Inferior star

Wei Yu was picked up by his grandma in early summer, but he never personally heard the details of what his grandma told him about being picked up.

For the man who found him abandoned, the man who rescued him and gave him a home, the man who carried him around town and made him laugh, was happy for the first time he crawled, walked, and talked A man who left this world before he could remember.

He later heard what his grandpa said, that the summer was extremely hot that year, and people were reluctant to go out, but grandma still went for a walk and exercise in the community park not far from the town as usual. Sound found him in the shade.He was very young at the time, his whole face wrinkled from crying, his body was tightly wrapped, and there was nothing else around him, not even a note to leave a message.

After grandma took him home, she took off the cloth on his body, only to find that he had severe prickly heat all over his body because of being stuffy.She patiently rubbed his body with salt water over and over again, and when the prickly heat got better, Wei Yu would occasionally "giggle" and laugh, looking very pleasing.

The only child of the grandparents passed away due to a work accident, and they had no grandson, so they took Weiyu in.

Grandma often held Wei Yu in her arms and told grandpa that this child was blessed with great life, without him crying hard, she might have come back that day, so he saved himself.

Grandma lost her kindness, which relieved Wei Yu, who was adopted, from her psychological burden.Although Wei Yu's memories of grandma are vague and sporadic, he wants to be as kind and gentle as grandma.

But only the day grandma picked him up, grandpa forgot what day it was, Wei Yu didn't want to force grandpa to remember, because whenever he mentioned the past, grandpa would always think of grandma.

After his grandma died of a serious illness, he and his grandpa depended on each other for life.

Grandpa is not good at cooking, so he always goes to the supermarket to buy peanut butter for Wei Yu's meals. Wei Yu likes the taste of peanut butter very much, it is salty and astringent, but a jar is very expensive, and he is only willing to eat a spoonful every time.When he was about to go to elementary school, he learned how to cook from his second aunt in the same town. Most of the ingredients he used were cheap ingredients. He learned quickly and gradually figured out how to cook dishes with the most basic seasonings. delicious.Grandpa opened a grocery store in the town, and a wall separated the front and back of the store from the kitchen. At noon, Wei Yu took the rice out of the pot, arranged the dishes and tableware, and asked the grandfather in the front store to eat together.

Then Wei Yu entered elementary school, from the first grade to the fifth grade, his grades were all the first, and he was the monitor of the class.

The primary school is far away, so grandpa accompanied Wei Yu to get up early every day, sent him to the station to take the bus, and told him not to stay after class, but to come back quickly.After going to elementary school, Wei Yu ate in the school cafeteria at noon every day, and when he came home from school, his grandfather had already bought vegetables and cooked them, so he waited for him to cook them for dinner.

After dinner, grandpa went upstairs to sleep, Wei Yu used the bench next to the dining table as a table after washing the dishes, and sat on the floor to do his homework.After taking a shower he could watch an animated show downstairs and then go upstairs.

The days passed peacefully, and when Wei Yu understood what "hypocrisy" was, it had been a long time since the incident in the sixth grade.

In the sixth grade, a student named Chen Li was transferred to their class. He was introverted, stuttered a little, and had a burn scar on the lower part of his left cheek, which looked scary.

The class held inexplicable hostility towards such "outsiders", and Chen Li's conversation and appearance made him the target of attack immediately.

As the class monitor, Wei Yu would always stop the malicious ridicule of the classmates, but the classmates in the class not only did not stop, but intensified.

One day at noon, Wei Yu bought an extra meal to find Chen Li who hadn't gone to the cafeteria, and finally found him in the open space behind the canteen.

Chen Li was crying.

Wei Yu took a piece of rice and shook it in front of Chen Li. Chen Li raised his head, and tears flowed crookedly across his burned skin.

"Shall we eat together?"

Chen Li nodded.

He was stuffing food into his mouth with chopsticks while crying to Wei Yu, his voice was blocked by the food, and with his stuttering, Wei Yu couldn't hear a word clearly.

Wei Yu said patiently: "Let's eat first and then talk slowly."

Chen Li nodded vigorously, and continued to gobble up.

"Everyone laughs at me because I stutter, stutter, and I'm ugly."

Chen Li ate quickly, Wei Yu also put down the lunch box in order to listen to Chen Li carefully.

"When you transfer to another school, everyone doesn't understand you."

"If you don't understand and understand me, can you laugh at and laugh at me?"

"No. How did you get the injury on your face?"

"My former, ex-father was hot, he was crazy, crazy."

"Previous?"

"My mother has separated from him and him, and found a new, new father for me. The new father is right, good to me, and buys me medicine."

"That's great, I envy you."

"Envy, envy?"

"You have parents."

"Don't you?" Chen Li didn't stutter when he spoke short sentences.

"I didn't, I was abandoned by my parents. But I don't want people to think I'm different, so I said my parents work in other places."

