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Time flies, year after year.

The sun that has been burning for thousands of years has buried many mayflies.

Some live and die, some live forever.

Zuo Rong has never thought of being a great man. In his own life, if he does not harm the world, does not violate his conscience, and is open and frank, he will fulfill his mission.

But during this year, Kong Feicheng suddenly appeared.He is like Strickland's moon, suddenly giving his rigorous and rational life a humanistic ideal.

On December 12st, the three-day vacation began after the afternoon class ended. Zuo Le invited all 31 to go to his home for the New Year's Eve, and the four of them naturally agreed.

Before going out, Zhu Qingyan took a shower and tossed her hair in the bathroom for a long time. Watching the beauty blogger's video, she forced herself to blow out a hairstyle.

Lu Renjie suggested that everyone wear the shoes given by Zuo Le. As for Zuo Rong's pair of Kobe Bryant-signed shoes, everyone really didn't dare to let them touch the filth of the world, so he wore a pair of ordinary Martin boots.

This is the first time for the three of them to try it on, and the whole process was trembling, not daring to bend the instep, for fear that the upper would get wrinkled.So on the way to the parking lot, Zuo Rong was followed by three people with stiff legs, all holding a wet tissue in their hands, bending over to wipe off all the fine dust at any time.

The three people with strange walking postures wearing sky-high shoes attracted many people's attention along the way.

It wasn't until they got in the car that they finally relaxed, and immediately raised their feet, wishing they could wipe the dusty soles of their shoes.

"It's really unnecessary for you to do this. If the shoes are not resold, they are actually used for wearing them. After all, they don't have Kobe's signature, so don't be so cautious." Zuo Rong reversed the car skillfully.

The three of them were dumbfounded, when did this boss even learn how to pretend?

As soon as they arrived at Zuo Le's house, the three people who walked on thin ice couldn't wait to change into their slippers, and even used paper towels to put them on the changed shoes.

As soon as Zhao Yangyang saw Zuo Le, he blushed and tried to rush up to hug her, but was stopped by Zuo Rong and Zhu Qingyan again, so he said cheerfully through the two of them: "Sister Lele, thank you, I really like the shoes you gave me! "

After seeing Zuo Le so many times, although Zhao Yangyang was still blushing, he was able to blow eighty rainbow farts in a row without stuttering, and his eloquence was so smooth that he could talk about stand-up comedy.

Zuo Le was also coaxed by his sweet mouth and couldn't help laughing, and hurriedly told them to wash their hands and eat.

Auntie prepared this meal very carefully, and cooked some special dishes of their respective hometowns according to everyone's taste.There are steamed seafood from Shandong, roasted sea cucumber with scallions, flavored eggplant strips, frozen bamboo shoots and sand tea noodles from Fujian, pot-packed meat from Liaoning, stewed noodles with pickled vegetables and pork, and even salted duck and sashimi platters.

Authentic Beijing dishes can be eaten at any time, so Zhu Qingyan didn't prepare them specially, and he naturally had no objection, as the authentic ones at home are not as good as anywhere else.

My aunt is a North drifter, her husband died early, and she and her son depend on each other for life.Originally, Zuo Le wanted her to call her son over to have a meal together, but she refused the offer.Her son works in a convenience store, and today she happens to be on the night shift. She wants to go home and make dumplings for her son.Zuo Le didn't force it either.

The five of them were very happy today, as if they had eaten the New Year's Eve dinner.Quite authentic hometown taste, coupled with the ice-cold Arctic Ocean, really has a feeling of returning to childhood.

"Come on, let's have a toast, I wish the children grow tall and healthy in the new year! Oh, no, it's enough for Yang Yang to grow taller, the three of you can't grow any longer. Cheers!" Zuo Le said excitedly.He obviously didn't drink, but his cheeks were reddened by the abundant heating.

Zuo Rong also stood up, "Sister, I wish you a new year." After speaking, he winked at Zhu Qingyan.

Zhu Qingyan immediately received the message, stood up and clinked glasses with Zuo Le, and said sincerely: "I hope you will always be happy in the new year."

I hope your happiness is related to me.

The meal was lively and lively, only the Zuo siblings drank drinks the whole time, and the other three drank a lot of beer.

Zuo Rong couldn't figure out why Zuo Le, who was allergic to alcohol, invested in a winery. There was still so much wine at home, and the stout he drank today was just shipped from Germany.

