It's so painful! So hard! So difficult!

"That's not the case. My goal is far greater than this. Although I haven't fully understood everything yet, the core that guides me towards the final goal will not waver. But this doesn't mean that I can't be a hero of the dwarves. I don't think there's anything wrong with protecting an area and acting as a group of peacekeepers. If we can improve a little, it will only be better."

"Being able to make part of the world more stable is itself helpful to my goals. Moreover, some of their enemies are already clearly identifiable, and they are also my enemies. Therefore, I initially used excuses to say that I might not be able to be a hero for the dwarves, but now I am completely moving in that direction, which is why I sit here and say this."

At this point, Bai Lin shrugged her shoulders, and she also pressed forward a little, her eyes meeting Poxiao's, and then, Bai Lin said,

"I'm not sure what kind of privileges you get by being a hero here. Judging by your actions, this has undoubtedly been a great help to me, otherwise I wouldn't have to torture you like this. Is it an unparalleled inheritance of power? Or financial support that rivals a nation's wealth? All I can say is, none of that matters to me... well, it does matter."

Bai Lin realized that she seemed to have said too much, and her handsomeness could not last more than three seconds. She turned her eyes away, changed the subject, and then added.

"What I mean is that even without those things, I will definitely do what I need to do, so you don't have to worry that I'm here for them."

Chapter 804 Equivalent Substitution

Bai Lin's meaning was simple: "I'm not really interested in fame, fortune, or support. I'm doing this because I want to be a hero." But if someone who seems so obviously interested in money says that to you, are you going to believe it? It's obviously hard to believe, but... judging by Bai Lin's previous statements and her performance, her words have a certain degree of credibility.

Poxiao leaned back in her chair, her eyes slightly unfocused. She closed her eyes for a moment, once again examining the girl before her, the one she was questioning. She seemed genuinely candid and sincere, her words reminiscent of a hero, and she was approachable, but...

However, there are other problems.

"How much do you know? This isn't a question of what will be given to you. It's that only a qualified person can hold this position. Honestly, even if your abilities are truly impressive and your character is still being refined, it's impossible to predict the future. Are you truly certain that you won't change your direction in the future?"

"Bribery, coercion... In this complex world, can you abandon your human identity and fully uphold your will as a hero? Please, answer me directly!"

This time, Poxiao raised the gun in her hand with unusual determination, but this time she didn't point it at her own head, but at Bai Lin. Bai Lin was slightly shocked. After all, this behavior was somewhat beyond her expectations. Moreover, she had also seen the power of this gun. It was not something that could be easily blocked.

However, when the surprise faded, Bai Lin's expression of ease did not diminish at all. She pointed to her forehead and said,

"If it's a three-shot game, after firing the first shot, it's best to rotate the betting table a bit before firing again. This way, the chances of hitting a target are lower. Of course, that assumes you've loaded all the bullets together. I'm a detail-oriented person even when it comes to things I'm not good at. I'll gather information before negotiations, and when I work as a waiter, I only go to restaurants where I'm familiar with the owner. So, please be a little careful with your luck."

Bai Lin said something in a calm tone, half-cowardly, clearly admitting that her luck wasn't perfect, but she didn't reject the other party's decision to shoot. And Po Xiao, surprisingly, didn't refuse Bai Lin's request. She said, "You're such a weirdo," and reloaded the magazine as Bai Lin requested.

"So now you won't have any complaints, right? But don't forget the questions you need to answer. Think carefully about whether you can answer them before I pull the trigger."

"You and I both know what the outcome will be. There's no need to say anything more. Let's just do it."

Bai Lin still had that indifferent expression on her face, as if mocking Poxiao's hesitation. Poxiao didn't say anything more and fired a shot, but all that was heard was the sound of a hammer hitting another target.

This time, Bai Lin actually closed her eyes the moment she pulled the trigger. After it was over, a little cold sweat appeared on her forehead. This time, she was a little nervous. But she managed to get through it, and the rest of the time was not spent on being nervous. She just wiped her forehead and said,

"My luck is surprisingly good. Perhaps it's because you were the one who fired the gun and gave me a helping hand. Well, after you've fired, I'll naturally answer your question."

