Mountain Stream Autumn

Lin Su didn't know how to respond.

He didn't feel much before the meeting, but after the meeting, the past was like smoke but he still vividly remembered it.

He was Chen Nanshan, whom he met in the second half of junior high school, and became his deskmate by coincidence.At first, Lin Su, like the rest of the class, thought that Chen Nanshan was not easy to provoke and was afraid of him, but after sitting for a few days, Lin Su found that Chen Nanshan was different from everyone's inherent impression.

Chen Nanshan doesn't attend class, but he doesn't disturb others. Although he has a bad temper, he has never lost his temper in class. Even though everyone often gets into trouble and gets hurt, he likes to eat sweets, and he is very gentle and careful.Over time, Lin Su's impression of Chen Nanshan changed, coupled with his familiarity, so despite Chen Nanshan's indifference, Lin Su still insisted on treating him unilaterally and getting along with him.

There is a story about taking the initiative, and the two did become friends.After becoming friends, it is true that Lin Su has seen a different Chen Nanshan, but most of the time, Chen Nanshan is still the same as the photo. He is not afraid of anyone, and he is even more disobedient. Great class bully.

Lin Su also thinks so.

Therefore, when he saw Chen Nanshan in front of He Qiuming, Yu Linsu felt like a bolt from the blue, he couldn't believe it, he felt it was impossible.Because of He Qiuming, Lin Su once again saw a different Chen Nanshan, Ruanuo would act like a baby, and he was so affectionate.

Even after such a long time, Lin Su still remembered Chen Nanshan at that time, even He Qiuming prepared a dress for him, and he could show it off in front of him for a long time.

He Qiuming really dotes on Chen Nanshan.

Chen Nanshan didn't really expect to get an answer from Lin Su, he said so much just to relieve his depressed mood.But Lin Su obviously didn't think so. Chen Nanshan only saw Lin Su lower his head for a while, and then asked him, "Does it really have to be him?"

Chen Nanshan was taken aback for a moment, then shook his head with a smile and didn't speak, but everyone understood the meaning.

He Qiuming was never an option. Among Chen Nanshan, He Qiuming was unique.

Lin Su turned his head and said in a low voice, "It's almost Chinese New Year, go to my house."

Chen Nanshan frowned, and subconsciously refused, but Lin Sumei swept her eyes away, and said in a bad tone, "My mother wants to see you, don't you want to go?"

Yesterday, because he was afraid that Chen Nanshan would not agree, he mentioned a few words to Lin's mother by the way. With Lin's mother, Lin Su was not afraid that Chen Nanshan would not agree.Sure enough, Chen Nanshan frowned and was a little confused, but Lin Su only looked at it for a while, then looked away and explained unnaturally, "It's a big Chinese New Year event, and there are more people, so it will be lively."

He knew about the affairs of Chen Nanshan's family. In the past, Chen Yong would not accompany Chen Nanshan on holidays, not to mention that Chen Nanshan and him had become more tense in the past few years. Whether they could sit together in a friendly manner was a problem.So if Chen Nanshan really stayed here, he would have to be alone in his house on New Year's Eve.

Lin Su didn't want him to do that, and it was easy to think too much when alone.

Chen Nanshan knew it in his heart, but he still had some expectations for He Qiuming. He wanted to wait for him to come back, and wanted to ask him what he thought.

Lin Su changed his posture and sat staring at Chen Nanshan. He did not continue to emphasize the issue of Chinese New Year, but asked, "What do you think?"

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"It's about the two of you," Lin Su paused, remembering Cheng Zhixing's advice, and pondering over his words, "If he comes back to look for you, what will you do?"

Chen Nanshan smiled wryly, and denied it without thinking, "It's impossible."

"I mean if."

He lowered his eyes and began to think seriously.Although Chen Nanshan has been emphasizing that he understands He Qiuming and does not blame He Qiuming, but after careful investigation, he is actually not as calm as he said. If He Qiuming came back to look for him as Lin Su said, what would he do?

"I do not know."

Chen Nanshan was telling the truth. It is true that he likes He Qiuming, but he is not the kind who can pounce on him casually. After all, the grievances and uncomfortable feelings he has suffered are all real. He can't ignore them. The grudge agrees with He Qiuming.

"Cheng Zhixing told me that you two need time."

"Oh?"

