broken sun

It is the season of continuous spring rain in Yuncheng, and it has been rare to see sunshine from morning till night in the past few days.

It didn't rain that much that night, it floated finely and densely under the halo of the street lights, and it felt wet and cool when it hit his face. Shi Ze passed one street light after another, some of the light was dim, and some of them were broken one after another. Yes, he walked very fast, he didn't pay attention to the wetness all over his body, and raised his hand to rub his face, only to feel the stiffness of his face.

He was in a complicated mood, anxious, with a heavy stone on his chest, but he didn't want to face the person he wanted to see with a cold face, so he rubbed his hands several times.

Shi Ze has been here for a week, rain or shine.

He hadn't seen Xu Li again for a week.

Last week, Xu Li asked Shi Ze to meet at 2:[-] p.m., but Shi Ze was [-] minutes late because of the traffic jam and running all the way.

When knocking on the door panting, at first he was afraid that Xu Li would be annoyed inside, so he didn't dare to knock more, but then he kept knocking intermittently, realizing that there was really no one there.

"I'm sorry," he apologized outside without giving up, like a self-criticism, "Xu Li, are you facing it inside, I shouldn't be late, I didn't do what I shouldn't have promised, give me one more chance, Xu gravel……"

The long-lasting silence that seemed to have no end, the silence that made people feel uncomfortable and about to go crazy.

Until someone upstairs opened the door with a click, it should be the anti-theft iron door opened and closed, the sound echoed in the stairwell full of poverty and mess.

Shi Ze didn't care about it, he was in a daze, his mind went blank, and the only way was to stay here.

He didn't want to leave. He was afraid that when Xu Li came back, he would not see him and think that he really broke the appointment. He was also afraid that this mistake would make all his efforts go to waste, and he would never gain Xu Li's trust again.

The upstairs resident who came down was an old lady, trembling on crutches, Shi Ze stepped aside a little, it was not too embarrassing, and he didn't care whether he would be seen or not.

Unexpectedly, the old lady stood beside him and did not leave. She squinted her eyes at him and asked, "I've never seen you before. What do you do?"

Xu Shi Shi Ze looked like a tall man, and he didn't look like a good person when he was stunned on the spot. The other party suddenly smashed the ground with his crutches, and said sullenly: "He's here to collect debts again? Didn't he say that he would have paid it off long ago?" Did I tell you that this house is mine, and it has nothing to do with that brat!" She was emotionally ups and downs, waving her wrinkled hands vigorously, "I won't rent this house anymore, I won't rent it anymore!"

"Pay off the debt? Pay off what debt?" Shi Ze asked with a frown.

"My old lady shouldn't be soft-hearted at the beginning, she owed a whole lot of debt to the bastard outside..." The old lady raised her eyebrows and said calmly, but she stopped immediately when she realized, "...Aren't you here to collect debts?"

The misunderstanding was solved, Shi Ze said that he was Xu Li's friend, and took out his military officer's card to prove his identity. friend.

"Grandma, he and I used to be classmates. He helped me at that time, and then I lost contact with him, so I wanted to come back to him. I don't know what happened in these years. Why pay off the debt? Do people always come to trouble him?"

The old lady meditated for a while, then calmed down and said: "In fact, this year, almost half a year, there has been no disturbance. But you don't know, at that time, people would come to arrest him every few days, splashing ink and blood, No one in the neighborhood knows that he owes money." She tutted her head and shook her head, "I was scared, because I was afraid that someone would stand at his door, and I couldn't stand being scared at my age. It’s pretty good, once the blood flowed from my head and paid me money, so I couldn’t get rid of it.”

The more Shi Ze listened, the more tense his occlusal muscles became. Something burst out of his heart, piercing his throat, tearing his nerves, almost unable to speak.

"...Do you know what happened to him? Why does he owe so much money?"

With a choked voice, he added: "He used to be very good, and he treated me... From your description, he should be the same. I want to repay him."

The old lady was going to buy groceries: "Young man, I can't promise you. The old saying goes that people should not be judged by their appearance. I won't ask him to rent it after a while." She took two steps outside, then turned around and said, " You, a classmate, seem to have committed crimes and squatted in a cell, so let's not get involved with it."

Shi Ze still came every day, at an uncertain time, but Xu Li seemed to have disappeared out of nowhere after having lunch with him that day and meeting him at five o'clock, which made him happy for a long time.Asking in the bar only said that Xu Li had taken a long vacation, Shi Ze exchanged mobile phone numbers with the waiter who was close to Xu Li, and asked the other party to inform him if there was any news.

And for several days after five o'clock in the afternoon, he squatted in depression outside the apartment building, and he could always run into the landlady's old lady going out to buy vegetables.

Seeing that he was "persisting in his obsession", the old lady once sighed and told him kindly: "You don't come here soon, he is going to quit the rent and move out."

On the last day of the holiday, Shi Ze received a call saying that Xu Li had just left after visiting the bar, "may be temporarily staying in the bar in the future", and "should have returned to the place where he lives".

Braving the rain and walking to the fork in the unit building, Shi Ze saw the light shining from the first floor in the distance, his heart skipped a beat, as if he was saved, at least he wouldn't be completely suffocated in the next second.

Shi Ze wanted to see Xu Li right away, but something that seemed wronged rushed up first.

He wanted to get angry and go back, why did the good meeting turned into avoiding him, and then wanted to disappear quietly for a while, is it so fun to tease him?

He wanted to make it clear that no matter what, whether Xu Li wanted to fuck him or vent his hatred, it was fine, but he definitely couldn't get rid of him.

He quickened his pace and walked through the bleak wind and rain. While he was very nervous, his heart surged.

