Desperate

The following time was not spent with Cen Lu as Zhou Pushen thought.After he sorted out the pile of soup and water that had been smashed by Cen Lu, he found that he had been taken away from the prison.

And take this area away, it will be a whole night.

There was nowhere to vent the anger in Zhou Pu's heart, he just felt unspeakably uncomfortable.But Ben was still worth it. He sat alone in the empty prison in a daze, and when his neck was sore, he depressed and leaned the back of his head against the wall heavily.

He knew in his heart that Cen Lu had done nothing wrong, and even wanted to help himself with good intentions.At first, I was angry from embarrassment, and later I was irritated by the truth of the other party's evaluation of myself, which led to the current situation.

With the skylight open, Zhou Pu became sober after blowing the cold wind all night. He almost immediately began to regret this meaningless quarrel. I don't know how to face him.

Zhou Pu clenched his fist deeply, and knocked on his forehead twice: Why are you so useless? Even if it's a quarrel, so what.Since it's my fault, it's fine to apologize to the other party, why be so useless.

Even Zhou Pushen himself didn't realize that he had unknowingly drawn a clear dividing line between Cen Lu and "other imperial people", but Zhou Pushen didn't know the reason for drawing this line. clear.

But he will be disappointed after all.

Because Cen Lu didn't even come back the next morning.

Zhou Pushen held a large box of meals, looked at the empty prison with a sense of loss, and sighed in disappointment.

It was the third night when I saw Cen Lu again.

Zhou Pushen felt that he probably would not come back. In order not to waste time, the young soldier secretly went back to the dormitory, sandwiched the book "Middle School Mathematics" wrinkled by blisters under the wide hem of the military uniform, and covered it secretly like a thief. The stuff on his stomach slipped into Cen Lu's prison.

As soon as he entered the door, he pressed the door close button. In order to prevent the surveillance cameras from seeing him, he didn't turn on the light, so he sat down on the ground and read a book by the moonlight.Zhou Pu has read this book for a long time, but because he doesn't know much about the imperial characters, he only read Chapter 2 for a long time. This progress made him anxious.

In fact, coming here is not all bad, Zhou Pushen huddled himself into a ball, and comforted himself silently, at least he had a lot more time to read.

A lot of the handwriting on the book was soaked, and the pitch-black ink was smeared into a ball, which made semi-literate Zhou Pushen even more unreadable under the flickering moonlight.The boy squinted his eyes, and leaned towards the inside of the railing unknowingly, because only in this way, he could see a little more clearly through the light source.

Zhou Pushen just read for a long time in the silence of all sounds, only the occasional chirping of cicadas came from the window to accompany him, the young man thought in a trance, he was really just dawdling around every day as Cen Lu said, He didn't even realize that summer was coming.

"Double angle...is a formula used to simplify...what function..." Zhou Pushen was gradually immersed in the book, he leaned the spine of the book on his crossed legs, and his back relaxed at some point , the boy leaned back against the railing, and unconsciously read the words in the book.

There is no one anyway, Zhou Pu thought deeply, it would be easier to understand by reading it.

"The formula is... twice the angle of sin is equal to..." Zhou Pu stared deeply, the important content behind was blurred by water stains, and he couldn't see anything clearly.

"Fuck." The boy couldn't help cursing. He lifted the book and wanted to throw it on the ground, but in the end he couldn't bear it, so he pinched it back in his hand.

"Twice the sin angle is equal to twice the sin angle multiplied by the cos angle." A weak voice sounded out suddenly, but it was very clear because of the complete silence, "I don't know such a simple formula."

Zhou Pushen was so frightened by the sound that he jumped forward, a cloud of dust was raised, and the tattered book came out of his hand and fell out.With crimson ears, Zhou Pu tried to reach for it in an ugly posture, but was twitched by someone's dexterous fingers, and the middle school textbook that Zhou Pu was deeply ashamed of was spread carelessly in the palm of the man.

"Give it back to me!" Zhou Pushen's face burned instantly. Zhou Pushen couldn't care less about describing himself as embarrassed now. He was afraid that Cen Lu would know that he was semi-literate. He was about to grab the dirty textbooks, but Cen Lu slipped into the corner of the prison like a greasy fox. Zhou Pushen's body was stuck, and he could only stare at him.

Cen Lu flipped the textbook to the cover, and read the blurred handwriting: "Middle...learning...math...learning..." He licked the corners of his mouth, his eyes shone teasingly in the dark like a feline: "I didn't expect you to be so studious."

Zhou Pushen only felt that every word he just said was a humiliation to himself. The young soldier's eyes were red with anger, and his face was burning hot with shame and anger, but he couldn't do anything about that hateful guy for a while.Zhou Pushen could only yell at him recklessly: "Give it back to me!"

The sound even disturbed the birds perched on the trees outside the window, and two or three awakened birds flapped their wings and flew towards the night.

