Want to be human, but cube-like

Alex clapped her hands and laughed.

"Xiangzi, what do you want to tell me?"

"Well……"

Xiangzi, still pondering how to bring it up, hesitated for a moment.

"Um... Alex, are you dating... Aine-san right now?"

She carefully considered her words and asked in a low voice.

"...Dating?"

But this unfamiliar word made Alex tilt her head.

"really……!"

Seeing her bewildered look, Xiangzi immediately wore an expression that said, "I knew it."

"It's Chihaya Aine. Lately, she's been tricking you into doing... doing... cough cough, doing very intimate things with her, right?!"

She was very angry

She directly stated Aine's full name, but when it came to specific matters, the still very innocent Xiangzi couldn't bring herself to say the word. She could only blush and speak indirectly.

"To coax...deceive?"

But Alex had absolutely no idea why Shoko would react this way.

"Aine... she and I are now in a romantic relationship."

So she simply brought it up directly.

Anyway, Ai-yin mentioned it to her today, so if Xiangzi asks, just tell her directly.

"Eh?"

Xiangzi, who was still fuming to himself, suddenly froze.

"I originally wanted to tell Xiangzi half a month ago, but Aiyin said she wanted to keep it a secret for a while."

Alex continued speaking.

"But today Aine suddenly said that if Xiangzi asks, she'll just tell you directly, so there's probably no need to keep it a secret anymore?"

Not quite understanding why it needed to be kept secret one moment and not the next, Alex's expression showed a hint of confusion.

"No, no... those aren't the point."

Although he was momentarily stunned by Alex's blunt words, Xiangzi quickly recovered.

The key question is whether Alex became Aine's lover because of her own feelings for her, or whether she was simply persuaded by Aine to become her lover.

After all, even if Alex says that, it doesn't mean she truly understands what the meaning of a lover is, or how important that word really is.

"Alex, do you like Aine?"

So Xiangzi raised this question very seriously.

"Do you know that once you become lovers, you're meant to be together for life, forever?"

She had to figure out if Alex really had those special feelings for Aine.

"To become lovers means to become the most important partner in each other's lives."

As he spoke softly, Xiangzi began to recall his parents and the loving moments they shared.

"To stay together forever, until death do us part."

Xiangzi pursed his lips, his voice low and somber.

"I... don't quite understand."

Alex shook her head in confusion after hearing Xiangzi's words.

"However, I do like Aine."

But she still answered Xiangzi's first question very confidently.

“I’m not talking about the kind of liking that comes from friendship, Alex.”

Frowning, Xiangzi thought Alex hadn't understood clearly enough.

"I don't know if it's just friendship or not... but, Xiangzi, I feel that my feelings for Aine are very special..."

Alex remained looking down, still confused, but then she looked up and spoke earnestly to Xiangzi.

"It's different from you and Lenai; this feeling of liking is very strong..."

Her words made Xiangzi gasp for breath.

"It's a kind of liking that I can't even find the reason for."

Hearing Alex's words, Xiangzi felt an overwhelming pang of sadness.

It gave her an urge to escape.

…………

PS: Xiao Xiang has become a loser.

Fast forward to the little tune where you forget everything

Volume 1: Chapter 176 It feels like Aine is like a mother?

Alex had previously been puzzled by this strange emotion, wondering what it was.

She asked Aine directly to her face, but the other party never gave her an answer.

Perhaps even Aine doesn't understand.

So, Alex later had the idea of ​​asking Xiangzi about it again.

If it were Xiangzi, she would be knowledgeable and have been helping herself to understand the world. Perhaps she would know why she has these feelings.

But before Alex could take any action, she unexpectedly kissed Aine under the cover of night.

After that, naturally, in a daze, she became lovers with Aine and was asked to keep the relationship a secret.

Naturally, she had no choice but to bury this question, along with the strange feeling that gradually arose in her relationship with Aine—seeing her as a mother—deep in her heart.

Now, because she was no longer required to keep secrets and was able to confide in Xiangzi, Alex finally had the opportunity to ask her questions.

"Is...is that so..."

With a helpless glint in his eyes, Xiangzi gave a perfunctory reply in a low voice.

Suddenly, she felt a pang of regret, regretting that she had brought up this topic with Alex.

