I only have one year to live, so I must become a legendary horse girl!

A great fear attacked the foal's mind, like a tightening claw gripping his heart, but he couldn't say such words out loud.

Save me or something...

"Okay, indeed. I won't say such stupid things anymore. Sorry."

Bo Mu Liuge stopped talking, she just closed her eyes and curled up as much as possible.

Mubai Gaofeng frowned slightly. She suddenly wanted to press on and break through Mu Liuge's psychological defenses. She wanted to ask the foal what he was hiding, what he was running away from, and what was chasing him. But at the moment of hesitation, she saw Aldan shaking his head slightly in the rearview mirror.

not the right time yet.

Then, the horse girl who had been pushed away just now hugged him even more warmly.

Aldan didn't say anything. She just forcefully pried open Mu Liuge's palm that seemed to be resisting everything, and then interlocked her ten fingers and pressed it against his.

Then, he pressed the back of my head against his soft arms, over and over again, as if he would never stop, stroking my hair from the top of my head to my back.

Ardan said nothing, and she didn't need to say anything.

Bo Mu Liuge needs a hug now, because along with the wet marks on her chest, there is a force that is so tight that even Aldan's palms feel pain.

After a brief hesitation, Mejiro Takamine suddenly felt the urge to apologize.

Were her words too harsh? Thinking carefully, Bo Mu Liuge wasn't someone who would suddenly do something stupid, and all she did was simply refuse.

He even had the calmness to suppress his turbulent emotions and didn't dare to look the other person in the face.

I'm sorry, my words were too harsh...

However, when the words came to his lips, Mejiro Gaofeng couldn't say them.

It wasn't because of her courage as a young lady, but because Bo Mu Liuge was obviously breathing evenly in Aldan's arms.

The light blue-haired horse girl raised her hand and made a gesture of wiping her tears.

Obviously, this child's defenses were broken for some reason, and he even lost the ability to think.

Did she just fall asleep while crying? This is so strange. What happened? Or did I say something that made her feel sad?

Mejiro Takamine closed his eyes.

Forget it. Let’s talk about the apology next time when we have the chance.

There is still a lot of time, there will always be opportunities.

There is always one.

Chapter 19, She wants to live.

March 17th, it was sunny and the weather was very good.

To those who are watching, good night.

However, the first thing I have to say is that I did something very shameful, such as fainting in Sister Aldan's arms. Damn it.

The foal's body is still too sensitive. Yes, it must be because of this reason. If it were an adult's body, such an embarrassing thing would never happen.

If only it were an adult's body.

Sorry, I have to apologize, I must apologize, because I did something very excessive.

All of the previous seven or eight diaries were written with malice, or in other words, they were written with the hope of bringing a bad mood to the viewers for even a second.

Well, how should I put it? The human heart is a very magical thing, really. Even if I just think that the people watching me are silent or shed tears because of my writing, I will be very happy. At least that's how it felt when I finished writing.

Isn't that terrible? Isn't that selfish? Isn't that hateful? Well, before you hate me, please take a look at why.

Actually, before I came here, I was already afraid. What was I afraid of? I was afraid of being forgotten, afraid of dying. It was only natural, right?

There is no one who is not afraid of death, absolutely not. It’s just that many times there are things more important than life, but I don’t seem to have those things.

In fact, he is very tough, or he is just pretending to be strong. Because he is afraid of death, he stubbornly wants to be remembered by everyone. Because he is afraid of death, he wants to use fame as a disguised form of "eternal life", even if he will not know these after he dies, he just has such an idea.

Yes, that’s right. I write a diary and use that kind of selfish content to attract your attention, and then please myself here through fantasy because of this kind of mood.

To be honest, I was very happy before, when I thought about my sisters crying heartbrokenly because of my departure and this diary... Of course, I don’t know how you would react at that time. I can only imagine, imagine if I could see it.

However, there is no if.

I'm sorry for wanting to be a part of your life in such a selfish way, but I'm really afraid of death, so afraid, so afraid that when I think of death, I can't help but want to seek a little warmth more selfishly. I want, I want to be able to complete my entire career and have you by my side.

But there is no if.

Well, I won’t say these sad words anymore. Anyway, from now on I will record my feelings carefully, including many things you won’t understand about my actions at that time.

But, if I tell you I only have a year left, I'll be locked up at home to recuperate, right? I don't want to be locked up like that, waiting to die. It would make me feel like a place like that isn't home.

That's a cage.

I actually received the ticket for the Kentucky Derby, the American Triple Crown, after I came back from the New York Aqueduct Racecourse. Their efficiency is really great.

And then there was… the Gaoyue Award entry qualification email.

Just a funny thing, compared to that, the content of Japan Triple Crown’s email is so simple, I won’t write about the content here.

But in short, even though I agreed to Sister Gao Feng at that time, I still wanted to participate in both sides.

I know that Sister Gao Feng hopes that I can complete my career in good health.

But I'm sorry, I only have one year left in my career, my life, and my life. If I could be healthy, I might just retire.

Anyway, I still have to participate in the Gaoyue Sho and the American Triple Crown. I just hope that when I sneak out, I won’t get hit on the head too hard when I come back.

Of course, it would be better if my sisters would be disappointed in me at that time, so that I could leave the Mejiro family and live on my own, and then wait for death or something... I'm sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, I know it's really hateful to let you make the decision and hide it from you, but,

But when I think about leaving the Mejiro family and being alone, with no one to accompany me, I feel so sad and scared...

Why did such a fate befall me? What did I do wrong... I'm sorry, I think I can't overcome my selfishness, please let me linger a little longer.

