dramatic death

How assertive does one have to be to fall in love instantly?

I couldn't convince myself that the instructor's consent came from my heart, even though there was a voice in my heart that kept repeating: "You don't know their past at all."

I can't stand Tan laughing.

Maybe I can't accept anyone.

However, I did not interrupt this confession. I have no reason to make irresponsible remarks on the choice of the instructor, and I should even wish him a smooth relationship against my will.

I should bless him, but I can't.

I can't do it, sorry.

Even though Tan Xiao had smashed a hole in his head, I still have a heart for that confession.She broke into my world like a bomb, snatched away my instructor, and pulled the safety catch as a prank.

I don't know what she is going to do, and I don't know what I should do. Everyone here is holding secrets. They keep silent and walk on thin ice everywhere, but they push me into the target of public criticism.

what should I do?What is the right way to do it?

There is no answer.

I stood in the lobby of the hospital, resting on the instructor's shoulder, feeling chills all over my body.

The newly painted white walls of the school hospital were frighteningly cold, and the draft was howling through the empty hall. The instructor comforted the back of my neck through the hat. He paused for a long time before asking softly, "Why are you here?"

I tried to say something, but thousands of words stuck in my throat like a piece of iron, so hot that the tip of my tongue trembled and I couldn't even utter a single sound.I couldn't help tightening my arms, but hesitantly left his embrace. I stood there and looked at his clean eyes, feeling at a loss. I didn't know what I was doing, and I didn't know what else I could do.

I heard the instructor sigh.

He took my hand, and the warm palm wrapped around my cold fingertips. Only then did I notice that his face was still obviously sleepy, as if he hadn't slept for a long time, and his eyelids were black and blue.

"I want to see you," I hear myself say, "I want to see you, I don't know"

The beep of the elevator interrupted me.

The instructor let go of my hand in an instant, and he turned his back, even blocking me behind him.The silver-white elevator doors opened to both sides, and a young lady nurse walked out quickly in high-heeled shoes. Behind her, two men in white military uniforms were carrying the hospital's refrigerators. Under the brims of their hats, there were a pair of cold eyes.

I recognize the uniform, they are from the Academy of Sciences.

The nurse sent them out of the hospital gate, then turned around and greeted the instructor with a smile. She said, "I thought you went back just now. Who is this, a student in your class?"

The instructor didn't look back, he even took half a step forward, blocking the other party's sight: "Not yet, he just entered school, and now I'm still watching."

"Just entered school?" the nurse said, "Is that supposed to be the child who came on the bench this time?"

The instructor shook his head: "I don't know, I haven't been notified yet."

The nurse stopped talking, she seemed to have lost interest suddenly, she pursed her lips and walked back to the elevator.The instructor turned his back to me and straightened his back. He didn't let out a sigh of relief until the number on the elevator started to change, but he looked at me helplessly.

He wanted to say something, but he didn't speak after all.

I followed the instructor out of the hospital and walked through the woods to stand in the middle of the playground. The withered and yellow leaves crunched under his feet, bringing the overwhelming chill of late autumn.He didn't speak, but held my soft and warm hand. I followed him through the deserted playground to the teaching building where classes were still in progress, but I couldn't help but stop and stood on the runway full of fallen leaves.

I realized I had to say something.

I lowered my eyes and looked at the ground, and heard the instructor's slight sigh in the wind. I thought his eyes must have fallen on me. There was a flint hidden in those eyes, which was so hot that I couldn't face it.

He didn't speak, maybe he was waiting for me to speak, there is always one of us who has to confess, about this school, about what Dong Tiantian said, about the dead Tan Xiao, and even about the nurse just now.

So I opened my mouth and swallowed the cold wind of late autumn.

"What did you say last night?" The instructor interrupted what I hadn't said. He pulled me and kicked away the messy fallen leaves while walking along the track of the runway. She sent me a picture, saying that the campus surveillance caught you visiting the teaching building at night. I wanted to talk to you about your sleepwalking experience, but I was arrested by the old men of the Academy of Sciences. They told me Tan Xiao had a hard time thinking about it yesterday evening, and she had a hole in her head, and the surveillance camera captured her staying alone on the roof for a long time, and asked me if I had observed anything unusual recently."

"I said yes, the little girl Tan Xiao has always been quite abnormal."

"Then the kids in the class fell to the ground one after another, and I was called to do a psychological test again. After all the hard work, I saw you rushing in wet as soon as I went out," the receptionist turned around, with a brisk tone The completely different heavy eyes stayed on me, he seemed tired, his eyes were slightly bloodshot, "What did you and Tan Xiao talk about last night?" He asked again.

I unconsciously looked away.

The walk interrupted by the instructor was started by me again. I took his hand and stepped on the bright red runway covered with dead leaves. Listening to the small noise under my feet, it was like walking back to last night.

It was a ridiculous night.

I found the note in the book when I left school in the evening, and then I left the dormitory building after the instructor fell asleep. Everything was as simple as described in the note. I easily avoided the patrol route of the security guards and successfully pushed The iron gate of Bowen Building was opened.

