Dude was originally bent

In the following days, Zhang Kechen and I kept in close contact, and we would send a wechat for a simple chat within a week.

A few months later, when the spring was warm and the flowers were blooming, Zhang Kechen invited me to play with him.After receiving the invitation, I was both nervous and excited.

I have never asked for leave, and I took a week of annual leave at once.

When spring is warm and flowers bloom, people's mood will also improve.

He drove to the train station to pick me up, and when he saw me coming out, he immediately hugged me into his arms.His inadvertent intimacy is very useful to me.

"There's a new playground here, do you want to play?"

"Okay!"

In the next few days, Zhang Kechen accompanied me the whole time.We go to the playground, the zoo, the underwater world...

To be honest, although we used to be close when we were in college, we rarely went out to play together like this.These days, I feel extremely happy.

However, sometimes, there are really some things that are extremely happy and sad.

I have to say that it is indeed risky to be friends with someone like Zhang Kechen.Sometimes unexpected things do happen, it's almost like acting in a TV series.

Because, before the one-week annual leave was over, I was interviewed by his mother.

That night, we played not too late, so Zhang Kechen sent me back to the hotel to rest.

Not long after he left, there was a knock on the door outside the room.I thought he had something to do and came back, but when the door opened, a delicate woman with a beautiful appearance and extraordinary temperament appeared in my sight.

With just one glance, I guessed who she was.No wonder Zhang Kechen was born so well, this is the power of genes.Her mother is the most beautiful and temperamental woman I have ever seen growing up. A 50-year-old woman looks like she is in her thirties, and her aura and demeanor are definitely not inferior to any woman on TV. star.

At that time, I really experienced the uneasy feeling of an ugly daughter-in-law seeing her in-laws, although it was not the case.

Surprised, I let her into the room, and was a little out of breath suppressed by her powerful aura.

I opened a bottle of drink and put it in front of her: "Auntie, you have a drink, there is nothing else here."

She didn't drink, and said straight to the point: "Do you know why I asked you to come here?"

"I do not know."

Really, from the moment she appeared, I was surrounded by nervous emotions, and I didn't have the ability to think about her purpose.

"I want you to leave Zhang Kechen."

"what?"

I froze for a moment, what did she mean by leaving Zhang Kechen?

"Auntie, what do you mean by that?"

"It's impossible for me to agree to you being together. It's ridiculous for two men to fall in love!"

fall in love?I was stunned, Zhang Kechen didn't notice my dark thoughts, how could she know, did she secretly find some private detective or something to investigate me.

Thinking about the means of those wealthy families in the TV series, I couldn't help but feel my mind wide open, and my spine felt chills.

But I still insisted and said: "Auntie, you misunderstood, we are good buddies, it is definitely not what you think, I promise, I swear."

Her mother still looked suspicious.

I can't remember exactly what we said afterwards, because I was so nervous that my mind went blank, I just remembered that I was explaining the guarantee incoherently.

I made an appointment with Zhang Kechen to see the cherry blossoms the next day, but he didn't come, and the phone was turned off when I called him. I wondered if his mother asked him for an appointment again.I think it must be a headache for him to be misunderstood like this by a close relative.

If he didn't come, I didn't have the heart to go out to play, and I just stayed in the hotel playing games.

For the first time, I felt that when a person is troubled by something and is uneasy, he is not even in the mood to play games.

I dug out the "Norwegian Forest" from the suitcase, and wrote down many illusory words.I don't know when I will take this book with me wherever I go.

In the evening, Zhang Kechen appeared.

He looked very calm. I don't know if he knew about my meeting with her mother, and I don't know if her mother talked to him for the same reason.In short, it is impossible for me to take the initiative to mention this issue.

Because Zhang Kechen himself may not know anything at all.

"Are you busy today?" I carefully insinuated.

"Well, there is indeed something to deal with, sorry, missed the appointment."

"It's okay, it's okay, I was very tired from playing a few days ago, so I just take a rest today."

I smiled and waved my hands.

It's been a messy day today, and I need to go to the bathroom to tidy up first.

When I came out, I suddenly saw that the "Norwegian Forest" on the bedside table had not been put away, and my heart suddenly raised my throat. There were many names of Zhang Kechen written in the blank space of the book, and my love for him □□ Naked love and longing.Zhang Kechen was looking at the scenery outside the window with his back turned to me. The book on the bedside table had not been touched, so I quietly pressed it under the pillow.

Then, he proposed to take me to eat western food.

We came to a very clean and upscale music themed restaurant.

The light in the store is dim, and the band on the stage is singing a little tune with a slow rhythm. The whole atmosphere is quiet and soft.

We ordered two steaks, and Zhang Kechen opened a bottle of red wine.

The red wine is sweet. I haven't drunk it much before, but I think it's delicious.Seeing that I liked it, Zhang Kechen ordered another bottle.

As a result, in the end I didn't drink much, and it all went into his stomach.

Zhang Kechen was a little drunk. When he went to the bathroom, I observed him, his steps were a little sloppy.

I think it's time for us to go back.

At this time, Zhang Kechen said to me: "Wait for me."

After speaking, he got up from his seat and walked to the stage, and said a few words to the band, but the distance was too far, I only saw his lips moving, and I didn't know what he said at all.

Then, Zhang Kechen took the microphone in the hands of the resident singer and said, "I want to sing a song for my friend, he is over there."

There weren't many people in the restaurant, but they all looked at me following Zhang Kechen's gesture and applauded.I buried my head in panic, what the hell is Zhang Kechen doing?

