surrogate marriage

The wind was still whistling by his ears, Ruan Qiu looked at Mu Na blankly, the tears on his face were cold, his whole soul seemed to be emptied.

In his memory, since Ruan Feng passed away, Ruan Qiu had never heard Mu Na talk about what was in his heart.

In the past, she thought countless times that Mu Na probably hated her, hated that she insisted on letting her father come back for his birthday, which caused a car accident, and hated her for taking away the person she loved the most.

It turned out that she still had such thoughts in her heart.

Ruan Qiu's body was staggering, and she was deeply uncomfortable. She finally tasted it again, "Mom..."

Her mouth was hoarse and trembling, and Mu Na looked at her with tears all over her face. Ruan Qiu had the same beautiful eyes as hers, and even her temperament was more and more like hers, but now, the grief in her eyes made Mu Na He bit his lower lip.

"You are so cruel." Ruan Qiu's tears fell in rows, she didn't want to cry, but she just couldn't control it.

Mu Na looked into her eyes, Ruan Qiu shook her head, her eyes were gloomy: "You think...it's all you think...why you never ask me."

Ask her what she really wants.

Ask her, is all this really what she wants?

……

Chu Qing chased and searched for a long time before seeing Ruan Qiu under the gazebo. Her hands holding her clothes tightened, as if her heart had been pierced by a sword.

Mu Na had already left, and Ruan Qiu was squatting there alone, her arms hugged her tightly, although she lowered her head, her feet were wet.

She didn't know how long she squatted there, let alone how long she cried silently by herself.

For a moment, Chu Qing even felt a pain to breathe, and she walked towards Ruan Qiu step by step.

Chu Qing has never asked what she has experienced in these years. She always thinks that in the future, they will be together forever. The past will not count, no matter how they are misunderstood , slander, and even being accused by relatives, that is in the past. From now on, they have each other, and there will be no more pain.

It was with great difficulty that Chu Qing dragged Ruan Qiu out of the pain, but now, in the blink of an eye, the brilliance in Ruan Ruan's eyes disappeared again, she was like a withered flower blooming in winter, dimmed.

Chu Qing walked over, knelt down and hugged Ruan Qiu from behind, smelling the familiar smell, Ruan Qiu bit her lip tightly, her whole body tensed.

Ruan Qiu cried for a long time, and Chu Qing also stayed with her for a long time.

Until the legs are numb.

Chu Qing wiped away the tears on Ruan Qiu's face, and said softly, "Ruan Ruan, let's go home, okay?"

Ruan Qiu's eyes were a little scattered, like a puppet whose soul had been pulled away, she nodded mechanically, and was pulled up by Chu Qing's hand.

The journey back was very long, and Ruan Qiu's mind went blank. Mu Na's words sounded like a spell in his mind over and over again.

——Why didn't you agree?Because Ruan Feng died, I brought a oil bottle with me. I was afraid, afraid that this oil bottle was stubborn and weird. Without my father, my mother would go with someone else, she would feel uncomfortable, and she would die of pain! ! !

Are you uncomfortable?

Do you want to die?

Ruan Qiu really felt this way after listening to Mu Na's words.

It turns out... It turns out that she took away my father's life, and now even my mother's happiness is delayed by her.

What was she born for?

What did she do wrong?

Back home, Su Xin and Yun Rui had already left, Chu Qing took Ruan Qiu in, saw the tears on her face flushed by the wind, she went into the bathroom and brought out a basin of water, gently gave her wipe.

The solidified tears were melted away by the warm water. No matter how gentle Chu Qing's movements were, they would inevitably sting, but Ruan Qiu didn't say a word, and let Chu Qing fiddle without moving.

When Chu Qing went to the bathroom to change the water, there was a creak, the bedroom door was pushed open, and a small head poked out timidly.

Ruan Qiu, who had been absent-minded all this time, turned her head slowly, and she looked at the child sent by Mu Na herself.

This child is really similar to her, especially those eyes. She looked at Ruan Qiu nervously, as if she was also looking at her, and her small eyes were full of horror.

Chu Qing came over, she knelt down and walked to the child and asked softly, "Are you hungry?"

The kid nodded.

Chu Qing: "What's your name?"

The child timidly said: "Duo Duo."

a lot...

redundant birth.

This is the name her mother herself gave her.

Chu Qing felt uncomfortable, she heated up those dishes, and picked some foods that were not warmed by chili peppers for Duoduo to eat.

Duoduo lowered her head, shrunk her small body into a ball, and devoured the food. She didn't even chew, but desperately pushed the food into her mouth.

Chu Qing looked at Ruan Qiu from time to time, and Ruan Qiu kept staring at Duoduo, not knowing what he was thinking.

I don't know how long it took.

Duoduo was full, she sat on the chair conscientiously, secretly wiping the rice grains at the corner of her mouth with a paper, she felt that she would definitely not be liked by the two beautiful sisters.

