【Cang Qiao】Bodhi

The vision suddenly appeared, but Beiming Fengyu was not very surprised by it.He narrowed his eyes slightly, taking the gradually thinning halo into his eyes, and after the last gleam of light and shadow faded away, he turned his head and asked Qiao Tathagata, "Is this the vision you mentioned when you asked to stay in the Sea Realm earlier? "

"Yes." Qiao Tathagata clasped palms together and performed a Buddhist ceremony.And he seemed to be hesitating. After blinking his eyelashes a few times, he faltered and asked just now: "Just now you said, if Qiao Tathagata has something to say to him, you must say it in time. The 'he' in the words Refers to……"

Cang Yue is lonely, right?

"You should know who this king is referring to, or...he wolf." Beiming Fengyu glanced at Qiao Tathagata, then turned his hands away, and walked forward slowly.The two of them walked to a small pavilion, and after they were both seated, he continued to speak: "Your avoidance is too deliberate, it's no wonder this king knows about it. Let alone this king, everyone else in the palace can see it too. Even You Wencheng and Zuo General have seen it several times."

"This king is a person who has been here, so he will see some things more clearly than you." King Lin paused, his eyes swept over Qiao Tathagata's slightly frowning brows, "If some things are stuffy in your heart, after a long time, you will always be able to see them." You have some extremely one-sided thoughts. You are about the same age as Shang'er, and this king should be regarded as your elder. If you trust me, you will tell this king what is inconvenient to talk to that person face to face. Perhaps, this king Wang can give you some experience and suggestions as a person who has experienced it."

After he finished speaking, he stopped talking, put his elbows on the table, and quietly looked at Qiao Tathagata.

As Beiming Fengyu said, he is someone who has experienced it, and he was worried when he was young, and he was secretly troubled when he was alone.Although the reserve and restraint of those young people are important characteristics of youth, but in this kind of matter, if they continue to be reserved, it will only make things worse.

So he was waiting, waiting for Qiao Tathagata's answer after she cleared her mind, and waiting for the moment when he let himself go.

——If you are so apprehensive and evasive, isn't it a harsh criticism of yourself?

Beiming Fengyu looked at Qiao Rulai's solemn eyebrows and sighed.

Time seems to have passed for a long time, and Qiao Tathagata has not spoken.The beads placed in the corners of the courtyard light up one by one, just like a handful of fluorescent lights, falling on the Langchen Terrace, making the monk's white clothes even more hazy.And just when Beiming Fengyu felt that Qiao Tathagata would not confide, he heard a whisper as thin as a mosquito in the silence of the courtyard.

"...Pretty Tathagata..." The young man seems to have settled down, holding the crystal in his hand tightly, "Pretty Tathagata, I don't know, how should I understand... How do two feelings that are almost at odds blend together?"

"King Lin just said that there are many things that the master has not confessed, and you... know that he concealed all the things. But you also said just now that you and the master are also in a relationship of mutual support and mutual trust. .”

"You choose to believe unconditionally, even on the premise that you know that the teacher has concealed something from you."

"Qiao Tathagata wants to know... how you can continue to maintain trust in a person who has hidden something from you. I also want to know how you are so forgiving and tolerant, accepting that person's unspoken words and feelings Not honest."

"If a person has kept something secret for decades, isn't this person's motivation and purpose questionable?"

"If the master has kept a secret from the day he met King Lin, then if you wait for the secret to be exposed by others, will you choose to continue to trust the master?"

"Qiao Tathagata is dull and can't explain it by herself. I also ask Lord Lin to explain it to Qiao Tathagata."

Questions came one after another, the tone was hurried and urgent, and Qiao Rulai's mood became agitated as those critical words were spoken one by one.When he finished the last sentence, his originally dignified and solemn face was already reddened, he was panting, his chest fluttered, and the illusion of calm that he had stretched for several days seemed to be destroyed by his own hands at this moment.

Even if he was facing the Lord of One Realm who lived high in the temple, even if it was unreasonable for him to ask questions like this now, he would just confide those lingering and inexplicable confusions in this way.He wants to know the answer too much, and he wants to be unraveled too much. He desperately longs for a key that can let him get out of this dead corner of his thoughts, let him let go of the blockage that has been lingering in his heart for a long time, and let him fully accept the ghost who has hidden something from him. The more lonely.

