【Xu Run】Laoshizi

That night he sat in the imperial garden for a whole night, the moon went down and the sun rose again, and when it was almost noon, there was a palace official who couldn't stand it anymore, tremblingly stepped forward to persuade:

"Immortal... rest."

Bai Yixian blinked, and her pitch-black eyes turned a translucent color like glass under the midday sun.The palace maid was an older palace lady, she suddenly felt her heart beating wildly when she saw this scene, as if it was ominous, she hurriedly lowered her head not daring to look, and said:

"The holy maiden suddenly changed dramatically, and she couldn't think about it for a while before she spoke rudely. The immortals don't care about it."

The day before when the saint and the fairy in white met in the imperial garden, the saint suddenly broke down and threw a tantrum at the fairy in white. Everyone in the palace knew about it.It would be a lie to say that the people in the harem have never seen a woman who fell out of favor go crazy, but she lost her composure in front of her rival, and the proud rival didn't care about it. Send it back to the dormitory - I haven't seen it before.

Immortals are immortals, different from ordinary harem women.Everyone murmured in private, yes, he is an immortal in the nine heavens, and the world of mortals is just passing away. Maybe he can't say a little sincerity to King Yi, so how can he care about a small defeated general.

But in a blink of an eye, he returned to the Imperial Garden, sat by the Taiye Pond and blew the cool breeze all night.This cool wind not only blows on the body of the white-clothed fairy, but also blows in the hearts of the palace people.Thanks to Yi Wang's careful care all day long, everyone's impression of Bai Yixian is that he can't carry his shoulders and hands, and he is afraid of the cold and weak and sickly. , so he naturally thought that Bai Yixian was not in good health.

This will bring out three good things and two bad things. King Yi will definitely peel off the skin of He Gong when he comes back.The saint herself wanted to have a tough idea, but the palace servants didn't want to bury her with her.

Here comes the advice.

"Actually, this lady in the palace, if you are favored today, she will fall out of favor tomorrow. Ups and downs are just normal. The saintess has been in a high position for a long time, but she doesn't understand such a reason." The maid slowly persuaded. , "Immortals don't have to worry about it."

Runyu looked at the lake and was silent for a moment, then suddenly said: "They used to...have a good relationship?"

"This..." The maid thought for a while, but still said: "It's not up to the servants to comment on the specifics. But the saint loves Yi Wang more than Yi Wang loves the saint."

"...Why?"

"Although the family of holy doctors is the hero who founded the country, there is a saying from the ancestors that they do not enter the court as officials, but only use women to enter the palace as queens to protect the family, so they live in isolation and are far away from home." The maid said, "The saint left her hometown since she was a child." She has no relatives or friends around her, and the nobles in the capital are already dissatisfied with the holy doctor family's permanent position as queen, and all the peers she can come into contact with are obsessed with her, and she has nothing but King Yi."

"Immortals are immortals in the sky and stars in the sky. I'm afraid they can't understand the kind of unaccompanied misery? If one person is willing to treat each other sincerely under such circumstances, I'm afraid..."

I'm afraid I'll have to burn my brains to repay this kindness.Bai Yixian said softly in his heart.How could he not understand?His situation in heaven is much more miserable than that of the saint. Although the saint is lonely, she is a righteous saint in the capital. Her beloved is her future husband, and the night god in the sky ?

He is an illegitimate child who cannot be seen, and a pawn in the hands of the Emperor of Heaven.

Only Xufeng, only him, doesn't think I'm humble, nor does he think my personality is dull and boring. He is innocent, sincere, childish, and always follows me eagerly, shouting "brother" and "brother".Sometimes I even think, in fact, his loneliness is no less than mine. Although there is never a shortage of people in this world who want to treat him sincerely, but he is too proud and too superior. No one can make him open except my brother. Heart, to gain his trust.

He is lonely, and I am lonely, so I think, if we are together, maybe we don't have to be alone anymore.Me and him, we live together, and it's also very good.But in fact, this is just wishful thinking on my part.

I guess he is very lonely, in fact, he obviously has many friends, he is just waiting for someone who really catches the eye, and he just wants to open his heart for that person.

I was wrong, grabbing the little firefly light that I thought I wanted to warm myself, but in fact, I came from the bottom of the lake, and I was destined to be cold since I was born.

He suddenly asked: "Where is the saint's palace?"

Before sunset that day, the saint heard someone lightly knocking on the door of her bedroom twice.Distraught, she shouted, "No, no, no, no, no, no, no one!"

"..."

