Rust II

Although Lin An has only been working in X for less than three months, this name can be regarded as one of the more impressive ones among the more than 7 students in class 40. He is the representative of mathematics in class 7, and his grades in science He is one of the best in the whole grade, but he is usually too introverted and shy, he doesn't like to talk, and he is always alone, and he rarely communicates closely with his deskmates, so he is often nicknamed by his classmates. "Stuffy gourd", and because of his thin stature, some people call him "cucurbit baby".Lin An sometimes observes the students in the class quietly, and always finds that the other party likes to get out of the crowd during group activities, such as the physical activity class twice a week. If there is no practice content arranged by the teacher, he will silently Automatically convert that class into a self-study class, run back to the classroom to read books, or do questions, in short, I prefer to stay alone.

Lin An had met a lot of introverted students, but seldom encountered such a self-isolated student, so he talked to the homeroom teacher of Class 7 in the first year of high school, but the other party told him not to worry about it. Said that this child has been like this since he first entered X Middle School, and has always cared about everything except his studies. His parents are also happy with him. The representative of this math class didn't want him to do it, saying that he was afraid that what he did in class would take up the child's study time and so on.Lin An frowned frequently after hearing this, and wanted to find an opportunity to talk to Zhou Tao, but there was no good opportunity. In addition, when he first arrived in X Middle School, everything was still in the stage of familiarization and adaptation. Later, when he got busy with work, he temporarily put it on hold. .

Until a week later, once he finished working in the office, he suddenly remembered that he had dropped a book on the podium, so he went back to pick it up. At that time, Class 7 was in the activity class, and all the students were running around in twos and threes in the playground or gymnasium. However, Zhou Tao was the only one sitting in the corner of the classroom, leaning over the table and writing something furiously.Lin An saw it and wanted to chat with him, so he took the book and sat in the seat in front of him.

The other party seemed to be very involved in writing, until he heard Lin An's gentle sentence "What are you writing?", his shoulders shook, and he hurriedly wanted to turn over the page in his hand, but he didn't know whether it was because of fear or other reasons , A hand slipped and tore a hole in the paper.Lin An glanced at it for a while, and saw that there were densely packed words on the paper, which were obviously not homework for any subject.

"Don't be nervous." Seeing his flustered look, Lin An said softly again.Xu Shi realized that there was no intention of incriminating in his voice, so the other party couldn't help but looked up at him.Lin An smiled and asked again, "Can I have a look?"

Zhou Tao moved his fingers pressing on the paper, but he didn't refuse.Lin An tentatively pulled the book out from under his hand, then glanced at the current page twice, then turned to the front and read it carefully. After more than ten minutes, he found that this was actually a well-conceived fantasy novel , and all the characters and stories are adapted from the students in the class and the teachers of various subjects as the prototype, or the various interesting things that happened in the class on weekdays as the background.Although the images of the characters written are somewhat exaggerated and novelty-seeking, their personalities are unexpectedly close to reality. Coupled with the humorous writing and witty words, the sense of otherworldliness becomes lovable and amiable.

It is undeniable that Lin An was very impressed and surprised in his heart, but even more, he was surprised and moved.He could see the other party's love and care for this self-entertaining work, as if these illusory words contained the young man's secret passion for everything around him, but never expressed it to the outside world.Because even Xu Yuan, who caused him to be punished as soon as school started and caused a lot of trouble in the city, is only portrayed as a slightly irritable, straightforward, cute and chivalrous in this kingdom that belongs to him alone. "Strange girl", he even equipped her with sophisticated weapons, making her invincible in the battlefield that is a metaphor for the examination room.

Of course, in addition to this, there are many other students with distinctive personalities in the story, including some teachers who often come into contact with, such as Peng Chunlin and Chen Jianliang.Although there are also villains with strange skills, but because the events are mostly based on reality, they have a special flavor.

Lin An found it interesting, and couldn't help laughing after reading it, and teased him: "It's very well written. But it must be carefully hidden, and you must not let classmates like Xu Yuan see it, otherwise you will definitely not read it." Let you go."

Zhou Tao was so nervous that his hands were trembling, but when he got Lin An's reaction and even affirmed it, his whole face was raised in surprise, and his eyes were full of joy and disbelief.

Lin An saw his expression, smiled and asked: "How long has it been since you wrote it?" He raised his head, and continued to whisper respectfully: "When I first started school... I started writing..."

