please don't tell him

"Xu Wei, Xu Wei!"

"Ah...ah?" Xu Wei looked blankly at his deskmate who kept shaking his arms, and asked, "What's wrong?"

The deskmate looked at the crazy expression, and said: "What are you thinking, I have called you several times, the teacher is going to check the homework, did you write the geography booklet No. 13 in class?"

"Ah!" Xu Wei, as if waking up from a dream, hurriedly lowered his head to flip through his schoolbag, and said, "I wrote it, I wrote it, I'll look for it..."

Seeing that he finally found the brochure, the deskmate breathed a sigh of relief, and asked with concern: "Are you okay? I've been seeing you in a daze these days, or sleeping, are you so sleepless? I go to class every day Help you block the teacher's eyes!"

Xu Wei smiled bitterly and said, "It's okay, the exam is coming soon, I can't sleep well."

Looking at the bruises under his eyes, my deskmate sighed and said, "It's okay, you see that your eye circles are black, and your eyes are swollen like goldfish! You plan to become a national treasure, and you don't want to fight for the rest of your life." ? It’s just a mid-term exam, don’t put too much pressure on yourself. Besides, you are such a top student, why are you afraid of this?”

Xu Wei was amused by her, and said, "Well, thank you, I will pay attention."

After speaking, he raised his hand and touched his eyes. Is it really an exaggeration?

"It's exaggerated." Xu Wei went to eat with Xu Chenyuan for lunch. He pointed to Xu Wei's dark circles and said, "You usually look at yourself in the mirror. The zombies in Resident Evil are better than you." Your skin is rosy and shiny. I said, what do you think about when you don’t sleep every day? After sleeping at my house for a few nights, are you not used to it when you go home?”

Xu Wei lowered his head and pulled the green peppers in the bowl, with a face of reluctance: "No. Brother Wish...I don't want to eat green peppers."

"Eat, how old are you and picky eaters?" Xu Chenyuan took a chicken leg for him and said, "I'll give you the chicken leg, and eat the green pepper obediently."

Xu Wei still protested with his mouth flat: "I really don't like green peppers, so please forgive me. Return the chicken and chicken legs to you." As he said that, he wanted to put the chicken legs back to him.

"You brat!" Xu Chenyuan clamped Xu Chenyuan's half-stretched chopsticks with his own chopsticks, and reluctantly put the green peppers in his bowl into his own, and said, "Look at you, you haven't cleaned up lately. You dare to lose your temper with me, you are so courageous, huh?"

Seeing that he finally succeeded, Xu Wei smiled and bit the chicken leg, and said, "Not only do you not eat green peppers, but you also stole your chicken leg, hehe, I'm super smart!"

Xu Chenyuan flicked his forehead with his hand, and said, "What kind of fool does this little brain do every day?"

Xu Wei curled his lips with a look of grievance.

Xu Chenyuan put down his chopsticks and asked, "What's the matter? What wronged you again, tell me about it."

Xu Wei sniffed, holding back the tears that were about to burst out, and said, "Brother... I, I still miss him... I, I feel bad..."

Xu Chenyuan hated iron but could not make steel, mourned his misfortune and angered him, wanted to wake him up, but looked at this wrinkled face that was so wronged and couldn't say anything, so he could only helplessly rub his hair , said: "He is a scum, you understand?"

Xu Wei nodded.

"Even so, do you still feel sad for him?"

Xu Wei bit his lower lip, lowered his head, and said, "I refrained myself from looking for him, because I didn't want to look so cheap... But, but, it's still really sad..."

"Maybe...it's inappropriate to ask you this right now." Xu Chenyuan scratched his hair helplessly, blushing a little because of embarrassment, and asked: "If there is another person who asks you to fall in love with him, Do you want to?"

Xu Wei blinked his eyes, not knowing what Xu Chen wanted.

"Hmm," Xu Chenyuan coughed twice, tried his best to organize his words, and asked, "That is to say, you may not be used to the new state now, and the person who accompanied you suddenly left, and you feel uncomfortable." Too able to bear the loneliness that follows. For example, if you fall in love with another person, will you be better?"