Xiangzi subconsciously took a step back, then realized that she probably looked a little strange. In order to hide her odd behavior from Alex, she pretended that she wanted to find another place to talk and slowly strolled towards the warehouse exit.

Will Xiangzi find out?

Blinking, Alex naturally followed, closing the warehouse door as she spoke.

"What kind of feeling is this?"

Then, she took Xiangzi's small hand, which was hanging by his side, and asked with a gentle smile.

"I……!"

Startled by the sudden contact, Xiangzi stiffened for a moment. She lowered her head, bit her lip, and then shook her head as if nothing had happened.

"I don't really understand this either..."

The small hand, which instinctively wanted to pull back, felt the cool softness of Alex's fingertips. After a moment of slight struggle, it relaxed and let her hold it gently.

Xiangzi was caught in an unbearable state of torment.

Her face flushed slightly as she lingered on the warm, soft touch of his hand, yet she felt increasingly saddened by her current mood.

"When I was with Aine, I felt myself becoming strange..."

Alex, oblivious to Shoko's unusual behavior, continued to softly express the emotions she wanted to understand.

"It makes me feel very safe and relaxed. I don't have to think about anything or ponder anything. I just want to listen to Ai-yin's voice."

Her voice was very soft, so gentle that it almost sounded tender and affectionate.

“When Aine isn’t around, I often think of her, and time seems to drag on. I don’t know what to do, and I feel very uncomfortable.”

Although she was holding Xiangzi's hand and strolling with her on the tranquil sky island, Alex's thoughts and feelings were filled with the image of another girl.

"I feel a little lonely..."

Xiangzi listened to her story without saying a word, keeping his head down in silence, his expression unreadable.

"Sometimes, I would suddenly want to hug Aine, rub against her, and smell her scent. These actions make me feel safe and give me a strange sense of satisfaction."

Alex, meanwhile, was still trying to think and organize her thoughts, hoping to help Xiangzi better understand her feelings and what was going on, so that she could find the answers for her.

"So, I find this liking for Aine very special, very strange, and completely incomprehensible."

He cast a look of absolute trust at Xiangzi.

Light, Alex blinked her beautiful eyes innocently.

"Xiangzi, do you know what this feeling is?"

I sought an answer from her.

"..."

Xiangzi stopped walking.

She was still unwilling to shake off Alex's soft hand, but she kept her head down and remained silent for a long time.

It felt as if sulfuric acid had been poured into her heart; a strong burning and stinging sensation surged from her chest and abdomen all the way up to her throat, so intense that she couldn't speak.

Compared to the time before I met Alex, when I couldn't even get enough to eat and suffered from acid reflux at night, it was dozens or even hundreds of times worse.

How could she not know?

How could she not understand what this feeling was?

Mingming herself was constantly experiencing the bewilderment of being pushed along by this strange emotion like waves.

But Xiangzi couldn't bring himself to tell Alex what kind of emotion this was.

Because the feelings Alex had in her heart had nothing to do with her.

She wanted to run away, but her little hand, which was clasped with Alex's, seemed to be bound tightly to the spot by heavy chains, making her unable to move.

They didn't even dare to struggle.

Because Xiangzi was afraid that Alex would notice her unusual behavior and realize the feelings she dared not reveal.

That would leave Xiangzi unsure how to face Alex.

The more I thought about it, the more intense my jealousy rose from the depths of my heart.

She couldn't help but ask, "Why Chihaya Aine?"

She couldn't help but fantasize that the person who first met Alex was...

Taking a deep breath, Xiangzi slowly began to apply pressure to his fingertips.

She slowly pulled her hand away from Alex's.

"This is...the love between lovers..."

Suppressing the stinging pain in her heart, Xiangzi forced a smile. With eyes that looked like she was about to cry, she stared at the grass in front of her, avoiding Alex's gaze.

"I wish you happiness..."

He said in a soft voice.

"But lately, having spent so much time with Aine, I've started to understand my own feelings a little better... Hmm?"

However, Xiangzi didn't notice that, because he hadn't heard her reply for a long time, Alex started talking to herself again.

The two of them spoke at almost the same time.

"Xiangzi, what did you just say?"

"It's obvious that I didn't hear what Xiangzi was saying because I was also speaking at the same time," Alex asked in confusion.