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Qi's father took Kun's mother away. When he came, Kundun stood in the middle of the living room in a daze, with a small puddle of dried blood under his feet. He got off the long-distance bus and took the train again. Just wait in the living room.

Father Qi went to the bathroom to search around, and finally wiped off the blood on the floor tiles with a foot towel dipped in water. Kun Dun watched his father kneeling on the ground struggling to pick up the blood, his gray hair shaking in front of his eyes. .He knelt down numbly, kneeling in front of his father, and stretched out his hand to brush the broken hair beside the old man's eyes to the side.

"Dad, I was wrong." Kun Dun's head swelled. He knew that he had hurt his parents. He should live his life according to their expectations. It would be fine if there was no Tingdi. It won't be so painful.

"You're right, son." Father Qi finally wiped off the blood, and he straightened up and sat on the ground.The child in front of him is not his own. The child was only six or seven years old when he saw Kundun for the first time. Such a small child did not cause him any trouble. When he met him, he called 'Dad' to help him take care of himself. His two sons have always been very sensible and sensible.

The child lost weight, Qi's father reached out and touched the top of Kundun's head, his eldest son finally grew up.

"I'll take your mother back, don't worry, Dad will persuade her well, she will understand, give us some time." Qi's father stood up and went to the house to find Kun's mother.

Kun Dun just watched his father help his mother out of the house. He raised his hand to explain to his father, his difficult and unyielding love, his mother's persecution and torture, and his hopelessness, but he didn't say anything in the end.

Kun Dun went to see Tingdi, Tingdi was very strange recently, he was always doing things non-stop.

Ting Di bought all the materials needed for the adult college entrance examination and read them day and night. He kept drawing, with twisted and weird patterns one after another, and kept talking, mostly talking to himself.Kun Dun was afraid that he was too suffocated at home, so he took Tingdi outside, but Tingdi became afraid of the crowd, and even vomited in fear. He would shiver at night and suffer from insomnia, but he liked to hide himself in the shadows.He began to be unable to eat, and often stayed in the corner all day, but he never forgot to hold the review materials at these times.

Kun Dun knew what happened to Ting Di, he just didn't want to admit it.

The door opened, and Ting Di stood at the door. He knew that it was Kun Dun who came to look for him. He was very happy, but he didn't take his eyes off the book in his hand.

Kun Dun stepped forward and silently hugged Ting Di into his arms, and the child let him hug him obediently, like a beautiful doll.

His Ting Di was gone.

Kun Dun hugged Tingdi and fell on the floor. He wanted to just take a rest like this, and when he had enough rest, he would take Tingdi to see a doctor.

When he opened his eyes again, what he saw was the ceiling of the hospital. Kun Dun turned his head sideways, Ting Zang saw him awake by the bed, and poured him a glass of water.

"Where's Tingdi?" Kun Dun sat up and asked Tingzang.

"I'm seeing a doctor." Tingzang replied.

"Have you been diagnosed?" Kun Dun's voice trembled.

"No, the doctor said it's not depression, it's just some minor mental illness, and it will be fine."

"I thought I would protect him well, I... I thought at the beginning, I thought it would be fine." Kun Dun explained to Tingzang hoarsely, "I didn't know it would come to this point, I'm sorry, really, I'm sorry .”

Ting Zang shook his head at him, "I'm leaving, the company asked me to adapt to the environment as soon as possible, and Xiaoqi's going abroad is almost done, so come see me off when the time comes."

"Aren't you going with the fourth child?" Kun Dun asked him.

"No, I'll wait for him over there. The company has already handed over the work, so I'll go first." Ting Zang looked at Kundun, "My brother is handed over to you, treat him well."

After talking about Ting Zang, he went out. He smoked a cigarette downstairs in the inpatient building of the hospital, and saw Ting Di sitting on the bench in front of him.

"Brother." Ting Di looked at the thick night in front of him and called him, "Why can't I do anything well? I can't learn what is written in the book, I'm so bad."

Ting Zang also sat down, and he held his brother's shoulders, "You did a good job, brother, I know you have been wronged a lot, I didn't do well as a brother, and I didn't do well as a lover, it's my brother's fault. "

Ting Di turned his head to look at Ting Zang, he turned his head very slowly recently, he thought for a while before shaking his head to comfort Ting Zang, "You are a very good brother."

