How can my simulation be a real love?

"We are the same."

These cryptic words gradually reassured Mitsuka, but thinking that her 'relationships' hadn't made any progress yet, she nodded slightly in frustration.

Am I really the same as Mutsumi Wakaba now?

Fortunately, Miss Wood, as the 'fiancée,' did not have much of a deterrent effect. The two 'companions' maintained a mutually supportive relationship from beginning to end. They both had the same feelings and goals for Kazami Mei, and also had plans and ideas to bring Shoko into the picture.

As if worried that Misaka Chuka might still feel inferior, Ruo Yemu continued speaking—

"I will help Chuhua too."

"Thanks……"

A smile gradually appeared on Misaka Chuka's face, and her unease subsided.

Sitting next to Ruoye Mutsu, she subconsciously glanced towards the kitchen. Because of the move, this villa was much larger than her previous 'single' apartment, so even if the two of them were talking in the living room, the kitchen would no longer be able to hear them.

Just to be on the safe side, Chu Hua lowered her voice and whispered—

"Xiao Mu, about Miss Nagasaki."

Ever since meeting Nagasaki Motoyo and 'testing' her hidden lies, Mikami Hatsuka has always wanted to find time to talk to Wakaba Mutsumi alone.

There will always be some minor errors when sending messages on Line, and the problems with Nagasaki Motoyo, this "girlfriend," are also troublesome. Her behind-the-scenes actions and hidden thoughts undoubtedly put everyone on the opposite side. Mikami Hatsuka believes that this matter must be dealt with as soon as possible.

But after all, the other party was a girl who liked Ming, so she, as an 'outsider,' had no right to say anything.

"Ok, I know."

Ruoye Mu nodded lightly.

"Su Shi, you came to see me yesterday."

"She said she wanted to talk to me alone, so I'm planning to meet her tomorrow."

92

Chapter Ninety-Two: A Glimmer of Hope

[Nagasaki Motoyo: Thank you, Mutsumi, for agreeing to meet. How about 1 PM at MAMECOCORO Cafe?]

【Wakaba Mutsumi: Okay】

The glowing phone screen gradually went out.

"I'm stupid, really."

The girl, lying on the bed, was pale and exhausted, and a sudden, overwhelming sadness welled up in her nose.

Her once long, flowing brown hair, reaching her waist like a waterfall, was now draped over the pillow. A smile, almost self-deprecating, appeared on her mature and beautiful face, but this smile lacked its usual gentleness and sweetness; it was merely a smile of deep sorrow and desolation.

It was as if she would shatter into pieces like a broken mirror in the next second.

Do you regret it now?

What good is it for her to apologize and regret it now?

She and the man she liked had feelings for each other. Even if she couldn't become the 'only one' in his heart, she was content as long as she could be with her beloved husband. However, she chose to use the other people around her, just to satisfy her own selfish desires.

Opening Kazami Naruto's Line profile, the messages on it were still from two days ago.

Today alone, Nagasaki Motoyo has checked his Line interface for the seventy-second time, but Kazami Mei hasn't sent any messages since 'that time'.

"Woo..."

She let out a sad sob, unable to control herself, and kept wiping the tears welling up in her eyes.

As her beautiful face turned into a pitiful little kitten from crying, she gradually suppressed her intense regret and self-blame. With a slightly hoarse voice, she slowly got up and walked out of the room, preparing to tidy up her disheveled appearance for tomorrow's 'meeting'.

But just as she stepped out of the room, the front door clicked open as it unlocked.

"Little Su-se~ Mommy's back!"

"I didn't work overtime today, so I sneaked home to sleep! How about that? Pretty surprising, right? Did you miss it...?"

When Mrs. Nagasaki returned home, she immediately saw her daughter standing in the living room in a daze. Even from several meters away, she could see that her daughter had red and swollen eyes and tear-streaked face. After realizing what was happening, Mrs. Nagasaki frowned seriously and then walked quickly towards Su Shi.

But when she reached her daughter, who was even more 'mature' than herself, she displayed a gentleness completely different from her usual demeanor—

"Su Shi, what happened?"

"Did someone bully you?"

Somewhat stunned, Nagasaki Motoyo quickly wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes. Afraid of being misunderstood, she spoke in a hoarse voice, "No... no one bullied me. It's just that I did a lot of wrong things to the person I like, and now he hates me."

