I am practicing in a weird world

　Joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness, all kinds of emotions are surging in my heart like huge waves. Sometimes I have the urge to laugh out loud, sometimes I have the urge to cry, sometimes I have the urge to be sad, and sometimes I become furious.

　All kinds of emotions were as strong as wild beasts, running rampant in his mind. Xiao Yi suddenly felt that his rationality could not hold up. If he continued to stare at the moth, his rationality would become fragmented, and only the strong emotions in his heart would remain running wild.

　At this moment, he instantly thought of those crazy students. Those students were irrational and their behavior patterns were completely unreasonable.

　He immediately stepped back, away from the room where the moth was, and returned to the room where the long knife was.

　As he left the room where the moth was, the situation immediately improved, his emotions began to calm down, and his rationality began to rest and recover.

　Is this what Lin Lingniao meant by "the mind can't bear it"?

　Xiao Yi thought of what Lin Lingniao said: If you feel that your thinking cannot bear it, don't force it. It's not shameful to be a gigolo.

　Does this mean that my mind can't bear it and I'm not qualified to know the truth, so I can only be an ordinary person and live off others in peace?

　How can I accept such a thing? Besides, there is no one who will let me live off him.

　Xiao Yi held his head in his hands, looking frantic.

　"Zheng!"

　At this time, the sound of a knife rang out, attracting Xiao Yi's attention.

　That was the buzzing of the long sword in the room.

　I can't bear the power of the moth, I don't know if I can bear the power of the long sword, I don't know if I can bear the power of the long sword,

　I see the truth.

　Xiao Yi came to the long sword, sat cross-legged on the ground, and began to stare at the long sword in front of him.

　The long sword's light enveloped Xiao Yi, but Xiao Yi did not feel any discomfort. He felt at peace. He felt that he should sit in front of the long sword, as the sword was his destiny.

　Slowly, the knife in front of him changed, sometimes it was a long knife, sometimes it was a short knife, sometimes it was a spear, sometimes it was a sword, sometimes it was a gun...

　Then, slowly, one battle after another unfolded before Xiao Yi's eyes: duels between warriors, duels between gangs, duels between armies...

　The sound of a knife tearing through the air, the sound of a sword piercing a human body, the sound of a gun piercing a human body...

　The sounds of people roaring in anger, the sounds of people dying, the sounds of people begging for mercy...

　Various fighting expressions came into view, expressions of victory, expressions of defeat, expressions of killing, expressions of death, expressions of begging for mercy, expressions of madness, disdain, rage, begging, crying...

　What he heard seemed real, what he saw seemed real, what he smelled seemed real. Xiao Yi felt that he was not looking at a knife, but at countless illusions of killing.

　Slowly, Xiao Yi seemed to become a member of the illusion. Sometimes he fought with a long sword, sometimes with a dagger, sometimes with a battle axe, sometimes with a rope strangling the enemy, sometimes with firearms, sometimes with traps, and sometimes with a head-on attack...

　He was killing people, and he was also being killed. He died and was resurrected, and then he was alive and died again, in a cycle.

　Battle after battle, fighting after fighting, killing until he was numb and lost consciousness, just like a walking corpse.

　At the moment when Xiao Yi lost consciousness, he sensed the light in his body. The color of that light was neither dirty nor clean, and it was difficult to describe.

　Around this light, there are two rays of light, one white and one black. These two rays of light are like the yin and yang fish in Tai Chi, constantly rotating.

　As soon as the light appeared, Xiao Yi suddenly felt that the world had changed. He felt the energy, the power flowing from his body, and the energy flowing outside.

　Outside, there is an extremely huge energy source. This energy is extremely ominous, full of negative auras such as hostility, anger, hatred, killing, violence, destruction, etc. It is as if it is a collection of all the ominous things in the world.

　Suddenly, a voice exploded in the illusion: Why are you fighting?

　The sound was like steel, like bronze, like the roar of a cannon... It seemed like all sounds, and yet it seemed like no sound at all.

　Why do I fight?

　As soon as this question arose, all kinds of reasons suddenly burst out in my heart, just like weeds that instantly covered the ground.

　Because that bastard docked my salary and scolded me.

　My family has been destroyed, and I will not be able to rest in peace unless I kill his entire family.