Sister Aldan’s embrace is really warm. How can I be sad when Sister Gaofeng’s concern seems like a scolding? Please don’t apologize.

Please indulge my selfishness, even though my mind is expecting to be thrown out to fend for myself, but...it's true, the more I face something scary, the more I don't want to be alone.

Well... I'm selfish, a bad guy, so please don't be sad after reading this. Since I'm already dead, there's no need to accommodate the feelings of a corpse.

Haha, not a funny joke at all.

…………

Bo Mu Liuge closed the diary, then she slowly moved to the bed, sat on the cold marble, curled up against the corner of the wall, and looked at the shining stars in the sky outside the window.

An unprecedented sense of guilt crept up her spine. In the dead of night, when there was nothing to do but she couldn't fall asleep, Bo Mu Liuge's thoughts were overflowing and she couldn't control herself.

How would someone feel when they read the diary? What would happen to those who learned of her death? Would someone feel empowered by her running and presence, yet also saddened by her passing?

Why, why did such a disgusting, terrible, horrible, damn thing have to happen to her?

Bo Mu Liuge wanted to ask loudly, why me?

But the funny thing is that she didn't know who to question.

The little foal could only curl up on the small windowsill and look at the sky. The stars were twinkling, just like the night sky he saw when he couldn't sleep in his rental house when he was still a office worker.

But I will never be able to see the spark of light that I stayed up late with her for, as we are worlds apart.

Bo Mu Liuge was very afraid of death. She had always been very aware of this. She was very afraid, and she even noticed that she was a little hysterical.

If it weren't for such factors, how could she have made such a crazy decision when she received the invitation to Gaoyue Award?

Sorry, I have to be a bad kid for once. Life in the Mejiro family is really happy. There are sisters and elders who care about her, and younger generations who admire her.

She has enough food to eat and clothes to wear, and everything she needs. She can get the best of everything that is available in this era, and she doesn't even have any pressure in life at all - no one asks her to get up at eight in the morning and go to work until nine in the evening.

If only this was a simple time travel, without that damn thing about only having one year to live, if only she could be an ordinary horse girl.

Bo Mu Liuge couldn't help but think.

Since she is a time traveler, could she be a character living in a written story?

If that's the case.

"Then, readers, do you remember a horse girl named Twilight Song?"

She wants to live.

Chapter 20, the curled up night, and your arrival.

Ardan knocked on the door in front of him.

After thinking it over, the light blue-haired horse girl took a step forward and came here from next door to take action.

As for the reason?

Just a hug is not enough, or, just a hug when you are sad is not enough, it is not enough to break the strong heart of Mu Liuge.

Even today, for some reason, Mejiro Takamine's powerful blow only lifted it slightly.

The song flows at dusk, and the silence does not seem like that of a child.

But someone has to try, and Mejiro Takamine can't do it. Not to mention his sister's personality and face, her relationship with Bo Mu Liuge is now subtly tense.

After all, he was the one who directly rejected Pony's crazy idea.

Intuition told Aldan Mejiro that Hakurei Ryuge's proposal for the G1 joint war was certainly not a whim, but a serious choice made after careful consideration and understanding of the consequences.

This child is not the kind of person who is reckless and unaware of the consequences. She clearly knows that this is to burn her own career and then achieve the greatest results in the first year.

But why? Why are you in such a hurry?

Why such a rush in the first year?

It can't be that they can only run for one year, right? But Liuge is still so young, it's the first year of his debut!

Mebiro Ardan couldn't figure it out, so she didn't dwell on it and waste time on it - it would be better to ask the person directly. In any case, no matter what the situation was, direct inquiry was necessary now.

She wanted to walk into Mu Liuge's heart.

After all, although they were nominally children of a separated family, they were actually still connected by blood. Moreover, even though they had only been together for three months, for Aldan Mubai to see Bomu Liuge running on with thoughts of self-destruction... ?

She can't.

However, there was no response for a long time after knocking on the door, not even a sound.

It was as if Bo Mu Liu Ge was not in the room. Mubai Aldan took a deep breath. She felt inexplicably nervous and then called out softly again.

Why do we always have the illusion that one day Liuge will suddenly disappear from our side?

"Liu Ge, it's me, can I come in?"

Still no answer, or rather, there will be no response no matter how many times I ask?

In that case, Aldan gently pressed the doorknob - it was obvious that Bo Mu Liuge never locked the door when he slept.

Since you have decided to do it forcefully, you should be a little reckless. This is also the courage that Sister Mingming should have.

"Liu Ge, you really haven't rested yet."

Ardan entered a dark room. She only saw a small ball curled up beside the bed, with a pair of golden eyes pressed against the narrow windowsill in the vast room.

It's like a cat huddled in the fireplace. Perhaps only this kind of behavior can bring complete peace of mind.

Mu Liuge's golden eyes just stared at the starry sky outside the window, with no intention of answering at all.

However, Mubai Aldan would not stop. She sat next to Bo Mu Liuge and gently pinched the foal's wrist.

It's as if they are afraid that the person in front of them will run away, so they are connected in this way.

"Are you still angry with Sister Gao Feng?"

"No, Sister Gao Feng didn't say anything wrong."

It's just that her situation wasn't quite right, but, if she was wrong, that was also the reason why she didn't speak up... How could she say such a thing?

Excuse me, but I have to run because I only have one year to live?

If Bo Mu Liuge did this, he would have to slap himself every time he woke up from sleep at night.

"Then, what's the reason for being so anxious?"

Aldan did not dwell on this topic for long, but chose to get straight to the point.

One night of calming down is enough, and Liu Ge seems to have recovered. As expected, this child is so mature that she doesn't look like a child. Is it because she is the only direct blood relative left?