The playwright school grass is also pestering me today

Standing on the bank of the river, the wind finally felt a little chilly, Shen Yu shrank his neck, He Du glanced at him, and wanted to take off his coat to him, but Shen Yu stopped him.

"There are quite a lot of cruise ships near here." He Du flipped through the review software, "May I find a closer one?"

"No, I don't want to take a boat." Shen Yu said, the harsh wind from the river chilled the sky and the earth, and the always warm southern country finally felt a bit of the bleakness that autumn should have.

"I just want to find a quieter place closer to the river, and stay for a while." Shen Yu pressed another call from Shen Jingguo, feeling a lump in his throat and trembling when speaking.

What Shen Yu didn't expect was that there was some hesitation on He Du's face. He struggled for a while before asking: "You...won't jump down?"

Shen Yu was taken aback for a moment, at this critical moment when his emotions were about to lose control, he was actually amused by He Du's words, and suddenly recalled the scene of him standing by the river a few years ago.

He stared at He Du for a while: "You still know that I jumped over the river?"

"I know." He Du looked at him, his eyes still very nervous, "If you really want to go to the riverside, you must let me pull you."

Shen Yu continued to stare at He Du, He Du's face was a little red from the wind, his eyes reflected the fine waves of the Pearl River, Shen Yu saw that undisguised worry, miraculously made him manic at the moment The mood got a little appeasement.

"Okay." Shen Yu smiled, "I don't know how to dance either."

Shen Yu walked in front, and He Du followed behind, holding his arm.

On the Pearl River, cruise ships and cargo ships pass by from time to time. There are tall buildings on both sides of the river, shining lights, and there are bridges across the river, creating a bustling scene.

But on the bank closest to the river, the figures are as small as ants, and the lights can't reach this corner.

Shen Yu and He Du were standing in this corner.

Shen Yu kept taking deep breaths, reciprocated about ten times, and his anger finally calmed down a little.He Du kept looking at him, worried.

"Are you so nervous?" Shen Yu turned her head to look at him and smiled.

"Yeah." He Du nodded, the corners of his mouth were tense, and his expression was extremely serious, "You were like this five years ago."

If He Du comforted him about what happened today, maybe Shen Yu's mood would get worse and worse, but he was always worried that Shen Yu would jump into the river like five years ago, which made Shen Yu feel a little fun and warm. The mood even calmed down a little.

Shen Yu sat down on the small soil bag, and He Du immediately followed suit.Two or three meters below their feet was the water of the Pearl River. Small waves lapped on the shore, making soft noises like tidal waves.

"Do you know why I jumped into the river at that time?" Shen Yu asked.

"I don't know." He Du said, "Will you tell me?"

Shen Yu smiled: "It's actually not a big deal. I just finished the final exam at that time. I didn't do well in chemistry. I fell out of the top ten in the grade and was scolded by my dad. Originally, he would give me 500 yuan a month. I didn’t give pocket money that month. I had a friend at that time…”

"Is it Wu Fan?" He Du asked.

Shen Yu looked at him in surprise: "You know all this?"

"It's also a coincidence." He Du said, habitually raised the corner of his mouth, without any smile.

"It's him." Shen Yu sighed, recalling this person was only slightly less shameful than recalling her own family, "You also know that my popularity was very bad at that time, so I desperately wanted a friend, Wu Fan who appeared at that time, he was okay with me, mainly because he was willing to listen to me... I regarded him as my best friend. For about a year, I would give him a month of pocket money Mostly."

He Du unconsciously exerted a little force on Shen Yu's arm: "And then?"

"Then I didn't have any money to give him that month, maybe he just happened to have something bothering him, he didn't even pretend to be in front of me, he just exploded." Shen Yu looked up at the sky, it was difficult to see stars in the night sky of the city, Only the moon gently reflected the surface of the river, "I chased him into the teaching building and wanted to ask him what happened, but he told me, you don't really think we are friends, do you?"

He Du didn't speak, and Shen Yu didn't look at him.This was the first time Shen Yu told others about this matter, he thought it would rot in his stomach, because it was too shameful to open his mouth.

"I don't care about money, do you understand..." Shen Yu sighed again, her voice a little hoarse, "But I told him so much, I..."

"You just treat him as a friend, so you tell him everything." He Du said, "But he is a beast, and he has failed your trust."

"Yes." Shen Yu grabbed He Du's wrist back, always feeling that there needs to be something in his hand to feel a little bit more secure.

"Actually, thinking about it now, it's really a big deal, but at that time I just couldn't stand it." Shen Yu grabbed He Du's wrist, her mood became a little calmer, and she even smiled, "It's pretty silly."

"It's a small matter for you, but it may be a big thing for me. People's judgment standards are different, so there's no need to belittle yourself because of this." He Du said, "Although I don't support the behavior of jumping into the river, I can Understand, this matter was very important to you at the time."

Shen Yu smiled, and he didn't say thank you again: "But these things have nothing to do with what happened today, don't worry, I won't jump into the river just because of this stupid thing."

The surface of the river was shimmering with pearls, shining brightly. In fact, Shen Yu didn't want to jump into the river that time. He just wanted to go to the river to relax, but staying there became more and more difficult to think about, and finally almost did something stupid.

The phone was still shaking, and Shen Jingguo kept calling. It was the first time that Shen Yu discovered that Shen Jingguo would be so angry if he didn't listen to him.

