life and joy

After returning home, the private doctor was already waiting in the hall. After careful inspection, he said that there was no problem. He only stayed with ** for a few words before bowing and leaving.

Yao Qi sat on the sofa with his legs crossed and watched the whole thing quietly.It wasn't until the doctor said that there was no serious problem and that the root cause of the disease would not be the cause of the illness. Even so, he still didn't say a word, and went upstairs in silence.

He Huan wanted to get up early the next day and cook to please Yao Qi, who was in a stormy mood, but as soon as he woke up, Yao Qi knocked on the door, skillfully and naturally handing over a bowl of porridge.

He Huan, who was extremely uncomfortable, suppressed his doubts and patiently finished the drink, then turned his head and waited for the other party to speak without saying a word.

"I'm going to have a physical examination today. It's rare for us to have the same time. You, can you go with me?"

He Huan breathed a sigh of relief silently, sighed again, and said, based on your identity, even if you don't have this level of identity, just because you treat me like this, how can I refuse you when you ask me, why bother to speak like this.

Yao Qi didn't answer, just asked, will you go with me?

I don't know if it's an illusion, but He Huan always feels that Yao Qi treats him differently than when he treats others, and it always has an unpredictable meaning.

Therefore, some questions are always unanswered.

When I saw my aunt in the hospital, she was standing in the middle of the interns in a plain white robe, and she was commanding. When she saw He Huan approaching, she leaned forward slightly, as if she wanted to say something, and then she stood there as if remembering something. In the end, nothing was said.

The two nodded slightly and passed by.

After a year, the hatred that had been there before had turned into an annoyance that I didn't want to see.Although I still don't believe how selfless and noble the so-called relatives are, He Huan already wants to let himself go.

It is the best way to get along with each other, not hypocritical or entangled, grateful and not disturbing each other.That's enough.

Yao Qi was tall and stood between them tightly. He only gave the two of them a chance to look at each other for a moment before leading He Huan upstairs.

Then there is a whole set of physical examination.He Huan's examination focuses on leg injuries, and he can just wait for the doctor's consultation with peace of mind. Yao Qi is different. In order to justify the excuses he made up, he can only do a full set of physical examinations, from the tip of his hair to his big toe. .

After He Huan's diagnosis report came out, Yao Qi was still surrounded by a group of doctors waiting for some inexplicable examinations.He Huan sat bored for a while, then turned around a long corridor, and he saw a familiar figure when he was going to take a stroll in the garden.

Although this is the most authoritative hospital in Daicheng, the buildings are very old. Although it is not a dangerous building, it will always make people feel dilapidated.

And the corridor he strayed into was the former pediatrics department.Since the independent pediatric hospital moved out, few people have come here, and it has been deserted like an old country house.Yin Chao was sitting in such a corridor in a daze.

The temperature continued to rise in the afternoon, and it was hot and uncomfortable.But Yin Chao sat motionless on the chair with his elbows on his knees.

He Huan suddenly felt that the sensible, obedient and omnipotent monitor in his cognition seemed to have a loneliness that had never been communicated to outsiders.

He walked over, sat down quietly, and said, what a coincidence.

Yin Chao still maintained the posture just now, without surprise or joy, and there was no conditioned reflex on his face when ordinary people touch another person.He only moved his stiff legs slightly, and whispered, um.

The sun shines directly from countless light-years away, mapping the two different teenagers into the same silhouette.They're all too suited for that petrified sad look.

The surroundings were too quiet, and the sunlight was not as familiar as usual. For a moment, He Huan thought that time and space had been messed up.In such a chaotic time and space, Yin Chao lowered his head and said hoarsely, I once had a twin sister.Then it was gone.

He Huan instinctively looked up at the sign in the consulting room in front of him: Pediatrics.

The deep voice sounded again, and Yin Chao said, we are twins, but there was only one person left when we graduated.Birth certificate, death certificate, from the same doctor and the same pen.

The surroundings are very quiet, and the sunlight slanted in from the window at the end of the corridor, trying to fill the cold space with a little warmth.He Huan looked back and looked at the promenade, as if it would never end.

He has always thought that speaking can be learned, as long as you think, you can control your expression very well, but at this moment, he searched his guts and found that only silence can express the utmost respect for sadness.

We talk and walk with others with a smile, but in fact, everyone has a secret wound in their heart.

The phone "ding" pulled He Huan back from the brink of sinking, looked down, it was Yao Qi's message, with a frowning expression on it, accompanied by the words asking where He Huan was.

He stood up, patted Yin Chao on the shoulder, and said, have you been here for a long time, shall we go back together?

It wasn't until the two of them walked back that they realized that Yao Qi's physical examination hadn't ended yet. There was only one colonoscopy left, and the person who pretended to be a patient raised his hand and refused.In order to get sponsorship for his department, the doctor took the trouble to explain the benefits of colonoscopy.

