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Lu Anze has undergone surgery, and his physique is not as good as before.Years ago, I was supervising the construction of a pig farm in the wilderness on the outskirts of the county every day. Wearing a thin jacket, I couldn't resist the wind and cold, so I started coughing.Not good on and off.Grandma Lu followed the local prescription and fried eggs with sesame oil for him every morning, but it didn't help.He himself didn't care, he was busy every day, and he couldn't think of buying thicker clothes to wear.

It was his older sister, who was on holiday on the 29th of the year, and went to the mall to buy him a thick down jacket worth more than 900 yuan.For my sister, it was considered an extremely extravagant.

Boss Lu celebrated the new year wearing this new dress.

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On the morning of the fifth day of the Lunar New Year, Lu Anze went to the Qingyang Road store for a surprise inspection.On this day, someone booked the hall for the funeral banquet. There were only a few tables, and the dishes were very simple.

The store manager sighed at the front desk to Yingzi, the cashier with a big belly, "Hey, I heard that he was a doctor studying abroad and committed suicide. How can my parents bear it?"

Lu Anze was looking at the new version of the menu at the front desk, and when he heard this, his heart moved, and he asked the store manager, "What is this family's last name?"

The store manager is a local, and he knows Lao He, who repairs bicycles. He said with a curled mouth, "My surname is He. This son is very promising. He studied medicine and studied in the United States. Tsk tsk, what a pity."

In fact, how can others understand the grief of each family?Among the group of people who were eating, one could tell at a glance who the parents of the deceased were, and it was the one whose eyes were crying.

Lu Anze asked the store manager, "Do you know what it's called?"

The store manager thought about it, but couldn't remember it for a while, and said: "There is a character Qing in the name, which means Qing from our Qingyang Road. His father repairs bicycles in the alley in front of him."

The poor old couple wore very old padded jackets, and the expressions on their faces were even more gloomy.Could it be He Qingqiu's parents?Buy him milk to drink Brother Ayue?died?

Lu Anze couldn't speak of grief in his heart, after all, the friendship that had been separated for six years had long been weakened by time.He was just a little shocked and a little embarrassed.That Ayue brother who looked so happy that he was a bit crazy, He Qingqiu, would commit suicide?

He went to the bank to withdraw 10 yuan in cash, put it in two parts in kraft paper bags, and gave it to a couple of elderly people, saying that he owed He Qingqiu tens of thousands of yuan a few years ago, and he would pay it back with interest.

The eyes of the old couple were dull, and the money did not arouse any joy or desire to explore in their hearts. They just listened to what the stranger said, silently accepted the paper bag, and continued to immerse themselves in the huge black hole for the rest of their lives.

Lai Chuan had tea with Wei Dapeng this morning, and arrived in City C in the afternoon, and called Lu Anze to go back early in the evening.He wants to steam bacon and stir-fry vegetables to clean himself up.

Lu Anze arrived at home after nine o'clock in the evening.Lai Chuan was frying vegetables while looking up recipes on his mobile phone. The vegetables were burnt, and there was a faint smell of burnt smell in the air-conditioned room.It is the taste of the world.

Is it bad to live?

The two sat face to face and ate. Lai Chuan cooked the rice no more than porridge, and only gave two pieces of steamed bacon to his good roommate, fearing that he would not digest it if he ate too much.The two of them were eating, seeing Lu Anze's expression was a little depressed, and asked him what was going on.

"A friend I knew died." He said lightly.

"Is the relationship okay?"

"No contact for six years."

Lai Chuan snorted, he is not good at comforting people.He counted the time and knew that it was probably Lu Anze's friend in City G, so he didn't ask any more.

The two had eaten, washed the dishes and washed together, and then went to bed for activities.

Lu Anze coughed badly when he lay down, and couldn't rest at all.I simply sat up and leaned on the pillow to read a book called "Pig Things Go Well".The neckline of the pajamas was slanted to one side, exposing a raised collarbone, which rose and fell with coughing from time to time.

Lai Chuan was sleeping next to him, and he coughed anxiously, so he ran to pour a cup of hot water and put it on his bedside table.

"What happened, did you go to see it?" Lai Chuan asked.

The good roommate can't hear at all and is totally attracted to the pigs.

Lai Chuan reached out his hand to take away his "Pig Things Go Well", and put the hot water cup into the hands of his roommate: "Let me ask you something, you have been coughing for a while, have you read it?"

"Looking at what?" The man was still thinking about pig feed.

"Cough!" Lai Chuan became angry.

"What's so good about coughing? I'll be fine in two days." After speaking, Gulu Gulu drank all the hot water, hoping that this person would turn off the fire.

Lai Chuan pointed at his roommate with a book: "Get up now and change your clothes. There is a clinic downstairs to see."

"It's 10:30 on the fifth day of the Lunar New Year today, and the clinic has already closed." Boss Lu snatched the book back and didn't intend to get out of bed.

"Then tomorrow morning, don't arrange anything. We'll go to the hospital." Boss Lai made the arrangements and went back to bed to lie down.

The two gossiping for a while, exercising for a while, and the health care expert fell asleep on time at twelve o'clock.The person next to him was half lying on the pillow, suffering from insomnia.

When people are farthest from the sun, they are closest to themselves.If you don't fall asleep late at night, the buried memories and emotions will crawl out by themselves to tell you who you are.

Lu Anze closed his eyes, letting the memories fend for themselves in his mind, the one who resurfaced the most tonight was A Yue, A Yue was always talking, raising the corners of his mouth from time to time.He was hyperbolic, physically active, and excited like a madman when he went to work at night.

But there are some moments when he looks at a certain place, does not speak, does not smile, does not move, and becomes another person.

It was the A Yue that Lu Anze didn't know, and it was the He Qingqiu who committed suicide.

People are complex.