People are cursing back, and the good impression is full

A very narrow basement with nothing in it. Apart from the most basic bed, the most valuable thing here might be the cheap second-hand induction cooker.

The man was bent over, wiping the table. The wrinkles of fatigue on his face made him look almost a dozen years older.

As he was busy, the incandescent light above his head became dim, flickering from time to time. Chanyuan Qing could even smell the damp and moldy smell in the surrounding air.

Chapter 26 Diary

The man was bent over, wiping the table. Unconsciously, he stopped moving. He seemed to have fallen asleep. He staggered and almost fell to the ground.

It was only then that Chanyuan Qing noticed that the man's body was trembling slightly, his face was pale, and his limbs were cold. In such a hot summer, this was not the state a normal and healthy person should be in.

But after staggering twice, the man held on to the wall with his hands and stood up stubbornly. He wiped the table, as if only in this way could he find a way to survive.

Just at this moment, the man's cell phone rang. He opened it and saw a text message from his wife.

"Honey, the line at the hospital is a bit long today. I may be back late. Can you cook for yourself?"

There was also a picture attached to the text message. It was a photo full of patients' depressed faces. His wife was standing at the back, with patients queuing up to get numbers in front of her.

Looking at the text above, the man was silent for a while, then typed with some effort and clicked send:

"I'm sorry, Xingzi, I made you queue up at the hospital alone. You must be tired. I'll make dinner and we'll eat together when you come back."

The scene changed, and Chanyuan Qing arrived at the hospital where the woman was. She was standing at the back, about 1.55 meters tall, and looked to weigh only 80 kilograms. She was so thin and small that she stood in the crowd, like a small boat that could be swallowed up at any time.

But for some reason, Chanyuan Qing could feel a huge power from that thin and small figure.

It was an indescribable power that he had never seen in any other sorcerer.

She looked at the text message on her phone with a smile on her face. Just as she was about to type a reply, the other party sent another message.

"Xingzi, let's give up treatment. You're already in the late stage and it won't be cured. Rather than losing everything by then, why not end it now..."

Looking at the message sent, Chanyuan Qing felt a little annoyed. He didn't know where this emotion came from. Perhaps it was anger based on the most basic moral values ​​of an ordinary human being.

People always hope that beautiful things can be taken care of carefully, but the world often does not do that.

The woman looked at the message on her phone and the smile on her face froze.

Chanyuan Qing originally thought that the woman would collapse, cry loudly, and call back to curse the man desperately, but what happened next made Chanyuan Qing unforgettable for the rest of her life.

The skinny and bony woman stared at the phone screen for several seconds, and then the smile on her face, which had not yet completely disappeared, became even brighter.

She typed the two words "hmm" on the keyboard with her index finger with some difficulty.

But just as she was about to send it, she suddenly remembered that if she only said "hmm", it would seem like she was angry.

So the woman found a cute panda emoticon package online, typed two "hmm" on it, and clicked the send button.

After sending those two words, the woman let out a long sigh. She looked at the many patients in front of her and suddenly smiled for some reason.

She laughed without making any sound, and Lu Shi didn't know how to describe that expression.

Relief, reluctance, nostalgia, open-mindedness... At that moment, the expression on the woman's face made Chanyuan Qing's heart pound.

Before Chanyuan Qing could continue thinking, his perspective changed again and he returned to the basement once again.

Zenyuan Qing naturally had no good feelings towards the man who wanted to watch his wife die, but at this moment, the man's crying suddenly attracted Zenyuan Qing's attention.

He turned his head and saw that the man was looking down at his phone, with tears as big as beans dripping from his eyes. The man's crying was soft but very penetrating. The whimpering sound was stuck in his throat by life and could not reveal a single word.

Tears fell on the phone screen, wetting the cute panda picture his wife sent him and distorting everything in the man's eyes. His almost silent sobs were like a blunt knife cutting his heart and lungs.

It was at this time that the man began to cough violently, but he didn't care about it at all. He just dragged his heavy body and cleaned the house bit by bit.

He knew Xingzi's personality. If there was any unfinished work at home, she would definitely rush to do it. She would definitely want him to spend more time with her at the end of her life and give him all the love that she could not give him in the second half of her life.

But...am I not the same?

Chanyuan Qing looked at the man in front of him who was trembling all over but still tidying up various things at home, and looked at the two diagnosis reports issued by the hospital and a diary, Chanyuan Qing fell silent.