Beiming Fengyu saw all his appearance like this, but what he got in return was his slightly raised eyebrows, implying love.Lin Wang only felt that Qiao Tathagata's eyes were sleepy and his mind was entangled at the moment, very much like the self who was bored in the study all day when he first realized that Yu Xingyi had something to hide.As for the words that were asked by the young man, although the words and phrases were different, the confusion contained in them seemed to be a replay of the time when he was relieved, so he only waited for the voice of Qiao Tathagata to fade away, and then he opened his mouth to answer without thinking. Said: "This king will not doubt him. This king chooses to believe him."

The words were sonorous, without hesitation.It seemed that no matter how many times he came again, he would give the same answer—the world can learn from this heart.

Qiao Tathagata seemed to have never thought that King Lin would answer so quickly and so firmly.He froze for a moment, then asked, "Why?"

"Did he ever harm you? Did he ever hurt you, or put you in a dangerous situation?" Bei Ming Feng Yu followed Qiao Tathagata's lowered gaze and looked into the other party's eyes, "At least if you want to move the stars, Never. His actions, including deception and concealment, are all for the sake of the overall situation of the sea and to share the worries of the king. His position has always been the sea, and his starting point has always been the king. How can this king have doubts about what he has done?"

"Has the person you said in your mouth ever done what the king said?"

Qiao Tathagata clasped the beads tightly, lowered her eyes and remained silent.

"This king doesn't know how you got along in the past. But what the king saw these days is that he is following you and protecting you at all times. He saw this king outside the Langchen Terrace just now. Not avoiding for a while, but being vigilant and scrutinizing, which shows that in his heart, your safety is more important than anything else. What's more, his eyes have never left you."

Seeing that Qiao Tathagata's expression moved slightly, Beiming Fengyu paused for a while, and then continued after the other party's mind seemed to calm down a little, "If there is a person who has been with you for many years, what he did was not planned. Cai, did not kill you, on the contrary, he is always by your side to protect each other. He will be very anxious because you are in danger, and will be annoyed because you are negligent. In my opinion, he is not right. You have a plan, at least as far as you are concerned, he will not have malicious intentions."

"But if such a person harbors secrets and acts of deceit, I feel that he must have some difficulties in acting like this, or he can't tell the whole story before the time comes."

King Lin raised his hand, stopped Qiao Tathagata from asking questions, and continued: "This king knows what you are asking. But, Qiao Tathagata, in life, in the long time, everyone will have some secrets that they don't want to announce and let others know." Even if you get along with someone close to you, you will have to hide something from the other party for one reason or another. If he doesn’t tell you, it’s not because he doesn’t want to tell you, or maybe he hasn’t found someone who can let him tell you. Best time."

"And you have to be clear—sometimes, people who deceive others are no better than those who are deceived. Rather, they will be more painful and sad than those whom they deceived."

"My heart is suffering, I can't express it completely, I'm afraid it's the most difficult suffering in this world."

"If he never hurt you, bullied you, or harmed you, all you can do is trust him. Believe in his sincere love for you, and believe in the little things he has built together with you."

"Besides, his secret was exposed by others in an accident, and he already felt uneasy. And your suspicion and alienation at this time may be an invisible harm to him."

"This king hopes that at this time, you can choose to continue to trust him who never hurt you."

"Face what you avoid, and listen to what you doubt. Speak to him what you want to say—speak clearly and clearly while he can still hear."

"I don't want you to regret this matter for the rest of your life just like me."

Qiao Tathagata raised her eyes, and all she could see was Scale King's eyes that were as blue as ice, in which seemed to hold a handful of light, a handful of light sprinkled on the boundless sea, that shattered as the waves drifted by.The light went on and off several times, and then disappeared suddenly, leaving only thoughts and regrets.

"Qiao Rulai, go talk to him."

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After Beiming Fengyu led Qiao Tathagata to the long steps, he went straight from the Langchen Terrace back to the Zijin Hall. Before leaving, he kindly pointed out Cang Yue Guming's hiding place for him.

It was in the most inconspicuous corner under the cover of a clump of coral, and the silver-gray back hair was looming behind the red treasure, curling up rustlingly, as if trying to hide itself.

