I'm not a womanizer for Chihaya Aine

“So, Aine. Go paint a picture of the beautiful scenery. After experiencing this beauty firsthand, we will surely be able to complete this song that belongs to us.”

Aine felt the warmth and strength coming from Qing's palm, nodded seriously and said: "Okay!"

Although Aine sensed something was wrong with Ao's words, it was obvious that this song "Beautiful Thing" was taught to her by Ao's elders, but Ao spoke as if this song belonged to both of them, and Ao meant that the song was unfinished and needed to be completed by them together.

It feels like Qing has absolute ownership of this song.

In fact, that was the case, so Qing said that subconsciously. Qing really thought that she could complete their own "Beautiful Thing" for Aine, and that such a scene must be very romantic, so she didn't notice the loophole in her words when she was expressing her true feelings.

It's just that everyone knows that people in love don't have brains, except when catching an adulterer, so Aiyin just felt Qing's sincere feelings for her and chose to ignore this slight discord. Maybe one day when she wakes up, she will find that something is wrong.

For now, let’s just enjoy the good time walking home hand in hand.

……

"Qingqing, when is your birthday?"

Aine suddenly asked as the two of them were walking side by side.

Qing was suddenly stunned by Aine's question, and fell into deep thought. After all, she was not sure when Qing's current body was born, but according to the system, the false past will be simulated as close to oneself as possible, so answering Liu Zeqing's birthday before crossing should not be a problem.

"November 9."

Qing replied after a moment.

Aiyin felt a little strange when she saw Qing think for so long before answering, but she didn't think anything big had happened during this period, so she asked casually: "Why did you hesitate for so long? Qingqing, you didn't forget, did you? How long has it been since you celebrated your birthday?"

Qing shrugged and said, "I don't have the habit of celebrating my birthday."

After all, no one cares about a single uncle's birthday, and there is no point in celebrating it alone. Of course, it's nonsense to say that I don't remember my birthday. Before crossing over, Qing often used his ID number, so it's impossible for him not to remember his birthday. He was just considering the situation of this 16-year-old body.

This time, Aiyin was very sensitive and noticed that Qing said "I don't have the habit of celebrating birthdays" instead of "We don't have the habit of celebrating birthdays in our family." Does it mean that in Qing's cognition, celebrating birthdays is a personal matter?

Aiyin had speculated about Qing's family situation before, and had suspected that Qing's parents cared little about Qing. Now it seems that this can be basically confirmed.

From this perspective, birthdays might not be a topic that Qing can happily talk about, so Aiyin smiled and said, "By the way, my birthday is September 9th. So, am I older than Qingqing? Qingqing, why don't you call me sister?"

"I understand. I will prepare a gift for you on your birthday, sister."

Qing simply called Aiyin-sister.

The culture of seniority and juniority in the country where Qing lived before she traveled through time was not as serious as that in Japan and South Korea. As long as someone was capable, you had to call him brother even if he was younger than you. Liu Zeqing had called people younger than her brother before, and called women younger than her sister. What's more, she and Aine were the same age now, so she didn't feel any burden to call Aine sister.

But she didn't know how much damage her calling of "sister" would do to Aine. When she thought of the handsome and reliable Qing calling her sister in a delicate voice, Aine's head was about to explode. Even if she didn't call her sister in a delicate voice, calling her sister without any emotion like this was also very touching!

"Shout again..."

Aiyin and Qing were so excited that they clenched their hands. If it weren't for Qing's strong tolerance, she would have pulled her hands away because of the pain.

Qing tilted her head and asked in confusion: "What's wrong, sister?"

"Good, so cute! Qingqing, let sister hug you!"

Aiyin couldn't help herself and rushed over to hug Qing, rubbing her little head hard in Qing's arms.

Qing helplessly put his hand on Aine's head and whispered: "After all, this is on the street, be careful, Aine!"

Aiyin said regardless: "Call me sister! And what's wrong with me being closer to my sister?"

Apparently, Aiyin lost herself in Qing's repeated calls of "sister", and seemed to have taken the sister setting a little too far. Qing helplessly thought about how to pull Aiyin out of it, and after thinking for a while, he said: "But if we were sisters, there would be many things we couldn't do, and it would be morally problematic."

Aiyin woke up instantly after hearing that, and then got down from Qing's arms and said nonchalantly: "Haha, I was just kidding, Qingqing, let's keep going."

Qing was relieved to see that this trick worked. Fortunately, Aine didn't say something like "Be true to your desires". Morality can still restrain Aine. You know, your gang is an evil plan to make the twin sisters a top CP. Qing is really a little worried that Aine will like this.

