Inferior star

"I'm home, and I don't have to cook for me for three days."

When Wei Yu saw the text message, he didn't pay attention to it, and didn't even think about what would make a person who was studying in other places go home in a hurry.

He worked a day, spent a day in the library, and made models at home alone for another day.

It wasn't until he received a call from Xu Mingzhao that he reacted slowly, with a vague premonition.

"Wei Yu, you come to the North Station to pick me up, right now."

Xu Mingzhao's voice was hoarse and deep, and the command sentences were spoken firmly but weakly.

Before he could reply, Xu Mingzhao hung up the phone.

Wei Yu grabbed a thin coat and put it on, the door slammed a sharp "bang" behind him, and he ran to the entrance of the community to stop the car.

It just so happened that I got off work last Friday, and the road was jammed. The taxi finally drove near the North Station, but was stopped by a red light with a long countdown.80 seconds for a red light and 20 seconds for a green light, only five cars can pass.Wei Yu stared at his watch, an hour had passed since Xu Mingzhao called him, and all calls he made to Xu Mingzhao during this hour were hung up without exception.

The price of the meter continued to jump upwards, unaffected by the stagnation of traffic.

Counting the vehicles in front, Wei Yu paid and got out of the car regardless of the driver's irritation and dissatisfaction, and rushed all the way to the North Railway Station in the traffic.

Xu Mingzhao sat slumped on an unoccupied seat in the waiting hall of the North Station, with only 20% of the battery left on his phone.

He lowered the brim of his peaked cap and covered his entire face with a mask. It was the flu season, and hats and masks were necessary. isolated.

He hung up many calls from his family and Wei Yu.

He wanted to save some battery power in his mobile phone, and if his family members didn't answer the calls, he knew it was to persuade him to cheer up, to be sad, and to look forward.Wei Yu's phone call may be to ask him where he is, or he can't come because of something.

It didn't matter if he couldn't come, he wanted to be alone for a while, and when he had enough, he wanted to go back.

Suddenly being called home to attend his grandfather's funeral made him unable to change his emotions for a while.As the eldest grandson, he stayed with his father all night in his hometown.It seemed that he was over stimulated, and despite not sleeping all night, he was still very energetic the next day.

Watching the monk's chanting practice spiritually for a day, the sound of wooden fish, scriptures, relatives chatting and crying with bouquets of condolences mixed together, making him confused and in a trance.

Another day's banquet was eaten energetically.Most of the relatives at the banquet comforted Xu Mingzhao. His grandfather was over 80 years old, and he chose the most peaceful way—it was a good thing that he left this world in his sleep.

He wanted to escape the noise of those crowds, but it turned out that he just threw himself into another group of noise.

There was a lot of people in the waiting room, the missing person announcement, the lost and found, and the train were late on the station broadcast. He thought it was time to call Wei Yu.

But the top of his head was covered by a shadow, and the familiar pair of shoes appeared in front of his eyes.

Wei Yu, who was sweating profusely, put his hands on his thighs, bent over and said out of breath, "Xu, Xu Mingzhao, I'm late."

When he sat up and looked up, Wei Yu was very close.

Wei Yu looked around the bustling station, but did not see Xu Mingzhao.

Most of the people wearing masks looked the same. Before he almost lost his mind and went to the radio station to let the name "Xu Mingzhao" resound throughout the station, he saw the profile of an acquaintance.

Xu Mingzhao raised his head slightly and then lowered it quickly. The moment he raised his head, the hat cast a shadow on his face, but it just missed his swollen eyes.

Xu Mingzhao's clothes were wrinkled on his body. Although he showed no expression, the great sadness and loss of his whole body spread in the air.

Wei Yu stared at the mole of tears, and ran to Xu Mingzhao.

Then, Xu Mingzhao smiled reluctantly: "I'm covered up like this, you still recognize me."

Wei Yu couldn't speak out of breath, so he tapped his finger under his right eye.

Wei Yu's eyesight is not bad, Xu Mingzhao's eyes are always easy to recognize.

Xu Mingzhao stood up, took out his mobile phone, and took a selfie with Wei Yu by virtue of the remaining power.

In the photo, Wei Yu didn't react, he looked puzzled, and didn't look at the camera.

Xu Mingzhao sent the group photo to the WeChat group. The name of the group is the uncreative "Love each other as a family", with a voice: "Mom and Dad, my roommate is here to pick me up, don't worry."

He watched Wei Yu hesitate to speak, and said everything himself first.

