The shining Shoko Toyokawa

"We have to get out of the Red Sea first."

Before saying goodbye to Renai, Maya was actually a little timid.

But this girl seemed to have the magic to make people forget their troubles. Walking with her, Maya quickly put her worries aside and just focused on the things in front of her.

Even at work, this time is pleasant.

It's like when you were in school, there was a friend in the back row of the classroom, always chattering in your ear.

But just like that chattering person, one day you will be separated from him.

This pleasant time, however, became tormenting again when Maya finished her inspection and returned to the dormitory with Jina.

Today is definitely a painful and difficult day for Maya.

"Nina, what are you going to do after you defeat Caius?"

Maya-san actually had a conversation with Nina about something similar, and it wasn't long ago.

The girl was at a loss because she had broken up with her friends.

Maya asked her what kind of adult she wanted to be.

In fact, it doesn't matter what you talk about. What's important is that there is someone to talk to you about it.

Even if it's just some trivial things, as long as it's 'that person', people can quickly cheer up.

"Maybe he's going back to school..."

Rencai didn't mind her being annoying and repeated her conclusion again.

Because she wanted to ask a question she hadn't asked last time: "Maya-san, what about you?"

"After defeating Caius, what do you want to do?"

"You are unwilling to suffer any loss,"

Maya's complaints made the girl giggle, and the sound was like the shaking of wind chimes.

"I used to think about getting involved in politics on the moon, but now... I don't know what to do..."

"Then..." Renai hesitated for a moment, took a deep breath, and then said:

"How about going back to school with me? Although I know that high school knowledge is just child's play for Maya-san, Maya-san... you didn't actually go to high school, right?"

“School is not just about taking exams and studying!”

"Rencai..."

Maya didn't know what to say for a moment.

After thinking for a long time, she finally decided to confess.

"Nina... I confessed to them..."

Chapter 104: Maya's Young Mother

"they?!"

What Nina found even more unbelievable than the confession was their "unit".

The weak Maya-san once confided to her the complicated feelings she had towards several friends.

Jinna summed it up as not wanting to part ways with her friends, and her longing and reluctance to leave intensified.

She firmly believed that Maya could come out of it and make the right choice.

The 'right choice' here does not refer to Rencai herself, it can be Chuhua, Soyo, or anyone else.

But... the only thing 'it' can't be is 'they'...

"why?"

Nina was confused and worried, "Why would you make such a choice, Maya-san?!"

'Opening a harem' has multiple 'lovers',

For many people, it is something worth being secretly happy about, or even showing off everywhere.

Although this is incompatible with the current mainstream social consensus and morality, it seems to be part of their play.

The sense of immorality in going against what is 'ordinary and natural' makes them very excited.

But Maya-san will never be like this.

What she longed for was not the pleasure of the flesh, nor the "victory" of the spirit against any opposition.

But love, the love of the real thing!

Rencai doesn't know whether the love those troublesome women have for her, and her love for those women, is real.

But when she confessed her love to two people, she lost the possibility of becoming the real thing and finding the real thing.

People can often deceive everyone, but they cannot deceive themselves.

In the end, you can only "reconcile" with yourself and choose to accept reality. People call this "growth".

Renai hated this kind of compromise, and she was sure Maya hated it too.

"Why would Maya-san do something like this, something that's like erasing herself?!"

That’s why...she is so...confused!

"Rencai..."

Maya-san subconsciously wanted to say something like: Making changes doesn't mean erasing yourself; it can also be a form of growth...

...or something nice like that.

She shouldn't have shown any confusion in front of Rencai.

It should make Nina feel that Maya-san will never regret her choice.

Even more so: For Maya-san, there could be nothing happier than this!

But... she couldn't do it...

Maya is convinced that she loves everyone deeply.

But no matter how much she thought about it, she didn't feel that she could bear the burden of everyone's life.

She's not a god, so how could she possibly distribute love equally to everyone without any bias?!

In the end...she chose to confess to Renai,

"My childhood sweetheart, Xiao Mu, witnessed my disappearance on the white wooden horse. It's already...broken."

"Until now, she still thinks that she is Toyokawa Shoko..."

"!!!"

Jinna was shocked and speechless. These details were hidden in the propaganda of America and the mainstream media.

If it weren't for Naomi Misora's insistence, America (North America) probably wouldn't have admitted to using the families of the Y organization's pilots to threaten them.

"And Soyo... maybe it's broken too..."

"Everyone is going to be ruined because of me,"

"If it weren't for me, Aine's hands wouldn't be stained with blood, and Chuhua wouldn't be so sad..."

"As for me..."

Maya raised her head, tears streaming down her cheeks.

Her hair, dyed from aqua blue to gold, drooped down, and her beautiful face was filled with sadness, like a mermaid crying in an oil painting.

"It always seems to bring misfortune and pain to those around it,"

"This... must be because I only think about myself."

“So, I have to make a change.”

"If my 'love' can make everyone feel a little bit at ease..."

"Fool!"

Nina interrupted Maya's self-deprecating monologue, "Maya-san, you are such an idiot!"

"How can anyone be happy because the person they love deeply hurts them?!"

"Hurt yourself? Me?" Maya subconsciously wanted to refute, "No... I..."

But she couldn't continue speaking halfway.

If she really thinks that it is a good thing to say love to everyone,

She wouldn't tell Renai these things like a cheating husband confesses to his wife.

Seeing her in such a shameful state, Rencai felt distressed and at the same time, she was also a little angry.

The girl pressed Maya's shoulders firmly with both hands, forcing a gentle smile on her face as she said, "Maya-san, do you expect them to push themselves just to make you happy?"

"Of course not," Maya answered automatically, "I hope everyone can live happily."

"So they don't want you to be happy, Maya-san?"

Renai stared into Maya's golden eyes and made a conclusion without waiting for her to answer.

"Everyone wants you to be happy, Maya-san!"

"So, please!"

"Please become happy!"

"Only in this way can we be happy, just like you hope, we can be happy..."

Maya was stunned. She suddenly had the urge to burst into tears, like a lost child who had found her mother.

What Rencai said was not just a nice way to excuse her.

It's not just a girl's wishful thinking, but probably everyone's real thoughts.

But...why couldn't she notice it?

The answer was incredibly simple, yet it only deepened Maya's self-loathing.

Once again, she was only thinking about herself...

She only wanted to compensate and "save" everyone, and she put herself in a role like a "god".

But she is not a god, and the 'Xiao Xiang' that everyone loves is not a god either.

Her "I have to do this for everyone else" attitude will only backfire and hurt them once again...

"Rencai..."

Maya-san shamelessly threw herself into the girl's arms, at a loss like a child who had done something wrong.

"I… screwed up again!"

Being a first-time mother, Rencai had little experience and was at a loss as to what to do.

But 'maternal instinct' may exist in every woman's instinct, even a girl of Rencai's age is no exception.

She quickly found the trick and gently patted Maya's back.

To be honest, Renai's mood is quite subtle.

If she regards Maya-san as a hero, she should always worship her.

As a shameful senior, she should be severely "corrected",

But... the current 'Maya-san' is just like a child who lacks love. Even Nina can't be 'strict' with her.

"Remember, never do this again!"

"Um…"

Maya replied softly, then said with some concern, "Will everyone be sad because of my sudden change of attitude?"

"No," the girl said firmly, with a smile that was so gentle it was deadly. "You're the one who made them worry by confessing to them so suddenly."

…………

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Just as the girl said, the delicate atmosphere was broken by Soyo's words after the two returned to the dormitory.