"I'm going...what's your name!" Cen Lu was also a little panicked, he quickly raised a finger to his lips: "Do you want the person on duty outside to know? Do you still want this old book? ?” He made a gesture to tear it up, which scared the owner of the middle school textbook into silence.

Cen Lu huddled in the corner for a while, seeing Zhou Pushen's fist tightened and loosened, and finally calmed down, he dared to move towards the outside of the railing step by step, the cheeky noble boy always He was a good boy who got cheap, so he yelled back boldly: "I only read two pages, do you need to be so excited?"

Zhou Pushen still stared at him fiercely, and stretched out his hand to him: "Give it back to me."

Cen Luxin said that if you are not a repeater, you will say this. The young man was terrified to death, but he still insisted on his face. He just turned a page or two by the moonlight and glanced at it. Make up for it.

Zhou Pushen saw that he had walked into his grasping range, and was just about to have a seizure, but saw his face clearly through the moonlight, and was a little stunned for a while.

I haven't seen him in just two days, how could he become so thin?

The boy's brown prison uniform was lightly put on, his waist and hips were so thin that only a handful remained.Although he was facing Zhou Pushen with his head up high and proud at the moment, the sunken cheeks and two thick dark circles still betrayed the fact that he was depressed.Cen Lu's slender figure was reflected on the ground by the silver light, giving him the appearance of a sickly beauty.

beautiful?

Zhou Pushen couldn't help but glanced at the young man's delicate and fair face again, then was frightened by his own thoughts, and shook his head into a rattle like a fool.

"Why are you shaking your head?" Cen Lu looked at him with the eyes of a fool, and then shook the book in disgust: "Your book is soaked in water, how do you want to learn it?"

"You don't have to worry about it." Zhou Pushen took advantage of his slack and reached into the railing to grab the book. This time Cen Lu didn't dodge and let him snatch the book back.

Zhou Pu tried to run away.

Cen Lu's voice sounded cool and cool behind him: "How old are you? If you run into something, you don't want to be ashamed." But he forgot that he was only full.

Zhou Pushen's footsteps stopped, he looked back at Cen Lu, his black eyes were burning with anger: "I am not as good as you, no one asked me to go to school, and no one told me how to deal with things."

Speaking of this, the young man actually wanted to cry, this was the first time in the world.Because from the moment he set foot on this dirty land, he decided never to shed a single tear in front of the imperial people.

But when he saw Cen Lu, Zhou Pushen could tell at a glance that this young man, who was about his own age, spent his youth in a happy and happy family. No matter what reason he was locked up here, but The kind of pride and wantonness in him can only be found when someone pampers him.

As for himself, he looked down at the tattered military uniform on his body.

Alone, don't know where to go, don't know where to go.

Zhou Pushen's nose became even more sour. In order not to let Cen Lu see it, he could only cover his eyes with a book.

Only God knows how jealous he is of the person in front of him, and how much he envies him.

When Cen Lu saw that the fierce young soldier bent slightly to cover his eyes, he didn't expect it, and he panicked for a while. Cen Lu is a good hand, but he doesn't know how to comfort others, so he can only Stuttering and talking to him: "You...don't cry..."

Cen Lu was really panicked, he never thought that this vicious young soldier had a soft heart, Cen Lu has always been a soft-hearted person, seeing the other party showing weakness, his tone is not Consciously softened: "Don't be angry, okay?"

Zhou Pushen didn't answer him, but still covered his face with the book.

Cen Lu has never coaxed anyone before, but this unprecedented first encounter made him feel good for no reason. The boy's gray eyes shone with gentle light: "Well, let me teach you how to read, okay?"

Zhou Pu was stunned. He lowered his arms and stared at the other party with a pair of black eyes without blinking.

Cen Lu's serious eyes made it look like he wasn't joking.

He thought that Zhou Pushen's silence was questioning his level. The young man has never been able to stand others doubting his professional level, so he hurriedly said: "I am a professional... If I hadn't come to this poor place... I would have gone to Digong University long ago I'm reading..." At this point, Cen Lu's voice suddenly dropped, and there was a trace of unresolved sadness in his eyes.

Many years later, in every dark night when Cen Lu was not found, Zhou Pushen would always dream of his inadvertently revealing fragile eyes, his sweet dreams would always end here abruptly, and Cen Lu's warm body would disappear Now, his hand outstretched in mid-air can only grab the cold air.

His heart seemed to be twisted into a ball, and he couldn't even close his eyes due to the pain.

Zhou Pu smiled wryly, covering his eyes with his arms.

He thought, if he hadn't seen Cen Lu's expression, hadn't felt compassion, and hadn't agreed to let him teach him to read, would he have died of pain one day.

He was still that little soldier who dawdled around. One day he was shot through the head on the battlefield, and then his body was covered by yellow sand, and no one even asked about his body.

He is still the high star, and one day he will eventually forget about a puppy he picked up occasionally in the muddy field, and he will return to the high place and continue to be admired by others.

God is really cruel, let him meet someone like Cen Lu, but never give him a chance to love him.

The author says:

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival, babies~