helped me prove that those things were just my imagination.

So, under Zuo Yu's suggestion, he and Hanyu Mie in the class became a master and apprentice relationship...

Now, I have Kurohime Yuto by my side on the way to and from school, Hanyu Mie chats with me in the classroom about academic matters, and I also have a club at school...

Zuo Yu always helps me plan everything, and then asks me to solve the problem according to his method.

But what if all this disappeared with Zuo Yu's disappearance...

Yukinoshita Yukino looked at the madline on the screen, which was beaten to the bottom by the crazy badline, and fell into deep thought.

Will I be reduced to my original form in the same way? Superficial changes are ultimately false; only changes from the heart can truly change...

Maybe the answer is just ahead. Yukinoshita Yukino thought of what Zuo Yu always did. He always arranged everything he should do first, and then he could solve the problem by just doing it.

Yukinoshita Yukino continued to control the character in the game and began to suffer.

When seeing the Madline on the screen sprinting towards the Badline, Yukinoshita Yukino understood Zuo Yu's intention.

Face the dark side deep in your heart, admit your imperfections, and accept yourself.

I'm a passive person, and it seems like the club activities I've established have always been arranged by others. Some of them were prepared by Zuo Yu, while others came to me for help.

I never took the initiative to help him, and always said that I would only lend a helping hand if he came to me for help.

No, I have already changed.

Yukinoshita Yukino remembered something, something she had almost forgotten. She successfully helped Kurohime Yuto free herself from the whirlpool of the class party. She did this alone and on her own initiative.

It was not done passively at the request of others. Although I only remembered this person after the student union president reminded me, it was also my own initiative to offer help and my own choice.

I have changed without realizing it. Although I am still a little afraid of losing, I will no longer avoid the problem.

People change the environment, and the environment changes people.

She had already changed a long time ago. Yukinoshita Yukino watched Madline successfully merge into one with Badline. It seemed that she had faced her own heart and accepted the other side of her heart...the dark side.

Accompanied by the passionate tones of Reach for the Summit, Yukinoshita Yukino controlled Madline and Badline to climb Mount Celeste together. Watching Madline and Badline enjoying the scenery together, Yukinoshita felt a touch of emotion in her heart that she had not felt for a long time.

She felt that she had accepted another side of herself, or in a word, it was complete.

Looking at the game ending screen, Yukinoshita Yukino complained.

"Why are there only so few strawberries? I clearly picked up quite a few on the way, so why are there only a few on this strawberry pie... Did I miss a lot of them?"

Yukinoshita Yukino looked at her death count which had unknowingly reached 2359. Did she die so many times when she was playing?

Later in the game, Yukinoshita Yukino no longer cared about her death count. She was completely immersed in the game and died so many times without realizing it.

But there were still a lot of gains. Yukinoshita Yukino put down the controller. Her hands were a little sore from playing games for a long time, so she massaged Zuo Yu's fingers.

This was a good opportunity for her to take a look at Zuo Yu's hands. She had to admit that Zuo Yu's hands were indeed very beautiful, or rather, every part of Zuo Yu's body was very beautiful.

Yukinoshita Yukino, who had already taken baths with Zuo Yu's body several times, knew every part of Zuo Yu's body very well.

Although I didn't stand in front of a mirror to admire it carefully, just the way I saw it with my eyes and touched it with my hands was amazing.

This guy sits at his desk all day long and has such a body.

Yukinoshita Yukino still can't figure this out.

She leaned over the computer screen again, ready to go look for the strawberries she'd missed during her explorations. Morgana bit her clothes, and Yukinoshita checked her phone.

It seems like it's time to go back to school.

She still didn't understand why Zuo Yu had to go back to school at night. Aren't holidays usually a whole day?

Can the days when people are required to return to school at night be counted as one day off?

Yukinoshita Yukino sighed. It seemed that her idea of ​​collecting all the strawberries would have to wait until she got home from school in the evening.

She touched Zuo Yu's belly, and the lines of his abdominal muscles clearly showed that he was feeling hungry.

Ever since she entered the game, she started to forget about time and also forgot about eating, so she had only eaten one meal from morning till now, which was neither too early nor too late.

It was almost time to go back to school and there was no time to cook. Yukinoshita Yukino looked at the leftovers in the kitchen. Although there were still some, there was no time. Finally, she remembered what Zuo Yu said yesterday and picked up the mooncakes left over from yesterday.

There was an indescribable feeling in the class that had just returned from vacation. Yukinoshita Yukino sat in Zuo Yu's seat and watched the students in the class doing their homework or chatting, but no one was reading seriously.

Yukinoshita Yukino originally didn't understand them, but now she understands them a little.

Moreover, it seemed that something was going on in the entire senior high school building and only Zuo Yu's class chose to return to school at this time. They really had a hard time.

The head teacher just showed up in class and said, "There's an exam tomorrow, so pay attention to your review. If you haven't finished your holiday homework, hurry up and do it now." After saying this, he disappeared.