[Zhongyingmei] Convict you

"Sometimes, I feel like I'm walking alone in the dark, the road ahead is slim, and I can't see anything." Ryan said, "I can't help but think about some dark things and want to kill someone."

"Everyone has thought about killing someone, Ryan. Use various methods, do it yourself or wait for the punishment from God." Hannibal said gently, he is like a friend for many years, listening in front of you , and tell.

"Have you ever thought about killing someone?" Ryan asked, which seemed like a simple question.

There was a gloomy look in Hannibal's eyes before he opened his thin lips and said, "Yes. Of course."

After getting a satisfactory answer, Ryan smiled, his eyes were bent, giving people a good feeling.

Ryan continued: "Let's continue the original topic, doctor."

"Please."

Ryan organized his own language, and his eyes looked at Hannibal: "My father is an ogre."

Hannibal's pupils dilated, looking at Ryan as if he had discovered some treasure.

"He fed us with human flesh." Ryan said, "I told you before, the murder scene I witnessed with my own eyes, the murderer was my father, and he treated that man cruelly in the basement, I have nothing Do, pretend not to know anything. But, he found out anyway."

Ryan's eyes were filled with tears, and he tried not to let them fall, and continued: "In order to test me, he gave me the skills of slaughter, and even let me watch him hunt. But, what really made me unbearable It happened anyway, he killed my mother on a rainy night."

Hannibal looked at Ryan's expression probingly, as if he was judging how true or false what he revealed was true.

"I didn't know it at first, but after we had devoured her flesh, my father broke the infuriating news to me. He was delighted to see some connection to him in my face, Waving his hands and planning the hunting plan with me in the future." Ryan said and became excited, "So I picked up his gun that night, after he was asleep, and shot at him, Blood stained the white sheets."

"How did you feel in your heart at that time, did you feel that you had been transformed by your father?"

"No. Before I shot, he woke up and saw me, and he showed a gratified smile, which I have never seen before." Ryan trembled a little, "I trembled with excitement, because I killed my father with my own hands"

"You think you've been assimilated by your own father," Hannibal said, very straightforward and true.

"No, it's different." Lane vehemently denied.

"You were talking about the Shrike's death as a sacrifice to his daughter earlier, and that's because of your real experience, isn't it? So you'd want to protect Abigail from suffering like you Destruction, or..." Hannibal's voice sank, causing Ryan to look directly at him, "You see Abigail as another self, and you want to save Abigail, that is trying to save myself."

No, Ryan was silent, he refuted Hannibal in his heart, he didn't want to save, but, deeper and deeper, wanted to destroy.

He's jealous that Abigail is getting by after what he's been through, and he?

He didn't want to protect Abigail, otherwise, how could he let Abigail be disemboweled alone.

"You don't seem to care so much about right and wrong, good and evil." Hannibal stated that from the time he buried Abigail's body with himself, Hannibal had such a feeling that Ryan's behavior What is the criterion, which made him curious.

"Maybe." Ryan's expression was a little complicated, "There is no right or wrong in this world at all. Some are just written by the winners, so I don't think such right and wrong are not so important now. "

"Do you think you may become a psychopath in the future, an antisocial personality?" Hannibal induced.

Ryan pursed his lips and shook his head. He took a deep breath, and then said, "Never, I'm just a normal person with my own bottom line. I won't kill anyone again. The taste of blood on my hands doesn't seem to me. So beautiful."

Talking about such things in front of Hannibal.Hannibal felt that the man in front of him seemed a bit complicated, and the contradictions were vividly displayed in him.

He can watch a person lose his life in front of him, but he is unwilling to kill a person with his own hands.

"But human life is not that important in your eyes."

"Of course." Ryan said as it should, "Hannibal, have you watched a video? In the universe, the earth is just a drop in the ocean, and human beings are just passers-by on the earth, and all life is equal. Of course, comparatively speaking, I am more inclined to natural life. If the disappearance of human beings can make the world a better place, I will support it without hesitation."

Hannibal understood where Ryan's contradictions were manifested, just like what he had shown before, in his eyes, he was just a passer-by in this world, just like all human beings.

This made Hannibal a little unbearable, and wanted to move Ryan into the net, but he couldn't get out.

"Even Abigail?"

This question made Ryan hesitate, and his feelings for Abigail seemed very confused, but he still said: "Even Abigail."

