It's so painful! So hard! So difficult!

Pulling out Fei'er's cloak and putting it on her, Bai Lin quickly picked her up from the ground, staring at Fei'er with a fiery look, and said quickly,

"Hold on, Fei'er. I'll take you to treatment now!"

However, before Bai Lin turned around, Fei'er said to Bai Lin in a somewhat weak voice,

"No need, Bai Lin... put me down. I've reached the end. There's no turning back."

Of course, how could Bai Lin, with a gloomy face, accept Fei'er's proposal? She took two steps to the outside and refused loudly as she walked.

"Don't say that! You'll definitely survive!"

After saying this, Bai Lin heard Fei'er's bitter laugh. Then, Bai Lin felt a gentle tug at the edge of her clothes. She paused for a moment, shifting her gaze to Fei'er, only to see her body visibly disintegrate into fragments of light before dispersing.

With a thud, Bai Lin's severely worn knee slammed heavily onto the ground. The physical pain wasn't the most important thing; the final straw that broke the camel's back was, after all, the immense despair.

Bai Lin's eyes, which didn't know what words to use to express it, caught the faint smile on Fei'er's cheek. And the latter replied in the most gentle tone of her life,

"I know my own body best. Just listen to me, Bai Lin."

This was not the first time Fei'er had interfered with Bai Lin's choice, but it was the most difficult one.

In an instant, Bai Lin's whole body completely relaxed. She seemed to have lost all her strength and could only tremble as she laid Fei'er flat on the ground again. Her pupils, which seemed to have lost their expression, drooped down. She looked at Fei'er and said in a low voice,

"Perhaps, I can turn you into a vampire-"

"No, you can't. Someone who's already dead can't do that. Fei'er's life path came to an end years ago. The life that survived under the guise of something as filthy as Manjushage should also end."

The words, which were not too complicated, shattered Bai Lin's last bit of self-deception. She stopped talking and looked at Fei'er. This was the first time Fei'er saw Bai Lin so depressed, but she just opened her mouth and narrated quietly.

"I've faced countless hardships in my life. But having reached this point, I understand that complaining about injustice is futile. Fortunately, tonight, I achieved my goal. The damned man who wanted to harm all of humanity is finally dead. This can be considered... a way of fulfilling the cultivation of everyone in this village, and fulfilling the people who have supported me along the way. These hands, which once took countless lives due to falling into the abyss, are now finally freed through atonement."

"It's just you, Bai Lin. I failed to fulfill my promise to always stand by your side and help you fulfill your wish to save the world—"

"You are not ashamed of me. I am the one who is wrong. I failed to protect you!"

Bai Lin's voice seemed filled with intense emotion, but her pupils only held tears of bitterness. Her body trembled, but her eyes remained unfocused.

She wanted to try her best to keep Fei'er in her eyes, but it was of no use. Or perhaps, the complex emotions in her body prevented her from doing so.

In response to Bai Lin's words, Fei'er still responded with a smile and slightly closed her eyes.

The night sky tonight wasn't particularly clear, but rather shrouded in a gloomy mist. But for the first time, Fei'er felt a sense of lightness in both body and mind. It wasn't the best ending, but it was one she fully embraced.

When Fei'er opened her eyes again, they were filled with the vast clarity of the galaxy. The disturbance and turbidity had completely vanished with the disappearance of the Manjushri lilies. She tried her best to wipe the corners of Bai Lin's eyes with her fingers, but the tears only flowed more fiercely.

"Come on, as a hero you can't keep crying. What if someone sees you?"

Facing Fei'er's words of comfort, Bai Lin's mouth revealed a bitter smile. Although Bai Lin seemed to be burdened with immense pain and her mind seemed to be in a mess, she still knew very clearly in her heart that Fei'er was also doing her best to comfort her.

Chapter 455 Singing Our Vow

The brave man wiped away his tears, and with great effort, he forced a smile at the corner of his mouth, looked at Fei'er and replied,

"That's it."

"Although it's still a little ugly, it's much better than before. I told you you were an idiot. You've been the Holy Son for so long, and you still need me to remind you of this..."

