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"No, no." Lu Youxi couldn't help saying.

The shattered sound seemed to be thinned into countless strings, pulling his heart in all directions.He was pulled in pain until he crouched down.He closed his eyes, frowned, and clenched his fists tightly against his heart, as if this would relieve him.

He knows, he knows, it's all his own fault, he's on his own.

No matter what Gu Chengan said, he should suffer like this.

It's just that he felt so uncomfortable, he didn't dare to look into the other person's eyes, didn't dare to look directly at the anger and distrust in the other person's eyes, and didn't even dare to say another word of apology.

I don't know how long this situation lasted.

He didn't gradually raise his head until he heard a door knock, only to see that Gu Cheng'an was no longer in the living room.

Lu Youxi stared blankly at the direction of the bedroom for two seconds, and then sat down on the floor with a snap.He raised his head and looked up at the ceiling. He couldn't restrain the soreness in his eyes, but he tried his best to hold back the tears that were about to burst out of his eyes.

He can't cry, he has no right to cry.

Silence pervades the entire house.

Gu Cheng'an in the bedroom couldn't calm himself down in this silence.This kind of emotion seemed to be uncontrollable, something he had never experienced before, and he didn't even know how to deal with it.

Anxiety and disappointment filled his mind, and he wanted to vent, but when he recalled the scene just now, he ended up scratching his hair, unable to do anything.

Lu Youxi outside the door just sat quietly on the ground, tilting his head and looking at the scattered debris on the ground, until he felt that his emotions had calmed down a little, and then slowly stood up on the ground.

The white box was smashed on the corner of the cabinet, and ceramic pieces of different shapes were scattered around it.Lu Youxi took out two sheets of kitchen paper from the sink, and then slowly started to clean up the mess while holding the paper with one hand and supporting the ground.

After all, the broken things couldn't be put back together. After cleaning up the parts visible to the naked eye on the ground, he wiped it carefully with a rag before finishing.

The white box was picked up, Lu Youxi stared at the picture printed on the box for a long time, and then put it back in the bag.

After everything was cleaned up, he saw You Tiao, who had been hiding under the sofa, came out cautiously, and when he got closer, he grinned at him and let out a "hissing" sound.

Is it even blaming itself for its mistakes?

He stared blankly at the scene in front of him for a while, finally sighed, and walked to the door of the bedroom as if he had made up his mind.

Since I did something wrong, no matter what treatment I receive, I can only accept it.

Without any hope, he turned the doorknob, but unexpectedly the door was not locked.The door was pushed open just like that, and the inside of the bedroom was pitch black, and the person on the bed turned his back on the door, as if he didn't notice anyone coming in at all.

Lu Youxi silently walked to the edge of the bed and sat down. He wanted to reach out to touch the other person, but he didn't have the courage. So in the end, some of them just lay on one side of the bed without disturbing each other.

The nights began to grow longer.

Lu Youxi also faced the back of the other party, thinking about this period of time all night and all night.Emotions were magnified infinitely in the darkness, like the gap between him and Gu Cheng'an was also highlighted exponentially.

Once such a day has begun, it becomes more and more endless, lengthy and unbearable.

Gu Cheng'an did not express any opinion on the issue of Lu Youxi continuing to live here, but he resisted to a certain extent in his actions.

The two people went to school together, went home together, and slept together, and became 'together' in another sense.

Even though they are in the same space 24 hours a day, the words they say to each other can be counted with two hands.

And most of them were Lu Youxi who took the initiative to speak, and Gu Cheng'an only responded with his eyes.

Such a day made Lu Youxi feel a little unable to persevere, but he had no choice but to persevere when he couldn't find Si Jin several times.

It's not that he didn't think about opening the white box to contact the other party, but he was very frightened by the 'acceptance' in Gu Cheng'an's understanding.

If the other party sees that he 'accepted' Si Jin's things again, he might even take back the 'home' he once talked about.

The distance between two people walking after school ranges from side by side to one meter to five meters.

Gu Cheng'an slowly began to no longer eat lunch with him, do homework together, and no longer deliberately waited for him to come home. Although he felt uncomfortable, it also gave Lu Youxi some room to breathe.

Just like on days like this, when Lu Youxi couldn't bear it, she ran to Cheng Chao's shop to sit.

After all, Cheng Chao is an adult, and his way of seeing things is much more intuitive than theirs. Just like this day, he chatted with Lu Youxi while there were not many customers in the store.

He just sat and smoked in the store with a cigarette in one hand, and said to Lu Youxi, "Your matter, after all, makes people feel insecure. It's not that I can't understand your situation and actions rationally, but this It’s hard for me to accept that things are put on me.”

After listening, Lu Youxi only replied in a low voice: "Yes."

After all, it's not that he doesn't understand these things, but how can he recover what he no longer believes in.