Just thinking about this, Qing suddenly realized something strange. She turned her head, stared at Ain with a bad face and asked: "Ain, you don't really want to do something morally questionable to me, do you?"

As soon as Qing finished speaking, she could feel the hand that Aiyin was holding her tremble slightly, and then Aiyin's other hand began to restlessly take care of her hair. After laughing dryly twice, she said with a guilty conscience: "How, how could it be? We are good friends, how could I have any ill intentions towards you?"

Qing narrowed his eyes and looked at Ain, holding Ain's hand and slowly withdrawing it without leaving any trace, trying to pull his hand back and break free from Ain's hand. But Ain also noticed Qing's action, and held Qing's hand tightly to prevent him from breaking free, and the disguise on her face collapsed instantly.

Aiyin used her other hand to grab Qing's hand, lowered her head and buried it in her long cherry-pink hair, and said in a self-deprecating manner: "Yes... yes, so what! I just like Qingqing, there's nothing I can do about it! I just want to do this and that with Qingqing!"

Aiyin's words immediately confused Qing's heart, and she immediately forgot about trying to break free from Aiyin. However, Aiyin still held Qing's hand tightly, and even pulled Qing's hand into her arms.

After a while, the two finally recovered from the shocking words, but Aiyin buried her head with a red face and dared not face Qing anymore.

Aoya suddenly didn't know how to look at Aine, so she slowly turned her gaze to the side and saw a stray cat passing by, looking at the two of them curiously. Although it was not a human, Aoya felt a sense of shame as if she was being spied on.

So Qing slowly lowered his head and said in a much smaller and even weaker voice than usual: "Stupid, don't confess when you are talking about that kind of thing..."

"Yes!"

Aiyin agreed obediently, but her face was still flushed with embarrassment, and she still didn't dare to look up.

Then the atmosphere fell into silence again. Qing suppressed his embarrassment, coughed lightly and said, "Well, let's go."

After saying that, Qing wanted to pull Aiyin forward, but unexpectedly, Aiyin still stood there and grabbed Qing. She raised her head, revealing her face that looked like a ripe red apple, and asked with a evasive look: "So, what is Qingqing's answer?"

Huh? What kind of reply? Is it a reply that you like me or a reply that you want to do this or that with me?

Qing felt as if her head was a mess, her thoughts were constantly tangled, causing her brain, which was usually able to handle problems calmly, to crash. In the end, she really didn't know how to sort out the entanglement, so she could only make up excuses to deal with it.

“No, that’s not possible…Aine, we’re both still young, it’s not the time to talk about those things… Well, right now, the most important thing for us is to study and form a good band…”

Then, Qing seemed to have triggered some combo mechanism and began to speak fluently of excuses: "We are both immature both physically and mentally. If we do something inappropriate on impulse, we will both regret it. Not only will it hurt our bodies, but it will also cast a shadow on our young minds."

"And this will cause irreparable damage to our hard-earned friendship. We will find it difficult to face each other in the future..."

"Excuses... they are all excuses!"

Before Qing could finish his combo of words, Aiyin gritted her teeth and interrupted Qing's chanting.

After being exposed, Qing stopped making excuses awkwardly and said: "What I said is not completely unreasonable..."

Aiyin's eyes suddenly widened, as if she had made up her mind, and then she suddenly changed the position of holding Qing's hands, from sandwiching them from both sides to pinching Qing's hands at the same time, then pressed Qing's hands against her chest, and then placed her hands on the back of Qing's hands.

"What about Qingqing? Has Qingqing never had that kind of fantasy about me?"

Grabbing Qing's hand tightly, Aiyin asked hysterically.

Feeling the softness coming from his palm, Qing didn't have the thought "Aine's here is so soft", but was more feeling Aine's boiling heartbeat, struggling with whether to tell the truth.

What is the truth? Of course, I have never thought about Aine. Ever since Qing came here, her life has been full day by day. As the saying goes, if you keep warm, you think about that. On the other hand, Qing, who is still struggling to make ends meet, has no time to think about that kind of thing.

In addition, Qing also has a psychological barrier towards Aine. In essence, she still thinks of herself as an uncle who likes two-dimensional characters. She is already very happy that Aine likes her so much. The guilt in her heart will make her resist having desires for a teenage high school girl.

Even when accepting Aine's purest love, Qing struggled for a long time before he was sure of his feelings for Aine, and he was still hesitant about whether to take their relationship to the next level.

But Qing's hesitation was something completely different to Aine. Seeing Qing's hesitation and reluctance to speak, Aine seemed to realize something. Her violently beating heart suddenly cooled down as if it had fallen into an ice cellar. The two hands that were holding Qing trembled slightly as she took Qing's hands away from her chest.

