The playwright school grass is also pestering me today

Shen Yu dreamed about kissing He Du, and also imagined what it would be like if they really kissed.

Both dreams and imaginations are different from now.

Unprepared, the atmosphere was not good at all, and it was a forced kiss.

"...Let me go." Shen Yu squeezed out such a sentence with difficulty, but He Du He Du seemed to want to ask for something, and kissed him fiercely without any scruples about his feelings.

His lips were as soft as Shen Yu imagined, but Shen Yu couldn't breathe because of too much force. His teeth pressed against Shen Yu's lips, which hurt.

This kiss didn't have any sweetness for Shen Yu, it even made him painful.Because he was unwilling, and He Du's fierce and relentless actions made him feel He Du's pain and anger. These emotions made Shen Yu's heart feel like a knife.

He Du kissed Shen Yu wishfully, attacking the city with his tongue unscrupulously, even if Shen Yu didn't respond or even pushed him, he didn't intend to stop at all.

At first, Shen Yu thought that it would be okay if this would make He Du feel better, but after struggling a few times, He Du still didn't show any sign of letting go, and even completely treated Shen Yu as a lifeless puppet. , Such a situation finally made Shen Yu completely angry.

He bit He Du's lip hard.

Taking advantage of He Du's pain, the moment he relaxed, Shen Yu pushed him away.

Shen Yu's strength was not small, He Du took a few steps back, and slammed into the desk hard, and the desk hit the desk in the back row again, making a loud bang.

The two looked at each other amidst the loud noise.

Shen Yu poked his neck and wiped his mouth, there was a faint smell of blood between his teeth.

This is my fucking first kiss.Shen Yu gritted her teeth and thought.

He Du looked at him, propped his right hand on the table, and managed to stand still.There was a large gash on his lower lip that was bleeding and he ignored it.

"Are you crazy?" Shen Yu asked.

He Du didn't speak, but still looked at him, his eyes were dark and deep, like a wounded little animal.

"Why are you?" Shen Yu calmed down her agitated breathing, "I don't want to do anything, but you... I told you to let me go, but you didn't listen, so I can only..."

"Don't you want to?" He Du said suddenly.

These words made Shen Yu stunned for a moment.He was even a little bit taken aback, where did I look like I was willing?

He Du seemed to understand the answer in his eyes, and instead of waiting for his answer, he said to himself: "You fed me just now, you gave me Kongming lanterns during your internship, and you didn't resist when I hugged you in KTV, summer vacation We were so good when we were together, you woke up first on the bus, but you still leaned on me."

"Stop talking." Shen Yu shouted, and He Du suddenly exposed all of these, making him feel as if he was standing in an open space, let alone using such an unfamiliar tone.

"I'm not pretending to be passionate, I think." He Du sighed and looked at Shen Yu, "Do you really not like me?"

It felt like the surrounding lights dimmed for a moment.He finally tore the window paper.

Shen Yu felt that this was right, He Du had no entanglements in his heart, and was already very patient with his struggles and entanglements to this point.

But He Du didn't know that just because the window paper was pierced, it didn't mean that it must be sunny outside the window.

"It's meaningless to say whether you like it or not." Shen Yu said cruelly, "I told you before that I would not be with a man."

"Why?" He Du asked, his tone had calmed down a little at this time, "Can't you bear contact with men? It's okay, I can wait, and I don't even need to touch you."

"No, stop asking." Shen Yu said, feeling something humming in her head again.

"But I want to know." He Du said, "Even if it is a sentence, you have to tell me whether the charges are correct."

Anyway, that's all I've said, so... let's say it all.

"Okay, let me tell you." Shen Yu avoided He Du's eyes, and said with a heartbroken heart: "Because I can't accept that I am different from others, Master Han asked me the other day if we are getting along, he That cautious look made me feel like the sky was falling, and when I thought that people I didn't know might point me out like that in the future, I felt like I was going to collapse."

"There are also former friends and classmates who will laugh at me. My family...my dad will definitely not be able to accept it. I may be too cowardly, I can't accept this kind of thing happening, so don't force me, okay Is it?"

After speaking, Shen Yu looked up at He Du with the last ounce of luck, his face was a little pale, his eyes... Shen Yu's heart sank severely.

Tonight Shen Yu saw He Du who had never seen him before. He was sad and his anger was out of control, so now his expression is probably extremely disappointed.

Shen Yu suddenly felt that she stepped off the edge of the cliff and fell rapidly under He Du's eyes.