Several people talked and laughed, and it was ten o'clock after dinner.He had given a big gift for Christmas before, so although Zuo Le also prepared a New Year's Eve gift this time, it was not that expensive.

She went to the bedroom to get four small boxes, and distributed them to the boys, saying, "This time the presents are cheap, but don't dislike them. I spent a lot of time picking them out for you one by one."

The four of them quickly took it over to express their gratitude. How could it be reasonable to accept the gift as not expensive enough?

And Zuo Le's gift was really thoughtful, she chose the right perfume according to each person's characteristics. The members of 215 opened it and felt that they were one step closer to being a delicate boy.

Zhao Yangyang is the unmistakable Zannvxiang Silver Spring, Lu Renjie is the sports version of Dior, Zhu Qingyan is the ocean journey of Hermès, and Zuo Rong is the old version of Dior's Fahrenheit temperature.

The other three people didn't understand perfume, so they gave a "really fragrant" evaluation after smelling it for a long time.

But Zuo Rong is a person who has witnessed Zuo Lehua's high price purchase of out-of-print perfumes, so he has some understanding.

His own bottle of Fahrenheit temperature can be said to be synonymous with "benevolence, righteousness, propriety, wisdom and trustworthiness".Its anthropomorphic form is that of a gentleman who looks and behaves with elegance.

But he knows that this is only him in the eyes of Zuo Le and his family, not the real self, not even the self in the eyes of anyone else.

He also has dirty desires and wild and unruly dreams in his heart.One Kong Feicheng is enough to make him turn his back on the world and act rashly.

"Sister Lele, what perfume did you use today? As soon as I walked in, I thought you smelled so good!" Zhao Yangyang asked dog-leggedly.

Zuo Le smiled, "Shiseido's black number."

Zhao Yangyang of Shiseido knows that his mother uses their red waists, and if an ordinary family like his can afford them, it must not be expensive.

But Zuo Rong, who had heard about it, gasped. She really bought this out-of-print fragrance...

Aldehydes and roses are the theme of this perfume. There are countless roses in this world, some are given to lovers, and some are favored by queens.But only this branch grew alone in the temple.She is Venus, the word beauty itself.

There are two master perfumers of this perfume.

One of them, a newcomer who was still unknown in the perfume industry, is now the famous Ludan formula.This first incense didn't make him an instant hit, but it was enough to become a legend.

He now also has a rose fragrance "Berlin Girl" in his own right, which has been praised by all kinds of flamboyant fragrance reviews.But a girl is just a girl after all, and there is a natural moat between her and the goddess.

But the other perfumer has almost disappeared. Some people say that he is an alien who came to the earth to leave this perfume and left.Some people also said that because of poor sales, it was even recalled in large numbers that year. Such a failure made the talented perfumer commit suicide due to the blow.

Somerset Maugham said that genius is the most wonderful thing in the world, but for genius itself, this is a great burden.

Maybe he once dreamed of a fairyland, met Venus, and stole a handful of breath from her to return to the world.It's a pity that people in the secular world can't understand, so he can only return to the goddess and have a fragrant dream for a lifetime.

Powerful, out of print, unrepeatable.It's a black number, and it's Zuo Le.

She is always romantic and passionate, and she is only foolish once in her life.The goddess who has gone through many calamities is waiting for the boy to redeem her.

Zuo Rong has always felt that Zhu Qingyan's appearance is more suitable for Wei Lan's dancing disco, with the bewitching male hormones, and he can attract many flowers and butterflies with just one stop at the nightclub.

But now, in Zuo Le's eyes, he is just a clean boy in a white shirt.

I don't know when this young man will be able to rescue his goddess.

Zhu Qingyan and Lu Renjie were competing to peel macadamia nuts, but Zhao Yangyang couldn't keep up and had to obediently peel the oranges.Zuo Le, on the other hand, was sitting on the sofa with great determination, waiting for them to present the fruits of their labor.

The atmosphere at home is very good, but Zuo Rong thinks of Kong Feicheng.

Is he still alone now?Did you have a good meal?Is there going to be hot water?

The more he thought about it, the more he couldn't hold it back. He hesitated for a while, and simply went to the garden to make a call, and the answer was answered quickly there.

"Student Zuo Rong, what's the matter so late?" His voice was still so nice.

The environment is very quiet, it seems that he is really still guarding that unpopular house alone.