Ruan Qiu got up suddenly, she walked towards Duoduo, Duoduo's shoulders were retracted, and her body was huddled into a small ball. She was wandering around the so-called father's house for a few days because of her mother, and was bullied and neglected. Today, there is a The very cold aunt found her, asked her some questions, took her to the hospital for some tests, and then went to the home of two beautiful sisters. Duoduo was naturally sensitive. She felt that these two sisters were not bad people, but... Ruan Qiu She looked a little scary, just like that aunt.

Ruan Qiu stood beside her and looked at Duoduo: "Are you full?"

Duoduo nodded, Chu Qing looked at Ruan Qiu: "Ruan Ruan..."

Ruan Qiu stared at Duoduo: "Get up when you are full. I sent a message to your grandfather. He will pick you up in a while."

Although Duoduo is young, she doesn't know everything. She knows that she was abandoned by her mother, and her father doesn't want her. She doesn't have a grandfather. She is almost six years old, but because of long-term malnutrition, she looks like she is only four years old. Left and right look.

Duoduo secretly grabbed the corner of Chu Qing's clothes, and looked at her pleadingly.

She doesn't want to go.

It is because she has been wandering for a long time and has experienced too many dangers. She has her own intuition about danger. She feels that these two sisters are good people, and she does not want to be thrown away again.

Chu Qing looked at Ruan Qiu, and Ruan Qiu stared at Duoduo: "I can't support you."

Duoduo's eyes were red, and Ruan Qiu took a deep breath: "Get up, I'll take you to take a bath."

Everyone around her knows how cleanliness Ruan Qiu is, but now... Chu Qing pursed her lips and watched her hug Duoduo.

The fragrance on Ruan Qiu's body made Duoduo a little nervous. She was afraid that she would stain Ruan Qiu's clothes with her dirty body. Ruan Qiu didn't speak and hugged her into the bathroom.

Giving Duoduo a bath is a big project.

Her hair was already knotted, and basically couldn't be undone. Ruan Qiu tried a lot but couldn't help it. Duoduo's big eyes blinked lightly: "Yes...you can cut it off."

Ruan Qiu looked down at her: "Aren't you afraid of being ugly?"

Duoduo shivered for a while, she bit her lip and shook her head: "I'm not afraid."

Ruan Qiu stared at her, Duoduo dodged his eyes: "Anyway... No one is looking at me anyway."

These words seemed to lift away a certain pain that had been buried in her heart for a long time. Ruan Qiu took a deep breath and forced back tears. She was patient and washed it for nearly ten times before and after, and her hair finally became smooth. After wiping her seriously, she applied body wash again. Seeing the bubbles on her body, Duoduo's expression softened a bit.

When Ruan Qiu finished all this, she could barely lift her waist. She gritted her teeth and put the hot water away: "You soak for a while."

Duoduo nodded obediently, she curled up in the bathtub, soaking quietly.

She is different from other children. If other children take a hot bath, they will definitely laugh and laugh, but she is like a robot. What Ruan Qiu says, she does.Duoduo sat motionless in the water, but kept staring at Ruan Qiu.

When Ruan Qiu opened the door and went out, Chu Qing ordered a new set of children's clothes and stood outside, "I just went to buy them."

Ruan Qiu nodded, she went in again without looking Chu Qing in the eye.

In her memory, Duoduo hardly ever wore such soft and beautiful clothes and small skirts. She remembered that when she was very young, her mother once wore a pink skirt for her, saying that she was going to lead her to see her father. At that time, she was very Happy, thinking that I can finally see my father, and finally be able to be hugged by my father like other children. She has never seen Ruan Hao since she was born, and the impression of the word father is still in the mouths of the children in the village. .

But that day was almost a nightmare for Duoduo. When Dad saw her, Duoduo felt that he was very happy at the moment, but then his mother didn't know what he said to him, and his face changed drastically. The two adults were still older There was a quarrel with the family, and in the end she almost wanted to fight, so scared that she shrank under the chair and dared not come out.

From then on, Duoduo understood that she was redundant.

Ruan Qiu dried Duoduo's hair for her, she thought about it, went to the next room, dug out the box for a long time, found an old yellow doll and handed it to Duoduo, "here. "

Duoduo took it.

Ruan Qiu: "This is my childhood toy. It has been with me for a long time. If you are afraid, hold it. Your grandpa will come soon and he will treat you very well. You are the only child in their family."

Ruan Hao doesn't know what's wrong. He's been married for many years and has never had any children. Many people outside Yingyingyanyan have no news, and finally got a lot of them. No matter what the reason is, he is just here Throw it outside.

Duoduo held the doll with her head down, and Ruan Qiu packed her schoolbag and the paternity test that Mu Na took her to the hospital for.