"Is that why you rejected me?" He Du was silent for a long time before asking in a low voice, "Shen Yu, do you know how I treat you?"

"You are very kind to me, I know." Shen Yu gritted her teeth, not wanting He Du to feel shaken, "You are very considerate and caring about me, you put my business on your own Front……"

"So I treat you so well, but in your heart is it worse than those so-called classmates who laughed at you, and the so-called family members who didn't treat you like a son at all?" He Du interrupted Shen Yu.

There was a sparkle in He Du's eyes, as if the dense mist was shining.

Shen Yu took a breath, as if a blade was stuck in his throat, scraping every inch of flesh, the pain drove him crazy.

"Did you just think in your heart that when I kissed you, I treated you like a beloved toy. You hate being treated like that, and you hate other people ignoring your thoughts." He Du said, "Then you Have you ever wondered what you did to me?"

"I am your beloved toy. I bring you joy when you need it, and leave it aside when you don't need it. I like you very much, so I accommodate you and compromise you. This is your capital, but you can't do this." Randomly wasting this kind of capital." He Du pointed to his heart.

"I also have my own feelings. When you reject me, I will be sad. When you have a good relationship with others, I will be jealous. When I find that I have paid so much for you, but in your heart, I am still...so humble, I said I don't know what mood I am in now, but Shen Yu, I can't stand it."

Shen Yu was dizzy for a while, he thought you were going to give up?Don't give up, don't leave me... No, maybe you should leave me, you're right, I don't deserve your kindness to me, you'll be much happier without me.

He really hated this vacillating self, he was reluctant to part with He Du, but he couldn't let go, he understood He Du's disappointment and bewilderment, He Du even told him that he lived for himself that night on the top of Dongshan Mountain.

But it's really not that simple.He is completely different from He Du in this point. He Du's six sense organs are pure, so even his desires/thoughts are very simple, but he struggles with ups and downs, can't get what he wants, and his obsession is too deep.

He dreamed of wanting to be treated kindly by others and recognized by his parents, but it took him more than ten years to get it, so how could he give up overnight.

He Du didn't speak anymore, he didn't even look at Shen Yu anymore, he just quietly looked at the ground in front of Shen Yu's feet.Shen Yu didn't speak either, he felt that he was not qualified to speak.

At this moment, the classroom door suddenly opened.

The two looked at the past together, and Liu Yan, a beautiful boy with long hair, poked his head out.

"Hey brother..." Liu Yan's voice stopped suddenly, "Did I interrupt you? I'm leaving now, don't rush."

"Don't." Shen Yu and He Du said in unison.

Shen Yu was taken aback, and subconsciously looked at He Du, but He Du didn't respond to the unison of the two.Liu Yan was also stunned, but he was obviously stunned because he saw He Du's strangeness now, including his cold eyes and the big hole on his mouth...

"Send Brother Yu back to the Normal University." He Du said to Liu Yan, "I have to catch up with the map, please."

Shen Yu's hand was suddenly cold.

Liu Yan was obviously astonished, but he still hummed, and then looked at Shen Yu tentatively: "Brother Yu, let's go?"

"Okay." Shen Yu nodded mechanically without any further response.

Walking out of the teaching building side by side with Liu Yan, the two of them did not speak for a while, then walked through the small garden to the school gate, Liu Yan took out his mobile phone and called a taxi.

"No need." Shen Yu stopped him, "I'll just go back by myself."

"Don't don't don't, I will send you back if I say I will send you back." Liu Yan dodged Shen Yu's hand in a fancy way, and lost the address, "If you don't have time, Brother He will ask..."

"He won't ask." Shen Yu said.

Liu Yan's hand stopped, and he looked at Shen Yu, and Shen Yu also looked at him.

The two looked at each other for a long time, until the phone changed from waiting to receive an order to the driver still being 0.3 kilometers away from you, Liu Yan let out a breath and asked softly, "Did you two... quarrel?"

"Maybe it's not just a quarrel." Shen Yu said, twitching the corners of her mouth.When he realized that this action was very similar to He Du, he felt very complicated.

"Yes, I can see it..." Liu Yan touched his lips subconsciously, "Forget it, I won't ask anymore. Brother Yu, you...fuck, forget it, I said it's okay not to ask, what do you think of me Didn't say anything."

Shen Yu smiled, she was really not in the mood to talk to Liu Yan now.

Not in the mood to talk to anyone.

The whole world is gray.

