Li Zhi's great wisdom

If you are abandoned by the whole world, with nothing and powerlessness, do you choose to live or die; in fact, you have no choice, and it is difficult to live and die.

Those who take advantage of the trend are also wise.

Li Zhi was ten years old when his mother took his sister away. His aunt said to him, your surname is Li, and no one will treat you wherever you go with your mother. If you stay at our house, we all No one in the old Li family will treat you badly. Before his mother left, when he was disobedient, his mother beat him with a small whip. He was a little scared and hated his mother, although His mother said that his father was nothing and abandoned the family, but his father never beat him, he listened to his aunt and stayed.

When his father married that woman, he was happy. He met that woman twice, each time she was smiling and stroking his head. Dazhi was so good, Dazhi was so good, he thought he had a new life. Mom, the happy days have begun; it turns out that the stepmother is bad, it’s really not made up in fairy tales, he has a mother and a family again, but his father’s job is still the same job, he can only come back once a week, every week Six nights back and Sunday afternoons away.

He can only rest one day a week. Every morning before dawn, he has to get up and make breakfast, ask his younger brother to get up, get dressed and wash, make lunch when he comes back from school at noon, and run back to school after eating. What’s worse is that I don’t get enough sleep every day. I’m so sleepy in the afternoon that I can’t concentrate on my lectures. I have to go home immediately after school in the afternoon. The younger brother cried, knocked over the bowl, the food was not good, and the clothes were not washed. He would be beaten.

He thought about telling his dad. After all, dad is his own dad. He chose a weekend. When his dad talked to him, he rolled up his sleeves. He had a wound on his arm. His stepmother beat him. His dad didn't He didn't say anything when he asked, his stepmother beat him again after his father left, and only said one sentence, the little bastard learned to complain.

The stepmother had a special wooden stick for beating him, and after one or two years of polishing on him, it has become round and smooth; when his mother hated his father the most, she often beat him and his sister with a small whip, When the pumping was the hardest, that is, the calves were red and green, and the skin was not even broken.

When the first snow fell in the sky that year, he was beaten again, and his buttocks couldn’t touch the ground, which hurt him so much. He felt that he had hurt his bones this time. Blowing air in the stove; every household in their village has a uniform architectural style, and it is impossible to test when and what month it was. Small and medium stoves, small stoves are used for daily use, large stoves are used for New Years and festivals, weddings and ceremonies, and medium stoves are used for birthdays and birthday celebrations.

The snow wood was a little wet after the fire was put out, but the smoke could not come out, Li Zhi pouted and raised his head, the smoke was directly on his face, he was so choked that he couldn't breathe, he kept coughing , The stepmother has been cursing in the room.

After finally tossing and tossing through the night, he lay on the bed, looking at a flower he had painted by the wall before, and tears rolled down his eyes. He never knew, the pain from cracking his hands, he thought of his mother, who always cracked his hands in winter but never said it hurt, and now with the injury on his buttocks, the piercing pain reminded him of dead.

For the first time in a long time, he wanted to die. He seriously thought about the method of death, and finally decided to drink pesticides. He heard that so-and-so's daughter-in-law drank pesticides, and so-and-so's old man drank pesticides; he felt, He is as everyone thinks, it is convenient to drink pesticides, every household has land, everyone has pesticides, he knows where their pesticides are stored, but he has a wish before he dies, he wants to see his mother again, he wants to be with his mother Sorry to his mother, his mother wanted to take him away, but he didn't agree, he felt sorry for his mother; he had to persevere until he saw his mother.

After he had a goal, he didn't think about anything else. He gritted his teeth and persisted, but the days became more and more difficult day by day. It was cold in winter, he was often hungry, and his body was growing. His clothes could no longer cover his wrists and Ankle, the gossip among classmates started again, although their family's affairs were already a gossip in other people's family after his parents got divorced; but this time he couldn't bear it. Speaking of him, he either doesn’t understand, or it doesn’t matter, it’s different now, he’s grown up, and if you say anything about the situation in their family, he wants to dig a hole and bury himself, he’s getting more and more Ashamed of seeing people, he didn't take the main road to and from school, and walked home along the small path along the mountain. When he saw people in the village, they all sighed at him and shook their heads. No one could save him.

He thought about death again. He had heard that people have souls. The sorceress at the head of the village was often called to practice, saying that so-and-so's daughter-in-law was covered with dirty things, and kept talking nonsense; Who else's mother-in-law had a dream, dreaming that the old sister who had just died in the neighbor's house told her in a dream that there was money hidden in which pair of shoes, and she went to look for it, and found the money, and so on; I believe that even if he can't see his mother now, it should be okay if he dies and delays a dream or his soul goes to his mother to apologize; this time he made up his mind to die, just after seeing his father for the last time this week .

On weekends, when he mustered up his courage and wanted to say something to his dad, his dad said it first,

"After this summer vacation, you will go to the town to study in junior high school. Then you will live on campus. In the summer vacation, you should go to Houshan to move stones with Zhang Peng and the others to earn some money."

He froze for a moment, then nodded vigorously. Recently, he was only thinking about how he died. He forgot that he was going to graduate from elementary school. It was as tiring as moving stones but he would not be beaten. He was going to live in school, so he could leave home People say that happiness blooms, but he doesn't know how happiness can bloom. Now that he knows it, a flower blooms in his heart.