After letting go of Qing’s hand, Aine retracted her own hand, then silently took a step back to keep a distance from Qing, with a forced smile on her face, but in Qing’s opinion, it looked like it was about to break.

"Sorry, I was so abrupt. It's all my fault for being so self-righteous. You must be very distressed when I pester you like this, right? It's normal to feel disgusted when you are imagined to do strange things..."

As she said that, Aine’s smile could hardly be maintained.

After taking two deep breaths, Aiyin placed her hands on her chest and pleaded in a trembling voice: "I won't do that again. I will just love Qingqing normally..."

"So... please, don't hate me!"

103

Chapter 103 Explanation, powerlessness, rainy night.

Aiyin has always thought that Qing loves her the most, so she would play some harmless jokes on Qing and would take advantage of her favor to punish Qing for getting too close to other women. This is because she is favored and therefore has nothing to fear.

However, it now seems that Qing's preference for herself is limited, and her love for herself is not the kind of love she thought. This made Aiyin panic, thinking that Qing didn't really like her that much, then those excessive behaviors in the past, and these disgusting behaviors now, are she still worthy of preference in Qing's eyes?

Ain was scared. She felt remorse when she thought that Qing would leave her because of her stupid behavior. Her brain, which was once occupied by desire, was once again ruled by reason. Now Ain only wanted Qing to forgive her stupidity. It didn't matter if Qing didn't forgive her. It was also natural that he couldn't forgive her, but at least he shouldn't leave her.

At this time, Aiyin finally realized how difficult it was for her to walk on this road with Qing. It was definitely not something that could be achieved by simply ignoring the incomprehensible looks of others. The happiness that she once thought she could easily obtain was nothing more than Qing sacrificing for herself.

There was a glimmer of hope in Aiyin's pleading eyes. Even now, there was still a voice hidden deep in her heart, hoping that Qing would smile and say to her, "Is that all?" Then say what she wanted to hear, and even use actions to prove that they were of the same mind. When Aiyin realized that she had such thoughts, she felt that she was being too much.

So, what will Qing do?

Of course Qing would not hate Aine, even though Aine had once fantasized about doing this or that to her, but she didn't care and was even a little flattered.

If a man did this to Qing, she would still feel scared, because it was really possible that the man might push her down by force.

But the person on the other side is Aine, can Aine just force me to fall? I asked.

All the fear comes from the lack of firepower. Now Qing is confident that he can easily subdue Aine, so he doesn’t think it’s a problem that Aine has such strange fantasies about him.

Not to mention that Qing already liked Ain. The fact that Ain had that kind of fantasy about him was also proof that Ain also liked him. Although it was a little strange, Qing still felt happy in his heart.

But the question now is, how to comfort Aine?

The best way to comfort her is to directly prove with actions that what Ain is thinking is fine, and take the initiative to do something beyond the boundaries of friendship for Ain. Ain feels uneasy because she feels that she has done something wrong, so proving that Ain has not done anything wrong can solve the problem from the root.

The specific method is to go up and kiss Aine, or do something more extreme that is not suitable to do on the street.

But Qing couldn't do that.

For Aiyin, love may be something that makes her feel happy, so she longs for love. But for Qing, love is a responsibility, a heavy thing that requires carrying the life and future of the person you love, and it is definitely not something that can be easily spoken out.

Qing likes Aine, but when she needs to bear the responsibility of Aine's life, she shamefully begins to shrink back.

Qing's life is still in a quagmire. Although she has the confidence to struggle to the shore, at least now she is still struggling in the quagmire.

Aiyin is a good girl who warms everyone around her like the sun. The biggest setback in her life is her failure in pretending to be cool. Even if she had not met Qing, her life would still be full of happiness.

So Qing didn't want Ain to struggle in the quagmire with her. She didn't want to think about the tormenting question "Will Ain be better off without me" every day when she was with Ain.

Moreover, Qing felt that Aine didn't know her well. The reason why Aine fell in love with her now was probably because she had the advantage of foresight and could know the personality of each character in advance, so she could handle the characters' problems well.

But this advantage will eventually disappear. Aiyin will eventually recognize the real Yanagisawa Ao, and understand that the girl named Yanagisawa Ao is just a hollow body and a boring soul. Will Aiyin still love herself as much as she does now?

After struggling for a long time, Qing still couldn't go forward to hug Aine and comfort her with a gentle tone; he also couldn't go up to hold Aine's face and start kissing her; let alone say anything more that he couldn't say.

The only things we can do are things that can be done between friends, that's all.