Ryan can be willing to do illegal things for Abigail, but now, for the "great cause" in his heart, he can sacrifice Abigail indifferently.

This made Hannibal couldn't help but want to explore, to explore more deeply, what exactly Ryan went through to develop his current character.The influence of his parents when he was a child is one aspect. Of course, the aunt who raised him during adolescence is another aspect.

Childhood is a stage of character development, while adolescence is a stage of formation or perfection.

"What do you think of your aunt? Admiration or fear." Hannibal seemed to be on the right track, and his question silenced Ryan.

Ryan licked his lips involuntarily. Today, this gesture of showing tension seems to be a little frequent.Hannibal seemed to know the fact that Ryan couldn't avoid it. Such a question made Ryan feel extremely aggressive, as if the circle he had drawn had been violated rudely.

"My aunt... Her name is Margot Quill. She has been a very smart woman since she was a child. More precisely, she is a nerd in her father's evaluation. When she was young, she always liked to pester her grandfather and listen to his past experiences. But after her grandfather passed away, Margot became different. Indifferent, ruthless, such words seem to describe her better. I thought of something interesting.

"Every Christmas, Margot will spend with us. But the place where she and her father are always full of conflicts, and at that time, mother just sat in a chair and watched the two of them bicker." Ryan couldn't help showing a A happy smile, sweet and immersive.

Hannibal said: "This is the happiest day you've been in a long time, isn't it? Thinking about these positive things will help you maintain a good mood."

When Ryan found his smile, his expression froze, his green eyes widened as if in disbelief.

"You always think that you hate your father, but in fact, you respect him and your teacher. After all, it is he who made you." Hannibal said the last sentence extremely slowly, eyes Locked tightly on Ryan, watching his every move.

"You have psychopathic blood Ryan running through you. Unlike Will, Will may be lost, but you won't, because you saw everything early on. Through your father, you saw the spirit A perverted world." Hannibal's body precursor, "Tell me Ryan, when you saw those corpses, what was going through your mind?"

"Nothing." Ryan said expressionlessly, his green eyes were deep, "Nothing."

The two hours of conversation passed quickly, Ryan stood at the door and waved to Hannibal, then turned and left.

That night, he suffered from insomnia again.

Involuntarily, Ryan opened the diary that belonged to his mother that he put in the drawer.

It recorded bits and pieces, and what she found wrong with her father, but she never left.Even until his death, Ryan felt that his mother had never regretted it, because she loved him.

Strong emotions drove Ryan to drive to the door of Will's house. Ryan lay on the steering wheel with his eyes wide open.

When Ryan drove over, Will noticed that his sleep state was not that good, and this night he had another nightmare and was awakened.

Will's back was covered with sweat, and even the sheets were soaked.

Will, still in shock, stood up and went to find a blanket for himself, only to find a car parked in front of his house.

He stood in front of the window, pulled the curtains slightly, and saw a black car parked quietly at the door.He knew this car, it belonged to Ryan.

Will frowned, he didn't quite understand why Ryan came back here in the middle of the night.

With this in mind, Will put a blanket on his body, and walked out barefoot. The dogs were sleeping very soundly. Feeling their masters, they all stood up energetically, as if they were waiting for Will. Open the door.

But in the end, Will turned around and made a silent gesture to them, and the dogs then lay back pitifully.

Christmas was approaching, and the weather seemed very cold. When Will went out, he regretted it. His feet didn't seem to belong to him anymore, but he still walked down the steps step by step and stood in front of Ryan's car.

Leaning closer to the window to observe the scene inside, Will frowned and reached out to knock on the window.

The sound of knocking on the window woke Ryan up from his own world. He turned his head blankly, looked at the thin Will, and got out of the car with some worry.

Will wriggled his lips, as if he wanted to ask something, but was forcefully carried into the room by Ryan.

You know, as a man, such a posture is really awkward, Will struggled: "Put me down!"

But obviously, Ryan didn't respect his opinion, because he noticed Will's bare feet just now.After putting Will on the bed, Ryan accepted Will's accusing eyes, then he sat on the bed and covered Will with a quilt.

"I didn't expect you to be awake yet." Ryan seemed aggrieved, his eyes were a little red, which made Will unable to say any accusations.

So he could only ask dryly: "What's wrong with you?"

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Ryan: I miss you~