Anime, starting from Re:Zero (Zero - Starting Life)

While my brother was studying in the library, I called Rudy to the training ground. While watching Alice practice, we talked about planning for my brother's tenth birthday party.

However, no consensus was reached.

We identified several ways to celebrate, listed the pros and cons, and planned to meet in a coffee shop on our next day off to discuss the details over tea.

Because I recently noticed that I'm almost 5 feet 4 inches tall.

Well...I won't lie in my diary.

I secretly measure my height and some other physical data every day. This morning my height was a little over 139.5cm.

So, I forced Rudy to compare heights. To be precise, in order to avoid Rudy's refusal, I first asked Alice to compare who was taller. In this way, Alice would force Rudy to compare.

The conclusion is very clear. I am half a head taller than Rudy. He is probably less than 1.3 meters now, right?

Little Rudy was so embarrassed that his face turned red.

My sister thinks that being tall is just being tall, and that boys developing slowly is not an excuse, right?

What's more, my brother is obviously growing very fast.

I've noticed recently that my brother (crossed out)

October 16, 416 Jialong calendar year

Exposed.

I don't want to admit it, but I'm not so pathetic as to deceive myself in my diary.

What Rudy said today is very true. Although he is an outsider, he sees things more clearly than me, the person involved.

I'm sorry, brother.

I really want to run away.

I left with my brother because I wanted to protect him, help him, and save him, and that's why I stayed with him all the time.

I believe I did it for him.

But why did I become like this?

I hurt my brother, I deceived my brother, and I let my brother down.

I'm just satisfying myself.

If Rudy hadn't forced me to tell him, I wouldn't have admitted that I was distorting my brother's cognition, would I? I wouldn't have admitted that I was controlling his thoughts, would I?

Yes, it started when I learned that normal siblings need to sleep in separate rooms from the age of five.

I became selfish.

I don't want to tell my brother or discuss it with him.

Even though I know my brother wouldn't want to sleep separately, the roots of our thoughts are probably different, right? His thoughts are pure, while mine are different.

I'm a terrible sister.

I want to sleep next to my brother all the time, hold his hand every night before going to bed, hug him every night, and see the traces he left when he carefully left every morning when I wake up.

I don't want him to know that our relationship is becoming abnormal.

My brother doesn't need to know about such annoying things.

No need to know all the annoying rules.

This is what I thought, and I used to lie to myself that I was helping my brother intercept things that would make him feel boring and a waste of time, but I was just afraid that he would know.

I was even more afraid that my brother would find out that I was lying to him.

I was terrified that my brother would find out that I was trying to confine him, and I couldn't even think about it quietly in my own mind. I could only try to forget and deceive myself, otherwise I might let it slip in my dreams. After all, my brother only needed to sleep for a short while every night.

I had a dream.

My brother can fly, and I was worried that he would float too far away and I would lose him, so I tied him up with a chain. In the dream, I felt very happy and smart. I was afraid that he would fly away, so I locked him up and tied him up. Is this common sense?

But, Sylphy, admit it.

My brother is not your private property.

There is no way you can always be with your brother.

Your brother can't just have you, he must have something else.

Only if you try your best to help your brother and make him strong and mature, can he live well in the long time without everyone around and not make everyone worry.

You can't hurt your brother.

I can't hurt my brother anymore.

You can't forget your original intention, Sylphy.

But you absolutely cannot go on like this.

You have to correct it.

You can't be jealous about your brother reaching marriageable age anymore. You know it's impossible for him to be interested in those girls, and he won't marry a woman who isn't from his tribe.

You can't lie to your brother anymore. There's no need to go to great lengths to prevent him from learning social common sense. You know he doesn't care about human society, right? He only cares about the ethics we uphold and maintain. And besides, you know this, don't you? Even if you try hard to cover up and lie, with your brother's wisdom, he'll figure it out quickly through his casual musings.

Fortunately, my brother doesn’t have much chance to come into contact with these things now.

At least I don't have to wake up again.

You have to face your brother who sees his sister's bad nature.

Sylphy, you're lucky this time, huh?

Well, next time I meet him, I will slowly tell him the truth, including the fact that I have lied to him. He will surely forgive me, but if I don’t make corrections and apologize, I really can’t forgive myself.

Finally, I think about it.

When I turn ten, I will tell my brother everything, right?

Including my thoughts.

My emotions.

All the bad things I did.

In order for my brother to listen to me calmly when the time comes, I must work hard to get back on track in the next year or so and help him grow up well. I can't let him act silly and naive at the right age to get married.

Brother.

brother.

Sylphy is the egg membrane that you need to peck when you hatch.

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Note 1: I can write something like this, so I suspect my heart is a dark ditch.