Qiao Rulai walked down the long steps slowly.In the gradually shortening distance, he saw Cang Yue Guming's fatigue at this time—heavy breathing, a wan look, half-dropped pointed ears, long tail dragging the ground, and even the shiny and glossy back hair in the past appeared Dry, so slumped, completely different from the pretentious appearance of the past.

He was finally stung by the dim light and shadow in those blue eyes, but he couldn't help his tender heart.Qiao Tathagata felt that the ice in her heart suddenly cracked, opening inch by inch of cracks.And those past memories that belonged to the two of them were recalled one by one by him, just like a trickle of warm water in spring, flowing in from the crevice in his heart, melting the frozen three feet, bringing boundless spring warmth.

——My heart is suffering, I can't express it completely, I'm afraid it is the most difficult suffering in this world.

——to face what you are avoiding, to listen to what you are doubting.

—Go and talk to him.

King Lin's words were chewed repeatedly in his mouth, Qiao Tathagata thought in his heart like this, and walked towards the direction of the coral with one step.As the figure approached, Qiao Rulai stopped a short distance away.He raised his half-closed eyes just now, and looked at the figure of Cang Yue Guming struggling to hold his breath and standing up from this short and short distance. Can't bear it.The young man looked away as if he couldn't take it anymore, and walked away as if he made up his mind, but after walking a few steps, he turned his head slightly, and the eyes hidden in the gaps in the frosty hair glanced behind him, and then He turned his gaze away and never looked at him again.

But he was still a few feet away from him, and he followed every step, seeming anxious and timid.Cang Yue Guming noticed Qiao Tathagata's passing gaze when he lowered his eyebrows. He felt happy, but he was also worried. The same silence and distance as in these days, followed Qiaoru and the small courtyard where the two lived temporarily.

Although the pace was frequent, the speed slowed down. Qiao Tathagata no longer deliberately escaped and alienated as before, which made Cang Yue Guming feel better physically and mentally.The wolf beast still lowered its eyebrows and bowed its head, never raised its eyes, and only relied on the edge of the cassock to measure the distance between him and the young man—it was neither too far nor too close, just enough to see the figure The distance included in the field of vision will not be annoying because it is too close, nor will it be too far to catch up.

Cang Yue Guming thought like this, and his mind became slightly distracted.

Rootless water not only made him slow down his steps and stuffed his breathing, but also slowed down his thinking.Cang Yue Guming just thought in his heart about how to control the distance between Qiao Tathagata and he couldn't help being distracted by such a trivial matter. He needed to mobilize all his energy to complete thinking and make decisions, and he didn't notice that the person in front of him had stopped at all.The wolf beast walked on its own, until the kiss touched a piece of soft and fragrant cloth, it suddenly came back to its senses.The fine-textured cloth has the aroma of sandalwood and incense, bitter and elegant, which is unique to that person.The elegance lingering around the nose made Cang Yue Guming wake up in an instant. He realized that he was too close to him at this moment, and he didn't care about the negative impact of the rootless water on the body of the monster race. He pressed his hind legs, swept the wolf's tail, and turned around Subconsciously retreated.His back footsteps were messy and disorganized, as if he was afraid of offending the person in front of him because of his recklessness at the moment, and he was also panicked by the real sense of existence at this time.

The lonely king can't get too close - Cang Yue Guming thought - he can't annoy Qiao Rulai anymore.

Thinking of this, the wolf beast moved a little faster, and it was about to turn around and run away, and went back to the distance that the two of them deliberately opened.

"Cang... Cang Yue Guming!"

Qiao Tathagata saw that he turned around to run, and now his posture was like oiling the soles of his feet, and he was angry and anxious, so he didn't care about the "gentle and gentle" etiquette in the past, and opened his mouth to yell.It's just that he subconsciously wanted to call "Canglang", but felt awkward the moment he called it, and he just twisted the name into "Cangyue Guming", so this sentence that should have been angry also lost its proper meaning. There was some momentum and a little bit of confidence, but it was enough to stop Cang Yue Guming's retreating steps for a moment.

