Identity swap

Sometimes life is such a coincidence.

I was a little unsteady, Jiang Huaiyuan came to support me.

Qin Huai also just arrived, he turned a blind eye to Jiang Huaiyuan's hand holding me, and asked with a cold face: "Lin Chen, what's going on with you, you still come here?"

I raised my head and glanced at him, Qin Huai frowned.Sometimes Qin Huai is terribly rational. I didn't expect him to use this method to force me to quit drugs.

The leading police officer came over and said, "Mr. Lin Chen, come with us to the police station."

I turned my head to look at Jiang Huaiyuan, and I squeezed his hand a little harder, the palms were sweating, he smiled slightly, his face was pale.After this trip to the police station, the next thing I will probably go to is the drug rehabilitation center. I don’t know if I can get out alive.

I've thought about it thousands of times, but I still can't muster up the courage to take that step. It's not that I haven't tried it. Ji Jie has seen me in a mess many times, and finally he couldn't help but want to relieve me.

I remembered that morning, when I was standing on the top floor, Ji Jie tried his best to keep calm, stretched out his hand to me, and said, "Lin Chen, I'm coming up."

I guess he wanted me to hold his hand then.

Now, in my name, it's a brilliant idea to send him to the police and me to rehab.Usually, I never thought that Qin Huai is really an overly shrewd businessman.

Like me, impulsive and willful, stubborn and surly, longing to be loved and hurting the one who loves me, being hurt by the one I love and then retaliating, I don’t know when it will end.

Actually, I don't hate Ji-jae that much.

Like me, he is a lunatic, terminally ill, and refuses to be cured.

I just want to love someone well, and the person I love loves me too, and I am satisfied.

I smiled at the policeman, took two steps, and almost fell down. Jiang Huaiyuan said, "Do you want to rest first?"

Qin Huai put his hands in his pockets and said, "Lin Chen, let me go with you."

I turned my head and said softly to Jiang Huaiyuan: "Don't stop, come with me to the police station, I want to see Ji Jie"

Jiang Huaiyuan looked at me, pursed his lips tightly, and finally nodded.

Old Yu stood downstairs a long time ago. When he saw me, he would still call me "Master" respectfully.He clearly knew that his young master had now become Qin Huai.

With so many people under Ji Jie's control, it is impossible for him to be stolen and obtained so thoroughly. There is only one possibility, that is, Qin Huai used me, and he also knows that Ji Jie will definitely listen to me and follow me out.

I also know that Qin Huai has good intentions, but I don't quite accept it.

When I saw Ji Jie, Ji Jie had already confessed to all his crimes, and I was sitting opposite him, separated by a glass wall.

When he saw me, he opened his mouth and smiled, his pair of peach blossom eyes were particularly eye-catching on the clear outline.He said "hey baby"

The slightly stronger fat policeman pushed him hard, then squinted at me with the eyes of a normal person looking at an alien, and snorted coldly with an inexplicable sense of superiority.

Ji Jie had brand new handcuffs on his hands, cold and shimmering.

I lowered my head and gave a vague "ah", he laughed again, bent over and leaned closer to the glass wall: "Damn, baby, I can finally let you go to detox."

He was sentenced to 5 years, and he will be sent to another prison tomorrow. What he thinks in his heart is to let me go to drug rehabilitation.

He still wanted to lean towards the glass wall, but was pushed back: "Sit down, sit down."

I looked at his smiling face and said, "You work hard"

Stretching his neck, he said, "Let me see with my left hand."

I looked at the ring on my hand, hesitated for a moment, and held it out for him to see.

Ji Jie's eyes were clear when he laughed.Not sure if he was looking at me or looking through me at someone.

I don't know if I should tell him, but I actually want to take it off.

"Baby, when I go out, play a song for me... just give it to me, alone"

I blinked and faltered that I hadn't actually played the piano for a long time.

He said: "I know...that's why I asked you to play it for me"

When Ji Jie was sent away by two policemen, he kept turning his head and shouting at me: "Lin Chen, live on."

I said, "Get out of here"

He also knew that I was afraid of that place, and that I was always worried about getting out alive.I was a little confused, when he put the ring on me, was it because I was Yang Zhao, or because I was Lin Chen.