As she spoke, Fei'er's voice gradually became softer. It was just the last rays of the setting sun, but there was not much time left.

Of course, she was also unwilling. Who doesn't want to be a happy and ordinary girl and live a happy life? Fei'er also wanted to stand by Bai Lin's side from the bottom of her heart and see the better world. Bai Lin was naturally very clear about this.

Her eyes were fixed on Bai Lin's cheek for a moment, and she chuckled again, not continuing to lecture Bai Lin. At this parting moment, there were more important words for her.

"Make one last promise with me, Bai Lin. This time, you must complete it well."

Bai Lin was startled, watching Fei'er slowly extend her little finger. Without the slightest hesitation, she hooked it. She remained silent, perhaps hesitant, waiting for Fei'er to speak.

"Kill them all. Carry my will and wipe out the evil things in this world. Don't let the same thing happen to the next fifteen-year-old girl. There shouldn't be another Fei'er in this world..."

After a life filled with ups and downs, I look back and see what seems to be someone else's tragedy. A young girl, ravaged by countless misfortunes, was brought to this point.

The reason for this is probably because humanity itself is still in a relatively weak position. Otherwise, a girl of her age should be receiving an education in a college, watching the morning and evening pass by peacefully, experiencing joy and sorrow, and growing up slowly under care.

Bai Lin's pupils constricted, and she felt something stirring within her. Her little finger, hooked around Fei'er's, trembled gently. She returned Fei'er's intense gaze, taking in every detail of her face. These words, along with her, were etched into her memory.

The deep marks left behind made Bai Lin vaguely recall the day when the two of them made an oath on the Red Maple Road.

We have the same dream

In a dream with someone important

Hook your little finger

Make a wish to never be separated again

Singing, swearing songs

But in this world of ups and downs, how many light dreams can land safely?

This dream was as illusory as mist, dispersing in the blink of an eye. But the eternal being, clumsily, followed it into the distant wind. Perhaps she would never be able to catch up with this distant dream in her lifetime, but she always had a reason not to give up.

"Yes, I promise you."

The ashes finally burned out completely, and were blown away by the gentle breeze. Just like the person Bai Lin wanted to hold tightly, in this night, he gave the knight a light smile and blended into the night.

What is the color of dreams? Will it fade? Or perhaps it will be erased.

-

"Let your body return to dust; let your soul return to silence. May you rest peacefully in the arms of Saint Shirlin—"

The howling wind and torrential rain threatened to rip the daylight apart, obscuring the sky. The curtain of water enveloped the entire city of Camitlan in a haze, making it difficult to see distant objects. The air was filled with an unbearable chill, and the gloomy atmosphere made breathing difficult.

Normally, no one would go out in such bleak, inhospitable weather. But the nuns' voices, reciting hymns, were remarkably clear and calm. Perhaps they were using divine power to defy the gloomy sky.

Outside the city, on a flat, grassy hilltop, a funeral was taking place. Black umbrellas were propped up on the already gloomy lawn, and the presence of people dressed in black made the atmosphere even more solemn.

The two tombstones, which seemed to shine like white ivory but exuded a melancholy atmosphere, stood quietly before everyone. And everyone, in front of them, also remained extremely silent.

After the memorial service, the nuns walked out, holding their umbrellas, and walked to the side of the venue. A mature woman with cherry-pink eyes started a conversation, and the latter replied briefly and quietly,

"Thank you for your hard work."

After that, the nuns slowly left the scene, leaving it to the deceased's family and friends to mourn. A woman in a black gown, without an umbrella, knelt helplessly between two tombstones. Amidst the torrential rain, she made almost no movement, as if she, too, were deceased.

Her long white hair, tangled from the rain, covered her face. Her golden eyes, which used to be as bright as the sun, were now filled with a look of dejection and despair.

After Fei'er completely disappeared that night, she left the bell tower as quickly as a madman, holding her weapon, and rushed out of the street like a steamroller, killing her way out of those crazy people in a bloody storm. Her final destination was, of course, the cathedral in the lower city.

In a place like that, officials were naturally deployed. When they saw a disheveled woman, covered in blood and flesh, with eyes a strange red and a demonic aura approaching the temple, they naturally alertly picked up their weapons and attacked her.