The diary was not yet finished, and the contents were not very detailed:

"It was February 17, 2000, and the weather was overcast. It had been three months since Xingzi and I were diagnosed with cancer. Our condition was deteriorating rapidly, and we simply didn't have enough money. I calculated that if we continued like this, we would both die. So, I hid it from Xingzi and secretly stopped my treatment.

I know that Xingzi will be furious and cry when she finds out about this, but I am such a selfish person. I will tell Xingzi that when I confirmed our relationship, I had already said that I would die before her, because death can put an end to everything, while the living have to endure the dampness for a lifetime.

On March 14, 2000, Xiaoyu, Xingzi found out that I had stopped treatment. As expected, she made a fuss for a long time. She cried and asked me to go for treatment, but I just shook my head and told her to live well. We still have children who need to be taken care of, and she needs to live well.

April 17, 2000, sunny. Xingzi was very strong. She told me that she would come down to be with me as soon as her children got married. I told Xingzi that if she came down so early, I would avoid her because people who commit suicide are scary.

On May 18, 2000, it rained heavily, and Xingzi's condition worsened. It seemed as if Heaven didn't want us to have an easy time. Her condition had reached a point where it was almost impossible to cure her...

On June 19, 2000, it was raining heavily. My family was almost out of money, and I was trying to persuade Xingzi to give up treatment...”

The diary did not continue writing here, but some clues can be seen from the almost distorted handwriting and the traces of a few dried tears.

Chanyuan Qing felt very upset.

Chapter 27 High Medical Expenses

The diary just lay there quietly, as if telling something silently.

The man was still wiping the table, but his tears never dried up for a moment.

As a husband and a father, he himself didn't know what kind of mood he was in when he said those words.

There are too many injustices in this world for him...

He was abandoned by his parents at birth due to illness. In an orphanage, he was bullied because of his thin body. The director and others increased his workload as he grew older and even kicked him out when he was thirteen years old.

The reason was also ridiculous. The director thought that he was a person who would bring misfortune, and said that after he came to the orphanage, more than half of the kind-hearted people who came to adopt and donate children had disappeared.

The reason why the dean thought of himself this way was because when he was very young, he once told the dean that he could actually see things that others could not see.

At the moment he was kicked out, he didn't know whether he should be happy or sad, whether he should resent the dean or thank him.

He curled up in the corner like an abandoned stray dog.

But that day, the wild dog encountered a star.

That was probably the luckiest time in his life.

He met Xingzi.

Xingzi gave him an umbrella and took him to the kitchen where she worked. There, she found him a job almost begging him. The price was that Xingzi's own salary, which was almost nothing, was cut in half, and he had no salary at all, only a few dry and hard steamed buns every day.

But those days were the best days in his life. He was able to stay with Xingzi every day and realize that there was such a thing as beauty in this world.

They worked there for a long time, until one day, he took Xingzi's hand and said he wanted to take her to Tokyo and give her a good life.

Looking back now, he himself didn't know how he had the courage to say such words. He knew nothing at that time, and he didn't even know how to take the subway...

He had nothing at the time.

But Xingzi still believed him. She didn't even ask any questions. She just packed her luggage silently, then grabbed the corner of his clothes and nodded at him as usual.

After arriving in Tokyo, he realized how difficult it was to survive in this world. He worked hard, spending all his time except for five hours of sleep every day working, and only then could he find a cramped basement for the two of them to live in.

There is no sunlight here, the kitchen and bathroom are almost connected, and the only ventilation is above the bedroom wall, where there is a small window. When it is opened, you can see the shoes of passers-by.

He felt ashamed to Xingzi that he could only find such a house, but Xingzi never complained about him and she only lost her temper with him once.

It was because he worked overtime until three in the morning that day. When he came back, Xingzi was curled up on the sofa with red eyes. She rushed into his arms, crying and scolding him, telling him not to work so hard and to put his health first.

That day, Xingzi was like a kitten drenched in rain, her whole body trembling constantly. She was afraid of his leaving. From that moment on, he knew that he and Xingzi had already become each other's light.

They lived day by day, and their lives were getting better and better. Because he was very hardworking, he was appreciated by his superior, and his salary was increasing. Xingzi also went out to work part-time, but her body was very weak and she could hardly do any heavy work. Even if she worked as a cashier, she would faint after standing for a whole day.

That was the first time he got angry with Xingzi and told her not to go out to work.

