Want to be human, but cube-like

One's own joys and sorrows, the things that cause one pain and pleasure, are merely props for the creator to present on the screen for others to watch.

Like a puppet tightly bound by threads, it doesn't even know whether its current behavior is pre-programmed.

She couldn't even be sure that she wouldn't break down because of it.

With a heavy heart, Xiangzi walked out of the bedroom. She had just gone downstairs to find Alex on the Sky Island when she saw Alex carrying the plate she had just taken down, walking out of the portal.

"Alex, let me speak first..."

Swallowing hard, Xiangzi carefully considered his words in his mind.

Before she could speak, Alex's phone suddenly vibrated in her pocket.

The two of them were startled at the same time.

Alex only has a few friends on Line, and the only ones who actually contact her are her friend Aine...

Thinking this through, Alex quickly took out her phone and, sure enough, saw that Ai Yin, who hadn't replied to them for a long time, had finally sent a message.

"Ellie... I have something very important to tell you. Tomorrow morning, come to the park where we officially became a couple."

But the content above stunned Alex.

I won't stay there for long.

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P.S. I posted a long essay and got blocked and blacklisted. Xiao Xiang, you've finally met your match!

I've only ever seen protagonists worry about how to explain to two-dimensional characters that they're fictional; I've never seen a two-dimensional character worry about how to tell the protagonist the same thing. It feels a bit strange.

The next chapter won't be a showdown, so I'm just giving you a heads-up to avoid you accusing me of building suspense.

It'll be soon, not too long, I think. Let me take a look at the outline.

Volume 1: Chapter 194 I Don't Want to Be Your Mother!

Alex certainly remembered.

She remembered everything that happened the night she and Aine became a couple.

If limited

If the area is within the park, then that's probably the only place.

The quiet little park where she and Aine first kissed.

In the early morning hours, there isn't a single person to be seen here.

Just like that night when she brought the unconscious Aine here, the silence was suffocating.

Although spring is approaching, the weather is still a bit chilly, especially in the early morning, which is the coldest time of day.

Alex tugged at her coat slightly and sat down on the bench where she and Aine had shared many wonderful memories.

In fact, she had already arrived last night.

Although Aine had given a specific time, Alex, worried about missing it, didn't dare to go to sleep and skip the night. However, she was too anxious to stay at home, so she simply came here to wait.

Alex sat there blankly all night, still looking somewhat dazed.

She pursed her lips, recalling everything Xiangzi had said to her last night.

Even now, Alex still can't quite believe that the mother she's been longing to see is actually Aine, who has been by her side all this time.

They had the exact same name, highly similar voices, and even that inexplicable sense of closeness that led to their current relationship.

In fact, Aine has never hidden anything...

It's just that Alex herself didn't recognize herself.

Countless times, the sense of similarity between Aine and her mother that she felt from Aine was denied by herself. Even if she said it aloud, Aine would casually ignore it.

So, Aine... no, Mom, does she really not recognize herself at all?

Alex didn't understand what kind of game or what kind of player it was.

She only remembered the sentence Xiangzi had said.

Perhaps in Aine's eyes, who is a gamer, the character Alex never had any self-awareness from beginning to end.

Her mother may never have known of her existence.

A feeling of fear welled up inside Alex. She couldn't imagine what it would be like if her very existence was denied by her most important mother.

So what should she do?

Aiyin arranged to meet her here early this morning.

And for what?

The unease that was growing in her heart kept affecting her thoughts, making Alex's thinking somewhat stiff.

She was looking forward to Aine's arrival, but at the same time, she was also afraid of what Aine might say to her next.

Xiangzi once said that as long as things are explained clearly, the problem might be solved.

But, is it really possible?

Just a few days ago, Aine was still disgusted by the sense of closeness that Alex had described, a feeling similar to that of a mother.

Can Aine really accept herself?

Confusion and helplessness, like a persistent ailment, climbed up Alex's back and wrapped around her neck, making it hard for her to breathe.

Until a familiar footstep approached and reached my ears.

As if by reflex, Alex stood up nervously.

She turned her head and looked up, and a small girl in light pink came into view.

Today, upon seeing Aine again, Alex no longer knows how to view her.

Are they friends? Lovers? Or family?

"Ai..."

When the two girls were only a few meters apart, Aine stopped in her tracks.

"Ellie..."

She parted her lips slightly, but after hesitating for a long time, she couldn't bring herself to say that affectionate nickname.

“…Aine.”

Even though this was the same name that Lena used to call her, it still felt more intimate than Xiangzi's usual full name, but for some reason, Alex felt a sharp pain in her heart.

What should she call the other person now? Aine? Or the one the other person has never acknowledged, and who even got angry about not long ago, "Mom"?

"We should break up."

Unaware of the many thoughts Alex was having at that moment, Aine had already carefully considered what she should say before arriving.

Her purpose was very clear.

"separate?"

Alex, who was hesitating about how to explain this to Aine, was taken aback when she heard these words.

She didn't understand why she was suddenly being told this.

"From today onwards, we are no longer lovers."

Suppressing her grief, Aine lowered her head, turned her eyes to the side to hide the sorrow in her pupils, and spoke calmly.

"I'm going to London, before noon today."

Her pale lips trembled slightly, but Ai Yin still tried her best to keep her voice calm as she spoke softly.

"As I mentioned before... about my plans to study in the UK..."

She forced herself into an awkward smile.

"Anyway, Ellie... you never felt like you were dating me from beginning to end, right? This kind of thing doesn't matter to you, does it?"

She simply considered herself her mother...

No matter what, Aine would find it difficult to say such a thing.

She was afraid that the tears in her eyes would fall.

In that case, it would be impossible to stop.

"No...that's not it...! I...I consider Aine my mother because..."

Alex was caught off guard as she realized that Aine was leaving Tokyo today, and that she had so little time left.

As long as things are explained clearly...! Xiangzi said... as long as you tell Aine everything, the problem can be solved!

As if grasping at a straw, she desperately tried to pour out all the words that had piled up in her mind and she couldn't make sense of them.

"But I don't want to be seen that way by you, Ellie!"

But Aine abruptly interrupted Alex's words.

"……Eh?"

Alex froze, her words pausing.

"But...but Aine, you're my mother...! That...that game...! Yes! We used to..."

Alex, unsure of how to express herself, uttered incoherent sentences. She struggled to articulate her past experiences of being manipulated and led on adventures by the other party.

"enough!"

But Aine didn't want to listen anymore.

"I am not your mother!"

She shouted, interrupting Alex again.

"I don't want Ellie to treat me like her own mother!"

Tears finally seeped from Aine's eyes, which were gradually turning light red, and streamed down her fair cheeks.

"I don't want to be your mother!"

Aine's words struck Alex like a thunderbolt, leaving her completely stunned.

"I hate this twisted relationship!"

Biting her lip, with her hands clenched into fists, Aine lowered her head and whispered sobs.

"What I want... is not this kind of thing...!"

Volume 1: Chapter 195 Mom, I Don't Want Her Anymore

Whether one sees her as a substitute for their mother, or seeks in her a way to replace their mother...

feel.

For Aine, all of these things meant only one thing.

Alex, from the very beginning, had no romantic feelings for her whatsoever.

That was all just Ai-yin's wishful thinking.

Everything else was no longer important to Aine.

The truth is, Alex doesn't like her.

This is the real reason why Aine shed tears.

What is liking, what is special, what is a lifetime...

That's all false.

All along, she was the only one who believed that she and Alex were in love.

He secretly rejoiced over it.

Lost in his own fantasies about the future.