"Grandpa passed away. I went back home and worked for three days. My parents were afraid that I was not in the right state, so they insisted on sending me back. I said you came to the station to pick me up, but they gave up. I'm sorry to call you here suddenly. Quick phone The battery ran out, so I hung up your phone."

"Um. Let's go."

Wei Yu didn't cook, Xu Mingzhao said to go to the fast food restaurant downstairs to "eat as soon as possible". After eating, the sun had already set, and the two walked back to their place of residence in silence under the illumination of street lamps.

Xu Mingzhao plugged in the phone to charge it and went to take a shower, Wei Yu was busy cleaning up the tools and scraps of paper on the dining table.

When Xu Mingzhao came out of the bathroom, Wei Yu was sitting on the couch playing with his mobile phone, so he collapsed on the bean bag sofa next to him, and clicked on the unread voice in the family group.

The volume was turned up to the highest level at the station because of the noisy voices, and a thick middle-aged male voice blew out from his phone.

"Ming Zhao! Why don't you answer the phone? Your mother and I are both worried about you, so hurry up and call back!"

"Ming Zhao, Dad knows you are sad, and Dad is also sad, but you are like this, Dad is very worried. Your mother cried again just now, you call her and we can have a good chat."

"Ming Zhao, call back as soon as possible after turning on the phone. We'll wait for your call, no matter how late."

Xu Mingzhao turned down the volume on his phone, and Wei Yu looked at him with complicated eyes.

"Your parents care about you very much. Call them quickly, and I'll take a shower."

Xu Mingzhao made a phone call home, explained to his parents that his phone was out of battery, and pretended to be relaxed and calm amid all kinds of inquiries.

After talking about the same, he caught a glimpse of Wei Yu leaning against the door of the bathroom after taking a shower, as if hesitating to stay in the living room or go back to the room.So he urged his parents to hang up the phone: "Mom and Dad, I'm really fine, you go to bed early, you are quite tired these days."

After hanging up the phone, the room fell into silence, and he suddenly felt very relaxed.Wei Yu silently walked around to the couch beside him and sat down. He couldn't see Wei Yu's expression, nor did he know what Wei Yu was thinking.

He just kept staring at the long and narrow fluorescent tube in the living room, letting the glaring light constantly stimulate his dry eyes from crying a few days ago, hoping to squeeze out a few more tears.

Wei Yu reached out to the wall and turned off all the lights that were on.

The afterimage left by the light tube on the retina was left in front of his eyes, and he closed his eyes, not wanting to move.

"Wei Yu, come to my side."

"I'm sitting on the couch next to you."

"Lie back, I desperately need to feel that someone is next to me right now."

"The bean bag is too small to lie down on."

"For two, lie down."

"We are all tall and can't lie down."

Xu Mingzhao stopped talking, and just moved slightly to the side. In the darkness, he heard Wei Yu take a deep breath, stood up from the sofa and lay down next to him.

"I'm still having a hard time."

"Then you were trying to be brave with your parents just now."

"I just... don't want them to worry." Xu Mingzhao muttered.

"Then you think... I won't be worried?" Wei Yu coughed lightly twice.

"You are different. Tell them, they will comfort me nervously, but it will not work at all. Seeing them nervous, I feel guilty, so I have to say it's okay. Let me tell you, you will reply me lightly every time , my emotions can calm down, and I won’t feel sorry for affecting your emotions.”

"Ah."

"It's not that you have a cold personality. Hey, I can't tell. Anyway, you are different."

"Well. Then... if you still feel uncomfortable, please talk about it."

"My parents discussed going to see my grandpa that day, and they cooked a table of delicious dishes at noon, and grandpa ate very happily. I don't know why he left in a dream." Xu Mingzhao couldn't help sobbing when he said this, " On the morning when the vigil was over, I wanted to be alone for a while, and then I went to buy some chestnuts. Every time I went to my grandfather’s house, he would buy me a big bag of fried chestnuts in sugar. I only discovered that day that the store that sold chestnuts turned out to be so Far."

"Yes." Wei Yu replied softly.

"I haven't seen my grandpa for almost half a year. I planned to go on the last long vacation, but I forgot while playing games at a friend's house. Grandpa called me and asked me, 'Ming Zhao, are you still here today?' At that time, I felt that the old man I feel uncomfortable after waiting for so long, but I always think that there will be opportunities in the future... I didn't expect..."

"Ah."

"Wei Yu."

"Huh?" At the end of the rising sentence, the voice is still gentle and soft.

