Xueba at the same table is my mortal enemy

Jiang Qu drank all the water in the cup, moistening his throat.

Lu Huai was on the phone with Lu Manqing, so he didn't avoid him.

The reconciliation after the violent ups and downs made both of them silent for a while.

Lu Huai pressed the hang up button and took the water from Jiang Qu: "My mother will be here in a while."

"Then I'll leave early." Jiang Qu said.

Lu Huai took his hand: "Don't you want to hear what I have to say to you?"

"You are also a man who keeps his word," Jiang Qu said, "It doesn't make any difference if it's earlier or later, and what I want is not you telling me about this matter, but what I want is later."

Lu Huai paused for a short while, Jiang Qu put one knee on the sofa, leaned over and looked at Lu Huai.

Soon, Lu Huai pinched the tip of his index finger: "Don't go, she knows you."

"?" Jiang Qu froze on the spot, using all his strength to slowly make a question mark.

"I told her, it's okay, she can accept and understand."

Lu Huai leaned back, with the back of his head down, as if he had been exhausted for too long, and finally he was able to unload his strength and take a good rest.

Jiang Quyuan wanted to ask a few more questions, but he really liked Lu Huai, so he propped up one arm and kissed him on the chin.

Lu Huai put his hand next to his ear: "Don't you want to kill me?"

"I'll give you a sweet date for a slap," Jiang Qu wrapped his arms around his neck and put it in his ear, "I'll give you a lifetime of love."

Lu Huai held his chin and kissed him slowly: "What you say means what you say."

Their lips are very different. Lu Huai has typical thin lips, while Jiang Qu's lips are red because of his cold and white skin, and they are incredibly soft when kissed. It seems that he has changed from that high-spirited boy to a cute pet in Lu Huai's arms. The fluffy hair will respond in a low voice when rubbed lightly.

Lu Huai pinched his ears and arched his shoulders to make him lie more comfortably.

"This matter has dragged on for a long time. It's not that I'm hesitating. It's that I can't make it clear to my mother." Lu Huai's Adam's apple rolled, "Her habits for so many years can't be changed. She likes to be like a dodder flower." life, but hates people here gossiping about her, so she is very happy to be able to emigrate with that person and go to a place where no one knows.

"She hoped that I could also walk together, or rather, she must take me and watch me."

Jiang Qu nodded, and gently pressed his thumb on Lu Huai's tiger's mouth. Thinking of Lu Huai's mother's experience, he couldn't help feeling distressed: "You are the only one for her."

"But she is to me..." Lu Huai closed his eyes when he said this, his voice was soft, like a whisper before going to bed, "It's either love or hate."

Jiang Qu rested his head on his shoulder, knowing from an objective point of view that he was standing on the opposite side of Lu Huai's mother invisibly, and even because he was too angry, he didn't consider Lu Huai's feelings at all.

"Did I force you to make a choice?"

Lu Huai shook his head slightly, bent his arms, and hugged him tightly.

"I am the child she raised with everything. She left her home for me and came to Nancheng alone," Lu Huai recalled, his voice becoming hoarse. After reading it, it's really hard to make a living in such a big city with a big belly and be cheated out of everything."

"But she never thought of giving up on me." Lu Huai said, "She still gave birth to me."

Jiang Qu lowered his eyes, put his elbows on Lu Huai's stomach, warmed Lu Huai's body, his heart was full of gratitude and luck.

Such a good Lu Huai should appear in this world, and then they will live a good life together.

"She has many partners, and she changes them every once in a while. Almost all of her free time is spent on men. Because of this, we... the rented house is getting bigger and bigger." Lu Huai stopped, as if thinking of something ridiculous, "She is getting smarter about men, but she is naive about me. When I was in preschool, I did a math problem in the second grade of elementary school. The teacher called her and said, your child is a genius, and she believed it. "

"You are indeed a genius," Jiang Qu touched the back of his hand, "I know it."