　Those bastards killed my compatriots and burned my village. If they don't die, our village will perish. They must die.

　Defend the country and be ready to die.

　Aspirations hungry for the Hulu meat, and laughed and thirst for the blood of the Huns.

　……

　These are the reasons for the people in the illusion to fight. At this moment, all these reasons are growing in Xiao Yi's heart, just like weeds growing in his heart.

　Countless reasons bombarded his heart. At this moment, Xiao Yi had an epiphany. He said: Because of disputes, because disputes exist, I fight.

　From small quarrels between neighbors to big national hatreds and family feuds, all can be reasons for fighting. In this world, there are countless reasons to fight, but all reasons can be classified into the field of disputes. Therefore, the reason why people fight is because disputes exist.

　At the moment when Xiao Yi had an epiphany, a breath separated from the pure light in his body. As soon as the breath separated from the pure light, it formed totems and words, forming a circular ring. At the moment this circle was formed, a huge suction force was generated, which immediately sucked in the ominous energy outside.

　At the moment the ominous force came into contact with the ring, its color changed to that of steel, forming a steel ring.

　Countless auras rise within this circle, and these auras are full of ominousness.

　At the moment the circle was formed, all the illusions disappeared.

　Xiao Yi looked forward, and in front of him was still an ordinary-looking long knife. It was not a dagger, a sword, a spear, or a fire weapon, but just a long knife.

　There was no one fighting around, and there were only empty houses around.

　Everything was normal, and the scene just now seemed like a dream.

　But Xiao Yi knew that it was not a dream, because he felt that he had become different. He could clearly sense that his body was different from usual. There was a beam of pure light in his body. This light looked like fire, but it was hard to tell what color it was. Around this light, there were two rays of light, one black and one white, constantly moving.

　The black and white rays of light continuously absorb energy from the body to maintain and strengthen itself.

　His body seemed to be different as well. Before, he could hardly sense anything in his body, but at this moment, he could actually sense the flow of energy within his body.

　That is the energy that everyone has. Most of this energy comes from muscles and is the foundation of human movement.

　I seem to have control over these forces.

　Xiao Yi concentrated his will and imagined the power in his body pouring into his arms. Suddenly, his arm muscles swelled and veins emerged.

　Throw a punch forward.

　"boom!"

　A fierce fist wind suddenly burst out, like a sledgehammer, more powerful than any other punch.

　At this moment, a sore feeling came from his arm, making Xiao Yi's face tense with discomfort.

　I feel pretty strong, but my body is a bit worn out.

　Putting his hands down, Xiao Yi stared at the pure light within his body.

　This light suddenly appeared, what exactly is it?

　Xiao Yi went towards the beam of light to sense it. The moment he sensed it, the light suddenly began to emit brilliance. All of a sudden, the surrounding scenery changed drastically.

　He was not in an empty room, but in a room without a roof.

　This is a collapsed house with its roof collapsed. Only four walls remain, and the ground is littered with debris.

　Turning my head to look to the side, I saw a half-collapsed building. It was the security building. The building looked like it had been split vertically. One side was still there, while the other side had completely turned into rubble.

　He looked in the direction of the wall that he could pass through, but there was no wall there. There were only some scattered steel bars remaining there.

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　Volume 1: Chapter 22: Reality and Illusion

　There used to be a wall there, which was the wall of the security building, but now, the wall has been destroyed, along with the half of the security building that has turned into rubble, it no longer exists.

　Looking towards where the long knife was, there was no long knife there, only a concrete pillar with words carved on it using swords. It was an article titled "The Secret of the Knife" with the subtitle: Si Chen Zhi·Volume 2.

　The content of the book is the biography of two people, one named Lion Maker and the other named Captain. It records the story of the two men fighting each other. Their armies fought everywhere and the war almost raged across the world.

　Why did the knife turn into a concrete pillar? Why did I just stare at the knife and see a vision of endless killing?

　Xiao Yi was puzzled.

　He carefully stared at the words carved on the concrete pillars and found that each word contained a lot of ominous aura. That was exactly the ominous aura he had felt before. This aura was full of murderous intent, hatred, destruction and other obsessions. These obsessions were attacking each other all the time, just like the endless battles and disputes in reality.

　These are not ordinary words. They are filled with ominous power, and I have just absorbed this power.