But no matter what he said, Yao Qi remained sullen and showed no interest at all.

He Huan blinked his eyes very naturally and innocently, and said, you have a bad stomach, and you often have a stomachache and can't eat anything, so you should check it out.

Yao Qi fought against a group of people by himself, consciously weak and weak, and subconsciously turned his attention to Yin Chao.Then I saw Yin Chao rubbing his nose and turning his head away, there was still a vague smile on the corner of his mouth.

Several people in the clinic were extremely professional and skillful in doing their own duties, while the two people outside the clinic were a little excited, with indescribable expressions on their faces.He Huan was ready to wait for Yao Qi to come out and throw a tantrum or find fault with eccentricity.

But Yao Qi didn't.He was just a little silent, sitting quietly in the back seat with frost on his face.

He Huan, on the other hand, has been focusing on the stomach and intestines intentionally or unintentionally, and knows all kinds of food that nourish the stomach.Yao Qi frowned and pretended to be a deaf person.Taking care of He Huan in name but actually being taken care of all these years, he always thought that raising a child was a very easy task.

Until today, when He Huan became so playful, he suddenly realized that no matter how old they are, children are all demons!

Yin Chao looked back and saw the no longer seamless expression on He Huan's face for the first time, feeling happy and a little sad at the same time.

Still can't help it, calmly watching the reflection of others in his bright eyes, talking to him with joy.

The happiness he wants to see is He Huan's happiness, not the happiness of He Huan and others.

After sending Yin Chao home along the way, Yao Qi got out of the car early on the pretext of having something to do.Standing alone by the side of the road, I suddenly felt that my old heart was overloaded. Fortunately, he used to want to eat, live, and sleep with He Huan day and night. What did he think, it must be a ghost!

He Huan, who saw Yao Qi throwing a rock at his own foot, was in a strangely good mood, holding the steering wheel with both hands and felt that he could relax.

The weather was fine that day, and it was the feeling of not feeling guilty about doing something bad.

But he sat in the car for a long time and didn't think of what he wanted in particular, or where he wanted to go.So he kicked the accelerator and rushed to the western suburbs cemetery.

Time is really a good medicine. After five years, the young man who was so stubborn that he desperately wanted an explanation would no longer mistake his disappointment in life as hatred for others.In a trance, I have already forgotten where the destructive hatred after my mother's funeral came from.

Life will get better and better, and the warmth owed by God will be made up in other ways in other places.

He made such a wish, as for whether to believe it or not... Many times we can only believe but not think.

However, he never thought that he would see the face that had caused countless nightmares in front of his mother's grave.

He Huan went to park the car, then strolled over, thinking all the way to share all the happy things that happened in these years with his mother, but after turning a small road, he saw the station in front of the monument that he was about to arrive at one person.

That is someone who is not familiar with but impossible to forget in this life.

He Huan was stunned for a moment, then took two steps back and hid behind the wall, feeling cold all over his body leaning against the marble wall.

The weather that day was really good, the sky was clear and the sun was gentle, and there was no wind in the cemetery.The man's voice reached He Huan's ears intermittently.

He said, the last thing I wanted was to be seen by you as no longer enthusiastic when I got old.I didn't expect to see me anymore. After all, even if you are alive, you may not want to see me again.

After five years of sleeping in the ground, the rain beat down her clothing and muddy clothes, and there was only one posthumous photo that vaguely revealed her voice and appearance when she was alive.Through this frozen face, she stared at the lonely man in front of her, watching the well-dressed professor collapse in the sunlight.

As if, it seems that being in the eternal darkness can no longer be redeemed.

He Huan didn't know when he got up and left, but he didn't go far, but sat with the old man guarding the grave for a while.

He didn't come out until the sun set and the man who had collapsed into a pile of mud put on a hard face again and left. He carefully wiped the photo on the tombstone with a handkerchief, and said soothingly, it's late today, and I will come to see you another day.

When he left, he took a handful of daisies on the ground with him.

The man once called her Little Daisy and treated her like a daisy.

She had been his daisy.

They used to be the envy of others.

But in the eyes of He Huan who has experienced everything, this is more like a joke.

Live and see how absurd the world is.

For so many years, none of He Huan's knots have been unraveled. The only thing that has changed is that he has more longing for this empty life, and some longing for an unpredictable person.

Before returning home, He Huan went to the market first.After running more than half of the Daicheng map from the south to the north, I can buy the fresh ingredients I want.The words that teased Yao Qi just now were not just teasing, he really wanted to make it for Yao Qi.

But I never thought that Yao Qi would care so much, like a little girl who still hides from her mother while taking a bath.

It's just a colonoscopy, is it necessary to bother?Perhaps, the lover he has been protecting seamlessly is a man?This idea suddenly flashed in my mind, and there was a loud thunder on the ground.