Anime, starting from Re:Zero (Zero - Starting Life)

Gao Wen couldn't help but sigh:

This ability may become a standard feature of magicians in the future.

Chapter 40 Sister's Diary (1)

October 29, 414 Jialong calendar year

In the morning, I gave Rudy the letter I had written in advance and the money I had earned from helping my brother with experiments and assisting him in the past few months, and asked him to deliver it to my parents.

I hope my parents are willing to spend the money I send back, and I also hope they can do well in the village.

But it’s probably difficult, right?

I could only control myself from thinking too much, otherwise I would definitely cry. If I asked my brother to comfort me, my life, which had just calmed down, would be shaken again.

Mom and Dad are working hard, and Sylphy will also work hard.

We will definitely be able to save my brother.

Because we all love our brother.

Because I like my brother.

Because we are family.

October 16, 415 Jialong calendar year

First dance practice with my brother.

Although I don't want to admit it, my current height and body shape are actually not in line with my brother's. I have grown very fast in recent months, but as of today I am only about 1.3 meters tall, but my brother is already approaching 1.6 meters, and does not look like a nine-year-old child at all.

When I go shopping with my brother, people might mistake us for father and daughter just by looking at our backs.

hateful.

Fortunately, I am very good at dancing with taller people. After all, the teacher Fiora who has been practicing with me is about the same height as my current brother.

My brother's learning speed is still as fast as ever.

This lovely guy's talents in all areas except emotional realm seem to be exaggerated to the point of being jaw-dropping.

That's why Sylphy, as the younger sister of this fool, has to protect him, guide him, and care for him emotionally, and not let her very strong but very fragile brother suffer emotional trauma again.

My brother is protected by me.

My brother was taught by me.

My brother is mine.

October 2, 415 Jialong calendar year

The dance learning went very smoothly.

Even though I only took a few classes, maybe ten hours in total, my brother had already learned all the dance knowledge I had spent months and even had Teacher Fiora tutor me for a long time.

Yes, all of them. My brother even learned some advanced female moves to better match me. Well, just like I learned male moves specifically so I could teach them to my brother one day.

By the way, most social dances in the Kingdom of Asura are unisex, probably due to universal considerations, coupled with the prevailing social climate in the capital.

I am very touched that my brother always does this for me.

But every time this happens, I feel lonely.

Am I really of any value to my brother?

He can obviously do anything on his own.

During an elective course, the teacher talked about a phenomenon in nature: it is said that newly hatched birds will regard the first creature they see as their mother, and will always follow and be affectionate to it.

For a powerful and perfect being like my brother, it is perhaps a similar principle that makes him pity fragile and short-lived individuals like us, even at the cost of leaving indelible cruel scars on his own soul?

I can't help but think:

Maybe I was taking advantage of him.

Maybe I was hurting him.

Just like I can't help but imagine:

Perhaps the Vitrum people are no different from us, just like the legendary immortal demon king with infinite lifespan who fell in love with the human North God.

Maybe our love is not a burden to him.

Maybe I can actually save him.

If my brother really needs to be saved, if that is not just our wishful thinking and the idea imposed on him by ordinary people.

Then I want to save my brother.

While holding his hand and dancing with him.

Then I want my brother to be happy.

As he held my waist and spun me around lightly.

Then I want my brother to never suffer.

As he held me up and allowed me to dance on his fingertips.

So I was always observing my brother and trying to analyze him, especially after he confessed to me. Such actions were no longer for my own little hope of understanding and getting closer to my brother, but were carried out with the expectations of my parents and even Rudy and the teachers. It was the only thing I had the opportunity to do, to understand my brother as a real Vitrum person and to empathize with his true self.

Maybe my brother didn't even notice.

But I was getting closer to him, closer than anyone else, and sometimes I even felt like I could jump into the ocean called Gawain Vitrudia, exploring deeper, deeper places that even my brother himself could hardly reach and perceive.

It was a pure and deep ocean.

I sank into it.

But I began to feel afraid of it.

My thoughts gradually became confused.

I know.

I'm not afraid of my brother.

I'm afraid of myself.

October 1, 415 Jialong calendar year

Alice's birthday went smoothly.

But for me, a lot of things didn't go smoothly.

At first, I couldn't move the birthday present I prepared for Alice into the auditorium. I even asked Rudy to arrange a place for it in the auditorium, but he didn't take the size of the door into consideration.

Alice probably wouldn't mind such a small thing, and I'm sure she'd like this gift. I took some of my brother's suggestions into consideration, but I didn't make it extravagant. After all, I didn't want to spend my brother's money on a gift. Instead, I used most of my part-time job earnings and asked the children at the orphanage and some textile workers I knew in the slums to make it. As a small shareholder in the Chamber of Commerce, I'd organized several charity events, so everyone was happy to help me.