According to the law, I was going to be detained for a few days, but no, Qin Huai released me on bail.

He arranged for me a drug rehabilitation center that he heard was very effective in drug rehabilitation. Jiang Huaiyuan stared at me closely, as if he was about to cry at any time. I smiled and began to comfort him.

He gave me a packet of toffee when he sent me to the car.I took it over and looked at it, and then gave it back to him: "I don't bring it inside, give it to me when it comes out."

He suddenly reached out and hugged me, and said in a low voice, "I shouldn't have let you go at that time."

I patted him on the shoulder in embarrassment, and said, "There are so many people watching."

Qin Huai also coughed in embarrassment, I lifted my foot and kicked him, Qin Huai's face was almost tilted to his shoulder.

"My mother will let you take care of me," I told Qin Huai, "Don't tell her that I went in, you can use any excuses, she is in such poor health, she will die if she catches a cold."

Qin Huai said: "I owe this debt first, and you will pay me in full when you come out."

I got the single room I wanted.I always wanted it before, but later I realized that not even having someone to talk to is the biggest torture.

The drug rehabilitation center was pitch black, with no windows, no light, and no breeze. It was so empty that only densely packed iron chains were left to bind hands and feet. I don't know if it would be effective.

It's terribly quiet and can drive people crazy. The nerves are always tense, and they are so fragile that they will be disconnected at any time. The tense nerves make the throat keep constricting, and I just want to vomit.Sadly, he pressed his forehead against the cold bed, his stomach writhed, and nothing could be vomited out, so he could only retch.

Occasionally, one or two people will come and serve clear soup with little water. When it is extremely rare, there will be a few bowls of medicinal food, which is bitter, like the medicinal soup made by Jianghuaiyuan.The only thing that can be heard is the sound of twisting the door lock, the sound of the door opening "squeaky" and the sound of chaotic footsteps.

In the most unbearable darkness, one would want to die in various ways, but obviously everyone knew this, and there was no way to alleviate the pain except to bind the flesh of hands and feet in iron chains.

I can't tell the difference between day and night and morning and evening.Occasionally feel cold, do not know what kind of world outside.

The most difficult thing is not the physical pain, but the confusion and nightmares.The pain in the wound was mixed with the chaotic memory, every cell was screaming and rotting, and the pain in the brain was unbearable as if it had been gouged out.

Often dream.Dreaming of all kinds of bizarre visions.

I dreamed that I stood on a shining stage to thank the crowd; I dreamed that a huge truck rushed up suddenly; bloody animal corpses lay quietly on the dissection table; Jianghuai came from a thousand miles away, saying that I miss you, He ran in and out again and directed the workers to move; after writing the song, Qin Huai was left behind; Ji Jie stood beside me and said that Lin Chen was coming up; I also dreamed that Yang Zhao said brother, return brother Yuan Bar……

Frame by frame in my mind.Woke up gasping for breath.

They are all people I have loved. I don't have so much energy to hate anyone, but I am afraid of the nightmare.

The ring has been worn on the ring finger, I think I should give it back to Ji Jie.

Thinking about it carefully, I have always been greedy for the feeling of being loved by them, and I probably owed a lot of people during this time.For example, Qin Huai, I only regard him as a friend, and the most outrageous time I even regarded him as a shadow lover; another example is Ji Jie, no matter what, I am unlikely to accept him.

I have always longed for warm and warm love, and the emotions that grow out of that kind of crazy emotions are too sensitive and fragile, and they will perish each other if they are not careful, especially when both of them are lunatics, they cannot warm each other at all.

After a while, they started letting me out.Still tied hands, followed by others, giving us various courses on mental health, afraid that we would be overwhelmed.At the beginning, my eyes were uncomfortable, the pain was severe, and I shed tears for a whole day.

The detoxification center does not have the term prison visit, but the weather has eased a little, and it is no longer icy cold, probably because the season has changed.

I met a few people inside, and the time for each person to be released for activities is different, and most of them only meet up in a very short period of time and chat for a few words.

When I went out, my mood didn’t fluctuate much. A few people came to see me off, old, fat, and thin, all staring with big eyes and only a piece of skin left, hanging on my body deflatedly.

