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My name is Shen Xiwen.

My parents gave me this name because they wanted me to be as transparent and comfortable as a stream of water, and to be able to engage in their favorite literary work and be a well-behaved child.

In fact, I'm really cute too.

Until I went to kindergarten with Bai Luxi.

Bai Luxi is a child of Uncle Bai's neighbor, two months older than me.

I don't like him, because he is obviously not good at all, but he can still enjoy everyone's love.

"Ah, so cute."

"Xiao Xi is so lively."

"Call Auntie to listen."

"Ah, the little mouth is so sweet."

……

Obviously I'm cute too.

What Bai Luxi said.

Kindergarten children's favorite game is play house, where everyone plays the role of princess and prince.

Although I don't know why, they all let me play the princess.

Although I don't like it, my parents told me that only by being obedient can I have a good relationship with the children.

But I really wanted to be a prince once, so I proposed it.

They were very unhappy, because there is only one prince here, and there must be a princess.

Only Bai Luxi put the little crown symbolizing the prince on my head, smiled and said to me: "It looks good."

The kid next to me started complaining.

"Then who will be the princess?"

"How can we play without a princess?"

Bai Luxi said: "The two princes are also the same!"

"Different!"

"Then you are a princess?"

"Why should I?"

"Then why let Shen Xi Wen take over?"

"He looks like a girl."

Little children's struggles always start out of nowhere.

But Bai Luxi refused to give in, and ruthlessly grabbed the hair of the boy who had the most opinion and tore at it. The two of them were tearing at their clothes, with tears in their eyes.

Someone shouted and complained: "Teacher! Teacher! Bai Luxi and Xiaohu are fighting!"

The teacher asked them helplessly: "Why did you fight?"

Xiaohu yelled as he cried, "Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow, i don't know."

The teacher looked at Bai Luxi, but Bai Luxi didn't say a word.

The matter was settled in the end. Of course, the clothes on both of them were dirty, and Bai Luxi was scolded by Uncle Bai when he returned home.

I went home and took iodine and rubbed it on his skinned knee. Bai Luxi cried out in pain, but didn't shed a single tear.

Bai Luxi said to me: "Shen Xiwen, how can you be so soft? Just say what you don't like."

I thought about it and asked him, "Do you want to fight with others like you?"

"Hiss—" Bai Luxi touched the wound, and said, "What do you know? This is the glory of a man. Sigh, forget it, if someone bullies you, just tell me."

I nodded and asked him, "Does it still hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt much anymore." He said, "Shen Xiwen, you are so amazing, you can become a doctor in the future, and I can see you directly, hehe. My mother said that it is troublesome to go to the hospital to see a doctor."

Doctor...?

However, Bai Luxi left shortly after we took the kindergarten graduation photos.

Mom said they had moved far away and probably would never come back.

I can't find him.

In fact, I don't hate him that much, I still want him to play with me.

I made new friends in elementary school, and I slowly began to learn what Bai Luxi taught me, and I would tell others what I like and what I don't like.

I didn't know until that night that no matter what I did, someone was going to hate me.

Even if I think I did nothing wrong, even if I don't understand why.

Disgusting, disgusting.

I've never had so many disgusting things crawling all over me.

Since then, I don't want anyone to touch me.

My parents were very anxious. They took me to see a doctor. The doctor said that I was sick and mentally ill.But I think this disease allows me to stay away from many people I don't like, which is also very good.

I have studied very well since I was a child, although many people don't like me, think I am pretending, and think that I think I am arrogant.

I don't even bother to explain to them.

I am no longer the person who always cares about other people's eyes. I know exactly what I want and what I want to do.

Only occasionally I would think, if I saw Bai Luxi again one day, would he think I was a monster?

I realized that Bai Luxi had a small corner in my heart, although it was small, it was always shining.

I put my childhood photos on the first page of the album, and the second page is a photo of me and Bai Luxi.

Maybe, I will only be able to recognize him by relying on this at that time, so I must keep it well.

On the back of the album, I wrote the name of the person I like.

The college entrance examination was scored, and the score was not low, which met my expectations.

I applied for medical school.

In fact, my parents still wanted me to study literature, but I was very persistent, so they stopped talking.

In the beginning, many people approached me, and they would say that I was handsome, but slowly, they also realized that I was different from others.

I have been receiving treatment systematically. In fact, I can accept ordinary short-term contact, but the reaction is much more severe than ordinary people.

I don't dare to fall in love, and I don't want to accept other people's kindness. No one would want a lover who is difficult to hug, right?

Chinese medicine allows me to cultivate my body and mind, and also allows me to understand a lot of ancient wisdom.

The way of great enlightenment, the way of willingness.

But some persistence, I don't want to give up.

As I got older, my parents began to care more and more about my emotional life.

But in my memory, only that little figure is still fresh, and I can only tell them in general that I like boys more than girls, and that I don't have any favorite objects yet.

In a blink of an eye, I passed my 27th birthday, and I already have my own stable job.In the eyes of others, I am only one short of a good marriage.

My parents started to get anxious and tried to arrange a blind date for me.

I met a few men tokenly and made it clear from the start that I had a contact block.

In the end, it was all over.

That day, my parents brought up the blind date with me again, and told me that this time it was an acquaintance.

I didn't think much about it, and agreed casually, since it was just a meeting anyway.

On the day of the blind date, it happened that there were more patients.

Although I was always punctual, I was only late for a while. At the door, I heard a man coaxing my parents.

It seems that someone who can talk, actually coaxed the old people so happy, this kind of person may be more troublesome to deal with.

I straightened up, pushed open the door, watched the handsome man stand up with a smile, and shook hands with me.

"Hi, I'm Bai Luxi."

This is the first time I thank God.

——End of extra episode——