After that, my brother attacked me again.

When I left Buena Village, I had vowed to never trouble my brother again, but I couldn't. Furthermore, my brother had helped shape the school environment, right? Yet, I was always smug about how well I'd maintained the atmosphere my brother had wanted.

I really haven't made any progress.

As for my brother's kiss at the end of the song, it was the happiest kiss I have ever felt. Even though my little selfishness was accidentally leaked and Rudy teased me afterwards, I still don't regret it.

But I should regret it.

Although I didn't reflect on my actions properly at the time, and even got irritated by the girls who came to invite my brother to dance, I should reflect on it seriously now.

Regret...Reflection...

I can't really understand these two words. My head is dizzy and really confused. I don't know what I'm thinking, what I want, what I'm doing, and where it will lead.

I can be a selfish guy.

Rather, I am a completely selfish bad kid.

I am not a good sister to my brother.

I don't deserve my brother's love.

I want to help my brother, I want him to be happy and content. I want him to be able to be himself... I shouldn't want to possess him... I shouldn't rely on my understanding of him... I shouldn't take advantage of his trust...

But why?

I am his sister, right? I am his family, right? I am the one who understands him best, right? I am the one he cares about and loves the most, right?

He should be mine, right?

Why do these superficial, useless and disgusting women who are meeting my brother for the first time dare to snatch my brother away?

Didn't you see him kissing me? Didn't you see how well we danced together? Didn't you see that I was his sister?

Brother is not someone you can spy on!

Yes, I should reflect on myself.

I seem to have done a lot of wrong things, and I have been doing them since the beginning, but I have no way of recalling or distinguishing how much selfishness I have instilled in my brother, and how much of his cognition I have deceived and distorted.

I don't know anymore.

But Sylphy will correct it.

Therefore, Sylphy can still stay with her brother.

Sylphy will control herself.

Sylphy feels very guilty, doesn't she?

Brother will forgive Sylphy.

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Note 1: The sister’s training and teaching diary refers to the younger sister’s training and teaching of her older brother.

The older brother prefers sons, and the younger sister prefers daughters. This is called family education. I really like what Mr. Gao Wen said, "You are not qualified to raise her."

Note 2:

September 12, 414—Chapter 20

September 4, 415—Chapter 26

415年5月2日——26-27间（未描写）

415年7月1日——第30-34章

Chapter 41: Ten Years Old (1)

September of the 416th year of the Jialong calendar

Another year has passed.

As usual, Rudy went home for about seven days, bringing with him Sylphy's letter and gifts.

After he came back, he said calmly that everything was fine in the village. Although the villagers would definitely exclude the two families, there were no serious problems.

Norn and Aisha were also growing up smoothly. Now just over two years old, they could already trot briskly and had no problems speaking. Aisha also seemed to be a prodigy, significantly smarter than her peer Sylphy. At just two years old, she had already begun learning to write with the help of Sylphy's notebook.

Rudy planned to wait until Aisha grew up a little and had a more complete mindset before he began teaching her magic. Although Aisha should be able to learn it now, everyone was worried that she would harm herself or others by mastering too much power so early.

When it comes to the topic of his sister, Rudy talks endlessly.

By the way, Gawain rarely joined in on this kind of homely discussion, and he seemed to have a lot of insights, much to Sylphy's shame.

In short, the three of them planned to take time to research and develop a magic tutorial suitable for children, especially those interested in improving basic chant-based offensive magic. Using the shortened chant technique left by Teacher Luo Qixi, they thought they might be able to develop a basic chant-based water magic with virtually no offensive power. This would be perfect for beginners, and using it for both powerful magic and non-chanting exercises would be both convenient and safe.

If getting started is easier, then Norn, who seems to have average talent, can also join the enlightenment learning and will not be left behind by his genius sister too early.

Well...Rudy also pays attention to the relevant details.

Simply put, considering her current age, Aisha seems to be too scheming, but she is not the bad or selfish type. Instead, she is a little too adult and is very good at keeping things balanced and reducing the troubles she may encounter.

As a result, when Rudy returned home for the Chinese New Year six months later, he discovered that Nolen, who originally had a strong personality and did not like his genius sister very much, had been completely tamed by Aisha and almost became Aisha's little follower. The status of the sisters was completely reversed.

But Aisha didn't go too far and was very kind to her sister. Not only did she not bully her dumber sister, but she used her advantageous position to raise her sister to be a better child. As a result, no one in the family dared to speak up to correct her. Even Aisha's biological mother, Lilia, was confused and couldn't even find a reason to apologize to Senice.

Rudy kind of wants to become an apprentice.

If he had half the power of Aisha, the person sitting next to Gao Wen would definitely be him instead of Sylphy, right? Too weak, Usu-chan!