Mountain Stream Autumn

When Jiang Manchun was seriously ill, he chose to grit his teeth and stand up on his own. Later, he was threatened by Chen Yong, and the two separated for many years.

Chen Nanshan didn't want to think about that bad time, because every time he thought about it, those two sentences of He Qiuming would jump into his mind.On that sunny afternoon, the person he loved the most walked up to him, left him a few words, and then walked out of his life completely.

He said it would be his wish.

Chen Nanshan also thought it was good at the very beginning, thinking that if He Qiuming had gone away, Chen Yong would have no way to threaten him.It's just that he seriously overestimated himself. As soon as he saw He Qiuming's leaving back, he couldn't help but wanted to run up to hug him and explain to him that this was not the case.

But he can't do that.

What happened to Jiang Manchun was only a small part of the reason, and a bigger part was because of He Qiuming. Chen Yong was very smart to handle him, so that Chen Nanshan could only follow his words.

Afterwards, Chen Nanshan went to look for He Qiuming, but He Qiuming disappeared. No one knew where he went, and no one was willing to tell him where He Qiuming was. He Chen Nanshan was really abandoned by He Qiuming, just like what he said at the beginning generally.

He said let's break up, and he left.

Chen Nanshan withdrew from the memory, controlled his expression, and pretended to be relaxed, "I'm afraid I will cause you trouble."

At that time, He Qiuming was busy taking the postgraduate entrance examination of the school. If Chen Nanshan told He Qiuming, it would definitely distract him and affect his preparation for the exam.Being able to be with He Qiuming made Chen Nanshan feel very lucky, so he must not influence He Qiuming to become a better person because of himself. If he influenced He Qiuming because of himself, then Chen Nanshan himself would not be able to forgive himself.

So Chen Nanshan felt that his answer was quite good, at least He Qiuming shouldn't be able to answer it.However, He Qiuming not only answered, but also successfully made Chen Nanshan unable to speak again.

"No matter how big or small, we advance and retreat together." He Qiuming stared into Chen Nanshan's eyes, smiling warmly, but the words he said were heartbreaking, "Have you forgotten everything you said?"

How could I forget?Dare not forget and never forget.

Chen Nanshan was admitted to He Qiuming's high school. The two thought they had survived the heterosexual relationship. Now that they are in the same school, they should be able to have a sweet time. However, they did not expect that the school suddenly tightened discipline, and puppy love was among them. .Although it's not a big deal for two boys to be close, the blame is that in order to prevent puppy love, the school is not allowed to cross classes, so as to prevent students from falling in love across classes.Once this school rule comes down, it is strictly enforced by the head teachers of each class. It is strictly forbidden to cross classes without incident, let alone cross grades.

But there are always a few disobedient students in each class. The school clearly prohibits this, but they can't stop their desire to fall in love, so they always call their little girlfriends and live in the ancient forest behind the school. Chat, hold hands, and kiss.

Then after catching several couples in a row in one week, the school asked the head teachers of each class to hold parent-teacher meetings to emphasize this matter. Therefore, during that time, the couples who were not found in the class complained, saying that they had less time to spend together, and now it is even more nothing. It's time.

Chen Nanshan was not affected, and still chatted enthusiastically with He Qiuming.But he was worried that He Qiuming would be told by his parents that he would be reminded every day when he was chatting. Ordinary male and female couples would be ordered to break up by their parents if they were found dating. There were one or two couples in the class who separated because of parental interference. Chen Nanshan didn't dare to think about the consequences of two boys falling in love and being discovered by their parents, and he didn't want to bet.

So after being kissed by He Qiuming on the wall one time, Chen Nanshan lay in his arms to calm down, panting and said, "In the future, no matter how big or small, we will advance and retreat together."

He Qiuming patted him on the back, rested his chin on Chen Nanshan's neck, hummed in a muffled voice with a slightly raised tone.Chen Nanshan was a little itchy from him, so he hid aside, and then explained in detail.He said that in the future they will definitely have a difficult hurdle to pass. If their parents accidentally find out, they must never make a unilateral decision, because being together is a matter for two people, and even if they want to separate, it should be a matter for two people , rather than a party's decision.

"Okay." He Qiuming kissed him on the mouth, bowed his head and said, "We must remember what you said."

"must."

But when the relationship was discovered, Chen Nanshan chose to face it by himself, instead of advancing and retreating together as he said.Later, Jiang Manchun became seriously ill, and he unilaterally chose a decision that was better for He Qiuming, without asking if He Qiuming was willing.