Duoduo looked at the doll's slightly yellowed face: "Is it from my aunt when she was young?"

Ruan Qiu nodded, "Yes."

When she was a child, her father left, and Muna was always busy with her career. She dared not sleep alone with her doll in her arms.Sometimes the child would make a fuss, would cry to find his parents, and Yang Zhuo would coax her. When Mu Na heard her call her dad, she would cry every time. Later, Ruan Qiu gradually understood that she stopped making troubles. Tell the doll what she said, and this doll accompanied her through the darkest childhood.

Neither of them spoke.

Duoduo held the doll, and after a long time, she asked softly, "Auntie, why can't you have me?"

She already knew about her relationship with Ruan Qiu. In the process of getting along just now, Duoduo felt that Ruan Qiu was a good aunt. Although she didn't say much, she always treated her very well, was very gentle, and never disliked her.

Ruan Qiu's hands froze when she was packing things, and she was silent for a moment. She walked up to Duoduo and hugged her: "Duoduo, you are still young and don't understand. You have your own home, and your grandparents will love you very much. Auntie assures you that although your father cannot accept it now, if you give him some time, he will definitely love you. And auntie... auntie has been a failure all her life, and even she is in a mess, let alone taking care of you. You are dead, and I have no ability to make you happy."

Duoduo stared into Ruan Qiu's eyes for a long time, and she said seriously: "Auntie, you are a good person."

Ruan Qiu lowered his head, hiding the tears in his eyes.

When Ruan Hao's father, Ruan Shan, arrived, he got out of the car and almost slipped. When he received Ruan Qiu's message, his heart trembled.

Their family actually has a queen!He has a granddaughter!

Ruan Qiu came out carrying Duoduo, and Duoduo hid behind her. Before Ruan Shan could speak, his wife rushed over and hugged Duoduo: "Duoduo, I am grandma, I am you grandmother!"

It was the first time that Duoduo was kissed like this by a strange woman. She was so frightened that she trembled all over, and looked at Ruan Qiu and Chu Qing eagerly.

Chu Qing watched Ruan Qiu walk to Ruan Shan, and handed him Duoduo's schoolbag: "This is a paternity test."

When Ruan Shan took it, his hands were trembling. He squinted his eyes and looked at the words on it, tearing up.

Duoduo was taken away just like that. Before she got into the car, she looked back at Ruan Qiu. Ruan Qiu smiled at her. Duoduo slipped off Grandpa's body. She rushed forward and hugged Ruan Qiu's leg. .

Ruan Qiu lowered her head and stroked her hair: "Okay, be happy."

Duoduo cried, this aunt who only got along with her for half a day, she will remember for the rest of her life: "Auntie, you are a good person, you also want to be happy."

happiness……

Duoduo is gone.

Ruan Qiu stood in the wind and watched the direction the car was leaving for a long time, while Chu Qing stayed by her side in silence.

Throughout the whole day, Ruan Qiu was silent, and Chu Qing was a little worried.

At night, she hugged Ruan Qiu to sleep, kissing her forehead all the time, with Ruan Qiu's back facing her, the moonlight spilled into the room and fell on the glass table, the refracted light reflected the tears in the corners of Ruan Qiu's eyes crystal clear.

Chu Qing woke up in the middle of the night. When she woke up, the people around her were gone. Chu Qing was startled. She didn't even have time to put on her slippers, so she ran out to find someone.

After searching around, I finally saw Ruan Qiu on the rooftop.

Ruan Qiu sat there alone, holding a cigarette in her hand. She didn't smoke, but just lit it, with long hair draped around her shoulders, she stared blankly at the moon.

Chu Qing was so heartbroken, she walked over and hugged her from behind: "Ruan Ruan."

Ruan Qiu didn't move.

Chu Qing's voice was full of tears: "Don't do this."

do not do that……

She was really sad and distressed.

Ruan Qiu's body finally softened. She could close herself and prevent anyone from entering her heart, but she couldn't be cruel to Chu Qing.

She can't push her away.

She promised Chu Qing that no matter what happens in the future, she will be by her side.

"Qingqing."

Ruan Qiu looked at her, with tears streaming from the corners of her eyes, she wiped the tears with the back of her hand: "I didn't...Qingqing, I didn't expect Dad to die, I didn't mean it...I was too young at that time, I just wanted to see you Seeing him...me too...I don't have a weird personality...I'm just afraid, afraid that my mother will hate me, afraid that others will blame me...I dare not speak any more...I'm afraid of killing someone again...I dare not face it They... I have been working hard, desperately trying, just to... I... let her forgive me..."

Ruan Qiu has really worked hard. From childhood to adulthood, he has endured countless hardships and exhausted all his strength, wanting to make his mother hug her kindly, kiss her, and forgive her like when she was a child...

But why can't he forgive her?

……why?