"Isn't it strange that elementary school math problems appeared in the kindergarten?" Lu Huai's eyes gradually dimmed. "That's the answer that the teacher taught me again and again, because my mother never picked me up from school on time. I thought of this way to make her pay more attention to me."

"It's a pity that everyone made a mistake. The teacher didn't know. My mother didn't care about me, but she didn't have time at all, and my mother believed that I was the best child in the world just because of this sentence. I learned from those parents, Use all the remaining money to enroll me in cram schools, interest classes."

Jiang Qu raised his hand and rubbed his resolute and cold face: "Too tired, aren't you?"

Lu Huai tightened his arms around him: "Not tired, but too..." He inhaled hard, "It's too difficult."

In those dark nights, Lu Huai, who was not as tall as the doorknob, stood in the crack of the door of the piano store, looked out from the light, and carefully pressed the door frame with his bald fingers that had not been pruned for a long time.

The teachers always told him: "I have called your mother, but she is not free now, so don't go out, just wait inside."

But most of the time, he can’t wait for anything, and then he is taken home by the teachers, sits on the small stool by the guard, witnesses the night with his eyes open, falls asleep at the window, and then goes directly to the school with his schoolbag on his back the next day. go to school.

Later, when he grew up, he would not lose his keys, and he could go home alone, but he didn't like to go home anymore.

People in the school paid attention to him because he was a legendary "child prodigy", and when they didn't get a response, they excluded him and isolated him.

Because no one came to the parent meeting, he said loudly in the classroom that he had a father and no mother, and he was a fool.

A child's language can hurt a child's heart the most.

And Lu Huai is like a weed on the Gobi, growing up stubbornly and alone, becoming unfriendly to strangers and hard-hearted.

He is good at reading, better than everyone else, and is the teacher's most admired student, even though he has always just looked at the blackboard indifferently and memorized like a machine.

"A day like this will always come to an end," Lu Huai's voice was still very soft, "No one can endure a lifetime like this. My mother began to be dissatisfied with her life, she wanted a regular partner, and wanted to get married. A happy family, I can feel that she hates her past more and more, regrets the time she spent for her livelihood, and every time she breaks up with her ideal partner, she will be very irritable, screaming and crying in the house."

Lu Huai had entered the smoky and alcohol-smelling room many times. He carefully packed Lu Manqing's things and handed her a warm towel to wipe her eyes, but he always looked impatient and resentful towards Lu Manqing.

The craziest time was when Lu Manqing poured a wine bottle down his throat. When Lu Huai vomited acid reflux, he scratched his face with his fingernails and asked loudly why Lu Huai appeared and why Lu Huai grew up. such a face.

Without the karma at the beginning, there would be no later ones.

After Lu Manqing cried bitterly, she cleaned herself up again, squatted in front of Lu Huai, held his hand, and said to him: "Xiao Huai, you are the smartest child in the world, you are my child, You must work hard..."

At that time, Lu Huai had just entered the first year of junior high school and won the first place in the city for the first time.

Lu Huai followed her and let her beat and scold her for a whole year, until she found her next partner.

"When I was in the third year of junior high school, she broke up with a partner I had been talking with for a year, because the other party thought that he could not afford to support a woman with little income and a student who was about to enter high school."

In the end, I still mind Lu Huai and the fucking past.

Lu Man's love completely collapsed, and she didn't go home after a few days of breaking up. Lu Huai called the police overnight and found her drunk in the toilet of a bar.

Jiang Qu's heart was pulled tightly, and he wanted to stop him from making a statement, but Lu Huai put his arms around his shoulders to distance him.

"Jiang Qu, I want to say something next." Lu Huai was begging him, and he was also trying to restrain his lips from trembling.

Jiang Qu's breathing was stagnant and he couldn't make a sound from his throat.

Lu Huai hadn't started to speak yet, but he already felt cold.

It was as if the sea water wrapped his body and suffocated him.