There was no sound outside the hall, not even the sound of someone walking away. The saint had a premonition: that person was still outside the door, waiting for her quietly. This sense of existence didn't need to be announced, it seemed to hit the apex of her heart.She was restless, as if she had a premonition, she rushed to the door and opened it, and it turned out to be the man in white.

"what are you going to do?!"

"...I'm sorry." The man in white's voice was hoarse, as if crying, but his eyes were clearly dry, "I made you sad."

The saint said angrily: "Who wants you to be hypocritical, you go!" She said and pushed the man in white, and the man in white suddenly said: "If you can make this never happen, will you be happy?"

The saint frowned, not knowing what the meaning was, and the man in white slowly stretched out his hand, and touched her eyebrows, and she felt as if something had been emptied from her mind, replaced by a new memory: she and King Yi together Went to the Lantern Festival on Qixi Festival, she made a vow not to marry unless you are a king, King Yi laughed when he heard it; they watched the year together, she looked at King Yi, and King Yi looked at her, they looked at each other and smiled, and heavy snow fell outside the window ...

When she came back to her senses, there was no one in front of her.

...Why did I open the door?She was puzzled.

Don't worry about it, finish embroidering the purse soon, and give it to Brother Yi Wang when he comes back.

Yi Wang also suffered from insomnia that night.Bai Yixian didn't know about it, but he actually ordered someone to pass letters by flying pigeons every day to report Bai Yixian's current situation to him.He had been away for half a month, and he was so worried that he would die. He read those briefings every day, and felt that he was closer to Bai Yixian, and his heart warmed up.

He began to regret not having the courage to ask Bai Yixian to go to the border with him—he originally thought that the conditions on the battlefield would be difficult, and he was afraid that Bai Yixian would be wronged, but now that he thinks about it, the border also has some beautiful scenery. The sunset is also beautiful.

I only hope that every year in the future, I can enjoy the beautiful scenery with him.

In the past, the white-clothed fairy didn't like to go out, so the content in the briefing was simple, just the time of day and night, whether there was food or not; but in the briefing sent the day before yesterday, the shadow guard wrote anxiously that the white-clothed fairy and the saint seemed to have happened. dispute.

As for the matter of the harem, who is favored and who is out of favor, it is not clear for a while, and the shadow guards dare not add oil and vinegar, for fear that one day the saint will be favored again, and King Yi will hold them accountable, so he tries to tell the truth as much as possible: I went to the Imperial Garden, and met the saint there, and the two quarreled by the lake for a while. Sitting by the pool.

Yi Wang couldn't sit still.He knew the saintess at first, but after the incident in the first month, he found that he didn't know the saintess anymore. He could only guess what the saintess had said to the fairy in white, but every guess made him terrified.

——In all fairness, he had a crush on the saint when he was growing up.He loves her and thinks she is the most beautiful because of being together day and night, but he has never been sure that this is the so-called "love". He only knows that they will get married in the future.If you want to get married, you naturally have to treat others better, and the saint has no relatives, only him, so he feels obliged to take care of her more.

But there are still many things that the saint can't do. She doesn't understand that Yi Wang's obsession with Bai Yixian is just one of them.She also hated King Yi's marching and fighting, but she didn't know that Huaiwu was once weak and poor. His father, grandfather, and great-grandfather kept a low profile for three generations before raising an army. If Huaiwu did not fight, he would have to wait for his death.

He thinks she is very good, just by her side, sometimes he still feels lonely, as if he was born with a disability, and there is a missing piece in his body, which makes him out of tune with others.He also thought that loneliness was the normal state of a king, until the arrival of Bai Yixian.

When Bai Yixian came, he realized that people don't need to feel lonely all the time. Two like-minded people can do many interesting things. Sometimes even if they don't do anything, the air is full of happiness. not lonely.

So he thought that he would not be able to marry the saint.

He can't marry the saint, but he doesn't know what to do with the saint, should he point her to a good match, or send her back to her hometown?After all, he is still too young, and he wants to have the best of both worlds and a happy ending, but he doesn't know that all kinds of karma in this world are often destined to be unsatisfactory.

All he knew was that he couldn't lose Bai Yixian.

He was very anxious that day, wishing he could return to the court immediately, or the two armies would confront each other immediately.But neither of these two things happened, and the white dove he was waiting for did not come. He waited until nightfall, when the sky turned from gray blue to dark, and he only hated himself for not being able to travel thousands of miles in a day.

It was a very bad day, and there was a faint sound of rolling thunder in the sky-Yi Wang was very afraid of thunder, and thunder would make him restless.

But at this moment, there seemed to be a voice in his heart saying: Go out of the tent and have a look.He followed the instructions and went out, and saw Bai Yixian.