I found the half-open stairwell in the dark, and found the flashlight behind the fire hydrant according to the location written in the note.It was pitch black in the long and narrow corridor, and I remembered that the instructor said that today is cloudy.

The only sound was my heavy footsteps in the empty stairwell, and the bright circle of the flashlight fell on the cold steps, only a small piece of clean ground was circled.

I counted the steps of the stairs and walked up, Tan Xiao was waiting for me on the top floor.

……

"Tan Xiao is waiting for you?" The instructor interrupted me, "What is she waiting for you for?"

"I don't know," I shook my head, "That's what it says on the note."

I found that note when I left school in the evening, at 18:45 in the evening, I remember it very clearly.

A long passage was written with a blue ballpoint pen on the neatly cut striped paper. I first noticed Tan Xiao’s signature at the end, and then I began to browse what was written on it.

That was a prophecy.

[You will leave the dormitory building after he falls asleep and go through the back door. Don't worry, the dormitory manager will forget the key on the door.

You can walk out openly, the dormitory building is not far from Bowen building, as long as you don't look back, no one will find you.

You will arrive at Bowen downstairs safely, and find that the iron gate at the main entrance is open, and you can pass through it by bending down.You'll find it weird to go in anyway, the door to the stairwell only leaves a gap for one person to get through, it's so dark in there you need a flashlight hidden behind a fire hydrant.

Don't dislike it for being dusty, it will take you through the long steps.

Take you to see me on the rooftop.

——Tan Xiao]

The dark stairs came to an end.

I stopped behind the closed door and saw the dark silhouette on the roof through the transparent glass window on the door.A large wheelchair was parked on the roof garden that the school had painstakingly built. A thin girl sat on it, as if her whole body was sunk into the metal backrest.

Tan Xiao also saw me.

The moonlight passes through the thick clouds and covers the roof garden at night, outlining the trembling vegetation in the evening wind, and also depicting the girl's face.Tan Xiao looks very ordinary, she doesn't have a face that makes people fall in love at first sight, and she doesn't have a voice that makes people fall in love with it. She is as cute as the girls you can see everywhere on the street, only those big round eyes are not easy to forget.

However, she was too thin, as thin as a human skeleton with clothes hanging on it.

I opened the door and walked into the rooftop. Tan Xiao was smiling, and she said, "I've been waiting for you for a long time."

"I'm waiting for you to applaud my performance," Tan said with a laugh, "Don't let me down after this drama opens."

……

I stopped recalling and looked up at the instructor. He didn't smile, but frowned as if he was thinking about something.

Does he care about Tan Xiao's death?

I tried to ask this sentence, but after meeting his puzzled eyes, I swallowed the question back.

"Nothing." I shook my head.

—I don't care about the answer to this question.

I told myself.

——Tan Xiao is dead.

Last night, in front of my eyes, the blood from under her head stained the ground in front of me.

However, the moment I walked into the rooftop, I didn't expect Tan Xiao's death. She still appeared in my field of vision as vividly as before, coughed twice, and smiled happily.

She said: "Look, everyone is asleep, everything is developing according to the process I want, and all the future will be as beautiful as a dream."

"I like this dream."

"I like him."

"We'll be together forever."

……

The instructor squeezed my palm, he interrupted my narration, stopped, turned and looked me in the eyes.

"And then?" I heard him ask, "Then Tan Xiao jumped off the building?"

I felt the instructor's pressure in my hand, he seemed to be implying something, but his eyes were so clear that there was no distraction.So I hesitated for a moment, chose to obey his statement and nodded.

"Then Tan Xiao jumped off the building," I heard myself say, "She retreated to the edge of the roof, fell down laughing, and fell into the flower bed downstairs, bleeding all over the floor."

"Did you see it with your own eyes?" the instructor asked, and then he froze for a moment before adding abruptly, "Sorry, I"

"I saw it with my own eyes," I interrupted him by looking into his eyes, "I saw it with my own eyes, Tan Xiao died in the flower bed."

The wind suddenly rose.

In the playground in late autumn, there is no longer the greenery covering the sky and the sun in late summer. The sky is full of yellow leaves mixed in the strong wind, roaring like waves.I saw a trace of apology welling up in the instructor's clean eyes, he licked his lower lip and spoke hesitantly, as if saying "I'm sorry".

However, he didn't say anything. After the gust of wind subsided, he just listened for a while, showing a reassuring smile.

"OFF," he mouthed the words, and pointed to his ear as if there was a bug hidden in it, "They occasionally put things on me," he switched back to his normal Volume, "Unfortunately, thanks to my father, I am allergic to most built-in electronic products, and my ears ring when I turn them on, so if those monitoring devices want to survive in my body longer, I have to turn them off."

"Sorry, I reminded you of something bad. Those people pay too much attention to you, and they always feel that you are hiding something, so a proper disclosure can better help us get away with it."

"But there's not much to talk about. Tan Xiao has caused so many troubles. He should help us share a little bit of trouble."