Lin An nodded, closed the notebook, and gently handed it back to the other party, "I didn't expect that the mathematics representative of our class was so talented. The teacher usually reads the composition you wrote and the weekly diary you handed in, and mistakenly thinks that you only I know how to write argumentative papers." Then he smiled slightly, and made a little joke: "Come on, the teacher is optimistic about you. If a book is published in the future, don't forget to give the teacher a copy."

The other party blushed to the neck, and sat on the seat in embarrassment but excitement.

Lin An saw that he seemed to let his guard down a little bit, so he took the opportunity to chat with him for a while, and said carefully, "But at the same time, the teacher also hopes that you can be like the protagonist in your novel, and try to be as close as possible to the surrounding environment. Get in touch, integrate into the big group of Class 7, if you want, make more friends, and when you have nothing to do, you can also have someone to play ball or chat with."

Unexpectedly, when Zhou Tao heard this topic, he suddenly returned to a very nervous state.Lin An secretly saw his reaction in his eyes, and couldn't help but wonder in his heart. He didn't know why the other party's strong resistance to interpersonal communication came from, but he didn't ask much. After thinking about it, he changed the way to encourage the other party: "I know... this process of change may be difficult, but the teacher still hopes to see a more cheerful and confident side of you one day. You are actually better than many people, so we won't talk about your grades. Look, today you let me I found out that there is such a bright spot in writing novels, I can't blame Xu Yuan for sticking to you."

The other party was a little more surprised than before when he heard that he had avoided all the teachers and students like snakes and scorpions with his puppy love so lightly, and couldn't help but raised his head to look at him.

Lin An met his gaze, smiled gently again, and said softly, "Can't you believe it?" He pretended to be puzzled, "Teacher Lin actually joked about such a thing..."

Zhou Tao's tense face finally showed a smile at this time, although it was very small, it was still observed by Lin An who was watching him closely. He paused, and then continued to speak softly after a while: "Actually, the teacher never objected to the so-called "Puppy love", you are very lucky to have such a relationship at this age, no matter who the partner is, to be honest, when the teacher first fell in love with someone, he was not much older than you, At that time, the atmosphere was stricter than it is now.”

After some words, Zhou Tao's defenses were obviously relieved. Lin An looked at the time and found that there was still some distance before the end of this class, so he simply chatted with the other party, and the topic did not entangle the other party. I don’t let go of issues such as personality and other issues, and mostly exchange with the other party some books that I have read and impressed while I was still studying.The atmosphere gradually became relaxed in Lin An's soft voice. Although Zhou Tao was still silent most of the time, he was no longer as cautious and vigilant as he was at the beginning.

It wasn't until the end of the activity class that Lin An tactfully shifted the topic back to the purpose of his conversation this time, and guided him: "Actually, reading and growing up have many things in common, and both require years of accumulation. Gradually run-in and change, sometimes the effect may be very little, but as long as you can be patient, calm down, don't give up easily, work a little bit every day, let go a little bit, even if it is useless for one or two years, but five years Years and ten years later, the harvest will become very impressive, after all, people's cognition and changes are always subtle, no one can achieve it overnight, right?"

Zhou Tao didn't answer, but the eyes that looked at him seriously let Lin An know that the other party listened to his words, whether they digested or not, this is a good sign.

Lin An originally thought that the conversation would end here, but he didn't expect that before he left, the other party who hadn't made much noise would suddenly stop him.Zhou Tao's voice was very soft. He stared blankly at Lin An who had already walked to the door. After a long while, he hesitated and asked: "...Teacher, what you just said... hi, like it Is it true that one is lucky?"

Lin An was slightly taken aback, and nodded.

"Ren, anyone?" The other party's eyes suddenly burst into light.

At that time, Lin An didn't know the reason why the other party asked such a question, so after being taken aback, he gave an affirmative answer out of his heart: "Of course."

The light in the opponent's eyes flickered again, and in an instant, the whole person seemed to be illuminated.

"...Thank you." A moment later, Lin An heard a very low voice thank you.

This was the closest communication Lin An had with Zhou Tao in his memory. Since then, the other party has remained seldom and silent, but the Zhou Ji handed in is no longer a stereotyped "model composition", and even Lin An occasionally passes by Luo Han in the physical activity class. When I was in the playground, I could also see the thin figure of the other party appearing on the edge of the playground, although he was just standing there.