"Thank you." Ting Zang said solemnly to Ting Di, "Thank you for not disliking me as a homosexual at the beginning. Brother, brother is leaving. I am a very cowardly person. When I encounter problems, I only want to escape this way. My What he has done has caused Xiaoqi to suffer a lot. He has been resisting his parents, but I will only hide and pretend how difficult my feelings are. I am useless. I don’t want Xiaoqi to stay here and be wronged again. Can you understand?"

Ting Di nodded slowly, Ting Zang saw it and continued to say: "Would you like to go abroad with us? I chose Xiao Qi, but I don't want to leave you here by yourself. I have never wanted to be an older brother since I was a child I took you by my side and wanted to compensate you, but failed to protect you, you, do you blame me?"

Ting Di looked at Ting Zang strangely, "Why should I blame you, you are the best brother in the world, you will cook for me, make my bed, and help me beat people who bully me, you are a very good person."

"But I found you a month after my parents died. I, I don't know how you spent that month. I want to make up for you, brother, come with me. If you miss Kundun, you can come back to see him ,OK?"

Hearing this, Ting Di shook her head firmly, "You don't owe me anything, and you don't need to compensate me. I like Kundun very much. I want to see him every day. I won't go with you."

Ting Zang smiled, he patted Ting Di on the back and stood up, "My Ting Zi has grown up, brother, I know you can always stand by his side like now, not cowardly hiding behind him, but calm , face the censure with him openly, you will persevere, brother, I bless you."

He hugged his brother, strode out of the hospital, Ting Di shouted to him behind him, "Brother, I wish you happiness."

I will, brother, we all will.

Ting Di was sitting in front of Kundun's hospital bed. He carefully placed Kundun's infusion hand on his palm, and then gently held it.

"I'll be fine." He comforted Kundun, and Kundun looked at him motionless.

"I'll be fine, I'll be the same as before, but I'm a little sad now, I want to be with you, I don't want to leave." Ting Di said slowly, Kun Dun reached out and wiped his face.

"You said, I can come to you if I am wronged. I, I am in a bad mood now. I have been in a bad mood. I want to tell you. I have endured it for a long time. Now I want to talk to you. Is that okay? "

Kun Dun hugged Tingdi's head to his chest, so that he could hear his heartbeat, "both ears and heart are listening."

Father Qi didn't take his wife back immediately, he found a small hotel, the couple sat on the narrow bed in the hotel, relatively silent.

"I watched a lot at home." Qi's father finally said, "At that time you called the eldest son a pervert, I didn't stop you, because I thought the same way, and he is your own son, I can't take care of it, but today When I saw the child from my son's house, I felt distressed all at once." Qi's father grabbed Kun's mother's hand, and the two old people drew strength from each other.

"You teach your son a lesson and say that I don't understand your feelings. In fact, I have always known what you think. My son is already difficult enough. We are just adding to the chaos now. You say your son is a pervert and keep scolding, that is You were born, you can't scold him like that, he has to, he hurts so much, the child is fucking, you are a fucking mother, you have to be their confidence." Qi's father became more and more excited as he spoke, his eyes turned red "When the fourth child was young, I hugged him and thought, what kind of daughter-in-law will this kid bring back to me when he grows up? I had a few grandchildren, and we both retired. We have nothing else to do, and I help them take care of the children. The children are surrounded by a circle, how beautiful. Now there is nothing, it’s not like that, I know you can’t accept it , I also feel bad, these days I just think about it at home, and then the old Li’s son died in a car accident, I suddenly figured it out, I’ve only lived for seven or eighty years, it’s useless to be so lenient, the child thinks Just do whatever you want, we are getting old, let’s live our lives well.”

"No, no!" Mother Kun cried again, she withdrew her hand, and resolutely retorted, "My son can't be gay, what a shame, shame, Lao Qi."

"It's not shameful, there's nothing shameful about it, our son didn't steal or rob, and he earns more than the sons of those old guys, so there's nothing shameful about it." Qi's father wiped away tears for Kun's mother, "The eldest son is you Brought it here, he was sensible at that time, the most worry-free, it’s useless for us to worry about it, he grew up in a blink of an eye, I looked at him today, what a young man, if you like a man, you should like a man, be filial to us That's fine." Qi's father's voice gradually trembled, "When I went there today, the ground was covered with blood, and my son had such a gash on his hand, and he knelt on the ground to admit his mistake to me. My heart, such a good son, we have to Is it satisfying to be forced to die? What a son, I can't bear it."

Kun's mother fell on the bed and began to cry louder and louder. Qi's father also began to cry. The two old people cried for a long time in this small hotel room.