The agreement was proposed by Chen Nanshan, but he was the one who failed to fulfill it first.

......

Chen Nanshan shrank his neck, looked into He Qiuming's eyes, but still didn't say anything.Seeing him like this, He Qiuming was relieved and at the same time couldn't help but sigh, "Forget it," he didn't force Chen Nanshan to answer, but just said, "Today I'm out to play, so let's have fun."

Chen Nanshan was still in his own world and did not hear He Qiuming's words.He Qiuming saw that he didn't respond, and said, "This street is very lively at night, and there are singers singing, I will take you to see it then."

"There is a themed bar in the east alley in front. Every night has a different theme. I don't know what the theme is today. Let's go and see it later?"

He remembered that Chen Nanshan liked these interesting things.

"He Qiuming, I like you." Chen Nanshan, who hadn't responded all this time, raised his head, said such a sentence, and added, "I like you very much."

He Qiuming, who was talking about the evening arrangement, was also confused by Chen Nanshan's actions. He looked into Chen Nanshan's clear eyes, smiled wryly in his heart, and did not ignore his own heart anymore. He met Chen Nanshan for the first time in months and responded directly. Nanshan's feelings, he said, "I know."

He knows what he likes, he just doesn't know what he thinks.

Chen Nanshan was slightly surprised, he didn't expect He Qiuming to respond, so he was a little happy after hearing He Qiuming's answer, because at least he expressed his inner feelings, but at the same time he felt sad, because the response He Qiuming gave him was only that he knew .

"Then He Qiuming, what is that wall in your heart?"

There is a wall in his heart, preventing Chen Nanshan from getting closer to him, but he still doesn't understand what this wall is.

He Qiuming glanced at Chen Nanshan clearly, even after so long, Chen Nanshan still knew him best.Chao Nian wondered why he was not with Chen Nanshan yet. Zhang Qiuyan asked him if he liked Chen Nanshan. Only Chen Nanshan asked him what the wall in his heart was, and what was his relationship with Chen Nanshan in the end? The point was never whether he liked him, but whether he could get over the wall he had set up.

If he can't get over it, then it's very unlikely that he and Chen Nanshan can reconcile. If they get over it, he will be the only one for the rest of his life.

As for the so-called wall, it is also very simple. He just minded that Chen Nanshan made the decision alone, and was afraid that Chen Nanshan would do it again after being abandoned.It doesn't matter if you say he has no sense of security, or if you say he plays too much, he is no longer a boy of sixteen or seventeen, and he needs to consider a lot more when starting a relationship. If he is ten years younger, even if the situation is bad, he will dare to pull Chen Nanshan's hand ran, with the confidence that Chen Nanshan must be him, but now he is 26, has been in love vigorously, and also lived for one person. For the rest of his life, love is not so important, the important thing is himself, He wants to protect himself well, and he will die if he doesn't feel uncomfortable anymore, so if he doesn't think enough about it, he would rather be single all the time.

He Qiuming smiled, looked at Chen Nanshan, and slowly said the answer, "You."

The wall and hurdle in his heart has always been Chen Nanshan.

Chen Nanshan didn't expect to hear such an answer, he didn't react for a while, he looked at He Qiuming in a daze, he wanted to ask why He Qiuming did this again, but it was obvious that He Qiuming didn't intend to give him this chance, and interrupted his thoughts early , "It's not necessary to think clearly about things, maybe one day you will understand."

"Ah."

"Do you want to rest?" He Qiuming pointed to the bed, "I'll just sit beside you and not disturb you."

On the plane that arrived, Chen Nanshan had been sleeping the whole time, apparently he didn't sleep well last night, so it's fine if He Qiuming didn't mention it, but when he mentioned it, he was really sleepy.

Just let him sleep next to He Qiuming, how could he fall asleep.

But after chatting so much with He Qiuming just now, Chen Nanshan has no experience to care about those things anymore, so as soon as He Qiuming finished speaking, Chen Nanshan unceremoniously lay down on the bed, and rolled over to where He Qiuming was sitting, he thought Get closer to He Qiuming.

He Qiuming glanced at his small movements, didn't say anything, just turned up the temperature of the air conditioner in the room, and said, "Go to sleep."

After finishing speaking, just like what he said, he sat on the side. Seeing him like this, Chen Nanshan couldn't help but look at him sadly, why did he lean against him when he was sitting so far away.

Forget it, so be it.

Chen Nanshan turned over and began to cultivate drowsiness, so he didn't see the smile on the corner of the mouth of the person behind him after he turned around.