Xu Li threw the half tube of toothpaste that had just been placed on the small wooden table into the suitcase, pressed it hard, closed the zipper, and collapsed on the sofa next to it.

There are not many things that belong to him, a suitcase is just right.

He looked around, it can't be called nostalgia, it can't be called at all.

It's just that Xu Li turned over, hugged the yellow and old pillow, looked down and saw that even the stitches were scattered, he remembered that in this dilapidated house that had been rented for several years, besides those debtors, there was another person I've been here, and that person was lying on it, just in this position, and fell asleep fearfully.

The old landlady upstairs should have met him, and she was very happy when she returned the rent, and she was a lot more polite to Xu Li for the first time.

"Dong dong dong."

The extra sonorous knock on the door made people tremble in the silent night.

Xu Li lifted the blanket on his body, looked at the peephole in the middle of the door, lowered his hands, and stood there for a long time.During this period, he inexplicably remembered that the first time he asked Shi Ze, who was awake, to open a room in a hotel, he stood by the door like this.

Xu Li opened the door the same way he pushed the door back then.

The rainy spring night was still very cold, and the wind kept pouring in. He could smell the damp in the corridor, the smell of dust, the smell of rain, and the smell of a panting man standing viciously in front of him.

Xu Li's brain was a little dizzy, and his face was numb from the wind. He interpreted this last look as the result of the other party's unwillingness or anger.

Shi Ze stared at Xu Li, turbulent and restrained several times, the other party's cold eyes frustrated him, and finally shouted out: "Do you know——"

Haven't heard anything yet—does he know anything?

Xu Li looked at Shi Ze, and even wanted to smile, this is the Shi Ze he knew.

But before he could laugh, his jaw suddenly hurt, and the other party was aggressive, and a wet, cold and extremely hot body suddenly hugged him tightly.

Xu Li was forced to take a step back, feeling as if the whole world was shaking, but he couldn't move his body.

Shi Ze hugged him recklessly, buried his head very low, and pressed it against Xu Li's neck.

He thought so much, but in the end he just wanted to hug Xu Li.

Not hugging, but hugging like now and not letting go.

But soon, Xu Li began to push him: "You got caught in the rain."

"I'm not cold!" Shi Ze said eagerly.

"But I'm cold."

Shi Ze was stunned for a moment, looking very sad, he let go.

Returning to the polite and friendly distance, Shi Ze entered the room again.

Xu Li threw him a towel, went to the balcony to find the electric heater, plugged it in, and sat on the sofa on the other side.

Shi Ze grabbed the towel, looked straight at Xu Li, contemplated for a long time, closed and opened his eyes, finally called Xu Li's name, and said dryly: "We made an appointment last time to meet at five o'clock. , but I was 2 minutes late, so I didn't see you, and I promise I won't in the future."

"I come here every day these days, and then I heard that you are moving out. I want to tell you...I apologize to you because I feel...I feel that I have done too many things before, even if you forgive me Feeling regretful," as if the gate had been opened, his fingers turned white from being strangled by a towel, "but I relentlessly depend on you, especially because—"

"Because I can't forget you. I haven't forgotten you since you dropped out of school, and I didn't wait to repeat my studies with you. Later, I made a girlfriend and found out that it was impossible...but I can feel it when I see you singing on stage..." He Frowning, he realized that he had said something wrong, but he didn't know how to fix it, so he didn't dare to look at Xu Li now.

"I, I really like you."

Xu Li stabilized his trembling hands, clenched his fists into the gap of the sofa cushion, paused for a long time, and asked, "What is your current occupation?"

Shi Ze raised his forehead in confusion, and stammered, "...soldier."

"You are a soldier," Xu Li said, "but I never went to college, I don't have a normal family, and I have been in prison for intentional injury. When someone came to me for money, I stabbed him. It wasn't until last year that I Pay off those debts, you don't know this, so follow me."

Xu Li rarely talked about himself with others, but every time he said it, he seemed to be talking about others: "As for you, you can't forget me, because who told me to be the first person who tricked you into bed with bad intentions," he finally She smiled, "Shi Ze, you like women, you don't just have to be hard on me."

"I……"

Xu Li said lightly: "We are not suitable, you have your better choice, and I also have mine. For example, your parents' family, your social status, your world, I may not would like..."

"But I don't have a better choice!" Shi Ze's blood surged, and he stood up suddenly, knocking over the cup on the table with a flick of the towel, and the water splashed everywhere.

Xu Li's heart trembled, and he quickly got up to take out paper to clean up, but Shi Ze, who also strode forward, grabbed his wrist and pushed him back, falling back heavily.

"If you don't like it, you don't like it, but I like it." Shi Ze covered him, his body was almost baked, and he was very hot, "You never liked me. You used to want to sleep with me, but now you don't want to, so you're looking for those Excuse."

Xu Li struggled, but his heart was amused. Shi Ze really didn't believe that he loved him. He fell in love with him easily in his sophomore year of high school. Love him with disgrace and dignity.

Shi Ze suppressed those resistances three times and twice, as if he was wronged, kept saying "I'm sorry", kissed Xu Li's chin and neck indiscriminately, and stubbled: "But you sleep with me well, even if you don't If you like me, try it with me again to see if it’s okay.”

"Shi Ze, you—"

Shi Ze directly kissed his lips and blocked his mouth.

"Hmm..." My whole body was numb like an electric shock.

Xu Li seemed to have been pressed by some switch, and instantly became limp. He opened his mouth and bit it, the tip of his teeth pierced into the flesh in an instant and then loosened.

"I know what you told me now, but I still want to follow you," he pinched Xu Li's waist, and murmured vaguely with his lips against his lips, "I will protect you from now on."

The author says:

The text of the sub-cp is here.