Poxiao snorted. She didn't react excessively to Bai Lin's words, which seemed to irritate her. She just pushed the gun in her hand forward, in front of Bai Lin across the table, and then said,

"Whether I've given you good luck or not, I never like to owe favors to others. Since I pulled the trigger on you in this situation, you should return the favor. Only then can it be called fair. Whether you want to rewind the revolver or not, or how you want to shoot, it's up to you..."

Before Poxiao could even finish his words, Bai Lin had already completed his actions. This time, no one was shot, and there was no sound of a gunshot. Everything was so clean and efficient, like a skilled nurse giving an injection. Poxiao didn't even feel the slightest bit of tension; it was all over.

"...You're quite lucky. Based on my luck, the second shot should have hit me. The fact that I avoided getting hit by turning that extra circle is a miracle for me. After all, most of my luck in life has been concentrated on hobbies I don't particularly enjoy. Other than that, I've been pretty unlucky."

Bai Lin slowly lowered the gun in his hand and said this to the other party. Although she didn't feel nervous, this time, Poxiao was slightly stunned by Bai Lin's words. She seemed to feel a strange feeling, a feeling that Bai Lin was opening his heart to her...

What's going on? This feeling of distance being shortened invisibly?

"Since you understand this clearly, if you refuse to fire the third shot now, you still have a chance."

It seemed that driven by this strange atmosphere, Dawn once again proposed a proposal that seemed to be concerned about Bai Lin's life. Bai Lin laughed twice and then replied,

"That's definitely not going to work. Even if you know there's little chance of survival, even if you know you'll definitely die, you still have to do what you have to do. That's what a hero does. Even though I absolutely don't want to die, if this life can't be used to carry out my will, then it's meaningless."

Ever since Bai Lin suffered a setback in her original world, her life has been incredibly difficult, and she's been living the life we ​​saw at the beginning, a life of despair. By then, she was practically dead, no longer knowing what she truly loved. Even her constant playtime had become numb, a mere passing time. She even lost her confidence as a dancer, feeling unworthy of others' affections, and lived in a state of lethargy and constant self-doubt.

The only thing holding her alive was the relationship between others and her. If it weren't for so many friends, family, and her partner, she would have passed away long ago.

And now, she has come to another world, and once again, everyone has given her life meaning.

Chapter 805: Arrogance

She'd witnessed too much tragedy, and she wanted a world without it. Even if she said, "Just don't let me see it," if it wasn't completely erased, she'd probably still feel heartbroken someday, until she finally laid to rest at her funeral.

She'd experienced so much here, rediscovering her former self and finding a whole new self. It could be said that, without even realizing it, her life had become tightly bound to this world. Of course, saving the world was also about providing a more stable and peaceful living environment for those she cherished and those around her.

So, her words did have some truth in them. But the rest of it was because she knew she wouldn't die.

Those feelings, which even Bai Lin herself was still unaware of, were transmitted to Poxiao's heart through her words. She looked at Bai Lin, her brown eyes filled with excitement. It seemed as if she had heard these words somewhere before...?

Poxiao shook her head, shaking off these heavy and chaotic thoughts. She lowered her head again, rubbing her forehead, her face gloomy, and she fell silent. This time, Bai Lin actually spoke again.

"However, I haven't finished answering that question yet. My answer is actually no."

Poxiao raised her head. She looked at Bai Lin with a look of mixed surprise, but no rejection or dissatisfaction. It seemed that this was not the answer she did not want to hear. Bai Lin continued to speak slowly.

"Heroes and humanity aren't inseparable. That's why there are heroes whose actions are completely different from others. They're like gods descended from heaven. Even if driven away by the people they protect, they won't rebel, or even complain. But I'm not that type."

"Before I became a hero, I was first an ordinary person. I have my own preferences and people I cherish. I can't abandon them at the critical moment, ever. I know myself very well, and I want to see these beautiful people get a good ending."

"A big part of why I want to save the world and become a hero is for their present and future. So, if I make that choice, I'll lose sight of the main goal and pursue the trivial, which is no longer my style."

"Besides that, I'm doing this for my own happiness. After the world is saved, I can go back to my hometown and farm. Wouldn't that be great? So, my enthusiasm for this is unquestionable. This is something that can make ordinary people happy. Most people spend their lives pursuing happiness."

