Knowledge and Practice

The distance from home to the hospital is not far, and Xiao Xingyi arrived within a few minutes by bicycle. During lunch time, the crowd in white coats was particularly eye-catching as they moved from the outpatient building to the cafeteria. Xie An also stood in a white coat. Standing at the entrance of the cafeteria, looking up at the people who came, smiling and nodding with the colleagues he met from time to time, he saw Xiao Xingyi in the crowd wearing black short sleeves at a glance. After confirming the positions of the two parties, Xiao Xingyi took He came to Xie An.

"Too little to wear..." Xie An glanced at Xiao Xingyi's black short-sleeved suit. He didn't pay much attention to it in school, but he often saw that he liked black and white clothes. It’s a color, and I rarely come back from winter and summer vacations, so I didn’t realize that he was so frost-resistant in autumn. In October, autumn has already entered the south, and the temperature difference between day and night is large. When the wind blows, you can feel the coolness. You can wear long sleeves on the road. shivering.

Xie An subconsciously grabbed Xiao Xingyi's hand and touched his cold fingertips. Before Xiao Xingyi could react, Xie An repeated, "Xingyi, you don't wear too much..."

"...It's okay, it's because I came here by bicycle just now." Xiao Xingyi explained, pulling back the hand that was held by Xie An, a little resistant to this kind of care like a father and a brother.

"Hey, why don't you have a meeting at the door? Xie Zhizhi, is this your brother?" More and more people were eating at the door of the cafeteria, and there was also a queue inside. Lin Li, who was in the same department, just walked towards him, accompanied by an intern , looked not much older than Xiao Xingyi, and greeted Xie An politely, "Mr. Xie"

"My son, Director Lin." Xie An began to talk to Lin Li without shame, and led Xiao Xingyi into the cafeteria one after the other.

"Oh, then you take good care of it." Lin Li didn't take it seriously, and sneered at Xie An's behavior of randomly picking up his son.

Xiao Xingyi followed silently behind him, unable to see his expression, Lin Li and Xie An lined up to receive the meal one after the other, Xiao Xingyi followed behind Xie An, and an intern who was about the same age as Xiao Xingyi gave him the meal. The teacher gave up his seat and took the initiative to line up behind them, chatting with Xiao Xingyi one after another.

"Are you an intern too? My name is Fang Lingbo"

"No"

"Oh...then you are a medical student?"

"Yes"

"..." The intern students' ability to answer a word is here.

Xiao Xingyi exuded an aura of not being close to strangers all over his body, looking down at the phone, as if he was thinking.

Xie An was talking to Lin Li about the parents of the strange patients he met in the outpatient clinic. While listening to Lin Li complaining about how hateful the parents who did not understand what the doctor said, he looked back at Xiao Xingyi from time to time and saw him bowing his back and bowing his head Looking at the mobile phone, I casually told "Don't hunch your back"

It's just that I didn't hear Xiao Xingyi's rebuttal as usual, and didn't even look up.

The line quickly arrived at the place where the dishes were served. Xie An saw that Xiao Xingyi only picked up a few vegetarian dishes after skipping a row of dishes, so he carefully took some more meat dishes on his own plate, planning to share them with him later. .

The child would always be distracted when he was unhappy, Xie An could see Xiao Xingyi's displeasure, but he couldn't tell the reason for the time being, he just thought he didn't like places with many people.

After swiping the meal card, Lin Li found a seat and sat down, and the intern students also sat opposite Lin Li.There was still an empty space next to it, but Xiao Xingyi didn't take it.

With a sullen head, he walked to the empty seat a few tables away and sat down. Before leaving, he whispered to Xie An, "Xie An, I'm going to eat there" and strode away

Tsk, Xie An couldn't laugh or cry at this combination of names and surnames. He probably knew where he had messed with this child.

Probably since they met in the orphanage, Xie An has been tacitly allowing Xiao Xing to call him by his first name directly. Compared with "uncle, brother, father", Xiao Xing is the least resistant to calling Xie An by his name directly. Even so, Xiao Xingyi wouldn't call him by his first name when he was fine.

Except when he timidly asked him "Xie An, how should I do this?"

Or after not seeing him for a long time, he shouted happily "Xie An, you are back"

Growing up in an environment without a regular companion, Xiao Xingyi was not easy to express his emotions, and those who expressed emotions called "Xie An" basically disappeared after growing up.

So much so that after hearing his name, Xie An keenly discerned the child's "something was wrong". He also carried the plate and walked towards Xiao Xingyi.

"Xie Anzhi, why are you still opening two tables? There's plenty of room here." Seeing Xie An walking forward, Lin Li called him at the top of her voice.

"No, my son thinks you're noisy." Xie An narrowed his eyes and smiled at Xiao Xingyi, and walked towards him, completely ignoring Lin Li's big eyes rolling behind his back.

He sat down opposite Xiao Xingyi with a plate, and brought a bowl of fish on the plate to Xiao Xingyi.

"eat more"

Xie An saw that Xiao Xingyi was like a muffled baby elephant, with a lot of petty temper in his head that he refused to show under his seemingly docile expression

At this moment, Xie An subconsciously thought of the little girl who ate rubber in Freud’s case. It was only because her parents gave a balloon to her sister when she was a child, but not to her. The emotions were suppressed in the subconscious, so after that she swallowed all the rubber things she encountered, trying to wipe them out, along with the suppressed pain.

Although many psychologists have played games and overturned many of Freud's theories since their development, even more advanced psychology that is in line with modern people is constantly advancing with the times.

But what exists, how can it be said that he is unreasonable?

Everyone will be neglected more or less in the process of growing up, and the form of expression will be different after adulthood.

Xiao Xing avoided abruptly, in Xie An's eyes, it was like a signal, the moment of uneasiness urged him, and the skillful pace of fleeing from the scene was embarrassing.

What Xie An can do is to stay by Xiao Xingyi's side, not to blame him for being untimely, and let Xiao Xingyi try to hide the uneasiness that he is trying to hide.

He hopes that Xiao Xingyi can express his feelings more richly, like a baby elephant that was tied up when he was young, he will habitually forget that he can break free from the rope when he grows up, but this process may be extremely long and requires patience to boot.

Under Xie An's watchful eye, Xiao Xing ate all the dishes that Xie An brought over, looked at Xie An as if asking for help, and almost wrote the words "Can I go back?" on his eyes.

Seeing his thoughts, Xie An followed him all the way to the hospital gate. When he was parting, Xie An looked at Xiao Xingyi with a smile and said, "Xingyi, after the night shift tomorrow, we will have two consecutive days off. Let's go to a nearby hospital together. Let’s relax, I’ll send you the address tonight, please help me take a look.”

Xie An couldn't help but find Xiao Xingyi's uncomfortable appearance cute. Seeing him nodding in response, he let him ride his bike home.

Back home, Xiao Xingyi fell headlong on the bed. He didn't quite understand why he was like this. Annoyed emotions kept fermenting in his chest. It was just a meal. The mood of wanting to escape was like clockwork. The pace of escape was uncontrollable in one go.

Until Xie An turned around and sat opposite him, he still couldn't help but want to leave.

Fortunately, Xie An was as gentle and pampering to him as ever...

"Hey..." Xiao Xingyi, who was stuffed in the pillow, let out a long sigh, and decided to settle the dinner at home by himself.