Desperate

Cen Lu lay in Zhou Pushen's arms, startled by the loud noise from outside the barracks.

He was lying in the embrace of his lover in a curled-up posture like a baby, his shoulders and hands were wrapped in his arms tenderly, the skin all over his body was in close contact with his lover's. Ever since Zhou Pushen left, he had never slept without a dream After sleeping until dawn, returning to this long-lost embrace is like a ship entering port and a bird returning to its nest.

Reason was clamoring for him to get up, but his fragile spirit made him so dependent on the temperature of his lover's chest.

Zhou Pushen's body temperature was very high, and Cen Lu could even sweat a little after being hugged by him to sleep all night.Just like at this moment, Cen Lu felt the sheets sticking to his back with sweat, he hummed a little uncomfortable, but was hugged deeper and tighter.

Every morning when Zhou Pushen went out to clean up the housework, Cen Lu would sleep soundly in his room with his head covered. Anyway, the results of the research were given to him, so it would be self-defeating to go to the research institute and ask someone to monitor him.

Cen Lu's sleeping time was getting longer and longer. At first, the gunshots of the soldiers practicing target could wake him up more or less, but gradually, he could not even hear the gunshots in his sleep.

Whenever the sun is setting or the stars are shining, if Zhou Pushen is not around, he will not wake up, looking like he will sleep until the end of time.

Cen Lu no longer cared about the thin walls of the barracks. He even thought maliciously that it would be better if they listened to it. Then maybe they would be estranged from Zhou Pushen and would no longer be his burden, and Zhou Pushen could become a place that belonged only to him. that person.

Cen Lu enjoys Zhou Pushen's bottomless indulgence willfully and desperately. Every time he kisses Zhou Pushen, he thinks that this is the last time. Since it is the last time, why not indulge himself.

Cen Lu sinks in the paradise that does not distinguish between day and night. For him, any place in this world, as long as Zhou Pushen is there, is heaven.

Every night is heaven.

He snorted lazily, and was about to send the man away with a kiss as usual, but was avoided.

Zhou Pu deeply missed his lips, but his own kiss gently landed on the top of his hair: "Brother, wake up."

Every day, at dawn, Zhou Pushen would say this sentence.

Brother, wake up.

As if reminding him to get up.

Only then did Cen Lu half-open his slender eyes, and said perfunctorily, "Got it..." But those delicate eyelids quickly closed again.

Zhou Pu looked at him deeply and sighed, but behind that gaze was unexpectedly sober.In the past few days in the dark, he often looked at him with such eyes, like connivance and pain.

That day he said to him: "Brother, I want to be responsible, and I also want your future."

Cen Lu didn't answer him.

Zhou Pushen said: "Brother, you know, what you say now is against your will."

He held Cen Lu close to his ear and said, "I don't want you to hate me one day after we leave everything behind."

The Cen Lu he knew was not a coward who would run away, let alone an incompetent who would just walk away.Cen Lu protected him for too long on this long journey, and he knew he was tired.

Zhou Pu smiled deeply.

From now on, let him protect him.

As if to deny Zhou Pushen's words, while Cen Lu responded with silence, he stuck to Zhou Pushen even more in the next few days. Although he no longer talked about elopement, he no longer forced him to sleep on the floor. Just like the fish in the water source, they need Zhou Pu's deep comfort.

Zhou Pushen only felt that he was deceiving himself in such a way.

It is right to deceive yourself that the two of you will go away and the sky will be high and the sea will be vast, and it is right to deceive yourself to let go of responsibility and choose love.

Zhou Pushen let him go, because he knew that this person didn't want to face it.He stretched out his hand to wrap those slender fingers, and said calmly as if telling the weather: "Brother, I'm leaving."

Cen Lu let go of his hand, turned over and continued to sleep as if he hadn't heard.Zhou Pu got up and got out of bed, picked up the wrinkled clothes on the ground and put them on.The sturdy body that Cen Lu was so obsessed with was slowly wrapped under the tall and straight military uniform.

I don’t know if my brother still remembers, when I saw him for the first time five years later, I picked out clothes for a long time, but felt that nothing was suitable, so I had no choice but to wear this military uniform to his class.

"Wait for me." Zhou Pu put on a wide-brimmed hat after washing, and hugged Cen Lulian and the quilt together. The man's thick fan-like eyelashes brushed against the tip of Cen Lu's nose, and Zhou Pu kissed deeply. Even though he rationally knew that it was time to let him go, Zhou Pushen couldn't help but desire the smell on his skin a little more.

Cen Lu seemed to be still soundly asleep, but his eyelashes couldn't help trembling.

Zhou Pushen was not annoyed either, and turned around and opened the door of the barracks after placing the person in the bedding again.

In the open space not far from the barracks, there was a bright golden rose flower on the body of the helicopter that happened to arrive.

That's the symbol of the Knights of the Round Table.

Zhou Pushen quickly retreated into the room and closed the door.

The man who didn't change his expression even when the sky collapsed took a deep breath, his tall and straight body even bent a little for a moment, he had to support the wall to prevent himself from collapsing.

The cold air outside stirred his lungs like sharp knives, and the intense pain brought back his sanity a little bit. Zhou Pushen knew that such a day would come from the moment he saw the result of the signal, but he never expected it to come so soon.

