Mountain Stream Autumn

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Habits become natural, including loving someone.

He Qiuming did not doubt that he gave up his love for Chen Nanshan, and he always believed that when he made that decision, he was sincere.However, after returning, facing the enthusiastic Chen Nanshan, He Qiuming couldn't bear to be shaken when he saw the fiery emotion in his eyes.

He couldn't tell if it was because of love, or purely because of his inertia towards Chen Nanshan.

But no matter what the reason is, He Qiuming can understand one thing very accurately, that is, he doesn't want to see Chen Nanshan sad, and it can even be said that he hopes the child can be as happy as before.

It's just that he can't give the happiness that children want.

And precisely because of this relationship, He Qiuming's fear became even greater, and his determination to leave became more determined.

He has loved, once loved someone desperately, he has also been hurt, and it took him several years to get out of the pain that suffocated him.Love made him realize what beauty is, and made his teenage years as bright as a rainbow. It is even very likely that in the rest of his life, there will be no more exciting memory than this, just in his 20s The gloomy time in the past also made him flinch.

A person who has been hurt in a relationship, no matter how much sweetness that love has brought him, cannot avoid being as fearless as he was at the beginning after being hurt this time.

What's more, the person who hurt He Qiuming was the irreplaceable Chen Nanshan in his heart, so it's no wonder that He Qiuming protected himself from behind.

You can't give me a sense of security, so I have to find a sense of security by myself, but I'm sorry, the way I found to give me a sense of security is to leave you.

However, even though this is said, it is very difficult to actually operate it.

As Chen Nanshan approached again and again, as the atmosphere about Chen Nanshan in He Qiuming's life increased, and as the deadline he set for himself approached, He Qiuming not only did not feel relaxed, but felt more and more depressed.

And for this decision... More and more confused.

He Qiuming hadn't planned to rush back overnight for the Mid-Autumn Festival. After all, he had been abroad for many years and hadn't spent the holidays with his parents for a long time.However, when he had lunch and woke up from a nap in his own room, looking at the vines outside the window, the memory could not help drifting back to many years ago.

Floating to those afternoons with Chen Nanshan.

Because his parents are university professors, He Qiuming is often at home alone, so when he was in high school, he often brought Chen Nanshan back to his home, and no one knew about it anyway.

And every time he came to the house, He Qiuming's favorite place to take Chen Nanshan was his room, and he especially liked to do some colorful things in his room, making Chen Nanshan's cheeks blush to be satisfied.

As for Chen Nanshan, he also seemed to like going to his room very much. After every incident, he would hug He Qiuming and sleep on his bed. When he woke up, the sunset outside had dyed half of the sky red.

Chen Nanshan would lie in his arms, lazily look at the scenery outside, then click his tongue, raise his head and kiss him.

He Qiuming can't remember how many times this happened, but now he thinks about it, his heart palpitations are severe.

He has always been a person who does whatever he thinks of, so after having this thought in his heart, He Qiuming mentioned something to Liang Wanmu, and rushed back to work after dinner.

He wanted to spend the Mid-Autumn Festival with Chen Nanshan.

Nung, moon and new moon.Even if they are separated, Chen Nanshan can't lose what others have.

On the eve of Christmas Eve, heavy snow fell leisurely in the city, and the whole city was completely white in an instant.He Qiuming didn't know why he agreed to Chen Nanshan's request and went outside with him.

It's true that it's cold, it's true that it looks good, and it's true that he's happy.

In those years abroad, He Qiuming experienced heavy snow days. One year, their school had a three-day holiday because of the heavy snow. During those three days, He Qiuming could not go anywhere, but could only stay in the dormitory because of the heavy snow on the road. The snow is too thick, it is not convenient to travel.So He Qiuming no longer liked snowy days as much as he did when he was young, but when he saw Chen Nanshan running in the snow, he realized how wrong his idea was.

The scenery of a place is not about how many times you have seen it, or the season when you go there, but more about who is with you.

If it is your sweetheart, even sitting at the entrance of the alley and watching people come and go will make you feel extremely romantic.

Once Christmas is over, time flies by like riding a carriage, and the New Year and New Year's Day will be in the blink of an eye.

The New Year's Eve was spent on the mountain with Chen Nanshan, and they said they watched shooting stars together, which sounded too romantic.It's just that it was really cold that night.

The moment the pop crossed the sky, He Qiuming saw Chen Nanshan closing his eyes and making a wish. He was a little dazed, but soon recovered, and closed his eyes like him.

But he didn't make a wish.

He didn't believe in these legends that had no scientific basis. After all, if it was true, he wouldn't have left the country in despair a few years ago.

But the sincere appearance of Chen Nanshan he saw when he closed his eyes reminded He Qiuming of a past event, a childish and heartwarming past event.

He Qiuming had just finished the college entrance examination, so he took his children out to play while they were still on summer vacation.On the way, the two of them passed a thousand-year-old temple. He Qiuming saw that the incense was flourishing there, and he began to think about it, and gradually became more measured.

At four o'clock in the morning the next day, He Qiuming woke up softly, kissed Chen Nanshan who was exhausted from working too much the night before, opened the door and left the hotel.

He ran to the ancient temple and formed a long line, waiting to enter the temple to offer incense.

He Qiuming waited until the sky turned white.

Others came here for career or family happiness, but he took three sticks of high incense and knelt devoutly in front of the Buddha. He didn't seek education or career, he only wanted marriage.

Lord Buddha, may He Qiuming and Chen Nanshan be together for a long time.

Teenage love is really beautiful to say the least.