"Are you an orphan, an orphan?"

"I was adopted by Grandpa Wei. I have no parents. I only told you. We are friends, can you keep it secret for me?"

"En!" Chen Li answered firmly.

Wei Yu is not very good at comforting others, so he exchanged his secret and his status as a "friend" to gain Chen Li's trust. He became Chen Li's best friend, and the two ate and studied together and went to the station to take the bus.

Wei Yu helped Chen Li practice speaking fluently. After the students knew more about Chen Li, they eliminated many prejudices.

Chen Li's family background is not good, but Chen Li occasionally receives books and toys bought by his new father.Chen Li, who is becoming more and more cheerful, often follows Wei Yu and calls him "Squad Leader", and shares the gifts he receives with him.It was these toys and books that filled the entertainment gap in Wei Yu's childhood.

Then, Wei Yu ushered in a turning point in his life.

In the middle of the semester under the sixth grade, the teacher asked Weiyu to collect the class fee for the whole class, one hundred per person, 50 students in the class, a total of five thousand.

When school was over, he took the money and went to the teacher's office to hand it in, but the door of the office was locked.Obviously the teacher said that he would wait for him to pay the money before leaving. It was probably because he was delayed for a while collecting the money and counting the money, so the teacher left first.The other teachers also went home, and Wei Yu took the money back to the classroom, feeling that it was not safe to leave it in the classroom, so he decided to take the money home and bring it back tomorrow.

He has to hurry home and cook for grandpa.

He got off the car and returned to the town smoothly, and met a group of gangsters on the way home.

He had seen that group of people before, and they were not much older than him. Their clothes were always bad, their blue tattoos were exposed, and they always had a vicious expression on their faces, taking pleasure in blackmailing others.

Wei Yu was turned over by this group of people before, he really had nothing worth being taken away, when this group of people saw him, they just spat on the side of the street and said disdainfully, "It's this poor boy again." Wei Yu Yu always passed them calmly.

That day, Wei Yu was holding so much money for the first time in his life. When he saw this group of people, his first reaction was to go home by another route, which instead caught their attention.

"Hey, it seems that this kid is a bit valuable today." A gangster with red hair opened his mouth, pressed Wei Yu against the wall, and spit two smoke rings on his face.

"I have no money, you don't need to waste your time looking through my bag."

"No money, what are you doing with your bag if you don't have money?!" Another gangster wearing a jacket with a skull print snatched his bag and took out the money he had tied up with the rubber bands of the girls in the class. , there are many more."

"It's not my money. It's our class fee."

"In your bag is your money." The skeleton coat counted, looked back at their boss and said, "Today's harvest is good, fifty red notes."

"You can't take it away, otherwise what will I give the teacher?"

"This is not our problem, kid~"

Wei Yu stretched out his hand to grab the money, and received two heavy punches in the abdomen.

"Please, I will give you all my pocket money in the future."

"We will take the money from now on." Hong Mao leaned closer to Wei Yu, gritted his teeth and said word by word, "You can tell the teacher, or you can tell the police uncle, at worst, we will go to the juvenile detention center for a few months , but...we will visit your grandpa's grocery store. If you don't tell me, we promise not to trouble your grandpa, that cripple."

Wei Yu clutched his stomach and leaned against the wall, watching the group walk away.

"Grandpa... how much money does our family have?"

"Why are you asking this?"

"curious."

"Last month, there was still [-] yuan left from the town's distribution, but it will be distributed soon this month. This month, I can receive [-] yuan, with a rice subsidy."

"Yeah." Almost all the savings of grandparents were spent on buying grandma's medicine.

"Xiaoyu, do you want to buy something?"

"No."

"When grandpa receives the money, grandpa will buy whatever you want for you."

"No need, grandpa."

Wei Yu thought of many excuses on the way to school.

He told the teacher that he put the money in the drawer, but when he came to school today, he found that it was gone.

For grandpa, he can't say that the money was robbed by gangsters.But he can't say that he lost the money and there is no money to make it up.

It can be said that the money is lost but there is no need to pay for it yourself, only the money is gone.It can't be lost on the way home. If the group of gangsters are found, they may think that they have informed them, and the money can only be lost in the school.

The teacher did not doubt this serious student, comforted his self-blame, and did not contact his grandfather.

Each student's bag was opened and checked on the table.

Then the situation began to get out of control, and it was rumored in the class that Wei Yu had embezzled the class fee himself.

Wei Yu's explanation was feeble, but Chen Li began to frequently go in and out of the school canteen to buy snacks.

It is unknown who started the rumor of Chen Li stealing money.

During the lunch break, Wei Yu and Chen Li were chatting in the open space behind the canteen, and Chen Lisai gave him many snacks that he had never eaten before.

Chen Li said to him while sucking on the jelly: "I really hope to find the person who stole the money quickly. Everyone says it wasn't you, it was you, it was me who stole it."