Really, Bai Yixian was just standing outside the tent, watching him quietly.Looking at each other, King Yi held back his screams and rushed up to hug him.

"Why are you here?" He whispered in Bai Yixian's ear, smelling the fragrance of Bai Yixian's black hair, he felt at ease, as if a pair of gentle hands gradually closed on his heart, wrapping it up.Unknowingly, there was an aggrieved cry in his voice, "I miss you so much...I miss you so much..."

Bai Yixian was hugged by him quietly, without saying a word, like an overly beautiful stone statue.King Yi couldn't help but think of that time in the first month when he disappeared for no reason and came back a few hours later, crying loudly in his arms.

"No matter what she told you, it's not true." Yi Wang hurriedly said, "You have to believe me!" He held up the face of Bai Yixian, who only looked at him with gentle eyes.

"she……?"

King Yi said something wrong, so he had no choice but to bite the bullet and continue: "...Saint. I know you talked to her."

"...Hmm." Bai Yixian said, and after a while, he said softly: "Isn't it true?"

"It's not true." Yi Wang firmly said.

"You never praised her for being beautiful?" Bai Yixian laughed.

"..."

"Not with her childhood sweetheart?"

"..."

"Didn't you be her only hope, didn't you promise to marry her?" Yi Wang shook his head repeatedly, his eyes were anxious, but Bai Yixian just shook his head and smiled, "Then what is not true?"

"She..." Yi Wang couldn't refute, tears were rolling in his eyes, he said in a panic, "That's all in the past!"

"Yes, it's all in the past..." Bai Yixian murmured, King Yi subconsciously grabbed his arms, and he didn't hide, there seemed to be a little tenderness in his expression, "I know."

He said he knew, but King Yi didn't feel at ease at all, he just felt scared.He forced himself to calm down, and said: "Don't be angry, let me explain to you—we were indeed going to get married, she and I, we grew up together, and our relationship is indeed different..." The more he thought about it, the more anxious he became , and couldn't help shouting again: "But I really didn't have that kind of feeling for her!"

Bai Yixian tilted her head: "What kind?"

"You, why do you say that..." Yi Wang said, if Bai Yixian got angry at him and pulled his face down like before, he would not be so flustered, but Bai Yixian spoke softly, and he didn't seem very angry.

He just didn't fully understand something, so he was here.

King Yi was afraid that he would leave once he understood, but he still said in a nonchalant manner: "That's right, I treat you..."

Bai Yixian laughed.

"You treat me..." he whispered, "You treat me."

Yi Wang didn't understand why he had to speak like this, but felt panicked to the extreme, tears were about to come down, and Bai Yixian said with a smile: "You are so gentle...I like it so much." He even stretched out his hand to touch it. Touching Yi Wang's face, Yi Wang stood there in a daze, "I've seen it all, it's in her place."

King Yi was stunned for a moment, and then he felt the anger of being wronged, and he even shouted with a bit of dumbfounding: "Is it my fault that I treat people well?"

"Your fault...?" Bai Yixian repeated softly, with a dreamlike tone, "Of course not—it was never your fault."

"It is my fault."

Yi Wang was terrified of his disheartened tone, tears fell out of control, he said: "Why does it have to be someone's fault..." He was completely panicked, he couldn't choose what to say, "I have to talk about right and wrong , so it can’t be her fault? I feel sorry for her loneliness and regard her as a family member, but I never said that I am happy with her! Isn’t it the fault of the person who can misunderstand?”

He naively thought that he and Bai Yixian were connected after all, and he didn't want to blame the saint, but at this moment, if he had to choose someone to "do something wrong", that person should be the saint—but he But he had no way of knowing that in the heart of his white-clothed fairy at this time, the saint is not the saint, the white-clothed fairy is not the white-clothed fairy, and Yi Wang is not Yi Wang.

Their misplaced relationship is so mixed that no matter what King Yi says, it is irreversible.The relationship between them was hard to come back, and Bai Yixian had already sentenced him to death in his heart.

King Yi in the world can openly say that he has never loved the saint, everything is wrong with the saint, who will the phoenix in the sky put the blame on?Who could be wrong?

There was a thunderclap in the sky, and heavy rain poured down.

King Yi stood in the rain, almost drowned in despair.Bai Yixian only said softly: "It's my fault."

Yi Wang's heart ached like a knife, and he begged desperately: "What do you want from me—"

Bai Yixian was annoyed by his entanglement, pushed his hands away and said angrily: "What do I want, I want to turn back time, so that you have never met! I want you not to be so naive and cruel, I want you not to be like this The...hateful person!"