The result of the battle was naturally that the official guards suffered a considerable setback. Under the terrified gaze of the nuns, the devil-like woman accurately grasped Sister Elena's hand and said in an irresistible tone,

"Let me communicate with God, now, immediately——"

In her panic, the nun couldn't recognize the woman in front of her, but after a moment of shock, she did as she was told.

As everyone knows, there's no way a vampire could withstand the divine blessing. In the eyes of the nuns, this woman's actions were tantamount to seeking death. But amidst the nuns' astonishment, the vampire calmly closed her eyes, easily achieving her desired goal.

Chapter 456: Angry, Mad

Bai Lin, who had arrived in the divine realm, naturally did not appear to be the same person she usually was in the outside world. She had returned to her most basic form, that of a brave warrior, but her eyes held nothing but loneliness and the madness of a broken heart. When the god, draped in divine veil and slowly stepping out of the golden light, expressed concern for her, the response she received was rather cold.

"Ajun, tell me how to revive her. You are a god, you must have a way!"

Bai Lin was one of the few people who looked at his girlfriend with pleading eyes. Her hands tightly grasped her, while the latter turned away with a bit of pity and said,

"Bai Lin... Even gods can't break the rules of the world at will. When Fei'er used her shadow power, she had already signed a soul-sacrificing contract with another evil god. All I can do is keep her soul..."

Hearing Ajun's narration, Bai Lin froze for a moment, then immediately said,

"Since I've saved my soul, I'll try to find a way to prepare another body—"

"No, I've said it before. Even I can't break the rules of this world at will. Putting aside the methods and techniques you'll use to create another body, it's already a blessing that this incomplete soul can return to the sky peacefully, let alone adapt to a new body."

Bai Lin hesitantly let go of her hand. She felt dizzy, clutching her ears with both hands, and took two steps back.

Even her girlfriend, a god, had completely shattered her last hope. Now, Bai Lin was truly on the verge of collapse. After a moment, she reorganized her tone, put down her hands, and said in a low voice,

"Really... is there no way? Her life has just begun! Why, why did she have to encounter something like this?!"

Ah Jun sighed and said to Bai Lin in a calm tone,

"That's what adventurers are. Even though there are countless adventurers, most of them can only do odd jobs. But when they go out to explore, they always have to be prepared for unexpected events."

"After all, this is a world where humans are extremely weak. As long as you successfully change this situation, none of this will happen again, and you will be able to return to your original world smoothly."

Obviously, such words could not stir Bai Lin's mind. She lowered her head and muttered tremblingly,

"It's my fault... I shouldn't have..."

"Don't blame yourself too much, Bai Lin. Do you think the world will get better if you just sit here and moan about your mistakes? People are still getting hurt all the time out there. What you need to do now is to rest well and regroup."

Ah Jun's voice hardened. In their previous relationship, she was the more dominant one. The majesty of a god emanated from her, and she stretched out a gentle hand, wanting to pull Bai Lin into her arms.

"This matter also involves serious problems among humans. We can discuss it in detail later—"

After Ah Jun finished speaking, something seemed to flash in Bai Lin's eyes. She straightened her body, gently put down Ah Jun's outstretched hand, and replied with a firm expression,

"Yeah, I understand. I'll just rest for a while. I need some quiet time now. See you next time."

Listening to Bai Lin's seemingly heartless words, and seeing her rapid change and her insincere expression, a hint of bitterness appeared at the corner of Ajun's mouth. But under Bai Lin's firm attitude, she still sent Bai Lin's consciousness back.

"Well, I still have a lot to do this time. See you next time."

Seeing the person before her disappear once more, Ah Jun felt a little powerless and almost collapsed. But she simply shook her head, then pulled herself together again and disappeared into the peaceful golden light.

Bai Lin walked out of the church, holding onto objects like chairs, with an extremely unsteady, drunken gait. At that moment, she clearly felt the coldness of the stagnant blood in her body.