He tried to breathe calmly, and glanced at the person sleeping peacefully on the bed.He turned back to the bed and took out the silver m1911 from the back of the low cabinet.

Zhou Pu smiled deeply and hugged the sleeping person wrapped in the quilt: "Brother, wake up."

Cen Lu didn't wake up.

"Don't wake up..." Zhou Pushen's eyes that were so gentle that they could drip water were slightly hurt, "It doesn't matter if you don't wake up." His eyes returned to the gun in his hand: "This m1911, although I gave it to You, but I couldn't follow you in the end." His voice suddenly became lighter: "Brother, I will give it to you again this time, you have to keep it."

Cen Lu didn't respond, and fell limply into Zhou Pushen's arms.

Zhou Pushen has already unloaded all the bullets in the magazine and added the safety catch.Even so, he still checked it carefully before he dared to put it on Cen Lu's bedside.

He stood up, with sparkles in his eyes, and a little bit of shyness: "Brother... put it away..."

I wanted to pick a good chance.

I wanted to... explain it to you.

Unfortunately, it seems that there is no chance now.

Zhou Pu was wearing a coat, the corners of which were blowing in the cold wind.He closed the door, shutting all his thoughts behind him for the rest of his life.

"Zhou Pushen, Airman of the Fifth Division of the Marine Corps, No. 730010, by the order of Her Majesty the Queen, I formally confer on you the Order of the Tenth Knight of the Round Table." The man with pigtails stood condescendingly in front of the Fifth Division lined up. looking at the man in front of him.

It was actually a bit difficult for Lao Jiu to do this, because Captain Zhou didn't know what medicine he had taken wrongly, and he refused to kneel down on one knee in front of Her Majesty's orders.He was going to get mad at him, but the Prime Minister personally explained that if he refused to kneel, then let him go.

Anyway, it was the last time, Lao Jiu comforted himself.

These orders quickly caused a commotion among the soldiers, and even the well-trained marines almost dropped their jaws in shock, from a small captain to Her Majesty's personal soldiers, this is in The history of the empire can be described as unheard and unseen.

Only the person who bowed his head to accept the ribbon knows that there is another kind of coronation in this world, called posthumous title.

Zhou Pu deeply felt that people were ridiculous. He always crowned the dead with various high-sounding honors after death, but he didn't know that death was death. No matter how beautiful he died, it couldn't change the fact that a handful of loess covered the rotting body .

Just like at this moment, when he was wearing the queen's ribbon, he actually started to miss the man in the barracks again.

Zhou Pushen felt that he was no different from those hypocritical people, even if it was to deceive him, he couldn't make him happy when he was in front of him, and in the end he wanted to leave, but he started this useless nostalgia.

It is obviously only a short distance away, but it seems to be across the horizon.

Lao Jiu glared at the whispering crowd, and the scene immediately fell silent.The Ninth Knight was complacent about his own power, and before he had time to be proud, he heard a cry breaking the deathly silence——

"Xiao Shen——" The thin figure was still far away, but the cry from his chest seemed to have exhausted all his strength, Cen Lu, with bare feet and disheveled hair, walked this way regardless He ran over, with the gleaming silver gun still pinned to his waist.

Lao Jiu recognized the person who came, and looked at Zhou Pushen who was silent. According to his understanding, Mr. Wu Ge valued that Professor Cen so much that he could not hold it in his palm. How could he be allowed to come? Which bird doesn't shit on the front?

Seeing Zhou Pushen's expression, he understood it instantly.

The man looked at Cen Lu, as if a ray of light had entered the world.

He is his world.

It turned out that this is the case, Lao Jiu shook his head and lamented that the lord is still a master of chess.

This is to say goodbye to the two.

Cen Lu ignored the astonished gazes of everyone on the playground, and flung himself into Zhou Pu's open arms without hesitation.He took Lao Jiu's deliberate coughing as farting, and at this moment the only thing he could see in the sky was Zhou Pushen.

There has always been only Zhou Pushen.

"I... I'll ask you again," Cen Lu opened his eyes and looked at the source of the black eyes, "Will you follow me?"

"Don't follow." Zhou Pushen suddenly smiled mischievously. He rubbed Cen Lu's face, and his black eyes were moist with a smile, "I'm not the type to run away."

Cen Lu was speechless at his own words.

"Then you...then do you have any wishes?" Cen Lu finally smiled, as if he had finally let go of a thousand catties, and there was no burden on his shoulders anymore, because someone finally untied the shackles for him. Give him the right to freedom: "We will be separated later, think about it, do you have any requests for me."

Zhou Pushen told him that love and responsibility are never on opposite sides.

Zhou Pu stared deeply at Cen Lu, his dark eyes seemed to be illuminated by the new dawn, and his handsome face, which was always slightly gloomy, now smiled like the warm winter sun.

A warm emotion erupted from him, which not only surprised Cen Lu, but also made everyone present empathize.

Only Zhou Pushen knew that it was the appearance of having the love of his life.

In this life, from now on, the only person who can make him kneel willingly is the person who will spend the rest of his life with him.

In front of everyone, regardless of Cen Lu's panicked obstruction, Zhou Pushen knelt down on one knee, took Cen Lu's hand, and kissed reverently, he said:

"Cen Lu, in my life, my parents are kind, my lover is by my side, and I don't have any more of them," he smiled at him, his handsome face made people secretly startled. wished."