He was earning more and more, so he wanted to move. Xingzi was reluctant, saying, "She likes her current home very much. They should save money and buy a house of their own."

So they still live here.

They had a child, which was the result of their joint discussion, or rather, the result of Xingzi's insistence.

She told him that she wanted to have her own "home" and her own "family" in this world.

He couldn't persuade her and agreed, but he had a request: Xingzi must not refuse any nutritional supplements and necessary hospital treatments he bought for her during this period.

With the mutual persistence of the two, their child was born, a very cute girl. They loved this child more than themselves.

Life was clearly getting better for the family of three, and he was almost saving enough for the down payment...

But at this stage, the man and his wife were both diagnosed with cancer, both in the middle and late stages.

He looked at the report with a pale face.

After looking at the report, the two of them coaxed their child to sleep and cried for a long time.

Finally, under his threat of death, Xingzi promised him that she would receive treatment.

The family's money is only enough to cover the treatment costs for one person.

From then on, I worked day and night.

But God has no mercy on anyone in this world, and the so-called miracles will never happen to insignificant little characters like them.

The light flowing from the fingers of the gods seems to flow only to those who are equally dazzling in the world.

Xingzi's illness showed no sign of improvement despite various treatments. She wanted to give up, but was stopped by her own roars again and again.

But just last week, when he fainted on the construction site, he knew it was all over.

After waking up, he knelt down and begged his leader to let him continue working, but the pot-bellied middle-aged man patted his shoulder indifferently and then told him that if he died at the construction site, he would have to pay millions of yen in compensation, but if he let him leave now, he would only have to pay 500,000 yen.

I begged and told him about my family situation, but he just looked at me with disgust and then said something.

"Don't just think about causing trouble for others because of your own problems!"

After saying that, the other party left.

He didn't tell Xingzi what happened, but Xingzi knew what happened, she knew it better than anyone else.

Just today, when Xingzi's report came out again, the man looked at the report which still showed no improvement, thinking about the future of his child, so he sent Xingzi that message.

If the two of them die cleanly, it will cause less trouble to their children.

The money was enough for the children to live on, but not enough for the two of them to survive.

Chapter 28 Let Go

This is the man's perspective. After reading all the diaries, Zenin Qing's perspective changed instantly and he came to Xingzi's perspective.

The man actually made a mistake, that is, Xingzi actually falsified the final report.

The day she found out about her husband's accident, she gave up on treatment.

Every treatment she receives costs a lot of money.

Xingzi calculated that if she could save the money from this week's treatment, she could buy her child about a quarter's worth of new clothes, take her husband to that Chinese restaurant he'd always wanted to visit, and take an artistic photo of the three of them...

She calculated many things, crying as she did so, but in the end, Zenin Qing discovered that Xingzi had not included herself in the calculations from the beginning to the end.

She saved the money for that week, and every time her husband asked her to go to the hospital, she pretended to go obediently, and then wandered around the park near the hospital until night.

She knew that she could not be cured, and she did not want to add pressure to her husband and children in the end.

In the park, she would find an inconspicuous corner to sit, and then use the needle and thread she bought to knit a sweater for her child bit by bit.

The season she and her husband hate most every year is winter because it is very cold and they can't afford sweaters. They can only walk around in the winter to relieve the stinging cold.

But at that time she still has him after all, and her child will be alone.

She has to knit enough sweaters for her child, who is 2 years old this year. She wants to keep knitting sweaters until he is 20 years old, because she thinks that by then, her child will be able to take care of himself.

But as she knitted, Xingzi realized that she had already knitted until she was 22 years old, and she had no desire to stop. She always thought, what if the child was too careless, or accidentally got fat in the future?!

Later, the two entrusted all their savings to the man who had just died at the entrance. He was their landlord and the landlord of the basement where they had lived for seven years.

They said this was future rent, and with the remaining money, they hoped the landlord could take good care of their children.

After hearing their story, the landlord was so moved that he burst into tears and vowed that he would take good care of the child. After hearing these words, the two of them felt relieved because they felt that the money they gave to the landlord was definitely more than their reward.

After saying those words, the two said goodbye to the landlord.

The landlord asked them where they were going. The two said they wanted to see more of the world before they died, and they didn't want to cause trouble for the landlord. After all, if they died in the landlord's basement, it would probably trouble the landlord.

Upon hearing this, the landlord repeatedly assured that he would take good care of their child as if he were his own.

After saying this, he watched the two of them go away.