　Will this have any bad consequences?

　Xiao Yi thought of the scene when a large amount of ominous energy surged into his body.

　He moved his perception to the bottom of the pure and clean light, and immediately sensed a steel ring. It was a steel ring made of a large amount of text written on it. It was a steel ring formed by the combination of a ray of pure and clean light and an ominous force.

　Every word on the steel ring is filled with an ominous aura. Looking carefully at the words that make up the steel ring, one suddenly discovers that those words are exactly the same as the words on the concrete pillar.

　On the surface, it is a biography of a person, but inside it is full of disputes, killings and ominousness.

　Staring at the steel ring, Xiao Yi suddenly had a feeling that he could control this power.

　This feeling was not the conclusion he came to from thinking, it just popped up suddenly, without any reason.

　He raised his hand and used his will to control the power of the steel ring. The next moment, the ominous power emerged from the palm of his hand. Its color was red with black, like a burning blood-red flame.

　What can this power be used for?

　Xiao Yi stared at the power in his hand, then slapped it against the wall.

　"Snapped!"

　He slapped his palm on the wall, and the ominous flame in his hand immediately burned the wall, but the wall was unharmed.

　No effect?

　Xiao Yi withdrew his hand, his face full of confusion.

　Resentment, hatred, destruction and other things are all emotional and idealistic. Perhaps these things are inherently unable to harm dead objects without souls.

　Forget it, this matter is not very important. We can study it slowly later.

　What matters right now is this school.

　Xiao Yi dispersed the ominous flame in his hand, took a step forward, and walked into the room where the moth was.

　Looking towards where the moth was, the moth was no longer a moth, but leaves scattered on the table with words written on them.

　When you stare at the leaves, they don't turn into a swirling mass of darkness, and no noisy crackling sounds echo in your head. It's as if they are just some trees.

　叶。

　What's written on this leaf?

　Xiao Yi walked into the leaves and read the words on them.

　This is an article titled "Si Chen Zhi·Volume 1", which is a bizarre story that tells the happy life of a group of obsessive-compulsive patients living in the woods. There are three obsessive-compulsive patients in the story, namely Moth, Black Flax and Ringed Fir.

　A person named Moth always cuts his own hair. As soon as his hair grows out, he will cut it off and never leave a single hair. He does this all the time.

　Sometimes he would talk to the sun, always shouting "OK, OK, OK," "I agree, I agree," and other incomprehensible words to it, but he would only shout and never actually take any action.

　Black Linen has an incurable collecting habit. She always collects all kinds of weird things and hides them in various corners of the world.

　Sometimes she would talk to the sun, but she would only say unclear words like no, no, no, I don’t agree, I don’t agree, I don’t agree, etc.

　Huanshan is not a mentally normal person either. She is a non-dressing person who always forces others to expose themselves, and then says meaningless things like the exposed self is not the real self.

　In addition, she is also a corpse lover. She likes to put her green roots into the corpses and let them grow wildly inside the corpses.

　After reading the words written on the leaf, Xiao Yi's face was full of confusion. He said to himself, "Is this about the happy life of a madman?"

　If you stare at these words carefully, you can also sense a dark power from them. This power is full of chaotic thoughts such as confusion, disorder, irrationality, etc.

　Could this dark power also create an illusion like the ominous power of the long sword?

　Xiao Yi stared at the dark power, and after a while, a noisy crackling sound emerged in his head, making his head hurt.

　Look away and the situation will immediately get much better.

　It seems that this dark power cannot create a huge illusion like the long sword.

　This is a somewhat confusing book.

　Xiao Yi stopped looking at the leaves and turned to look towards the gate.

　His eyes moved and he saw the gate. It was an iron gate. As he saw it, the iron gate was twisted and broken, stuck to the wall and completely embedded in the wall.

　No wonder I couldn’t open the door, it turned out to be broken.

　Xiao Yi no longer paid attention to the gate. He walked out of the collapsed wall and looked at the entire school.

　Wherever he looked, the entire school presented a completely different scene. Seeing that scene, Xiao Yi's eyes suddenly widened and a look of shock appeared on his face.

　As far as the eye could see, the entire school was in ruins, with collapsed floors, broken windows, and construction debris piled all over the ground.