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I didn't follow up, even if I was shameless, the word "disgusting" was enough to make me die for a while.I sat on the ground for a while, got up and patted my buttocks and went home.

The door was unlocked, my dad was home, and it might have been almost a month since I last saw him.He is sitting on the sofa, looking at his phone.

"Dad." I called him.

He raised his head, his eyes froze, and he paused for a few seconds before saying, "Well, I'm back."

I walked into the house when he suddenly stopped me.I stopped and looked at him. He opened his mouth, but didn't speak immediately, as if he changed his mind when he said something. Finally, he lowered his head and continued to look at his phone. He said in a flat tone, "Why are your clothes so dirty? Change them quickly." go."

I stood leaning on the wall for a while, and said "um".I originally wanted to say "I fell and stained my clothes", but after thinking about it, I think it doesn't make sense.His question wasn't really curious about why my clothes were dirty, it was just the beginning of a command.Has the same effect as "The weather is nice" in greetings.

I'm really tired. Since it's an unnecessary answer, I'll save my energy by not saying it.

I did not go to my own room, but went into the knight's bedroom.The curtains were not drawn, the quilt was spread neatly, and the desk was also placed cleanly, as if no one had touched it for a long time.

I stood in the small open space in the middle of the room, threw my schoolbag and dirty coat casually to my feet, turned around in a circle, glanced over the gray wall, and finally stopped on the wardrobe door.

I walked over, opened the cabinet door, and found that his black backpack was gone.That backpack has been placed in the bottom shelf of the closet since he lived in this room.I think it's a marker, just like the expedition team planted the flag in Antarctica.It is in the closet, this room belongs to the knight, and it is gone, this room becomes the guest room again.

I secretly flipped through his black backpack. Apart from the daily necessities he brought at that time, there was another plastic bag, which contained a thin photo album and a watch, which were left to him by his father.

He didn't take a few clothes from the closet, and he should have left everything on the desk.

He only took away the things he brought, as if everything here didn't belong to him, and he didn't have to, including me.

My dad had no dinner at night, so we randomly found a restaurant for dinner.

When ordering, he asked: "Where is the knight? Is he coming back for dinner?"

I shook my head: "He's staying at a friend's house these days."

My dad froze for a moment, said, "That's all right, that's all," and handed the menu to the waiter.

"He said he will live in the school in the future." I said again.

My dad picked up the phone and said "um" as if he didn't care.

He spent New Year's Day at home and left on the [-]nd, leaving me alone at home.I ran to the knight's bed to sleep, covered my head tightly under the quilt, and buried it in the pillow, trying to inhale some smell, but I couldn't smell any "special" smell after trying hard for a long time, which made me suspicious He replaced the sheets and covers with new ones.

On the morning of the [-]rd, I was woken up by the doorbell, and I pulled my slippers to open the door.

The heating in the house is sufficient, I only wore a thin pajamas, and the air-conditioning outside the door made me shiver.

"Hey, wear more, don't catch a cold!" Uncle Zhang said.

I still couldn't keep my eyes open, so I smiled at him while rubbing my eyes, and turned sideways: "It's so hot at home, uncle, come in and sit down."

He smiled: "I won't sit down anymore, I have something to do later," he said, bringing a big paper bag in front of me, "Here, your dad asked me to buy you a birthday present, happy birthday, Paradise."

When I stopped rubbing my eyes, I realized that today is my birthday.Taking it from him, I looked at the paper bag, it was the latest joint sneakers.

"Thank you."

"Thank you for what, your dad gave it to me!" He said and took a few steps back, "Then I'm leaving, stay at home alone and be careful, remember to lock the door and close the windows."

I roared coquettishly: "Understood! You drive carefully."

After closing the door, I put the paper bag against the wall.Every year on my birthday, Uncle Zhang comes to give gifts, and he always says that my dad asked me to buy them.At first I believed it, then I pretended to believe it.

I walked aimlessly around the house, and finally went back to the knight's room.I opened the curtains and found that it was snowing outside, it should have just started to fall, and there were no traces on the ground yet.

I looked at it for a long time, but without changing clothes, I put on a down jacket over my pajamas and went out.I sat on the steps in front of the lobby of the building, took out my mobile phone and sent a message to the knight: Today is my birthday, I want to see you, you should go home.

After waiting for 10 minutes without a reply, I called again: I will wait for you at the door of my house. If you don't come, I will keep waiting.

I know that my current behavior is very annoying, no different from the vicious female second in the TV series.I never understood before, how could she shamelessly post the heroine who said she hated the second female lead?

At this moment, I understand that she doesn't have to post, but there is no other way to do it, and if she lets go, it means that she will never have anything to do with her again and become a complete stranger.And even if you are loathed, at least you can bind the other party, even if it is a bad relationship, it is better than breaking the relationship.

This is an act of breaking a pot after being desperate, and it completely abandons self-esteem.

He didn't reply to my messages, so I kept sending him messages, telling him that it was snowing, I was hungry, and asked him to bring me a finger-licking chicken when he came.He also said that the snow was getting bigger and bigger, and the children in the yard ran out to have snowball fights, and I wanted to have a snowball fight with him too.Also, I wore very little clothes, and the wind was blowing in through the neckline, so it was so cold; it was getting dark, the wind was getting stronger, and the snow hadn't stopped, and I was so cold that I couldn't feel my legs.