Note 2:

September 9, 415—Chapter 39

September 1, 416—Chapter 41

January 9, 416 - 41 (not described)

September 1, 416—Chapter 41

Chapter 45 Second Letter (1)

October 17, 416 Jialong calendar year

Gawain received a package forwarded from the Greyrat family in Buena Village.

To be precise, they were three letters from Lokisi.

After a year and a half, I received another letter. Gawain, who looked like a young man with a childish look, was much more mature and calm in his attitude, just like his appearance.

He hadn't even considered visiting Migrud Village. Instead, he truly intended to wait for his reunion with Roxy, just as he had told Sylphy, and then ask her directly about the changes in the village. Yes, even though it would only take a moment, Gawain hadn't visited for over a year.

First, unpack the package.

Gawain placed his own letter in the study, and placed Sylphy's letter on the cabinet at the entrance. Finally, he took Rudy's letter to Boreas's house and handed it to Rudy who was practicing with Alice in the training ground.

Rudy was a little surprised:

“I thought they were all lost!”

They had already calculated Loki's approximate schedule, so they all thought that the letter should have arrived at the beginning of the year. Since it didn't, it was probably lost along the way.

They never even considered the possibility that Luo Qixi might have met with an accident.

Gao Wen speculated:

"Perhaps there was something wrong with Lokisi's itinerary and she failed to avoid the rainy season in the Great Forest, or maybe she wasted time visiting friends in the Holy Kingdom of Milis."

Rudy nodded in agreement and responded:

"If it's Teacher Luo Qixi, this is normal."

You can't say this to Teacher Luo Qixi in person.

After delivering the letter, Gawain and Rudy chatted for a while about their recent situation, then said goodbye and parted ways.

Gao Wen postponed his next trip for the time being, returned home and brewed a pot of tea, which he had been drinking a lot recently. He took the tea and walked into his study, sat down at the desk, poured the tea, and then picked up the thick letter.

"I'm really being treated differently. What's so worrying about me?"

Gawain frowned slightly and peeled off the sealing wax.

Six sheets of paper, almost more than the other two combined.

He did his usual rough check and then began reading carefully from the first line of the first page:

Dear Gao Wen:

(The text [ ] is Luo Qixi's inner thoughts when she wrote the letter)

Writing that word for the fifth time, I inexplicably began to feel a little ashamed. Perhaps changing the wording would be better, but wouldn't that seem deliberate? Surely Gao Wen would notice the difference in wording between the two letters?

I really hope he will read it so carefully.

【It is like seeing you in person.】

I really want to see you again. Today is only the first day of July 415, but by this time next year, maybe I will be back in the Kingdom of Asura, right?

I really want to live with you all again.

What identity should I stay in then?

I'm writing to you from the northernmost Sandstone Port of Milis Continent, just one step away from returning to the Demon Continent. I'm sure you still remember this place I mentioned, right?

You'd better remember.

I'm sorry to start this off by saying this, but this should be the last letter. I did some research today, and due to the reliability of the trade routes, it seems I can't include a gift this time.

Everything is obviously ready.

Originally, I had intended to mail my second letter and local gifts from the Holy Kingdom of Milis. However, as I searched for my old friends, I increasingly discovered that this place seemed even more hostile to demons than my last visit, reportedly due to political infighting among the upper echelons. To prevent my painstakingly written letter and selected gifts from being quietly discarded or stolen by the local postman, I wisely abandoned my original plan.

Maybe they won't be willing to take orders from the demons at all?

However, I've decided to stay in my hometown for only three months this time. After all, I'm not needed there. So by the time you receive this letter, I'll probably have already returned to the Holy Kingdom of Milis. We can expect to meet again in a few months. Please look forward to our reunion soon! I'll bring you plenty of local specialties as gifts.

But you need me, right? See you next time. Perhaps I can be your mentor, not just a teacher who imparts knowledge. Just as you brought salvation to me, I also hope to guide your life and prevent you from falling into the quagmire of distortion.

【You should still welcome me, right? 】

Just thinking about this kind of thing makes me want to die. If I'm not welcome, I'll definitely make a scene. Well, let me add this sentence to this letter! I hope this isn't the last one to be delivered, or at least not this one along with another one without this sentence.

"If you don't welcome me, I'll cause a scene in the village, making it impossible for you to live in Buena Village. You can't disrespect your teacher, okay?"

That's how it should be.

【As usual, let me share my travel experience during this period. 】

Gao Wen, you like travel stories, right? I understand.

[I mentioned this last time, didn't I? I planned to look for the friends I met during my past journeys in the Holy Kingdom of Milis, but unfortunately...]

I still can't admit that the first time I thought I fell in love with someone, I was fooled by the power of the Charm Eyes. Anyway, I'll just pretend nothing happened. I'm Luo Qixi, a seasoned relationship guru. The next time we meet, my students will be almost at the age of falling in love. I can't afford to embarrass myself and be exposed in this way.