Lin Su smiled, recalling what Cheng Zhixing said to him, and said slowly, "The relationship between you two is not equal, even if he didn't leave and chose to be with you, you may not be able to go on."

Cheng Zhixing said that regardless of the previous relationship between Chen Nanshan and He Qiuming, after the reunion, the two are in an unequal position.Because of what happened back then, after meeting He Qiuming, Chen Nanshan has been in a passive position. He pursued He Qiuming very humblely and wanted to repair the relationship. He was often very happy because of He Qiuming's actions.

In the same way, because of what happened back then, even though He Qiuming had Chen Nanshan in his heart, there was still a crack in his heart. Before starting a relationship, he would think a lot and worry a lot.

The most important thing, whether it was before or now, the two lack the most basic communication.It is true that they are very affectionate, and they will tell each other many things, but when encountering major events, such as coming out of the closet, such as threats from parents, the two of them will subconsciously embrace themselves.

It is undeniable that to a certain extent this is for the good of the other party, but in love, it is not enough to be good to the other party, and more often it is necessary to consider whether the other party accepts this kindness.

At the beginning, because of Chen Yong's obstruction, the lovers were separated. He Qiuming didn't know the story behind this, and he would more or less not understand Chen Nanshan.After the meeting, He Qiuming took the initiative to bring up the events of the year, but Chen Nanshan still chose to remain silent. This choice is beyond reproach, but Chen Nanshan must be clear when making such a choice. What he doesn't say is a hurdle in He Qiuming's heart.

If he couldn't cross it, he couldn't come to him naturally.

Chen Nanshan was distracted looking into the distance, roughly recalled the past six months, and thought about the heavy rain of the previous two nights, and understood what Lin Su said in his heart.

It is often said that when the disappointment gathers to a certain extent, it will become disappointment and give up on a relationship.Chen Nanshan hasn't reached that point yet, it's just that on that rainy night, he was sitting on the street in the rain, and he really wanted He Qiuming to appear by his side, even if he didn't say anything, he was very happy just standing in front of him up.

However, no matter how he calls and sends messages, there will be no messages from the phone, as if the phone has been discarded by the owner.

When the rain fell into the early morning, when Chen Nanshan stood up, a meaningless topic flashed through his head at the right time, but it made Chen Nanshan think about it for the rest of the night.

Is it really okay for him to stick to He Qiuming like this?In other words, is He Qiuming tired of him like this?

Chen Nanshan didn't think of a reason that night, and he couldn't think of a reason today either.He took out the mobile phone with a broken screen in his pocket, looked at it carefully for two seconds, and pressed the power button. The screen saver was He Qiuming's profile shot while watching the fireworks.It's just that the pictures don't look that good because the screen is broken.

Chen Nanshan put the phone away again and put it in his pocket. It was time to change the phone and rethink some things.

The two of them didn't continue to take a walk, but took a taxi to the mobile phone city to buy a mobile phone. After buying the two, they immediately went back to the hospital, tidied up a bit and were ready to go to bed.

Lin Su fell asleep quickly, while Chen Nanshan couldn't sleep with his eyes open.The topic they talked about during the walk before, the two tacitly did not mention it after they came out, but the impact left by it lingered in Chen Nanshan's heart for a long time.

He understood what Cheng Zhixing said.

He took out his mobile phone, poked open WeChat, and clicked on the chat box with He Qiuming. Because he changed his mobile phone, the previous chat records disappeared completely. He stared at the page without any chat conversations, and lowered his eyes, wondering what he was thinking.

Need time?Chen Nanshan muttered, thinking that he really couldn't do it without looking for He Qiuming, but the wall in He Qiuming's heart, except for him to heal it, no one else could do anything.

Chen Nanshan turned off his phone and turned over, thinking that he would try to contact He Qiuming tomorrow, and if it didn't work, then he didn't know what to do.

Maybe it's really like what Cheng Zhixing said, what the two of them need is time, so the progress of this relationship does not depend on who takes the initiative.It was as if the problem between them was never that he concealed He Qiuming and agreed to Chen Yong's request privately, but the problem behind the incident.

He Qiuming needed time, and he was willing to give it. He only hoped that this time he would not lie to him again.He crossed so many mountains and rivers, and finally came to the city where he was. He only hoped that He Qiuming could give him a satisfactory reply.

I admit that I was wronged for you, but I hope you don't make me wronged.