"You comfort me."

"I'm not very good at comforting people."

"Let's just talk about the scene. What's 'sorry and change', 'Grandpa will turn into a star and look at you in the sky', and so on."

"You've heard it a lot."

"Just say whatever you want."

"I can only say...emotions are consumables. No matter what kind of emotion you want to remember, it will slowly dissipate with the passage of time. So whether it is sadness or guilt, these emotions will be lost at any moment in the future. It’s not as strong as your perception at this second. You really don’t need to deal with it, it’s better to be sad, feel guilty, and live a good life.”

"'Time will let it pass', pretty shitty."

"That said, I'm not very good at comforting people."

"But it's already very effective, you don't need to say anything, actually."

"You still comfort people, but I was comforted by you."

"Really." Xu Mingzhao laughed, and Wei Yu also laughed.

"After my grandfather passed away, I suddenly thought that my parents might also... this idea is very unfilial." Xu Mingzhao laughed dryly, "This time when I came home, my mother felt that the air vent of the air conditioner was blowing directly on my head, and it was blowing too much. She had a headache, my dad bought the air conditioner baffle and asked me to help him install it. It was very simple to install it, it took 10 minutes, but he reacted for a long time, saying that his eyes could not see clearly, and he got off the chair after installing it, and sat down After waiting for a long time, I felt that my dad is really old. What about you, have you ever thought about it, when your parents are old. "

"I haven't thought much about it."

"I'm afraid of being lonely. Although I know a lot of people at school, I can count the people who can really talk to each other with one hand. Before I shared the rent with you, socializing every day was very tiring. If something really happened to my parents thing, I dare not think about it."

"Then forget it. They'll be fine, and so will you."

"You too."

"...I always forgot to ask you, why did you ask me to share the rent with you? You can't even share the rent."

"Probably, the senior wants to take care of the junior who can't find a house to live in."

Xu Mingzhao forgot what he and Wei Yu talked about afterwards, it should be some trivial matters, so he took the opportunity to talk about it together.

But he remembered that ever since Wei Yu was lying beside him, he had been beating the beanbag sofa with his hands at a very slow frequency, even when Wei Yu himself was speaking.A little later, Wei Yu responded to him less frequently, and many times he thought Wei Yu was asleep, but the slapping sound always echoed, so he didn't have to ask Wei Yu if he was still awake.

The distance between him and Wei Yu was so close that he could not only hear Wei Yu's breathing, but also the light touch of Wei Yu's teeth when he spoke.Being too close and talking a lot, he was in a trance and completely lost the spatial judgment of the sound. Wei Yu's continuous slapping sound seemed to be slapping him on the back.

Xu Mingzhao felt the warmth of Wei Yu's arm touching his arm.

Sure enough, as long as he turns off the light, he can get an unusually gentle Wei Yu.

Then he fell asleep.

When Xu Mingzhao stopped talking and his breathing gradually became even, Wei Yu stopped slapping, turned his wrist, and the other hand, which had been keeping a distance from Xu Mingzhao, also relaxed.He sank into the sofa, next to Xu Mingzhao.

He turned his head to look at Xu Mingzhao, the curtains in the living room were not drawn, and the moonlight poured in. He found that Xu Mingzhao was leaning slightly when he was speaking, and he could hug Xu Mingzhao as long as he wanted.

Xu Mingzhao's mobile phone by his shoulder received a new notification. The bright light from the screen hit Xu Mingzhao's sleeping face, making Wei Yu a little dazed. Said in Xu Mingzhao's ear: "Mingzhao, good night."

The light on the phone screen went out.

Wei Yu stood up, wiped his tears with his arms, went to Xu Mingzhao's room and brought a quilt to cover Xu Mingzhao, then sat on the couch next to him for a long time.

He knew why he was crying.

It was Xu Mingzhao's unreasonable trust in him that moved him.

It was Xu Mingzhao who mentioned that his family made him miss his grandfather very much.

It was he who found that he really let time dilute the sadness and guilt towards someone as he said.

He also discovered that for the first time in eight years, he had someone he wanted to touch, hug, like and be liked.

He looked straight at Xu Mingzhao, he didn't want to sleep.

He was afraid that a dream would destroy all the tranquility and haze of this night.

He secretly made up his mind to stay away from Xu Mingzhao.

The author has something to say

I don't know what to say, I've been in a fog recently, I hope I can adapt to work soon.I really want someone to hug me and pat me on the back TAT