Seeing that the wolf beast paused for a moment, Qiao Tathagata took the opportunity to run a few steps forward, and the wide hem of the white clothes was lifted up lightly during the running, revealing a pair of hollow monk shoes and a pair of feet that were included in it.Qiao Rulai passed Cang Yue Guming in a few steps, and closed the courtyard door with his hand.The movement of the monk in white to close the courtyard door was accompanied by the sound of gold and stone, and the bolt and lock were dropped in one go, without giving Cang Yue Guming a chance to retreat.

When the door was closed, the rootless water swayed softly, and when the light wave hit the fluff on the tip of the ear, Cang Yue Guming understood what just happened.He was obviously stunned, watching Qiao Rulai skillfully seal off the escape route, and then felt a little at a loss when the sound of locking was heard.Cang Yue Guming felt the wolf's fur stand on the back of his neck, and his ears couldn't help being pressed down. He only took two steps back with his hind limbs. Before he turned around, he saw a white shadow passing by in front of him. Qiao Rulai turned around and stood behind him.

This set of actions can be described as clean and neat, without any reaction from anyone.Cang Yue Guming was confused, embarrassed and confused, and didn't know what to do for a moment.

——What does he mean?

King Xi Miao didn't know it at all at the moment.

Before he could think about it, the sound of monk's shoes scraping the ground could be heard, and the sound of straw sandals and soft silk scraping the ground became clearer and closer.Cang Yue Guming suddenly felt something soft and complicated on the tip of the tail, and it was getting closer, and there was no tendency to stop.He was terrified in his heart, although he couldn't see the scene behind him, he knew through all these things that the two were very close, and this situation made him very nervous, the gap in his chest was like two small hammers being hit in turn, The noisy and chaotic voice resounded in the brain frequently.For a moment, Cang Yue Gu Ming didn't dare to move, his whole body was tense, only his upright ears were trembling, and the two strands of silver-white soft hair on the tips of the ears were also trembling, leaking out of the skin emotions come.

"What do you mean?" Qiao Rulai's voice suddenly sounded, "Why don't you face each other directly?"

Looking at the straight back and trembling ears of the wolf beast in front of him, the young man suddenly softened the corners of his mouth, but this soft arc only appeared for a moment before being suppressed again, replaced by a pretended seriousness and annoyance .Qiao Tathagata suppressed her smile, kept a straight face, and continued in a blunt tone: "Is it because Qiao Tathagata is a terrifying and abominable person that King Xi Miao is so evasive like a snake and stingy with winks?"

"That's not the case!..." Cang Yue Guming turned his head abruptly, but lowered his gaze when he touched the opponent's eyes.The wolf beast turned its body around, dragging its long tail halfway, deliberating the words and sentences in its mouth for a long time, and finally squeezed out a sentence: "The lonely king has never thought about it like this, and has never...avoided..."

The voice at the end of the sentence gradually weakened, without convincing power, and it sounded full of guilt.

"Ha." Qiao Tathagata laughed, then turned around immediately, and while walking towards the corridor under the eaves, said: "Since King Ximiao didn't think so, please follow Qiao Tathagata to move down the corridor."

The voice paused for a while, and the young man suddenly turned his head to the side, squinted his eyes, and said, "Qiao Tathagata has something to talk to King Xi Miao..."Talk about it."

Cang Yue Guming couldn't help trembling when he heard the two words "good" that had been bitten hard in the sentence, the tip of his tail unconsciously raised, and then drooped down again.After Qiaoru finished speaking, she didn't stay any longer, and walked down the corridor dragging her cassock and monk's robes that had been dragged to the floor.The white clothes and frosty hair should be the back figure he has been familiar with thousands of years ago, but at this moment, Cang Yue Guming actually saw something similar to the "he" in his memory in this figure with both body and spirit. "Something totally different.

Bonded thousands of years ago, accompanied by decades of companionship, Cang Yue Guming thinks that he has a complete understanding of Qiao Tathagata, from body shape to appearance, from heart to emotion, he knows everything like the palm of his hand.However, during this period of time, Qiao Rulai's words and deeds have not all escaped his expectations and assumptions, which made him panic for a while, not knowing what to do.

At this time, King Xi Miao suddenly realized that maybe he didn't fully understand the beautiful Tathagata in front of him.