I waved goodbye to them, and the tough little old man who sent me out said fiercely: "Go away, don't make another detour and come back again, toss my old bones."

Jiang Huaiyuan drove over to pick me up, the sun was too dazzling, and his eyes were also sore.He walked back and forth nervously by the side of the car, when he saw me come out and strode up, he pinched my face and said, "Lin Chen, you've lost weight."

Reaching into his pocket, I took out two candies. I wondered if I forgot to take them out when I washed the clothes and put them in the washing machine. I put them back in disgust.

Jiang Huaiyuan smiled, pulled me into the car, took out two big bags from the car drawer, peeled off the sugar coating and handed them to me.

The eyebrows and eyes are the same as before, and the bright red lips are only suitable for kissing.

Quit drug addiction, but not Huaiyuan.

There is the song "Old Street Corner" in the car, which is his favorite song.I once sang with A Mao at Xiao Linzi's birthday party.Along the way, Jiang Huaiyuan was telling me what he wanted to buy when he went back, and I said, "Let's add a little pet."

I asked him about Yang Zhao's situation, and Jiang Huaiyuan's smile froze on his face, telling me not to be sad after hearing this with a heavy haze.

Ji Jie is active in prison, and his family has always wanted to spend money to protect him. From 5 years to 3 years, and from 3 years to 1 year.

Yang Zhao insisted on going to visit the prison, and after waiting for several hours, Ji Jie refused to see him.

Yang Zhao took off the breathing mask in the hospital, and the nurse hadn't breathed for a while when he found out.

Couldn't save him.

I remembered that when Yang Zhao met Ji Jie in the hospital, Yang Zhao was also crazy like this, pulled him down fiercely, pulled off the breathing mask and kissed him fiercely, and what Yang Zhao said to me by pulling the corner of my clothes The phrase "Ji Jie is my life"

how to say?I still feel that Ji Jie loves Yang Zhao, otherwise it would be impossible for him to hide at home like me after that meeting, and to follow me to the hospital without hesitation after hearing that Yang Zhao was seriously ill.

Be polite to me and want to make amends, maybe it is a kind of atonement for myself.

Ji Jie didn't notice it himself.

Huaiyuan and I went to visit the prison.Ji Jie was very thin, his peach blossom eyes lost their brilliance, he was unshaven like a homeless man, and his blue and white striped clothes made him more fragile, like a sick man.

He has been asking people to inquire about Yang Zhao's news, but he refuses to see him, and he doesn't know what he is embarrassing about.

After a long silence, Ji Jie moved his throat and moved his lips, as if he said something, but I didn't hear clearly.Jiang Huaiyuan touched me and told me to take out the ring.

I have replaced Ji Jie's ring for a while, and I put on the new ring Jiang Huaiyuan gave me on my left ring finger.

Ji Jie struggled to speak, his eyes were blank, he stretched out his hand towards me, and said it again.I just heard what he said: "Give me back the ring, it was bought for... Yang Zhao"

Taking Huaiyuan back to see my stepmother, she smiled happily, and she was still a winner in life after lying sickly for so long.She touched my face and said, "You've lost weight", "Why did you come back now", "Don't worry about your father, people will be stupid when they get old"...

She wants to listen to the "illusionary daytime" I played to her. It is a very peaceful and peaceful piano piece, with a rustic and rustic air, like a calm lake, where you can imagine the pure sky, white clouds and curling smoke, and the sun shines through. The branches and leaves are mottled and slanted down...

She said that my mother used to like this kind of song very much, and said that my mother and I are very similar.I took the trouble to ask where we looked like, and she said that my brother and I were very similar to my mother.

I said it was a pity that I would never be able to see her in my life.

I played the tune composed by my mother to my stepmother, which was also light but sad. I once practiced it in my room to avoid embarrassment.

But it's all over.

I went to show my brother. The tombstone stood quietly in the cemetery. Yang Zhao smiled quietly. I don’t know which group photo the photo was taken from. It was so quiet that I thought it was me.

There was a bouquet of flowers on the ground, surrounded by cigarette butts.

There was a red rope on the stele, and it went around in a circle. I thought it was someone's prank, picked it up, and found a ring hidden behind it.Small, used to be a pair, worn on one hand.

Ji Jie has already been released from prison and is nowhere to be found.

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