"Kong Feicheng, are you home?" The weather was already very cold, and there was a big cloud of white steam when he opened his mouth.

"It's so late, of course I'm at home." Kong Feicheng had already realized something.

"Then don't sleep yet, wait for me." Zuo Rong didn't give him a chance to refute, and hung up the phone after speaking.

Kong Feicheng is not stupid, the meaning of these words can be understood immediately.

That kid, he's coming over.

However, this 25-year-old heart is not as mature as the brain. It is beating unstoppably, driving the body to heat up, but the arrector pili muscles are constantly contracting.

After notifying everyone, Zuo Rong picked up the car keys and hurried out the door.

The speed was so fast that the three roommates didn't even react for a while, and before they had time to ask him what he was doing out at night, they had already disappeared.

Zhao Yangyang couldn't figure it out, and asked suspiciously: "Is he in a hurry?"

Only Zuo Le guessed it right away, showing a "children can teach" smile, and said inscrutably, "I'm chasing my partner."

Zhao Yangyang's eyes flashed brightly, "Sister Lele, have you ever seen the girl Rong Rong likes? Is she good-looking?" He stretched out his paws to pinch Zuo Le's legs, but Zhu Qingyan held her sleeves Shake it off.

"Of course I've seen it before, she looks really good-looking." Zuo Le vainly stroked his non-existent beard, avoiding the keyword of girl.

The road was still very lively after 11 o'clock, and many young people gathered in various squares waiting for the New Year's Eve.The young lovers guard the moment of zero, hoping to tell each other immediately: We have gone through another year together, and today next year, I will still be by your side.

The sweet talk of a lover when they are in love always makes people dizzy, and they will easily lose their ability to distinguish.It's hard to say how many other couples will be together in the next year, but at this moment, they are probably in love.

Zuo Rong parked the car at the gate of Kong Feicheng's community, he didn't bother the security guard, and he didn't even intend to go in now.

He made a phone call, and said softly and unquestionably: "Kong Feicheng, come out, I'm at the gate of the community."

Kong Feicheng didn't know what was wrong with her, she should have refused, and it was a very simple thing, so she said that it was late and she was going to bed, and it was so cold that you should go back.Such an easy-to-follow rhetoric, but at the moment it's stuck in his throat and he can't say it.

During the half an hour of waiting, his nerves have been tense, and he tried to persuade himself to calm down countless times, but in the end it was all in vain.

Now he is still in a state of confusion, obviously he has done a good job in the past month, he is polite and not overstepping the rules, and even once felt that the child would give up soon.

He also learned how to cook noodles, and threw a few shrimps into it as Zuo Rong said.I will boil hot water for myself to drink, and occasionally add a spoonful of honey.When Zuo Rong finished eating the fruits and vegetables he bought, he went to the supermarket he had been to and bought them again according to the note, taking good care of himself.

Even though he worked so hard, his life seemed to be on the right track, but the child rushed over so recklessly, using a safety talisman to make him almost lost his way, and now he bumped into him head-on, completely derailing himself.

He put on his coat, changed his shoes in the hallway, and put on the scarf after hesitation.

Zuo Rong stood outside the car and waited. There was a layer of cold air hanging on the black woolen coat, looking lonely and cold.But he just stood there quietly, his tall nose was red from the cold, and he never stomped his feet to keep warm like others. This child was born to be an elegant person.

Zuo Rong observed it on the way here. There is a tall building not far from here. There is an advertisement flashing on the LED on the outer wall, and there will be a countdown in a while.

He calculated the angle and parked the car at the most suitable place for viewing, not only away from the noisy crowd, but also able to see the building clearly.

Kong Feicheng walked over slowly. Although he was wearing a scarf, his clothes were still very thin.Zuo Rong frowned imperceptibly, but did not speak. He raised his hand and glanced at his watch. The time was almost up.

He turned around and looked at the building. Kong Feicheng didn't understand why, so he followed his gaze.

Then, the countdown began. 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.

Kong Feicheng looked at the beating numbers and suddenly had inexplicable expectations in his heart.

When people's cheers sounded in the distance, he was embraced in a generous and warm embrace, and the smell of sandalwood and cedar brought an endless sense of security.

The black coat that looked icy turned out to be so warm, and now it was wrapping two hot bodies.

Kong Feicheng's eyes widened, the neurons in his brain were already overloaded, and he heard that warm voice whispering beside his ear, "I'm here."