After getting out of the car, entering the dormitory, and pushing open the door, Han Mu just glanced at Shen Yu, and his expression changed from relaxed to nervous.

He ran out with a stride and held Shen Yu's shoulder: "Brother Yu, what's wrong with you? What happened?"

"It's okay." Shen Yu glanced at him.

From the look in Han Mu's eyes, it was clear that he didn't believe it at all.In a panic, Han Mu helped Shen Yu to sit on a chair, poured him another glass of water, knelt down on one knee and handed it to Shen Yu like a maid, and asked cautiously, "Did you just... Then who has gone?"

"Well." Shen Yu said, "Don't ask him to practice with you in the future."

Han Mu was stunned for a long time, Shen Yu followed suit, and then said casually: "Stop mentioning him to me, it's so annoying."

Then he realized that no one had mentioned He Du to him.

It's because he's been thinking about it all the time, so it's annoying.

"You two..." Han Mu tentatively said three words, but didn't dare to ask any more.

Shen Yu raised her eyes, looked into Han Mu's eyes, and smiled: "Break it."

Han Mu bit his lip and didn't speak. After a while, he stood up, put his arms around Shen Yu, pressed Shen Yu's face in his arms, and patted Shen Yu's shoulder lightly.

Shen Yu didn't speak or make a sound.

For the next week, He Du seemed to really disappear.

He didn't send any more messages, and he didn't appear at the red dot, the basketball court of the Normal University, the barbecue stand or any place where he could "encounter" Shen Yu casually.

Shen Yu didn't go to him either, because Shen Yu didn't know what to say, and didn't know if He Du wanted to see him again or listen to what he had to say.

Although He Du said "I really, really like you", he also said "I can't stand it".

Han Mu may have greeted Brother Hai and the others. No one mentioned the word He Du in Shen Yu's ear for a week, but for some reason, the name did not fade from Shen Yu's mind for a moment. It can be said that it occupied all of his mind.

Staying in the dormitory, thinking of He Du sending him WeChat messages on the opposite bed and taking the initiative to clean the house; going to the classroom, thinking of He Du frantically drafting drafts next to him; in the corridor, thinking of He Du waiting at the door after the final exam He... All the scenes in front of him seemed to be related to He Du.

It's all gray again.

Obviously we haven't been together before, why do I feel like I've lost love.

Obviously he likes me, why I seem to be dumped by him.

It's too unmanly, forget it quickly.

Isn't this the ending I want?

On the eighth day, after Shen Yu almost forgot to open the door and wanted to crash into the dormitory but was stopped by Han Mu, Han Mu finally couldn't bear it anymore and pushed Shen Yu on the chair.

"Brother Yu, I beg you, go find him." Han Mu said, "The door of the all-men dormitory will be smashed out of the humanoid hole by you."

"Who are you looking for?" Shen Yu asked, then smiled, "I'm fine, you're a little too nervous, Mr. Han."

Grandpa Han stared at him and didn't say anything for a long time. Finally, he let out a "fuck" sound, as if he was about to start a long and earnest speech.

But at this moment, Shen Yu's cell phone rang.

Shen Yu frowned and looked at it. It was an unsaved number. He wanted to press it, but Han Mu snatched the phone out of his face quickly, and then pressed the answer and speakerphone at the speed of light.

The meaning is very clear, don't care who it is, Shen Yu, you have to listen to me, don't shut yourself up.

Shen Yu sighed in her heart, someone said on the phone, "Hello? Is it Shen Yu?"

It was a woman with a gentle voice, like a gust of spring breeze, familiar but not familiar.Shen Yu froze for a moment: "You are?"

"I'm Sister Liang, do you remember me? You called me to play with you before." The woman said.

Shen Yu's heart trembled suddenly, Sister Liang, of course he remembered, someone's accompanying boss, but now...

Shen Yu was about to say that she didn't remember, when Sister Liang spoke again.This state of saying the next sentence without waiting for the previous sentence to finish, shows that she may be really anxious now.

"Have you met Xiao He these two days? Can you find him?" Sister Liang asked.

As the saying goes, which pot is not opened and which pot is lifted.Shen Yu smiled and said, "No, I have no contact with him. Is there anything else, Sister Liang?"

It's okay, I hung up and didn't say this.Because Sister Liang continued the conversation.

"Xiao He may be in trouble, please do me a favor, call him and let him report that he is safe, okay? He won't answer my call, but he will definitely answer your call." Sister Liang said.

The author has something to say: This is the last quarrel~