Lu Huai, on the other hand, was like a hunter struggling to keep warm by rubbing his hands in the snow in winter. He squeezed Jiang Qu's chin, breathing so fast that it sprayed on his cheeks.

"Nod."

Jiang Qu blinked in panic, and finally nodded half of his head under Lu Huai's gaze.

"I committed suicide before." Lu Huai pressed his forehead.

He watched Jiang Qu change from unbelievable at first to empty eyes, and supported Jiang Qu when he slumped half of his body.

He patted Jiang Qu's back and coaxed in a low voice: "I am here, I have not succeeded, failed, failed...don't be afraid."

Warm tears fell down Jiang Qu's hands one after another. He trembled all over, completely uncontrollable, breathed shortly, pinched Lu Huai's shoulder to elbow, then wrist, and flipped like crazy. his arteries.

No scars.

Not slit wrists.

Tears made his vision very unclear, and he hugged Lu Huai with all his strength: "Are you fucking stupid! What should I do if you committed suicide!"

Lu Huai had no way to relieve Jiang Qu's reaction, so he could only keep patting him on the back and repeating to him over and over again: "I am here, I am here, I did not commit suicide, I will not commit suicide, never will, never will .”

Jiang Qu's strength was so strong that he almost cut off Lu Huai's wrist, and his physiological tears kept flowing.

After a long time, he managed to catch his breath, but found that most of his body was numb, he couldn't stop crying and belching, his fingers cramped uncontrollably, Lu Huai quickly put him down on the sofa, held his hand, and lifted him Carefully untie the knotted fingers.

"Jiang Qu, I'm not dead, I'm here, and I'll stay with you for a long, long time." Lu Huai sighed in his chest, "It's all over, those things are over."

Jiang Qu tightly strangled a muscle on Lu Huai's arm again.

Jiang Qu can only feel at ease when he holds him and feels his skin is firmly pressed against him.

They waited for a full 10 minutes before Jiang Qu slowly got up from the sofa trembling, and retracted into Lu Huai's arms again, like a frightened little animal.

Jiang Qu has never cried to the point of stress reaction, and even the times of crying are pitifully rare. If he tries to recall, he can only find the scene of being beaten by his grandma in elementary school.

But when he heard the word suicide, he couldn't accept it at all.

How could this, the best and the best person in the world, give up his life so easily in front of him.

A feeling of lost and regained made him cry completely unconsciously, trembling and fearful like a chronic infection.

Fortunately, Lu Huai is here, and fortunately, Lu Huai is by his side.

Jiang Qu trembled and hiccupped around Lu Huai's waist, his voice was so blocked by his nose that he could hardly open his mouth and could not make a recognizable sound.

Lu Huai was still patting his back and chatting with him, temporarily staggering the topic.

"Tomorrow you may have to go to school with walnut eyes, and then you will be laughed at by them again, are you angry?"

Jiang Qu shook his head in his arms, and his arms became tighter and tighter.

"Then I'll get up and get you ice cubes?" Lu Huai said in a soothing tone, "You still have leftovers from the freezer last time. I've been useless."

Jiang Qu answered him in a hoarse voice: "Okay, but you have to hold me."

Lu Huai pulled out an ugly smile.

It was the ugliest smile Jiang Qu had ever seen Lu Huai.

"I can't lose it, and I will always be with you in the future." Lu Huai held him with one hand, and opened the lower shelf of the refrigerator with the other to take ice cubes.

The ice wrapped in Lu Huai's clean white T-shirt pressed against his eyelids, and Jiang Qu finally calmed down.

He remembered that Lu Huai once said to him—"After I didn't like others, after a period of time, I began to feel that life was boring, just like closing my eyes every day."

He understands that it's not that Lu Huai doesn't like others, but that he has lost the patience to please others, and his life is summed up by him as boring, with a light stroke, it's the dark years that he doesn't even want to talk about. time.

I think the person you see when you open your eyes is me.

Fortunately, it was me.

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