When the phone was only 5.00% charged, I sent him the last message: Why don’t you come, I’m still waiting for you, I won’t go home until I’m frozen to death.

I don't want to run upstairs to recharge, I'm afraid he will come when I go upstairs.So I stuffed my phone, which was no different from a brick, into my pocket, and huddled in my down jacket like a bum.

To be honest, I'm not sure, I don't know if he will come.There is an electronic clock hanging in the hall, and I look back from time to time.At eight o'clock, I thought I would wait until ten o'clock, and at ten o'clock I planned to wait until eleven o'clock, and at eleven o'clock I changed it to twelve o'clock.Just wait until twelve o'clock, after twelve o'clock my birthday will be over, so forget it if he doesn't come.

I bent my legs, put my upper body against my thighs, put my forehead on my knees, and leaned against my hat to keep out the wind.I gradually became a little sleepy, my eyes were half-closed, and my head was also confused.

Just as I was about to slip into unconsciousness, a roar from the top of my head woke me up.

"Are you fucking sick?"

I opened my eyes in an instant, and slowly stood up with my forearms supporting my legs, and a pair of familiar sneakers appeared in front of my eyes.

I looked up, I couldn't see his face clearly, I smiled, I tried my best to smile, my face was a little stiff, and I didn't know if the smile was good or not: "Brother!"

I stood up wobbly, not standing still, like falling backwards, he grabbed me, and I took advantage of the momentum and arched into his arms.

He also really wanted style over warmth, the coat was open, and I slipped in smoothly, wrapping my arms around his waist in his coat.

He pulled me for a long time, and I don't know where the strength came from, but I hugged him very tightly.He didn't reject me any more, and let me hold him.

After being silent for a while, he opened his mouth and said word by word: "Why did you..." He sighed, because of this hugging posture, all words became intimate whispers, "Yuanyuan, please be more rational? Use your head to think about the results of this going on. My words that day were enough to let you understand my attitude and what kind of person I am. Are you comfortable torturing yourself like this? Will you be happy in the future? "

"I don't want the result." I buried my head under his shoulder and said in a low voice, "I don't look at the result. I'm short-sighted. I don't look at the future or the past. I just live day by day."

"fun……"

I interrupted him and looked up at him: "Also, I don't know if I will be happy in the future. Anyway, I have been unhappy since I was a child. My father is not like my father, and my mother is not like my mother. How can I be happy? I am used to Look at other people's faces, I please everyone. I don't want them to think I'm bad, I don't want them not to like me. But I don't need it for you, you can dislike me, you can disgust me. But I like you , I like you so much that I can’t leave you. I don’t want to think about you! I will stay by your side for the rest of my life, until you get used to it, until the day you are immune.”

I finished speaking in one breath, because my articulation was not very clear due to the cold, and I was a little out of breath.He stared straight ahead, didn't look at me and didn't speak.I looked at him gasping for breath, put my foot on the ground regardless, and quickly kissed him on the lips.

He looked down at me, frowning.

This is more convenient, you don't need to step on your feet, you just need to raise your head to kiss him, so I took another sip on his lips.

He closed his eyes, his eyelashes trembling, not sure if it was anger or what kind of emotion.

He took a deep breath, opened his eyes, and met mine, as if warning me: "Paradise, I warned you."

"Warning? Keep me away from you? Keep a distance from me?" I looked straight at him, unreasonable at all, because I was already shameless and skinless, so I wasn't afraid to be shameless anymore. It doesn't matter. "I don't want to, I won't..."

However, his response was far beyond my expectation, something I hadn't expected at all. He almost fired a cannonball and coaxed me to pieces, but it was a happy mess.

I was interrupted by him, and I couldn't say the word "yes"—it was blocked in my throat by his lips.

I don't know how it happened, but his hands cupped my cheeks, and his lips intertwined with mine.Comparing the two kisses I gave him with his fierceness, it was nothing like a small fight.

I feel his teeth nibbling on my lower lip, and licking again.After licking my lower lip, my tongue invaded my mouth again. I forgot to breathe, and I could only feel his breath wrapping around me.My body was weak, and the electric current was passing through my spine continuously, making me fall all over, with nothing in my head.

Fortunately, he caught me before I knelt on the ground foolishly.

Being hooped around my waist, I still have to fall backwards.

He paused momentarily and said, "Stand still."

I was dumbfounded: "Oh..."

He smiled lightly, and rubbed his thumb on my eyelids: "Close your eyes too."

"it is good……"

I seem to be a robot that only obeys his command, and I will do whatever he asks me to do.

Eyes closed, it was dark, and then I was kissed by him again.

Kissing is wonderful, a process of mutual aggression and possession.The "tsk tsk" sound of lips and teeth intertwined made me feel ashamed but couldn't stop.I feel that this is not very decent behavior, with some dark and evil.However, things in the gray area can always make people excited, amnesiac, trembling and suffocating.As if time had stopped, there was only him and me in the world at this moment, and kissing was the only thing to do.