Perhaps the last shred of hope had been extinguished, and Bai Lin's eyes now looked even more lifeless than before. With her blood-stained hands, she pushed open the door of the cathedral once again. Then, amidst the stunned gazes of the crowd, she stumbled against the confessional wall at the entrance, then collapsed limply.

A lot of tears flowed down her face uncontrollably. This was probably the first time in her life that she looked so powerless and ugly.

Trembling hands, trembling heart, uncontrollable crying, who could have imagined that the mysterious figure who had said nothing before and broke through the siege of a large number of guards like a crushing force would have such an expression.

She collapsed to the ground, clutching her head tightly, as if a thousand cries of pain were piercing her mind like needles. She stumbled and waved her hands haphazardly, as if countless cries of pain were slicing her flesh like sharp blades.

Bai Lin, crying feebly, broke through the guards who were once again on high alert after barely recovering their strength. Although the wounds on her body were healing rapidly, she felt countless pains lingering on her body, which would not dissipate for a long time.

And so, Bai Lin once again found herself on the blood-soaked streets, roaring inhumanly, unconcerned with the damage she sustained, brandishing her weapon once more. She devoured the filthy blood, slaughtering those tainted creatures, her steps moving endlessly. As if doing so could save Fei'er, or perhaps, perhaps, she was simply venting the unspoken emotions within her.

Finally, after she had killed all the nearby polluters, she sat down on the ground helplessly. She was in a dead silence, yet she couldn't feel any peace.

Bai Lin bent his knees and hugged them in front of himself, curling up his body as if seeking warmth and comfort.

The sun rose as usual. She finally looked up at the sky, and like dry firewood being ignited, a large amount of flames ignited on her body in an instant.

The dried-up tears, the weary body and soul, finally met their end at this moment. Like a wandering ghost dispersing in the dawn, her body, in the end, was left only as a charred ash on the land.

Bai Lin's reaction after learning that Fei'er could not be resurrected was inspired by Huang Sir's crying scene in Infernal Affairs 2

When it comes to expressing emotions, I feel like my words are too pale and powerless, and I can’t find that feeling.

I feel like I wrote Bai Lin like a female ghost (

Chapter 457 The Coldest Day

This was the warmest sunlight she had ever felt. It burned away all of Bai Lin's thoughts and took away her cold body.

This is what happened after that night. Bai Lin was in a state of confusion as he caressed the inscriptions and dents carved into the tombstone, feeling as if he could feel the traces of their inscriptions through his fingertips.

"Captain... what did we do wrong? Why did we have to endure this...?"

Qinuofu walked out slowly from the shadows, holding an umbrella in one hand and pushing Grell's wheelchair with the other. Although his questioning voice did not contain any accusation, it was like a huge rock, undoubtedly adding a deeper pressure on Bai Lin.

Bai Lin didn't show much, just moved his fingertips slightly. After a long silence, he replied in a hoarse but very clear voice,

"You didn't do anything wrong, I was the one who was wrong."

She looked at her fingers, just like that night when she had carved her name one stroke at a time on the confession wall, and then she sat down beside the tombstone, lowering her head, as if this could make her feel like she had been with them in the past.

I shouldn't have formed this team. This was probably what Bai Lin couldn't say.

Grayer looked at the captain, who was also filled with grief, and said nothing more. He placed another bouquet of flowers between the two graves and then left the funeral. Bai Lin, on the other hand, continued to sit dejectedly beside the cold stone tablet.

The rainstorm seemed to arrive at the perfect time, like the officials of Camitlan cleaning up the wounds left on the city. But the haze lingered for a long time.

Kong glanced at Katie Pello beside him. After waiting for a long time, the latter slowly walked to Bai Lin's side, bent down, and covered her head with an umbrella. She looked at Bai Lin and said,

"Let's go, Bai Lin."

Bai Lin slowly raised her head and looked into the other person's sincere black eyes, but she couldn't muster the energy at all. She took a deep breath, stretched out a hand to wipe the water droplets on her face, and then replied,

"I'm fine, let me stay a little longer, you guys go back first."

Facing Bai Lin's almost unprecedented rejection, Katie showed no intention of leaving. She stretched out her other hand and tilted her head to look at Bai Lin sitting on the ground. But Bai Lin just lowered his head again.