Pooh!As soon as I finished speaking, I wanted to bite off my tongue. What kind of words are these? The language that was originally like a confession can be said by him like the emotional column of TV station. Make a wish, you are a straight man of steel ?

Pursing his lips and thinking about it, Xu Wei shook his head.

Feeling rejected in a disguised form, Xu Chen Yuan sighed and said, "That's right, don't just hang out with anyone just because you're lonely, you won't be happy."

Contrary to what he thought, Xu Wei knew that recently he was in a daze, and sometimes he would burst into tears in self-study classes. He was never a crying child before, and these days it seems that he has shed all the tears accumulated in the previous 16 years .

All of this is like a big dream. Sometimes when I wake up, I will subconsciously touch my phone to send Wei Sheng a WeChat message to say good morning. Only after he sees the red exclamation mark in front of the dialog box does he realize that his former lover has others.

Immersed in his own sadness, Xu Wei didn't look sideways, as if the people and things around him had nothing to do with him. Sadness enveloped him like a huge net, isolating him from the world.

How to find new people and be with others in such a state?

After lunch, Xu Chenyuan took out two tickets from his pocket, which were printed on the zoo in Liucheng.

"Ah! The zoo! There is an event there recently! There will be a circus performance at night!" Xu Wei's eyes lit up, and he was about to reach for it, but was pulled back by Xu Chenyuan, and he held it up maliciously. I asked, "Want to go?"

Xu Wei was very upset at being teased, and said with a puffy face, "I don't want to go! I don't want to go at all!"

"Really?" Xu Chenyuan leaned against the wall, looked at him with an angry expression, "It's fine if you don't want to go, I'll go for Lu Xinglan."

Xu Wei didn't look at him, but gritted his teeth and whispered, "I just want to go a little bit."

Seeing him like that, Xu Chenyuan couldn't help laughing: "Okay, look at you like that, it seems like I'm bullying you."

"You're just bullying me!" Xu Wei turned his back and ignored him.

Seeing that he really pissed off the person, Xu Chenyuan hurriedly grabbed the person's hand: "Hey, Xiaowei, Xiaowei, brother is wrong, don't get angry anymore, huh?"

"Don't call me Xiaowei!"

"What's that called, Wei Wei, Wei Baoer?"

"Then, what's that called..." Xu Wei blushed and turned to look at him.

Xu Chenyuan smiled and said, "I won't tell you."

That was his accent, his native dialect, a sweet nickname for his beloved.

Xu Wei glanced at the ticket in his hand again, and Xu Chenyuan hurriedly said, "I will take you there, I will definitely take you there, after the midterm exam is over, I will take you to the zoo, okay?"

"Speak, keep your word."

Xu Chenyuan stretched out his little finger of his right hand and said with a smile, "Of course it's a promise, let's pull the hook."

Xu Wei patted Xu Chenyuan's hand away, and said angrily, "Don't pull the hook, that's what kids do."

Speaking of these two tickets to the zoo, it was Lu Xinglan who gave him a while ago.

Just took over a lovelorn teenager, Xu Chenyuan was very panicked, the last thing he could do in his life was to lie to others, the last time he went to apologize was after the name of the basketball game, and then he went to talk to him.This time, Xu Chenyuan watched him lose his mind every day, the redness and swelling of his eyes never disappeared, and when he was with him, he was always in a daze, his eyes were empty, it made him feel distressed, but there was nothing he could do.

He went to the doctor in a hurry, so Xu Chenyuan went to see Lu Xinglan again.

The man who is known as a friend of women looked at Xu Chenyuan with the expression of looking at a dinosaur in amazement and horror, and asked: "Oh, which young lady is so overwhelmed and went to share with you the sadness after losing a relationship?"

Xu Chenyuan took a puff of cigarette irritably, and said, "Stop fucking nonsense." After thinking about it, he asked very dissatisfied, "Why can't you just think about it, what's wrong with me?"