Bai Lin shook her head and chuckled twice, a bit self-deprecatingly. She shook the gun in her hand, then glanced at it and continued,

"Even though I have a lot of selfish motives, I don't think I'm unworthy of being a hero. My purpose is pure: to save the world. And even though I miss a better life, even my current life, and can't let it go, I have a vague premonition... that if someone absolutely has to sacrifice, I will definitely be the one to be sacrificed."

"Why? Why would you choose this? Since you value those people so much, shouldn't you do everything you can to live with them? Even if it means living a miserable life, betraying your principles, and carrying out your truest will, that should be the right thing to do, right?"

Upon hearing this, Poxiao immediately refuted fiercely. Indeed, Bai Lin had previously said that she would carry out her own will, and now she said that she wanted to save the world because of others and selfishness. This understanding is also reasonable. Bai Lin smiled again, looked up at the sky, and relaxed her body and leaned back. She raised her eyebrows slightly, as if she was very relaxed, and finally sighed and said,

"Maybe. That's why I'm just saying I have a vague feeling. If there really is a way for me to survive, I might still choose it. But I won't do anything that goes against my principles."

"In this world, I've witnessed so much that's unreasonable. There are countless races whose lives I believe should be protected. But among them, there are also bad ones, just like there are good and bad people among us humans. But what criteria should be used to define good and bad? I can't think like that; it's not my forte. All I can do is eliminate the hidden dangers within them first, and start with things like this."

"So my principle is to kill all those messy, mentally unstable people who are an eyesore, leaving no one alive. If I can achieve this goal, and then not have to worry about anything else, and then I can live a stable life, I'd be happy to do that."

Bai Lin's long speech, to sum it up, really means nothing. Once she's done what she wanted to do, she'll naturally and calmly accept retirement and return to ordinary life. If someone else were to do it for her, that wouldn't be unacceptable to her. She'll only give up her hero life once she's done what she wants.

Although, she is just an ordinary person, but that's what she thinks.

"No, no, no, isn't this inconsistent? You don't want to see tragedy, but you're willing to sacrifice your own life, even your own life? Won't your departure also create tragedy?!"

Poxiao chased after her and questioned her. She picked up the gun, her hand trembling slightly, but she didn't raise it. Bai Lin also sighed and replied,

"Perhaps, that's the case. This sounds incredibly arrogant and hypocritical. I really can't wrap my head around it... When did I start to have these thoughts?"

"But heroes are supposed to be arrogant. They believe their own sacrifice can accomplish their goals, that with just one life, they alone can accomplish something that is beyond the reach of one person. Especially for a hero like me, who wants to shoulder the entire world... This is especially true. Only the arrogant can become a hero, right?"

Bai Lin's eyes gradually became hazy as she followed her inner thoughts, revealing them frankly. Only with confidence and composure could she sustain herself to the end and possibly achieve victory. To take on such a responsibility that transcended the heavens and earth, one clearly not capable of shouldering alone, was clearly arrogance.

Putting aside the topic of "Who needs to be saved by you", if the heroes themselves fail to uphold the "arrogance" they firmly believe in, they will probably die before taking a few steps.

Chapter 806: Consider It a Little

This is because, even if they still look like ordinary people, when they set foot towards their goals, the events and obstacles they encounter are no longer ordinary.

Poxiao looked at Bai Lin, her eyes lingering on the faint nightlight filtering in from the window. A chilling, deep blue hue cast an even deeper gloom over the already dimly lit room. Her hand, free of the gun, dangled limply at her side, her entire being seemingly unresponsive.

A hero is someone who prioritizes their own goals, leaving nothing else to compare. This is the ultimate in existence. Even Bai Lin now fully understands this and has already embarked on this path. And Po Xiao, through these conversations, has repeatedly changed his opinion of Bai Lin.

She... truly is a hero. Strong, confident, and dignified, she's completely unafraid to express both her flaws and strengths, perfectly and naturally. As a person, she might still be imperfect, but as a hero, her state of mind has reached perfection. However...

A sudden glint flashed in Poxiao's eyes. It was a sign that she had remembered something, a sudden rush of memories and impressions. She raised her head, gripped the gun tightly, and quickly placed her finger on the trigger, pointing the gun at herself.