Lu Youxi lowered his head, thought for a while before asking: "Brother Cheng, is there any way to prove that you like this kind of relationship?"

"This kind of thing," Cheng Chao chuckled, "There are many ways, it depends on how you choose."

There are many ways, what is it?

It's not that Lu Youxi isn't thinking about this issue, it's just that words and daily concerns are weak in this long-lasting cold war.

Without waiting for him to reverse the current situation, some unexpected things happened without warning, urgently and violently.

A week after the results of the mid-term exam were announced, the class committee took advantage of the self-study in the second quarter to come to the classroom and announced: "It's still the old rule, change seats according to the ranking."

Hearing this, Lu Youxi subconsciously focused all his attention on Gu Cheng'an. After all, the situation these days really made him worry that Gu Cheng'an would just separate the seats out of emotion.Although it may make him a little easier in terms of the current situation, in the final analysis, he is unwilling emotionally.

He quietly observed the movements of the people next to him, and was even ready to stop them.

Fortunately, Gu Cheng'an really didn't intend to move, until the seat was moved, he was still sitting beside him.This somewhat comforted him.

But the moment he turned his head, he realized that it was another person who walked away.He never thought that he would change, Zhang Wenxu.

For Lu Youxi, Zhang Wenxu is the only friend who has been with him since junior high school.If you want to say it hard, it is not an exaggeration to say that Zhang Wenxu is his only good friend.

But when Zhang Wenxu changed seats this time, he changed to the last row.

The last row has always been occupied by a few bottom students. Even with Zhang Wenxu's grades, if he didn't take the initiative to ask them to change, it would be impossible to change to that row.

So what does the current situation mean.

After class, Lu Youxi immediately walked over to Zhang Wenxu's seat, and shouted at people: "Xu Xu."

But as soon as he made a sound, he saw Zhang Wenxu pulled his new deskmate and said a few words, and then quickly rushed out from the back door alone.

Lu Youxi looked at Zhang Wenxu's back and was at a loss for a moment.

Is it an illusion?He couldn't help thinking.

But it is true, because of recent events, it seems that I have not spoken to Zhang Wenxu for a few days in my memory.Just how many days?Lu Youxi couldn't remember at all.

Could it be that I have ignored too many things about Xu Xu, so Xu Xu is angry?

He thought of this for a moment, but denied himself in the next second.

No, Xu Xu is not such a calculative person, he must be wrong.

It's just that he never thought that no matter how many classes were over after that, Zhang Wenxu would either look at Lu Youxi and hide, or he would just fight with other students normally as if he didn't hear Lu Youxi.

After two days of this situation, Lu Youxi finally realized the fact that Zhang Wenxu probably wouldn't pay attention to him anymore.

And this incident, for the current Lu Youxi, is undoubtedly a shock, and it will make the situation worse.

The deskmate who is still sitting next to me is a stranger to me even though I go in and out at the same time every day, and my best friend since junior high school suddenly ignores me at this point in time.

Lu Youxi's life was almost thrown into an ice hole.

But in the end, unlike the guilt towards Gu Cheng'an, Lu Youxi still had the courage to ask clearly about Zhang Wenxu's matter.

It's just that Zhang Wenxu was really inflexible. After several breaks where no one could be found, Lu Youxi could only wait and see, and finally grabbed Zhang Wenxu's arm in a corner of the cafeteria.

But I didn't want Zhang Wenxu to see him approaching, so terrified that he kept trying to pull away the holding hand.His actions attracted the attention of other people in the cafeteria, and his expression became more and more embarrassing after that.

In the end, Lu Youxi had no choice but to say: "Xu Xu, if you come out, I'll just ask the matter and leave. Whether you want to break up with me or reconcile, let me ask you."

After hearing this, Zhang Wenxu frowned, and quickly brought Lu Youxi to an inconspicuous corner of the cafeteria.

He looked around a few times with panic in his eyes, then frowned again, lowered his head slightly and said, "I won't be your friend anymore."

But even though he had already expected it in his heart, it was even more unbelievable to hear it with his own ears. He looked at Zhang Wenxu with sadness in his eyes and asked, "Why?"

Zhang Wenxu looked a little impatient, "Didn't I tell you? I don't know who you have offended. It's okay to implicate me, but I don't want your affairs to implicate Qiuqiu, okay?"

He pushed Lu Youxi, "Don't come to me again, okay? I don't want to really be friends with you."

In the next second, he quickly ran back to the dining table in the cafeteria, picked up the packing box and went out, leaving Lu Youxi alone, watching everything that happened, unable to recover for a long time.

After that, I don't know how long it took before Lu Youxi slowed down slightly. He stared at the ground, twisted the back of his hand vigorously, until he felt a green pain, and then whispered to himself: "So it's not a dream. .”