"...The person you like?"

Mrs. Nagasaki paused for two seconds, then suddenly remembered a handsome black-haired boy.

"Is it Mingjun? Su Shi, what happened between you and him?"

"..."

Nagasaki Motoyo shook her head; she had no mood to explain to her mother right now.

Even though she was unwilling to say anything, Mrs. Nagasaki, as her mother, could roughly guess what her daughter was thinking. Thinking that her daughter had finally reached the age where she was extremely sensitive to emotions, she couldn't help but feel worried for her while sighing.

She knew Kazami Naruto very well; she knew his excellence and character after just one meeting.

I really didn't expect my daughter to make that gentle boy angry. I have no idea what she did.

Feeling a bit of a headache, Mrs. Nagasaki sighed inwardly, but on the surface she still tried to keep her tone gentle as she spoke: "Regardless of whether Naru-kun has started to hate you, Su-se, I don't think things are absolute."

“If Suse sincerely apologizes to him, things will definitely change.”

Nagasaki Motoyo fell silent, her eyes dim. She wanted to respond but couldn't say anything.

Because she doesn't dare to go to Ming anymore.

Just thinking about how Kazami Mei is now completely disappointed in her and no longer trusts her 'deception' makes Nagasaki Motoyo tremble with fear and lose her composure. In this state, even if they meet, all she can do is cry and apologize.

But Motoyo Nagasaki also knew that this apology was completely meaningless.

Shoko Toyokawa was right; crying solves absolutely nothing.

Seeing her daughter still looking heartbroken, Mrs. Nagasaki, knowing her daughter's personality, was at a loss for what to do. After all, young people's emotional problems are usually not for adults to interfere with; only they themselves can take the initiative to solve problems and clear up misunderstandings.

"Su Shi, listen carefully—"

"If you truly like someone from the bottom of your heart, then you should never do anything that you will regret. If you do nothing... then nothing will change."

Nagasaki Motoyo's sorrowful expression shifted slightly, and all the words she wanted to say were reduced to a gentle nod.

She didn't want to give up, so she had to do something.

Tomorrow is the day I've arranged to meet and talk with Wakaba Mutsu.

……

"Please enjoy your Darjeeling tea and mango juice."

A cup of light and refreshing black tea was served by the coffee shop waiter, its delicate steam rising slowly in layers of mist.

The soothing music playing in the café was faintly audible, but Nagasaki Motoyo, sitting by the window, felt no relief whatsoever.

She gently furrowed her brows, her hands pressed stiffly on her thighs, her soft, slightly wavy brown hair sliding gently down the girl's delicate neck.

"..."

The girl sitting opposite was like a quietly blooming jasmine flower, a legendary forest fairy. Her exquisite and perfect face, like a doll sculpture, showed no emotion whatsoever. Facing the nervous and uneasy Nagasaki Motoyo, she made no move, but simply maintained a silent and calm expression.

The girl's silent golden eyes, seemingly able to see through all things in the world, simply gazed calmly ahead.

"Xiao Mu, thank you so much for agreeing to meet with me today."

"..."

Ruo Yemu merely nodded slightly, without revealing the slightest hint of joy or anger to her.

That usually silent and beautiful face now had the effect of a 'poker face', as if she wouldn't be surprised no matter what Nagasaki Motoyo said. This made the already restless Ms. Motoyo's eyes dim, and she didn't bother to play with her slightly curly long hair while chatting.

In fact, even if Wakaba Mutsu frowned and showed her anger or annoyance right now, it would make Nagasaki Motoyo feel much better at this moment. But what she feared most was that the other party would not say anything.

Nagasaki Motoyo pursed her lips, her expression somber as she lowered her head towards her.

"...I'm sorry, I'm here to apologize for what happened last time."

"Why should you apologize to me?"

Ruo Yemu spoke slowly and deliberately, uttering her first words of the day in the most calm tone.

Upon hearing this, Nagasaki Motoyo managed a bitter smile. In a slightly hoarse voice, she replied, "Mutsu, you're right... I know I should apologize to Ming myself and tell him everything I've done up to this point, without missing a single word."

【cheat】

After being severely reprimanded by Toyokawa Shoko, Nagasaki Motoyo gradually emerged from her self-destructive state.