Ao took a step forward, and the distance between the two of them that had been widened due to Aine’s stepping back was shortened again, and the two of them returned to the distance they had at the beginning.

But it was not enough, Qing continued to walk, and walked to the position where he was almost face to face with Aine, which made Aine subconsciously step back half a step. However, Qing raised his hand at this time and grabbed Aine's wrist, preventing Aine from retreating further.

Qing grabbed Aine’s hand and lifted it up, then held it with his other hand, and then placed the hand that was originally holding Aine’s wrist on the back of Aine’s hand, forming a movement of holding Aine’s hand with both hands from front to back, and then raised his head and looked at Aine.

"Aine, I will never hate you, ever."

There was a firm tone in the cold voice. This was the only promise Qing could say without any burden. Like was a little frivolous, and love was too heavy. Only if Qing didn't hate him could he decisively say forever.

Qing's words had some effect. Aine's originally worried and frightened expression relaxed a little, and the expectation in her eyes gradually became heavier.

But Qing knew that she could not meet the expectations that Ain desired deep in her heart, so she could only hold Ain's hand more tightly to show her sincerity.

“I never did that to Aine. It’s definitely not because I don’t like Aine, nor because you’re not attractive enough… It’s just that I have my own reasons. Because of that reason, I never dared to have that kind of thought towards Aine.”

It was a very insincere explanation. Qing was even unwilling to say what the reason was, but she couldn't say it. Qing couldn't possibly tell her own situation. Whether it was her current difficult living environment or her inferiority complex, these were things that she couldn't explain to Aine. All she could do was try to make the pale explanation look sincere.

“I don’t mind you fantasizing about doing this or that to me. If you wish, Aine, then I, I can also… I can also try to do that to you, Aine…”

As Qing spoke, her voice became smaller and smaller. It was more embarrassing than she had imagined to say such words in front of the other person. She didn't have a spiritual connection with him, so she couldn't say frankly, "I consider you as the object of 0721."

Aiyin looked at Qing, whose face was getting redder and redder as she spoke, and forced a smile. Then she placed her free hand on the back of Qing's hand and said softly, "Qingqing, you don't have to force yourself. I can do those weird things by myself... No, I won't do it again in the future."

Qing was still willing to take her hand, and Aine was still very happy, but if it was just like that, the expectation in Aine's heart still quietly fell. After all, Qing still didn't see Aine the same way Aine saw Qing, and just thinking about it made Aine feel very disappointed.

But Aiyin would not ask Qing to do more. Just like she said before, as long as Qing didn't hate herself, it would be enough. Asking for too much would be too greedy.

That’s good, at least I can still be with Qing... But why is it so hard to smile?

After hearing what Ain said, Qing knew that Ain definitely hadn't let it go. Maybe after today, Ain wouldn't be as close to him as before, and would take the initiative to keep a certain distance from him.

But what can Qing do? He can't tell Aine, I hope you can continue to treat me as the object of your fantasy, right? Not to mention that it's weird, if he really wants to say it, what position will Qing have to say it to Aine?

"Really, Qingqing...don't make that expression. You didn't do anything wrong. I was the one who made the mistake. Why are you making that expression of self-blame and wanting to redeem yourself? Cheer up!"

As she spoke, Aine reached out her hand and hooked the corner of Qing’s mouth with her index finger and pulled it up a little bit.

“Aine…”

Qing didn't know what to say, and she didn't know what her expression was at the moment. She could only smile bitterly and call Aine's name.

Aiyin withdrew her hand, and then used her hand to break free from Qing's hand, then took a step back and said, "Just send it here today."

Aiyin knew that Qing was very gentle, so gentle that she would force herself to make her happy. Aiyin once felt complacent because she enjoyed this kind of gentleness, but now Aiyin can no longer enjoy this kind of gentleness without any psychological burden.

Compared to Qing's love for her, Qing has given her much more. So Aiyin can't just rely on and demand, and take this kind of tenderness for granted. Although it's hard to let go and it's hard to bear, it can't go on like this.

Qing was stunned on the spot, and the hand that was freed naturally fell heavily to the side of his thigh. Now it seemed that he could not do anything if he continued to stay by Aine's side. This was different from the last time when Aine did not let him send her home. That time, Aine had a misunderstanding, but the current situation was that there was no misunderstanding between them that could be explained, but there were problems that could not be solved.

Seeing that Qing didn't respond, Aiyin urged, "Hurry up, Qingqing. Look at the dark clouds in the sky. If you don't leave now, it's probably going to rain."

Qing looked up at the dull gray sky above him, took a deep breath, nodded and said to Aine: "Okay, then, see you tomorrow."