That's right, he never cares about "Happy New Year", all he wants is someone by his side.

After more than 20 years of disappointment and almost giving up waiting, this child appeared.He came in a chariot of the sun like Thor, stretched out his hand to himself, and said softly: "I am the hero who came to rescue you."

Kong Feicheng looks like he lacks everything, but in fact he has never owned anything.

He was used to the darkness, but when he suddenly saw a bright light, the photoreceptor cells on the retina were stimulated and temporarily lost their function, resulting in a deviation in light perception.Even if it returns to darkness, it will still leave spots of light under the eyes.

In front of the child was the dark and chaotic self, but behind him was a bright light.As long as he turns around, he can have the whole wonderful world, but he stands firm like that, inviting himself to take a step into the light.

Kong Feicheng lost his strength in the warm package, he didn't want to break free, and even wanted to get closer.But he needs time to complete his adaptation.

Zuo Rong didn't dare to slack off at all, and never dared to relax his arms.He had imagined this scene countless times, for fear that this sensitive person would resist.

The person in his arms was a little shorter than himself, and his forehead was in front of him, covered with fine bangs, looking much more obedient than usual.

But he seemed to be thinner than he looked, his slender back could be felt through the coat, and his collarbone was pressed against his chest through the sweater, like a fragile treasure.

Zuo Rong finally let go of his hand until the clamor of people dispersed. He wanted to use force all the time but restrained himself extremely, his arms were sore from the struggle between the two.

"Can you invite me up for a cup of hot tea?" He breathed hot air on his hands, blinked his eyes, and tried to put on a cute and pitiful look.

Kong Feicheng finally came back to his senses, made a compromise with him and himself, and said softly, "Let's go."

When he opened the door, he realized that he had forgotten to turn off the lights in a hurry when he came out.But the feeling of being able to see the light as soon as he returned home made him suddenly hit in the heart.

He took out a pair of men's slippers of the same style as himself from the shoe cabinet, which he bought in the second week Zuo Rong was here.At that time, I had made up my mind to reject it, but I still bought it back out of some mentality.Fortunately, it comes in handy now.

Zuo Rong put on his slippers and looked at the house with his own breath, and suddenly felt that it felt like a home.He thought: Kong Feicheng is actually looking forward to it, right?

Kong Feicheng went to the kitchen and skillfully picked up the kettle to boil water, but Zuo Rong came over and stopped him, "It's late at night, I don't drink tea, I'm prone to insomnia."

He went to open the refrigerator, only to find that the sticky notes he had written were still stuck in place, and covered with a layer of plastic film to prevent oil stains, his heart suddenly softened into a puddle of water.

He opened the refrigerator and took a look, took out two boxes of milk, poured them into a milk pot to heat them, poured them out in two cups before boiling, and added a spoonful of honey to each.

The two mugs are of the same style, but the colors are different. They should have bought a set directly.Zuo Rong handed the green one to Kong Feicheng, and he chose the blue one, and said to him, "Drink some hot milk, soothe your nerves and help you sleep."

Kong Feicheng remained silent, sitting on the sofa and drinking milk slowly.

He has never drank this kind of milk since he was a child. In the past, the nanny always made him a cup of milk powder, or it was a refrigerated Tetra Pak with a shelf life of half a year.He never knew that milk is so rich and delicious.

He couldn't help but ask himself, what exactly do you want?Isn't it a happy family?Apart from having children, what can Zuo Rong not do that a woman can do?Is it better to live with a woman than Zuo Rong?The homosexual who ruined his family ruined the first half of his life, should he ruin the second half of his life?

He wants to change, he wants to be free, he wants to get out of the shackles, he wants to escape from the shadows.

But he needs time to persuade himself, so that he no longer sticks to endless suspicions, has a thorough conversation with his parents frankly, and puts all problems on the surface to solve them.Regardless of the final result, he will try his best.

I have been suffering for more than [-] years because of a person I have never met. If I refuse the light of the rest of my life because of such a shadow, it would be really stupid.

He had to get out of the pain and hatred in order to accept Zuo Rong's fiery love in a clean and pure state.

During the time spent with a glass of milk, Kong Feicheng finally finished his psychological preparation, and he put on his armor again.But this time, it's not for rejection, but for confrontation.

His heart is stronger than ever.

His voice was gentle yet firm.

"Zuo Rong, can you wait for me?"

The author has something to say: I really love perfume!