Desperate

"Brother...Brother!" Zhou Pushen finally mustered up the courage to stop Cen Lu when he reached for the second bottle of soju.

The lid of the wine bottle had already been gnawed off with his teeth by someone who was not very clear-headed. Cen Lu struggled dissatisfiedly when someone robbed him of the wine. The transparent wine spilled on his clothes. The smell of wine is stronger than before.

Zhou Pu was afraid of hurting him, so he could only twist his wrist cleverly, and Cen Lu immediately felt his right hand go numb, and the things in his hand were taken away.

Sitting on the carpet, he yelled in dissatisfaction, and danced and kicked the beer bottle that Zhoupu had made deep on the ground: "Don't accompany me, and I'm not allowed to drink... Married a tigress to come in..." Cen Lu unconsciously After mumbling for a long time, his neck was about to fall on the sofa seat when his neck was tilted. As soon as Zhou Pushen put down the wine bottle, he saw Cen Lu's forehead was about to hit the foot of the sofa. He was so frightened that he turned around and hurried to hug him. The back of his head fell into the soft embrace a second before knocking out the bag.

The person in his arms was warm, his little face was flushed red with alcohol, Zhou Pushen couldn't help but lowered his head and took a sip.The two of them nestled on the carpet in front of the sofa, the floor warmly warmed their bodies, Zhou Pushen stared at the leftovers on the coffee table, while gently pinching the back of the man in his arms, he planned to coax him into bed. Come and clean up after bed.

My brother ate a lot today, thinking of this deeply, Zhou Pu couldn't help mentioning that this was the most delicious meal he saw Cen Lu eat after he came back, and it was not in vain that he worked hard to cook a good table.Slowly, he also discovered Cen Lu's taste. Although this person is not very interested in eating and drinking, he still eats more light and delicious dishes. For example, he drank two servings of mushroom pork ribs porridge today. Looking at him devouring the food, Zhou Pushen almost grinned from the corners of his mouth to his ears.

Zhou Pu frowned deeply as there was a smell of alcohol on his lips, and he moved his big hand to his lover's butt and patted it lightly.

Even if you eat and drink, you should be punished.

But Cen Lu woke up because of this light jerk, seeing the guy holding him still gnawing on his face as if nothing had happened, he dodged for a while, and retracted deeper into his arms: "Uncomfortable..."

Zhou Pu was deeply distressed, and gently kissed his hot forehead: "I told you not to drink so much." He seemed to be scratched by this cute and cute little fox in his heart, the pain was not severe but it was always there: "You When did you listen to me?"

Zhou Pushen felt resentful in his heart. From the time the two first met until now, Cen Lu always relied on his age to make his own decisions. He couldn't persuade him even for trivial things like drinking. Since the two of them just started having lunch, Cen Lu He wanted to drink beer. He originally agreed to drink two bottles and then stop, but after that, this person acted like a baby and put all kinds of sweet words on his lips. Zhou Pushen was even coaxed by him to drink two or three glasses in a daze.

He has a light drinking capacity, and the dark beer has a lot of stamina. Zhou Pu hugged him deeply to see him eating well. It was rare that such a comfortable atmosphere made his eyelids twitch. When he opened his eyes again, he saw that Cen Lu had already drank a row. Son, plus a bottle of soju.

Zhou Pushen picked up the thin blanket on the sofa and wrapped him tightly, but in the end he couldn't say a word: "Do you want to throw up? I'll make you hangover soup."

Cen Lu shook his head dully: "Don't drink..." He tilted his head and thought for a while, then he was happy on his own: "Xiao Shen, I want to eat chocolate."

He looked at him drunkenly, holding Zhou Pushen's waist with both hands, which looked like a small animal that could be easily injured. Zhou Pushen was already very fond of this person, and at this time, he even lost his bottom line: "I'll go I'll buy it for you."

"Don't go." But the person on him dragged him back by the waist, "I want to go again." Cen Lu pulled his hair and kissed him rudely, and the hand with the ring carelessly caressed Zhou Pushen's handsome face. Touching his face, he accidentally knocked the man's chin.Before Zhou Pushen could feel the pain, Cen Lu began to feel distressed: "Ah, does it hurt?" He blew on his face "Hoohoo", "Does it hurt?" He looked at him pitifully.

Zhou Pu touched his reddened chin deeply, looked at Cen Lu's chaotic and fragile eyes, and saw his half-cloaked appearance, he buried his face in the warm skin: "It hurts," Zhou Pu said deeply. The voice was muffled, "Brother will pay me."

For no reason, he just wanted to act like a baby to this person. He didn't have many opportunities to act like a baby to others in his life, but this person was willing to give it to him.

But Cen Lu seemed a little unaware, hugged the broad back in his arms and stroked for a long time, then mysteriously approached the white earlobe between the black hair: "Xiao Shen likes chocolate, right? I have it."

Zhou Pushen raised his head depressingly, he forgot that this person was already drunk, his speech logic was all upside down, and he probably couldn't see his current intentions.He sighed and followed him: "I like it."

It seems that what I want to eat can only be replaced by chocolate.

Cen Lu's eyes lit up, and he didn't know where he got so much strength. He stood up and dragged Zhou Pushen to the locker. Falling down, Cen Lu simply ran to the locker and stopped. He let go of Zhou Pushen's hand, pulled the handle of the locker door mysteriously, and gave him a wink:

"Don't tell anyone."

Zhou Pu didn't know whether to laugh or cry. He watched Cen Lu open the cabinet door as if offering a treasure, and turned his gaze to the locker. The man's beautiful pupils shrank twice in shock, and then nailed to Cen Lu's body without moving.