Next, when the accompaniment started, Zhang Kechen looked intoxicated. I clearly remembered that he sang "I Understand", and he kept looking at me while singing.At that time, I seemed to have an illusion that he should also like me, otherwise why has he been so ambiguous to me all this time?At that moment I was lost in his soulful singing...

Your pain can never hurt more

Your happiness is the color of fireworks

No one understands your loneliness

no one will understand

You said our days were hard

Your bicycle is still waiting at the school gate

Your textbooks are full of youthful sourness

no one will remember your dreams

you always remember

You said we were stupid in those days

Maybe in the far, far future

you can see yourself clearly

You can laugh happily and you can cry sad

you get it you get it

……

Finally, after a long, long time

we see ourselves clearly

We are strong for regret and brave for passing

i get it i get it

……

After singing, I still can't get back to my senses for a long time.

After leaving the restaurant, Zhang Kechen seemed to be very drunk when he was blown by the cool wind outside.I don't know why he would get drunk every time he drank, and I had a hard time getting him to the hotel where I was staying.

It seems that he has to live here today.

When I arrived at my residence, I helped Zhang Kechen take off his coat and helped him onto the bed.He tore off his tie and shirt, yelling that he wanted to take a shower, so I had no choice but to let him go. He said he didn't need my help, and staggered into the bathroom. After a while, there was the sound of splashing water.I just took advantage of the time to sit on the bed to soothe my nervous mood. Just now I saw his disheveled appearance, and my body reacted uncontrollably.

I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at him like this, and got into the bathroom in a desperate manner.I turned the shower to the maximum, closed my eyes, and unknowingly began to sort out the things I experienced this year...

At work, the leaders have higher and higher expectations and demands on me, and I am the kind of person who will not refuse, so I take on more and more jobs; in life, my parents, relatives and friends urged me to go on a blind date, and introduced various partners to me; What troubles me is my feelings for Zhang Kechen, which I can't let go of.I am also the kind of introverted person who cannot transfer pressure and release myself, and the mainstream personality recognized by this world is extroversion and publicity, so even if I want to find the slightest sense of resonance, there is no channel.Therefore, sometimes, insomnia, auditory hallucinations, and trance strike together, and the brain is in a rusty state no matter what...

Now, it's clear to me that I'm gay and I've accepted it.But I don't know how a person like me should live in this world calmly and peacefully.I know that I have given all my love to Zhang Kechen, he is all the love of my youth.But this kind of love has always been only in my heart. With the passage of time, it has been continuously precipitated, getting thicker and thicker, and has no limit.I can't imagine, if one day Zhang Kechen disappears, how can the story of my life continue to unfold?

I have thought about it a lot. In fact, over the years, I have more or less held a glimmer of hope in my heart, hoping that he also likes me, and the little things I have been with in the past have given me the illusion that he actually likes me too. I, and when I was clear-headed, I told myself that everything was self-indulgent.

Just when I always thought that I could look at him from a different place, guarding my memory with him and wandering forward like this, he appeared again...

Even though the shower was always on, I lost track of the time in my thoughts, until the hot water suddenly became cold, and I realized that more than half an hour had passed.

I put on my pajamas and walked out. I saw Zhang Kechen's eyes were slightly closed, and he seemed to be asleep.So I turned off the light for him and went to sleep in the guest room by myself.

I lay in bed, thinking about everything that happened today.One of his simple movements and a charming look touched my heartstrings at any time, and his influence on me was even stronger.

I don't know how long it took, and when I seemed to be falling asleep in a daze, I felt something rubbing against my face.I opened my eyes suddenly, and Zhang Kechen climbed onto my bed at some point.I was about to push him away, but as if he had expected it, he clamped my hands in advance and pressed me tightly under his body.Only then did I realize that he was pretending to be drunk this time.

In the dark, I could still see his bright eyes, we quieted down, and he finally spoke: "In my senior year, my real idea was not to go to the South for the postgraduate entrance examination, but actually I gave up on my girlfriend, Because I have someone else in my heart. And that person is so simple, cute, and simple, but I think he has always regarded me as a good buddy. I have always loved him deeply. The reason why I haven’t had a girlfriend these years It’s because I can’t let him go. But today, I found out that he loves me the same way. Do you know how hard I have been trying to restrain my inner excitement tonight! Afan! I want to tell you that I love you deeply loving You!"

After saying these words, he kissed me deeply.

His affectionate confession resounded in my mind, like a lightning strike, my body froze and my brain went blank.

It took me a long time to regain my sanity.

"Your mother, she..." In this kind of atmosphere, I actually squeezed out such an unpleasant sentence.

"Don't worry, I'll take care of her."

After speaking, he kissed me again...

After all, he saw my notes, and I'm glad he saw my notes.If there is no such coincidence, maybe just for the happiness that each other takes for granted, we will look at the crossroads of love and hesitate for a long time.

That night, I was so intoxicated by his enthusiasm that I almost died of happiness. We finally had the union of soul and body when we were awake.

Later, he told him that he had been thinking about me when he was abroad. After returning from abroad, we accidentally hugged each other on the bed in his dormitory for a night. Since then, he finally confirmed his feelings for me.

To think we can hide ourselves so deeply.Later I thought, in fact, I am such a simple person, so simple that I lost myself in my own world, and seemed unable to see the changes of external things clearly.So lost that I almost missed the love of my life.

For years I have been thinking how lucky I am!Although there are some twists and turns, but the person I love can be by my side, and I am lucky to know that he loves me too. This is the greatest happiness in life.

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