I get it. I know why it happened that way. No matter what, the heroes' decisions are irreversible. They see death as effortless. And as ordinary people, there's only one way we can change that.

"Son of God, your name is Son of God, right?"

Being called out like that, Bai Lin raised her head and looked at him. Suddenly, she felt a sting from Poxiao's gaze, like sunlight suddenly piercing the eyes of someone in a darkened room. Her gaze was unwavering, dispelling the fog. Even when she first harbored hatred for Bai Lin, she had never seen such intense emotion in her eyes.

What's going on? What does she want to do with this kind of courage?

It was obvious that even Bai Lin was shocked by this momentum. She nodded slightly without answering. However, Poxiao continued,

"This is the final question. You've already shown that you won't give up your humanity, and you won't be disqualified as a hero. But I still have one question that you need to answer directly."

"If there is such an environment, an environment where you and the people you cherish can live in peace. The world may occasionally be turbulent, but you can deal with these unexpected events together, stay together until old age, until the end of the world. Although it cannot be cured, you can definitely have a happy life."

"Birth, old age, sickness, and death... or perhaps just watching on for a long time, watching the cycle of life in the world repeat itself. Just enjoying life, spending the long years with the people who matter to me."

"If you were offered a life like this, would you choose to give up your idea of ​​being a hero?"

After Poxiao asked this question, she pulled the trigger very hard. You know, her gun never moved the cylinder after firing, which means that the three shots she fired in a row were all in the safe zone.

She achieved her goal in one go, a stroke of luck that made her feel like she was being assisted by a spirit. Just like her current state, her unwavering determination to move forward.

When the sound of the wheels stopped, naturally, there was no more gunfire. Bai Lin breathed a sigh of relief and said,

"Oh, that's great! I was a little worried about whether you would die. I don't mind it at all. Now I understand that you don't have any ill will towards me personally, so I don't want you to die like this."

Admittedly, the challenge to a life-or-death duel was initiated by the other party. So, even if the other party lost their life, Bai Lin wouldn't feel any guilt. However, she also had some strange feelings.

That is, she shouldn't have died here. Even if her actions were a bit extreme, for Bai Lin, this was just an opportunity for negotiation. Moreover, she could refuse or find other ways.

However, now was not the time to think about whether the other party should die. Bai Lin raised his gun and pointed it at his own forehead.

Taking a deep breath, she needed to think a little before firing this time. The meaning of this question was clearly different from the previous one. Although Bai Lin didn't understand why such a drastic change had occurred in Poxiao, she could sense that the direction he was pursuing had changed.

And what she faces is also the same. This "torture" is not just her expression of herself, but also her own inner torture. Ordinary life, dark times, Katie, Fei'er, and a journey to another world...

The past flashed before her eyes, sometimes poignant, sometimes bitter, yet at the same time giving Bai Lin a sense of being alive. Finally, she gathered her mind and pulled the trigger.

The sound of the revolving wheel rang out again. After a brief rotation, the mechanism re-engaged, and the sound of a jam confirmed the end of the shot. Obviously, this shot still did not fire.

Bai Lin was a little confused. She once again glanced at the gun in her hand. But in the end, she calmly placed it on the table. Then she took a breath, a little sweat on her face, and said to Poxiao,

"It seems my luck is a little better than I thought. Being able to make it to the last question is a really good result."

"Really? Do you think this is a good result? Well, give me your answer."

Poxiao did not refute Bai Lin, but just said this to her in a slightly enigmatic sentence. Bai Lin sighed again and said,

"Of course I won't."

"Ultimately, the so-called instability of the world is like the general trend of the world for the little people. Unrest between nations, strife between religions, the harvesting of the bigwigs, and so on and so forth, all of these reasons may affect the little people. And all of these are unpredictable. You never know what you will face tomorrow."

Chapter 807 Well said

Bai Lin described it this way, paused for a moment, and then continued,

"Just like these things, the so-called instability of the world may seem manageable today, but tomorrow it can suddenly bring about an unpredictable disaster. When that happens, no matter how happy you are as a small person, you will only feel pain."

"If you were killed in one blow, it wouldn't be a big deal. But if you were kept captive, your blood drained bit by bit, your bones ground into powder, and your flesh minced into flakes, and you could only endure deeper pain day after day, unable to sacrifice your own life, then life is painful, and death is not an option. This kind of torture is the real pain."