There is a small hill next to their village. It takes less than an hour to climb to the top of the hill. Geography books call this a hill. There are no trees growing on the hill. Many tree plantings have failed. They are all large areas of rocks. In the past few years of urban construction, all the stones on this mountain have been favored. Some are cut into whole pieces, and some are crushed into gravel. Anyway, they can be sold for money in different shapes. Many people in the village go to help.

Zhang Peng is his cousin. He didn’t go to school after graduating from junior high school. He has been hanging out on the mountain. The boss asked Zhang Peng to live on the mountain at night to watch the machines. Li Zhi lived on the mountain with Zhang Peng. Moving stones is no easier than working at home. , but moving stones can give him money. Tired or tired, he felt relieved. After moving the stones for two months, the boss gave him 500 yuan.

With 500 yuan in hand, he felt that he owned the whole world. He asked Zhang Peng to take him to the town to catch a market, bought some clothes, and things for school and boarding, all of which were stored on the mountain. The remaining little money was put under the sole of the shoe and went home.

The stepmother didn't say anything, didn't even give him a straight look, and the younger brother squatted beside him and cried; the next day, before dawn, he went to the back mountain to get his things and left. It took more than two hours to walk to the town to go to school , Others ride bicycles, but he doesn't, so he has to leave early. Fortunately, there is only one road from the village to the town, and the school ends at the end of the road, otherwise he might get lost.

He didn't feel much easier in the three years of junior high school. He had been studying hard in the first year. His elementary school background was too poor, and it was very difficult for him to enter junior high school. , he didn’t know what happened during this time, and his dad rarely came home; during the summer vacation, he went to move stones for two months, but he couldn’t find his dad, and his dad didn’t come back when school started, He doesn't have enough money to support him until the end of this semester. He has no other choice but to endure without eating.

When his body is just in a state of convulsions, even if he is full every meal, he will not be able to survive the next meal. It is like being tortured if he does not eat. He can see the stars above his head every moment. At this age In addition to physical development, emotions are also developing, everyone is in a sensitive period, the heart of comparison, the heart of beauty and ugliness, the heart of chasing, everyone is very busy, he only has the heart of hiding, he circles himself in a corner every day, let himself presence is minimized.

When everyone was studying hard in the last year, he was thinking every day, what to do in the future, now that no one wants him, it is impossible for him to go to school by himself, what should he do, go back and move stones?It would be better to continue with his death plan, he passed the last semester in a daze like this, after graduation, he looked at his empty house, alas, just die.

He needs to find his father first. Today is the weekend, and Uncle Kidnap in the east of the village works in the same place as his father, so he has to ask.

"Your father, he resigned."

"Resign? Why resign."

"You don't know yet, yes, you were young before, and this matter has been talked about for so many years, you should not know."

Uncle Kidnap pulled a stool for him to sit on.

"I went to this factory with your father. It took us more than three hours to ride a motorcycle from here to climb over the mountain behind. In the county town on the other side, your father's spirit is hardworking. There are many big girls in the factory. The little daughter-in-law likes your father very much. After knowing that your father got married, she started to break up. When you were about two or three years old, people always said that your father was very good-looking, so your father was a little swollen. I really fell in love with a girl from the factory. This girl is also bold. She knew that your father had a family and still... Alas; later your father organized people from the factory to come to our village to play, and that girl also came. Praise your mother for being virtuous and tell your father that you must treat my sister-in-law well, or something."

Hearing this, Li Zhi shuddered, thinking of the smiling face of his stepmother.

Uncle Kidnap went on to say, "I thought the two of us would break up after we went back. Who would have thought that after a while, the girl was pregnant; then, thinking about it, your dad only came back once a week at that time, and spent six days with that girl. How did you break it off together? Then the girl gave birth to the child, and your mother knew about it. I guess your mother wanted to bear it, otherwise it wouldn't have been delayed for so many years, and the girl kept making trouble , Later your parents got divorced and you all knew about it.

"Yeah" He didn't say anything more, he actually didn't remember very clearly, he was not young at that time, but he was patronizing his own feelings at that time, and didn't care about the feelings of the people around him, especially his mother, who was thin when she left. A woman who is out of breath.

"In the end, your father was really ruthless. When your mother left, the corn of that season was about to be harvested. Half a month after your mother left, I probably couldn't bear the fruits of my labor. I took advantage of others and took your sister with me. I came back to collect corn, but your father slapped your sister on the forehead with a brick, and the bloody face looked pitiful."

Li Zhi was shaking all over. He didn't know about it. His father beat his sister with a brick for a few corns. He was tortured by his stepmother. His father didn't even have a word. His parents have never shown up, so why should he look for him.

He couldn't take it easy, Uncle Kidnap spoke to himself.

"Two years ago, your stepmother had a falling out with your father again, saying that your father was seducing married women outside. You said, a person who has a criminal record who is out six days a week, don't worry, I have to tell you something When things happen, your stepmother is not as easy to handle as your mother, and when you go to the factory to make a fuss, your father will have no face to stay in the factory anymore, so he just resigned; but where he is now, I really don't know."

After coming out of Uncle Kidnap's house, his whole body was cold, and the sweltering heat of summer didn't make him even a little bit warm. He only had one idea to find his mother.

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