Hateful, I love him with all my heart, but he says me, hateful.

With great unwillingness and pain, and a love that was even close to hatred, he shouted like a collapse: "She came first, I can't help it! If you care so much, why didn't you come first!" He was almost going crazy , "Why don't you come first!"

You come first, accompany me to grow up, and there will be no such pain.

Bai Yixian was stunned by his yelling, and then, rainwater flowed down his cheeks, mixed with tears, he seemed to have lost all his strength, and murmured softly: "I came first." Yi Wang didn't When he came back to his senses, he repeated it again, this time exhausting all his strength, crying and shouting to King Yi: "I came first!"

I came first, I came first, I have been in your life from the day you were born, how can you blame me for not coming first.

His anger was so helpless, yet so deep, like an abyss.In the blink of an eye, King Yi suddenly realized one thing—he realized that the anger of Bai Yixian was never for him.

His anger, his resentment, his jealousy, and his grace all never came for himself.He came here for that person, for the phoenix in the sky, that person hurt him, maybe it was in such a way of starting and ending, the Bai Yixian was punishing him for other people's faults.

This cognition crushed him at that moment, he thought he didn't care, but at this moment, he was still going crazy with jealousy and anger. "Don't punish me for other people's mistakes..." he pleaded, "I am who I am, please, just take a look at me..."

Of all the beings in this world, I am the most devoted to you.He knelt down slowly on the ground, tugging at the hem of the white fairy's clothes, tears pouring down his face, and he was in a panic.Bai Yixian just watched, and finally touched his cheek.His palms were still warm, and King Yi couldn't help but want to sink in, but suddenly felt a pain in his heart, as if his palms were scalded by fire, he pushed Bai Yixian away abruptly, panting.

Something is missing...not something important, but...

He stood there, thinking about it quietly - he found that he couldn't remember the promise he made with Bai Yixian before he left.

He vaguely remembered that he wanted to see a kind of flower...

What flowers?

"You..." At that moment, he finally couldn't control his emotions anymore, and roared completely out of control: "What did you do?" His voice was full of fear and uneasiness, and Bai Yixian was pushed away by him, staggered a step, thinking He wanted to step forward again, but was waved away by him, "No, don't come here! What did you do, what do you want to do..." He raised his head and shouted heartbrokenly: "Give it back to me! You're just like this!" ...do you hate me so much?"

Bai Yixian's voice was almost drowned by the sound of rain: "This is better for you." He said, "Come here."

At that moment, Yi Wang understood his plan - he wanted to erase his memory, he wanted to make the love of these two short months turn into nothingness!Immortals can grant gifts, or take them back, but it is such a cruel way.

He is leaving, and this time, he will not come back, not only will he not come back, even King Yi will not be allowed to keep his memory.

Why are you so ruthless!

Seeing Bai Yixian approaching, Yi Wang shook his head in despair: "No, no, please—"

Bai Yixian seemed to be looking at a crying child, he patiently comforted him with a gentle voice: "...all will be fine, I promise, you don't have to search in vain again..."

But I want to find it!He thought desperately, if he lost the memories related to Bai Yixian, what would be left in his life?

His obsession for half his life will not be lost.Thinking of this, he suddenly made a decision.

"Don't come here." He pulled out the short knife that he carried with him, and the tip of the knife rushed to his heart: "Don't come here."

I have never been in control of whether the gods will stay or not, but this poor memory is left to me.

Bai Yixian was taken aback, and said urgently: "What are you doing! Put it down!"

He wanted to move forward, but King Yi was not wearing armor, the tip of the knife pierced through his clothes and pierced into his flesh, but he couldn't move forward any more - as soon as the fairy in white waved his hand, an invisible force knocked down the short knife in his hand.Yi Wang's breath was stagnant, and the next moment he tightly grasped the wrist of Bai Yixian who stepped forward, and held him tightly.

"Please..." He kept kneeling on the ground and made the only prayer in his life, but he didn't even know what he was asking for, begging him to stay?Or begging him not to use himself as a substitute?Still begging him... to leave his memory...

"Please……"

"Let go..." Bai Yixian struggled, "You're bleeding!"

"I don't care." Yi Wang said, "If you want to take my memory away, just goug out my heart - otherwise, I promise you, I will remember it one day, and by then, I will remember it." No matter what method I use, I don't care what method I use! I will find you, and I will make you pay the price..." He couldn't help crying as he said harsh words, the heavy rain gradually turned to drizzle, and the white clothes Xian closed his eyes, and after a while, said in a low voice, "That's your business too."

After he finished speaking, King Yi felt empty in his arms.

The fairy in white has disappeared into the rain.