When Lin An was sitting in the taxi rushing to the People's Hospital, the few scenes about Zhou Tao flashed one scene after another in his sore mind, and for some reason, the chat between the two of them two months ago The content is also constantly flashing in the mind incomparably frequently.

He couldn't help feeling flustered, fearful, terrified, and even the palms of his hands felt cold and sweaty.It seems that the soul that was still troubled by love the night before has withdrawn and left. At this moment, he is just a teacher Lin An who is worried about the safety of his students.

When I rushed to the operating room, only Feng Ping with red eyes was left in the corridor and still had a little strength to walk towards her. Zhou Tao's parents were sitting on the waiting chairs with almost collapsed emotions, especially Zhou Tao's mother, who buried her face in her face. Between the palms, the whole figure is like an unconscious statue.

"What's going on?" Lin An panted and asked Feng Ping. He ran all the way, but his pale face was now stained with a reddish layer.

Feng Ping sniffed, wiped away her tears, and said softly: "No, I don't know... I didn't go back after the party last night, so I said hello to the director and lived in the staff and teacher's dormitory of the school. Well, as a result, as a result, a resident student in our class suddenly called me this morning... Said, said that someone fell, fell down by the escalator on the first floor of No. 3 teaching building...the whole body was covered with blood..."

Feng Ping spoke intermittently, and the horrific image of the morning still remained in her mind—she was awakened by a phone call in a daze in her sleep in the early morning, and then hurriedly put on her clothes and ran from one end of the playground to the other. At one end, when she turned into the stairs on the west side of the teaching building, a nightmare-like scene appeared in front of her eyes: Zhou Tao was lying on the ground with his eyes closed, his lips were blue and white, and there was a large dry beach beneath him. The blood stains made her stunned. The impact of reality was more than ten times stronger than what the students said on the phone.Feng Ping's mind instantly went blank. After a long pause, she instinctively took out her mobile phone and called 120 to call the police. Then she notified Zhou Tao's parents and Director Chen non-stop.

X Middle School was urgently blocked. As the principal, Ge Jing rushed to the scene as soon as such an incident happened, and cooperated with the police to obtain all the surveillance cameras available in the school.

No one expected that X Central, which was still lively and full of vigor yesterday, would encounter such an accident early the next morning.Chen Jianliang was doing investigations by Ge Jing's side, and from time to time he couldn't bear to contact Feng Ping who was guarding the hospital to ask about the situation there. Unfortunately, the worst prediction happened. During the phone call, Zhou Tao’s mother’s collapsed cry was faintly heard, heartbreaking, and she kept calling Zhou Tao’s name, but the person who connected the phone was silent all the time. A low sob came down the receiver.Chen Jianliang's heart skipped a beat, and he asked eagerly, "Feng Ping, Feng Ping, how are you doing?"

Two seconds later, the phone seemed to be transferred to another person, and after a while, Lin An's hoarse voice came over, "Director Chen, Zhou Tao... just left."

At the same time, the thin figure sitting high on the handrail of the stairs in the surveillance video also fell from the narrow gap like a kite with a broken string.

And because he was blocked by the railing twice during the fall, the fresh life suffered for nearly 7 hours in the dark before finally coming to an end on the operating table.

The gloomy picture in the video is unbearable to watch, like a haze that has not been dispersed for a long time, covering everyone's heart.

After coordinating with the police, Ge Jing briefly discussed with Chen Jianliang, and with a heavy heart, he issued a temporary notice to the whole school, suspending classes on Monday and Tuesday, and taking two more days off on top of weekends.

For a time, the entire middle of X was in panic. The news that someone died in an "accidental high fall" in the school quickly spread like wildfire, and all kinds of speculations also spread. After endless sadness and shock, until Wednesday X middle resumed normal classes , everyone is still immersed in the sudden bad news, and Class 7, which is the center of this bad news, has collectively fallen into a kind of unprecedented silent pain, even the one who is used to making fun of and bullying on weekdays. Some of the boys in my life also came to the classroom early on this day and sat in their seats very quietly.

Everyone's emotions erupted when the homework was handed in 10 minutes later - Lin An watched the children in the class put the homework of each subject in an orderly manner on the team leader's desk in each row as usual, and then The team leader sorted out the statistics separately and transferred them to the representatives of each class. However, after the assignments of other subjects such as Chinese and English were handed over, the desks of the several team leaders all left a piece of paper from another subject. Stack of workbooks: Mathematics.