It is true that the appearance of the young man at this moment has not changed in the slightest from thousands of years ago, but his temperament is completely different from that at that time - Bodhizi has no joy, no anger, no sorrow, no joy, and is always so gentle and warm Even though Qiao Tathagata is restrained and reserved by nature, and doesn't like to show his affection on the outside, his words and deeds all reveal the ups and downs of his deep inner feelings, and all of them show His joys and sorrows as a human being.

Capable of being angry, annoyed, questioning, and sad, this is a living Tathagata, and also a Tathagata with his own emotions.

Cang Yue Guming only felt that at this moment, he was extremely happy.

Huanxi Qiaorulai's freshness and agility, Huanxi Qiaorulai's body as a human being, and also Huanxi Qiaorulai's willingness to actively talk to himself with that clear and melodious voice, so that this stalemate, which lasted for more than ten days, has a chance to melt away .

His joy at this time came from the heart.

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Cang Yue Guming followed Qiao Tathagata to the eaves of the corridor, and saw the young man turned around and sat lightly on the corridor chair, the snow-colored robe and cassock with glittering gold threads were gently raised in the rootless water, and then he Fall on the loggia.The hem is long, and the snowdrift-like clothes are piled under the monk's feet, against a blue to deep indigo color, which looks extraordinarily elegant.

Qiao Tathagata sat down, but Cang Yue Guming was in trouble, he hesitated in the open space under the corridor, not knowing whether he should follow the other party forward.And just when he was in trouble, the monk in white stretched out his hand from his cloud sleeve, and lightly patted the empty indigo corridor chair beside him, the meaning behind his words was obvious.Seeing this, Cang Yue Guming didn't think too much, put his forelimbs on the chair, got on the chair with a little effort, turned sideways, and sat down.

It's just that although he was sitting beside Qiao Tathagata, he was still lying on the side, barely keeping a short distance from Qiao Tathagata, neither too far nor too close, after all, he didn't want to touch each other.But Qiao Tathagata was quite dissatisfied with Cang Yue Gu Ming's practice of keeping a distance at this moment, so she simply stretched out her hand, held down the wolf beast's back, moved forward, scooped it back, and pasted the fur on the cassock, which was all too familiar in the past intimate.

After bringing the other party to the side, Qiao Tathagata withdrew her hand, and her fingers lingered over the fine short hairs behind the wolf beast's ears. The soft, velvety touch spread to the bottom of her heart through the fingertips. For young people, it was indescribable peace of mind and comfort. post.Although his heart was warm, his eyebrows and eyes did not move, nor did he speak. He just used his body to feel the familiar warmth and breath beside him in silence.

The sandalwood is elegant and the grass fragrance is light, one person and one wolf snuggle up in the corridor, silent.

"So, why did you choose to hide it from me?" The young man whispered in the quiet depths, his golden eyes filled with the calmness of Qian Fan's passing, "You have kept it from me for so many years."

Cang Yue Guming keenly grasped the changes in the titles in the other party's words - no longer "Ximiao King" and "Qiao Tathagata", but the simplest "you" and "I".He was delighted with this change, but he didn't dare to show it too much. The wolf beast lowered its sharp ears slightly, and while considering the words, he responded carefully: "The lonely king doesn't know how to speak. The lonely king...will be afraid." .”

Yes, he was afraid, terribly afraid.

"Afraid?" The young man said in confusion, then turned his head, his eyes moved slightly, but happened to meet the gaze of God Yue Guming who looked up, "What are you afraid of? Are you afraid that I will know your true identity and alienate you? I will have other plans because you are in a high position in the demon clan?"

"Cang Yue Gu Ming, what are you afraid of?" The anger in the eyes suddenly changed. Qiao Tathagata was originally full of anger, but at the moment the words came out, she felt some grievances that she had never felt before.A pair of golden sand-like eyes were covered with a layer of tears without warning, and the corners of the eyes filled in an instant, stained with a lovely blush.He was sad in his heart, his voice was wet with tears, he was obviously a little embarrassed, but he was still stubborn, and he still wanted to utter all the words that had been accumulated for dozens of days.A momentary remark, or a lifelong regret, Qiao Tathagata knows in his heart that the confession and release at this moment is necessary and must be done, and it is also necessary to say to solve this stalemate, the words that must be said:

"I knew you were a demon when I was six years old, but I still regard you as the person I am today, and I have never been alienated. People in the world say 'If you are not of my race, their hearts must be different'. I have been with you for more than [-] years, And why have you ever doubted your intentions because of the different races?"