She finally began to learn to see her mistakes from another person's perspective, but when she looked at her actions from Kazami Mei's point of view, her already sad and regretful emotions intensified.

Nagasaki Motoyo cannot accept the word 'deception'; she cannot accept that Naruto would deceive and hide things from her.

But what about yourself?

What did she do next?

The 'deception' and 'concealment' that Nagasaki Motoyo found most unacceptable were now being used on Kazami Mei, the person she loved most, without her even realizing it. After putting herself in his shoes, she felt utterly miserable and even contemplated suicide.

"Xiao Mu, I'm sorry."

Nagasaki Motoyo's head drooped in despair. Her current disheveled and pitiful state was like that of a kitten abandoned by its owner, left to survive alone in this harsh environment of wind and rain, huddled in her tattered cardboard box with no one to rely on.

"I've been using you as a 'friend' all along to manipulate and exploit you. Xiao Mu, you've been earnestly advising me time and time again, but in the end, I ignored all your advice because of my excessive selfishness. Whether it's exploiting you or deceiving Ming, it's all my fault..."

Ruoye Mu was silent.

She seemed to have underestimated the importance of Nagasaki Motoyo as her 'spiritual pillar', and also underestimated how deep Nagasaki Motoyo's feelings and love for him were, to the point that she could reveal all the words she had kept hidden in her heart.

Now that Su Shi has become like this, she is somewhat at a loss as to how to deal with it.

Nagasaki Motoyo failed to notice the strange glint in Wakaba Mutsumi's eyes; she simply lowered her head and spoke with a self-deprecating tone—

"I don't ask Xiaomu to forgive me in the end, I just want to make up for the mistakes I made as much as possible."

Recalling that Kazami Mei hadn't come to see her these past two days, Nagasaki Motoyo naturally understood that he was truly 'angry' because of this. Even her husband, who was so gentle and doting on her in her memory, was now angry because of her selfishness.

Just thinking about this made her feel incredibly guilty and pained.

Motoyo Nagasaki was deeply conflicted and torn.

Every moment, every second, she hoped that Kazami would send her a live message, even if it was just an ordinary emoji; she was also afraid that Kazami would message her first, because a sudden message from him might mean that he wanted to break off contact with her.

She was afraid of being alone, afraid of being lonely, afraid of not being able to stand by his side.

What I fear most is being disliked by him.

"..."

If Ye Mu listened quietly to the other party's heartfelt confession, acting as a silent puppet listener.

She had been friends with Nagasaki Motoyo since the CRYCHIC era, so seeing her in such a disheveled and sad state naturally made her feel uneasy, not to mention that she was someone who was prone to self-blame.

But she also knew that she had no way, nor the right, to comfort the other person right now.

Nagasaki Motoyo's biggest problem isn't that she used herself to get close to Naruto and wanted to 'monopolize' his feelings. It's reasonable to want to 'monopolize' someone you like; everyone who's now in a relationship with Naruto has this feeling to some extent.

However, Nagasaki Motoyo, wanting to 'possess' him, deceived Naruto from the very beginning.

"Su Shi, what are you planning to do next?"

With a thousand thoughts swirling in his mind, Wakaba Mutsu remained silent for a long time before suddenly speaking before the air became completely heavy.

If Ye Mu's sudden question startled Nagasaki Motoyo slightly, she gently pursed her slightly chapped lips, her haggard and bloodless face showing a hint of weariness, yet she still managed to force a smile, speaking in a soft but self-reproachful tone—

"I want to apologize to you, Xiaomu, first, and then apologize to Aine and the others."

"The people you should apologize to now are not us."

"I know! I know..."

As her emotions grew increasingly agitated, Nagasaki Motoyo forcefully pinched the hem of her skirt, causing her Tsukimori school uniform to become somewhat wrinkled. Intense unease and fear were constantly eroding every bit of courage within her.

"...But I still don't dare to see Ming."

She knew she had to apologize, regardless of whether she could win him back or whether Ming was willing to forgive her again; she had to take responsibility for what she had done.

However, Nagasaki Motoyo doesn't dare to go to him anymore. In her eyes, Naruto is probably completely disappointed in her now. Only two or three days have passed, and she has already run back to apologize to him without hesitation. How would Naruto view her behavior from his perspective?