As she spoke, Bai Lin raised a hand. Her eyes were filled with countless thoughts, reflecting the continuous time that was flowing like sand. Her moving, blurred expression also led her thoughts to the past.

"Admittedly, there's nothing wrong with ordinary people living their own lives. Even if they devote their entire lives to trying to change the pain they've experienced, it's likely they'll only end up suffering even more. Even if they succeed in changing a little, in old age, or even after death, they'll be smeared and misinterpreted by those with vested interests, and they'll never find peace. Your family won't understand you, and may even betray you. There's no one around you you can trust, no one you can confide your suffering to. Because even your mouth is sealed forever."

"Even for capable people, it's difficult to get out of that situation. So, for most people, dwelling on these things will only make them more miserable. Taking care of yourself, or the lives of those around you, is the best option."

"But, if it's a hero, it has a different meaning."

Bai Lin slammed her hands on the table, her eyes fixed. Her resolute expression, like the light that cleared the fog, once again conveyed her confidence. She answered in a sonorous and powerful voice,

"Clearly, the direction of the world defies common sense. And so-called heroes defy common sense. They bear the arrogance and madness of the entire world on their shoulders."

"Every world has its share of heroes. They may have fallen, or even faced those far superior to them, they still chose to step forward without hesitation. Facing certain death, the heroes' hearts are directed towards only one path: achieving their heroic goals."

"I wouldn't dare say that I'm better than every hero in the past. But I'm exactly the same as them in this respect, and I firmly believe that I can achieve my own goals."

"Once... I had no power, even plagued by bad luck. Lost in confusion, I began to seek shelter with my family. But what if, one day, my family was also confined by this sky and this earth? When someone took up arms and walked towards us, we would no longer have the means to resist and would be at their mercy."

"But now, I have power, I've been given a brand new life. So here, I will pick up my faith as a hero. I will personally quell this chaos, in exchange for an eternal, stable life for myself, the people I care about, and the world I love."

"I know all this clearly, and I have the ability. If I don't pursue my inner desire and indulge in fulfilling this wish, satisfying the strongest desire in my life, then perhaps it would be worse than death. Even if I die if I fail, it's better than waiting for death to come in a half-dead life. And..."

"I will not fail, absolutely."

The high-spirited words burst out from Bai Lin's fiery chest. She could feel her heartbeat accelerating, just like the high-spirited passion in her eyes. But she didn't bring it up to the end. Instead, she relaxed slightly and replied with a somewhat self-deprecating tone,

"In my hometown, there's this idea: working hard now is for future happiness. It sounds a bit like empty, soul-stirring advice, but it's been passed down to every young person, and I'm sure everyone has heard it at least a few times."

"But this time, it really is what it is. Now, I might really be able to put an end to this once and for all. After I finish this job, I'll retire, go back home and get married... It sounds a bit grandiose, but I've never been afraid of this. This is what I'm going to do. As a hero, I'm going to put the final nail in the coffin and crush all unrest."

Just like that, Bai Lin's words came to an end. She scratched her head, as if realizing that her words were a little complicated and difficult to understand. So she continued,

"That's probably all."

As Bai Lin's words became more relaxed, the eyes of Poxiao, who was sitting opposite, seemed to relax a little. But her overall expression was still extremely serious, but the hatred at the beginning was less. She looked at Bai Lin and slowly replied,

"To be honest, I don't want you to take this position."

"Really? I thought I spoke very well."

Bai Lin chuckled and responded. At that moment, a black wall behind Bai Lin suddenly collapsed. The remaining three people also walked in from that direction.

When they met again, the brown-haired girl exchanged glances with Bai Lin. However, when she spoke, she still had the same attitude as before. She only said,

"You have indeed spoken well and acted well. Well then, we respect your choice. This hero truly belongs to you, Holy Son."

A choice? Indeed, choosing to be a hero, such an extreme existence, is indeed something worthy of respect. Just as Bai Lin was about to stand up and respond, Poxiao, who was sitting there, grabbed a revolver on the table and swung it directly towards the brown-haired girl. The brown-haired girl caught it steadily and looked back.