"But, what about you?"

"What are you trying to do by hiding the truth from me all these years?"

"Do you not believe me, don't know me, or think that human life is short for you, and there is no need to tell me?"

"Cangyue Guming, I treat you with all my heart. How will you... treat me?"

Every word contains tears, every sentence contains blood.Qiao Tathagata suddenly let go of all those peaceful and indifferent, calm and composed appearances, and the shackles imposed on her by those Buddhist rules and upright family learning, revealing a flesh and blood, sad and happy, knowing The angry and angry Qiao Tathagata.

Cang Yue Guming had never seen him so excited and aggrieved, and he didn't know how to respond for a while.He listened to Qiao Tathagata's rare venting words, but his heart was also mixed with soreness and pain, soft and warm.The phrase "I treat you with all my heart" was spoken sincerely and truly, and every word was printed in the bottom of his heart, causing a watery light to suddenly appear in his eyes, floating and floating, and sighing secretly.

With a half-turn in his mind, Cang Yue Guming made up his mind, and moved his body closer to the other party. The wolf beast was half hanging, and buried it in Qiao Rulai's arms, ignoring the man's somewhat angry resistance and pushing Arriving, he put his forehead against the young man's heart, and said in a low voice:

"The lonely king treats you with sincerity."

As he spoke, he arched his body into Qiao Tathagata's arms again, and after the young man stopped pushing himself out, he raised his head in this intimate posture, and looked deeply into those eyes covered by the mist. , Said: "Qiao Tathagata, the lonely king has a story that I want to tell you."

This sentence was a serious sentence, but Qiao Tathagata suddenly let out a soft laugh because of it.The monk raised his hand and wiped away the moistness and fragility from the end of his eyes with his palms, and with a gentle touch of his sleeves, he returned to the dignified and solemn appearance of the past.He neither agreed nor refused, looking back at Cang Yue Guming with a pair of golden eyes, paused for a while, and suddenly said in a low voice:

"All of you who are kings seem to like telling stories."

No anger, no annoyance, no resentment, no resentment, these unexpected words made Cang Yue Guming choke for a moment, and the sea blue eyes were full of waves, and the waves and tides were filled with panic and bewilderment. .The tips of his ears drooped slightly, as if he was slightly embarrassed, his chest arched suddenly, he simply turned his head away, left the warm and fragrant fragrance, and lay down beside Qiao Tathagata, while shaking his tail hanging down the corridor, he twitched a little. He said angrily: "Life is different in every way. What the lonely king said was about the lonely king. How could the things that Emperor Kun said be the same as what the lonely king wanted to say? If you are bored and don't want to listen, then the lonely If the king doesn't say it, then it is."

It's really rare for him to appear angry like this. Qiao Tathagata smiled slightly and was about to say something when he heard a heartbeat in his ears. There were few words, but it also made him solemn:

——That was thousands of years ago, about the Bodhi son.

Qiao Rulai suddenly remembered the conversation with the old monk in the Tibetan Scripture Pavilion before going down the mountain.His life seems to be closely connected with that "previous event", which is strange to him, but he can't avoid it.At this moment, Qiao Rulai has never wanted to know all this so strongly. He wants to know who he is, why he is closely connected with Bodhi in this bosom, and also wants to know that part of the past...why did he get along with Cang... What Yue Guming concealed is closely related.

All kinds of thoughts came to mind, Qiao Tathagata held back her expression slightly, and replied seriously and firmly: "I want to listen."

After getting a response, Cang Yue Guming showed a relaxed and peaceful expression.He narrowed his eyes slightly, and his consciousness went back to the time thousands of years ago.The past that was deliberately dusted into the bones rushed towards him like the water of the Milky Way, suddenly submerged, but he was also very nostalgic.The king of the wolf tribe let out a light and soft sigh, looked slowly, and said in a low voice:

"This matter starts thousands of years ago, when the lonely king was still the prince of the wolf..."