"I really can't figure it out." Shen Yu sighed, "Am I really his own son?"

"What's the matter?" He Du looked at Shen Yu's cell phone, stretched out his hand, and pressed to hang up.

"You actually heard the phone call just now, right?" Shen Yu looked at him, "I don't want to repeat it again."

"Understood." He Du smiled, "I don't know what to say, I... don't have parents, but I don't think being a parent should be like this."

Even the master, who is devoted to cultivation and as indifferent as water, would pat him on the head with a smile and praise him when he heard him show off his achievements.

So He Du couldn't understand Shen Jingguo, he just felt sorry for Shen Yu, and said "I won the national championship" in a humiliating way, and his father replied with "Oh".

"Give me your phone first." He Du said, "Out of sight, out of mind."

"Okay." Shen Yu said and handed over the phone. During this process, when the phone was still under the noses of the two, a text message suddenly lit up the screen.

- Shen Yu, you are really talented!You dare not even answer my phone!You are too unfilial!Dad has worked so hard to raise you for so many years...

Before He Du finished watching, Shen Yu reached out and covered the screen, then smiled at He Du: "Give me the phone."

He Du was taken aback, Shen Yu's smile was very strange, but it was Shen Yu's cell phone after all, he put it back in Shen Yu's hand.

Shen Yu stood up, and when He Du's heart was shocked and he was about to hold Shen Yu tightly to prevent him from jumping into the river, Shen Yu swung his arm, and the phone drew a black parabola in the air, and then there was a "pop" , fell into the Pearl River.

Only a slight splash.

He Du was dumbfounded, Shen Yu turned her head and smiled... very brightly.

"I'm really crazy." Shen Yu found himself feeling very relaxed, although he was also very sad at the same time, his hands were still shaking.Those words sent by Shen Jingguo were shockingly imprinted in my mind before I read them.

But there was still a sense of relief.

He Du opened his mouth, but said nothing.

"I've always wanted to do this, but I didn't have the courage." Shen Yu said, "Although I don't do it now, it's just a spur of the moment, but it's really fucking cool."

He Du smiled, let go of the hand that had been holding his wrist, and looked up at him: "Yes."

Shen Yu also smiled, sat back beside He Du, stared blankly for a while, and then let out a long sigh.

"But there is one thing I don't understand, and I have never understood it." Shen Yu said, "Isn't home the last harbor for a person? Why do they only let me fall when I want to lean back?"

"That woman or Shen Xia, they are not my family, and I don't care, but Shen Jingguo...isn't he my own father? If not, why does he still support me? If so, why can he not only watch I fell, and even pushed me?" Shen Yu was a little at a loss.

These emotions have been chaotically conflicting in my heart for a long time.But he didn't dare to think about it, and he didn't want to talk about it. He was afraid that if he said it, he might collapse instead.

But the moment the mobile phone was thrown into the Pearl River, the depressed emotions that had been suppressed for a long time suddenly burst.He had to say it and couldn't stop.

"But you don't have to feel lonely." He Du said, "You may not have them behind you, and they don't deserve it. But don't be afraid, I will always be behind you."

Shen Yu froze for a moment, hooked the corner of her mouth: "Stupid words."

Human beings have always been independent individuals, and only blood can become a bond.He Du has been secretly in love with him for many years, and he likes him very much, but... Even though the relationship with He Du is already very close, Shen Yu still feels in her heart that He Du is just a love story, and he is only in his early twenties, thinking about everything It was too simple, and it was impossible for him to carry the weight of the two of them on his shoulders.

He Du looked at Shen Yu, as if he had read his mind, and suddenly smiled: "Do you know why I want to learn to drive?"

"Didn't you help the temple transport things?" Shen Yu was taken aback.

"That's a means of learning." He Du said, "In fact, in the first year of high school, I saw a child quarreling with his family. He was sitting on the steps of the flower gallery wiping his eyes, trying not to cry, and talking to him The friend gritted his teeth and said that I must leave this ghost place."

Shen Yu was stunned.He still remembers that summer night, and the moment of gritting his teeth and bloody determination.

But why did He Du see it, and...why did he even remember it.

The night wind was so strong that it blew the moonlight into pieces in the river.On the river bank, He Du turned his head to look at Shen Yu, his eyes were calm but firm.

"At that time, I told myself, I will take you away, to where you want to go, I don't want to see that expression on your face again." He Du said.

"Shen Yu." He Du called his name seriously, "I said a lifetime in the ward, and you laughed at me. I want to tell you now that the lifetime I said is really not as light as you think. As long as you want Turn around, I will always be behind you."

Words have always been light, but often have a shocking weight.Shen Yu looked up at He Du in a daze, his eyes were full of seriousness.

The seven years of love are all in this sentence, and in an instant, Shen Yu is overwhelmed by the tide of emotion, guilt and heartache.

At the same time as the tears fell, Shen Yu hugged He Du, He Du didn't even react at all, and before he could reach out to hug him back, Shen Yu had already raised his head.

In the final flash, Shen Yu suddenly struggled in his heart. He was not ready yet, and he was too irresponsible to He Du on impulse.

But he couldn't even control his movements, so he could only make himself slightly deviate.

Shen Yu's kiss landed on the corner of He Du's mouth like a feather, and it fell apart at the touch of a touch.

The author has something to say: Well~~~ Today is the corner of the mouth~~~ Tomorrow Christmas Eve~~~ Let’s have a real first kiss