Chocolate filled the entire storage room.The moment Cen Lu opened the cabinet door, a sweet and greasy aroma rushed to his face. High-end goods in boxes, chocolate beans in bags, and even chocolate blocks retailed in bulk in the supermarket, piled up from the ground unsteadily. When it reaches the shelf, it is as tall as a person.

When Cen Lu rushed in, Zhou Pushen was even worried that those precarious boxes would fall and hit him. Cen Lu turned over for a long time before he dragged out a bag from the dazzling pile of wrapping papers and held it up. In the palm of my hand, I want to hand it over to Zhou Pushen.

He looked a little embarrassed: "This kind...I bought a lot before I found it...the one you always carry..." He blushed, knelt and sat in the small space, stretched out his hand to put the candy into Zhou Pu's deep arms Rise: "Eat, eat."

"Why do you...?" The shock on Zhou Pushen's face never faded, he glanced at the full cabinet: "Why do you buy so much?"

There was a voice in his heart, vaguely reminding him.

But that answer was too scary, so scary that Zhou Pushen didn't even dare to face it.

Cen Lu's arms were hanging down, and he stared at the ground helplessly, like a child who has done something wrong: "When you are away...I want to eat...my head hurts...alcohol is not acceptable..." He Sitting on the ground, alcohol paralyzed his reason, and showed Zhou Pushen a look of crying or laughing: "But chocolate can... eat it and it won't hurt..."

"Chocolate has the same taste as you..." He raised his head, smiling and stretched out his hands as if to be hugged.

Zhou Pushen knelt down facing him.

The man's shoulders trembled violently, the bangs on his forehead drooped to cover his eyes, Zhou Pushen's face drooped, and he suddenly slammed his fist hard on the ground, the loud noise scared Cen Lu.

"Why are you..." Zhou Pushen's voice trembled, his words were out of tune, "What are you doing to be like this..."

"What's so good about me..." His phalanx immediately turned black and blue, "It's worth it for you..."

If only my brother had never met him as a bastard. Without his brother, I would not have to go through this anymore. If he disappeared, my brother would be able to be that proud and reckless man again, instead of being humble like the person in front of me now. Guarding the chocolates in a storage room, waiting for someone who doesn't know if he can come back.

Why did he leave him like that in the first place?

Probably because he also vaguely resented him in his heart, resented that he left five years ago without the slightest nostalgia, resented that it took him so long to recognize himself, and resented that he made a comeback when he finally gave up.

So Zhou Pushen left. He thought that his elder brother was stronger than himself and able to resist this cruel and ruthless reality. He always claimed to have paid more, but in fact he always hid in this place to protect him from the wind and rain. In the back of the man, he stabbed him the deepest and most ruthless.

"Xiaoshen..." But he still came, and he still forgave him without reservation, wrapped Zhou Pushen tenderly with his refreshing chest, pinched the half-melted chocolate with his slender fingertips, and sent it to Zhou Pushen. Between Zhou Pushen's lips.

"Don't cry." Cen Lu lifted his face, and gently licked the chocolate on Zhou Pushen's lips with the tip of his tongue. Zhou Pushen liked to do this the most in the past, and Cen Lu's confused and dull brain told him that maybe he would do this He won't be sad anymore.

But it didn't work out, Zhou Pushen cried even harder, the salty taste of the tears fell between the two's intertwined lips and teeth, almost covering up the sweetness, but this bad-tasting kiss still made Cen Lu reluctant to let go.Wordlessly, the two entangled all the way to the bedroom, panting only when Cen Lu finally lay back on the big soft bed, and asked with blurred eyes: "Xiao Shen, am I drunk?"

Zhou Pu's eyes were red: "You are drunk."

He even felt that he was drunk too, so drunk that he was dizzy and turned around. Now he finally understood why his brother drank today. If it wasn't for the alcohol to slow down his senses, he would be hurt to death by his own heart.

The man's face was reflected in Cen Lu's eyes: "Drunk...it's good to be drunk...you can only say something when you're drunk..."

He suddenly turned over and pushed Zhou Pushen down on the bed. Their foreheads were facing each other, and Cen Lu looked at him, both painful and sweet:

"Xiao Shen...he wants to turn me into a monster like him..."

Zhou Pu hugged his waist deeply, pressing him closer and closer to himself.

"I don't know if he succeeded...but I've changed...and even I don't know myself anymore..." Cen Lu's voice gradually became a little crying, he felt the temperature of the man's chest, I couldn't leave him even for a second: "I knew that Liang Qian was a bastard, but I persuaded Dou Huaiye to jump into the fire... In order to bring you back, I could even cooperate with Liang Qian and betray Dou Huaiye's sister..." Gray eyes The heart gradually filled with tears: "Uncle Gu's son will not be completely safe...I lied to Gao Fuqin...but only in this way can I send you away with the help of Bangguo people...I..."

"I might...be a monster like him..."

He gasped for breath almost every time he said a word, as if he couldn't breathe in pain.Zhou Pushen blocked his words with a soft kiss, "Shh..." The man put his finger on Cen Lu's lips: "You are not him...how could you be him? You are my brother, Xiao Shen Relying on me for the rest of my life, brother..."

Cen Lu gently held his fingertips, teary-eyed: "Will you forgive me? Will you still be with me..."

Will you be disappointed in me from now on.

Zhou Pu looked at him deeply, and lingered on his face with his fingertips: "All this is for me, brother...how can I forgive you...Of course I will be with you...until the end of my life."

"Because you and I are guilty of the same crime..."

Even if you sink into the abyss of the world, I will be with you.

Cen Lu didn't ask him any more, or maybe he got the answer he wanted, and the two went deeper into the quilt, like children abandoned by the world.

The author says:

add some sugar