"What's wrong with you?" Lu Xinglan sat down strangely, poured himself a glass of beer, and said, "What's wrong with you, who has the guts to go to you when you're broken in love? One sentence can make people go crazy, Poor child, that's not sprinkling salt on the wound, are you sprinkling alcohol?"

After being stunned, Xu Chenyuan thought about the deeds of scolding Xu Wei and rubbed his nose in embarrassment. He also knew that his mouth was not good, so he said sullenly: "Every day, I will If you know how to bury me, can you stop bullshitting and speak seriously!"

Lu Xinglan held his chin, looked him up and down, and asked curiously, "Before that, can you allow me to ask a question?"

Xu Chenyuan looked at him coldly and said, "Please refrain from talking about issues beyond the scope of my knowledge."

Lu Xinglan said with a playful smile: "It's okay, it must be within your knowledge reserve. Can you tell me who it is?"

Xu Chenyuan frowned, looked away awkwardly, and asked, "Why are you asking this?"

"Can you tell me that I can't be curious? It makes a person who is always gentle and gentle. I really want to know who is sacred. Is it Lin Wan from the last meeting?"

"No. Do you think I like her?" Xu Chenyuan stubbed out the cigarette in the ashtray, rubbed his forehead, and said embarrassedly: "I don't say it, it's also to protect him."

Seeing that he really wanted to hide it to the end, Lu Xinglan poured him a drink and said, "Okay, I won't make things difficult for you buddy. As for the current situation, if you really want to help that person, give him some When alone, he needs to heal himself."

Xu Chenyuan frowned and said, "I'm afraid he won't be able to think about it, so don't turn around and... do something stupid."

"So it's time for you to develop your presence!" Lu Xinglan looked at him with hatred and said, "According to you, you picked him up the day he broke up in love, and you picked him up when he was most embarrassed and vulnerable." I have seen him before, so I will have a certain sense of dependence and identification with you, at this time, it is most appropriate for you to take care of him and help him distract."

Xu Chenyuan nodded in understanding.

"Cough." Lu Xinglan cleared his throat, and asked again: "Then tell me the truth, have you taken a fancy to him?"

"I..." Xu Chenyuan was stuck for a moment, not knowing what to say.

The feelings that are ready to come out are on the lips, even if the heart is already turbulent, every word feels like stolen when it comes to the lips.

It seems that I can't admit it, but I dare not admit it. If I admit it, I must have the courage to face the cruel future.

He didn't know if he could do it, and he didn't know if he should drag that child into the water.

If it is said that a person really has no feelings, his answer is always decisive. If he likes it, he will always have many scruples.

Lu Xinglan opened his mouth, not knowing what to say, it's only been a few days?This person who just vowed to die alone fell in love in a blink of an eye, and the speed of slapping his face was comparable to that of Harmony!

After thinking for a while, I finally choked out a sentence: "Isn't the zoo holding activities these days, is there a circus to perform? Why don't you buy two tickets and take girls out to play and relax? Little girls like those animal."

Xu Chenyuan: "..."

How can he tell that it's actually a man?

"Let's do it like this, he, he...should like it very much."

At the end of the show, Lu Xinglan lit her own with the cigarette butt that made a wish, stood at the intersection and talked to him, saying: "It's rare to like someone, so treat her and yourself well, don't be tempted Easy, don't let yourself regret it."

Looking at the galaxy in the night, Xu Chenyuan sighed and said, "I like him."

Unexpectedly, he said such a sentence suddenly, Lu Xinglan looked at Xu Chenyuan who lowered his head and lit his cigarette in surprise.

Xu Chenyuan took a deep breath, and the smoke from the cold wind made him sober up a lot.

"I like him, no matter what he's been through, no matter what the future holds, I like him."

"I'm just afraid, afraid...he dare not like me."

The author has something to say

The day before yesterday's Qixi Festival, the single dog drank too much when he was on vacation, so he lay in bed for a whole day and didn't change for two days. I'm here to apologize to all the judges. I wrote an article as soon as I got up. I added an update today. A chapter