"Yeah." Wei Yu squeezed the candy in his hand.

"I know you, you won't. Where and where my money comes from, I will only tell you one or one person."

"it is good."

"I quietly signed up for the composition competition in the city, and won the first prize with a bonus. On the day I didn't go to the station with you, I asked the teacher to correct the composition for me."

"I went to see the teacher that day, but she wasn't there."

"I was with her in the meeting room. I didn't want other people to know that I participated in the competition. I was afraid that I would not win the first prize. I'm sorry."

"It's okay, your composition is well written."

"You believe me?"

"I believe you."

Because I know where the money went, Wei Yu thought.But he still made a decision that he regrets to this day.

He began to alienate Chen Li.As a good friend of Chen Li, Wei Yu began to alienate him, this phenomenon aroused more speculation. Later, no one suspected that Wei Yu embezzled the money for himself, and all the firepower was concentrated on Chen Li.

Chen Li stammered and argued that the money he spent was a bonus, so he had to tell his classmates about signing up alone, but it was useless.

Wei Yu once heard Chen Li helplessly say: "Sometimes I really want to die, so let me die."

He struggled for a long time, and finally ran to tell the teacher that he had lost the money.

The young teacher who has just taken office always has righteous and passionate thoughts, saying that she knows that Wei Yu said this for the sake of her good friend Chen Li, and she has already made up the class fee, and she will tell the whole class not to spread unsubstantiated news.

No one really mentions the class fee.

The jealous primary school student with a sense of collective honor began to attack Chen Li's selfishness in signing up for the competition alone.

Later, Chen Li didn't come to class for a long time, and Wei Yu later found out that Chen Li was pushed onto the road when he was arguing and shoving with his outspoken classmates on a rainy day, resulting in a car accident.

The name "Chen Li" became a tacit silence, and no one mentioned it again.

He lost forever the good friend who followed him and called him "monitor" and gave him books, toys and candies.

He felt guilty for a long time.

"It's not your fault, it's the fault of those hooligans."

"It's not your fault, it's the fault of those aggressive classmates."

"It's not your fault, you were too young."

He comforted himself with countless reasons.

Guilt persisted for a while and turned into resentment.

He hated those lawless hooligans to the extreme, and the hatred overflowed his chest, but he never saw them again. This hatred that could not be vented gradually became extremely deformed.

He hated the teacher for handing over the class fee to him.

He hated Chen Li for calling the teacher away to read the composition to him that afternoon.

He hated that his family's financial conditions were not good, and he couldn't ask his grandfather for money.

He hated Chen Li for selfishly signing up for the composition competition quietly and getting a bonus.

He hated the teacher for not believing his truth and not even giving him a chance to make amends.

He hated his classmates' wild guesses and excessive accusations against Chen Li for fear of chaos.

He hated his parents for leaving him alone and letting him bear this suffering alone.

He hated the rain that day, the unresponsive driver that day, he hated everything.

All his unfounded resentment turned back on himself in the end.

He hated himself who still had the strength to cry that summer, but somehow survived like this.

What he hates the most is that he himself could have been a perfect victim, but he took the initiative to walk into the camp of the opposite victimizer, which made him lose any reason to cry to others for his grievances.

He chose a boarding junior high school in the city, and lost contact with his primary school classmates and teachers.The second uncle and the second aunt occasionally go to look after the grandfather, except for the vacation at the end of each school year, he hardly returns to the grandfather's house.

He couldn't stand his grandfather always saying to him with a look of relief: "Our Xiaoyu is such a good boy."

He bought a cheap PHS with the pocket money he had saved for a long time, and called his grandpa every Sunday, not only to tell each other that he was safe, but also to listen to his voice so that he could feel at ease.

He thought he could forget everything by escaping like this.

But when he reached the debate topic of "human nature is good or human nature is evil", he wrote "evil" without hesitation. He has read many books and is a good boy in the eyes of his family and teachers. Or will there be so many dark thoughts?

Isn't it "evil"?

No?

He will never forgive his stupidity, cowardice and hypocrisy in his life.

On the first day he met Xu Mingzhao, he said that he was not a good person.

Why did Xu Mingzhao approach him?Why trust him?Why be nice to him?

But Xu Mingzhao was approaching him, trusting him, and treating him well.

When Xu Mingzhao grabbed his arm and asked if he was a victim of rumor violence, his eyes were full of concern.

He is not, he never was, he is the perpetrator.

The author has something to say

I was always afraid that readers would scold my little friend Wei Yu, so I put him in the position of a marginal perpetrator (later I realized that I was thinking too much, and no one read my article at all hahahahaha).Whether there is a cave before there is a wind, or a cave is a cave, the wind will come anyway.I have also been thinking, can people who have done negative things but feel guilty really get happiness?Hope everyone's life is full of sunshine.