He Qiuming couldn't tell why he took Chen Nanshan home, and he also knew that his behavior could be regarded as a scumbag.But he didn't want to think about it, and he didn't want to stop there. He stubbornly insisted that it would be fine after a few days.

But he was wrong.Still dead wrong.

It can't be good, everything can't be good.He made a mistake when Chen Nanshan didn't push him away, but he didn't want to believe it, and he still stubbornly insisted on his own choice, going all the way to the dark.

He ran away.

It just so happened that the former mentor had a mission, so He Qiuming simply packed his luggage and got on the plane. Before leaving, he found an intermediary and asked him to help sell his house.

As for the mobile phone, He Qiuming turned it off and put it in the suitcase.He was afraid that he would run back when he saw the message from Chen Nanshan, and everything would fail.

The most terrible thing in a person's life has never been inaction, but self-righteousness.

He Qiuming was unfortunately infected with this.

He thought that when he went abroad, in a place without Chen Nanshan, the influence and habits brought by Chen Nanshan would fade one by one, and he would be able to live a brand new life, no longer need to live in the shadow of Chen Nanshan .

But no.

Even if it's a strange street and a strange language, He Qiuming can't help but think of Chen Nanshan.

It was at this time that he realized that for Chen Nanshan, time and space were never obstacles.As long as he thinks, even if the world is far away, even if he never sees each other again in this life, Chen Nanshan will accompany him.

Wherever he is, Chen Nanshan will be there.

It's just that He Qiuming didn't understand it at that time, and thought that as long as it took a little longer, everything would be fine.

But when he learned from Chao Nian that Chen Nanshan had come to look for him and Zhang Qiuyan's dirty work, He Qiuming almost went crazy.

The person he held on top of his heart, even when he was most annoyed, he was reluctant to move a finger, was taught a lesson by the people invited by Zhang Qiuyan.He Qiuming didn't dare to think about how helpless Chen Nanshan must have been at that time, and he didn't dare to think about Chen Nanshan's opinion of him. He admitted that he was afraid.

He Qiuming returned to the hotel and had a fight with Zhang Qiuyan.

He hadn't fought with anyone for many years, let alone messing around like he was in junior high school, but that time when he beat Zhang Qiuyan, he killed Zhang Qiuyan and beat him up severely.

Later, he still felt that it was not enough, so he brought Zhang Qiuyan's mess to his house.

He Qiuming has never been a kind person, if he touches his bottom line, don't blame him for punishing him to death.

Unfortunately, Zhang Qiuyan touched his bottom line.

Chen Nanshan was He Qiuming's bottom line.

What should I do after beating Zhang Qiuyan?He Qiuming didn't know, he didn't even dare to think about Chen Nanshan, for fear that he would think he hated him.

However, the longing in his heart finally outweighed his fear. He Qiuming went back to China to find Chen Nanshan. He wanted to be with Chen Nanshan and never be separated again.

But Chen Nanshan was gone, and he couldn't find him no matter what.

When Chao Nian saw his despondent looking for someone, he smiled shamelessly, and even taunted him severely.He Qiuming didn't refute a word, just listening to Chao Nian scolding him in a daze.

Yes, what Chao Nian said was right, he was indeed a scumbag, so what right did he ask Chen Nanshan to wait for him where he was?

It's just... it can't be done.

God treated him well, just when He Qiuming thought he would lose Chen Nanshan forever, he met him again in the city where they had lived for more than ten years.

Chen Nanshan's reaction was within his expectation, so He Qiuming didn't feel very sad, and he was even glad that he was pleasantly surprised to meet Chen Nanshan again.

As for Chen Nanshan's indifference, He Qiuming didn't care, or if Chen Nanshan wasn't indifferent to him, then He Qiuming would be even more worried.He will be indifferent to him, which means he still has him in his heart, so He Qiuming is not in a hurry, he is willing to take his time, is willing to chase Chen Nanshan one more time, and is willing to wait for Chen Nanshan to forgive him.

He deserves to be punished for doing something wrong.

As long as Chen Nanshan is willing to give him a chance, He Qiuming feels that everything is fine.

Although love always hurts people, it can't stop people's yearning for him.Before He Qiuming, he was an ordinary person in the great world. He avoided and gave up on love and Chen Nanshan, but he failed every time.

So he gradually understood that Chen Nanshan was not just love to him, but also fate.

No matter how he hides, no matter what happens between him and Chen Nanshan, it will all point to the same ending: the two will be bound for a lifetime.

He Qiuming was happy to see this ending.

After coming down from the place where Chen Nanshan lived again, He Qiuming did not leave immediately, but stood downstairs, looked up at the floor where Chen Nanshan was, and then bent his lips and smiled.

He said, "Good night, children, see you tomorrow."

Young people always think that I love you are the sweetest words of love, but as they grow older, they also begin to understand that those straightforward loves and loves are actually the most fake. Who knew I would tell you that I love you today? My love, where will tomorrow be.

Something to look forward to is the sweetest love words.

Therefore, adults rarely express their love directly when they express their love. It can even be said that I love you, and they will not talk about it like they did when they were teenagers. Instead, they will express love in other ways.

See you tomorrow is one of them.

Today is over, my dear, good night, the sun will rise tomorrow morning, I will appear in front of you, and say good morning to you.

This is He Qiuming's way of expressing love.

He wants to accompany Chen Nanshan through good morning, good afternoon, good night, wants to spend 24 hours with him, and wants to be that very special person by his side.

This is his love to the depths, and it is also his phrase I love you.

Chen Nanshan is He Qiuming's cinnabar mole, his white moonlight, and the person who will be bound to him for the rest of his life.

He is what you see, what you think about, and what you love.