The atmosphere suddenly became more gloomy than before. Most of the students lowered their heads silently, but few books in front of them were opened.Standing on the podium, Lin An looked at the four team leaders who were silently sitting in the seats below. After a moment of silence, he said softly, "Today's math homework...just leave it to me first."

Suddenly there was an uncontrollable sob from below, and a voice choked up and asked, "Teacher, is Zhou Tao really not coming?"

Before the words were finished, several students who couldn't help but shed tears lowered their heads and buried them in their arms. After a few seconds, they lowered their heads again.

Lin An stood at the front desk, his tired eyes were bloodshot.

He has suffered from insomnia for nearly three nights.

Zhou Tao's seat became vacant, and he became an unusually conspicuous presence in this overcrowded classroom. Lin An's eyes fell on the place where he was smiling cautiously at him not long ago, and his eyes became sore for a while.

In order to ensure the stability and reputation of the school order, X Middle School did not disclose the real reason for Zhou Tao's death to the students for the time being, so all the students simply thought that their classmate died accidentally because he accidentally fell down the stairs, but Lin An But he knew that Zhou Tao's departure was not an accident, but a self-liberation for the other party who finally chose not to wander in pain after years of wandering on the edge of depression and despair.

He fell into a hopeless unrequited love two years ago, but this emotion did not bring the boy any sweetness and happiness. Instead, it was just endless self-struggle and doubt, and countless real or Conceived cold eyes.

Parents said he was sick, and over time, he became really sick.He was terrified, lonely, and helpless, and he didn't understand why he was different from others, so he became more silent, less spoken, and silent.Even for a long time, he felt ashamed and annoyed by himself, and he tried to correct and change in the past, but it didn't help, so gradually, that shame breeds inferiority complex, and anger tempers cowardice.He no longer dared to touch the crowd, afraid of being seen as strange, and no longer dared to look at people, afraid of revealing the secret in his heart-he liked the same sex.

It wasn't until someone told him that anyone and any emotion is worthy of being cherished, treated kindly, and considered lucky, that a faint light finally shined into his world full of dark clouds.

However, this light was ruthlessly wiped out in the end.

Zhou Tao's parents accidentally looked through his diary, and found that their son's "condition" had not improved, and all the seemingly "normal" behaviors were actually the other party's disguise and deception. In a rage, they began to repeat the same thing. The same endless questioning and unscrupulous reprimands as many years ago, trying to wake up the still stubborn son, so the hands trying to push away the dark clouds, in such words as "monster", "abnormal", " Are you sick?" Under the bombardment of words such as these, he took it back tremblingly, and sank into the darkness completely.

The choice between pain and bliss is often only a matter of thought, just like flying and falling.Zhou Tao chose the latter. Maybe before he fell, he still had hope in his heart. He sneaked out of the house and carried a backpack in his backpack. There was a letter and a book in it. The secret, and in the book, is the warmest story he has written after touching the sun.Neither of these two items specified who they were going to give to, but the police told Lin An that Zhou Tao had appeared at the gate of Cuifangyuan on Huaide Road at 17:10 on the night of the accident. I stood there for a long time, and after nearly half an hour, I turned around and went to Bo'ai Road, and climbed over the wall into X Zhongzhong.

An hour later, Zhou Tao left his secrets and novels in the reality full of thorns, while he went to the other side of the world without hesitation.

Three days later, after a series of procedures such as the autopsy, the police concluded that the incident was suicide due to emotional problems and mental depression, so all the misfortunes seemed to be like this, on a cold death certificate towards the final outcome.

The sad breath will not linger forever, and the school will soon return to normal, with classes, homework, and preparation for the imminent stage exam... The pace is so fast that it is difficult to breathe, and one after another, they are taking turns to occupy people's limited time. energy and attention.

And when the initial shock, sympathy and sorrow passed, the focus of the discussion in the school gradually shifted - there is no impenetrable wall in the world, and the news that Zhou Tao did not make a mistake but committed suicide somehow spread, which undoubtedly aroused the attention of the students. Another upsurge in private discussions. In the absence of complete information, various versions of the "behind the truth" were fabricated. Some speculated that he went to extremes because of too much study pressure and overwhelmed, or because he suffered from After being hit hard emotionally, he jumped down from the teaching building when he couldn't think about it for a while.

All kinds of rumors were rampant. After learning about it, the dean immediately notified the whole school to hold a meeting of the radio group, severely criticized this phenomenon, angrily reprimanded some students for not being able to respect their classmates and the dead, and strictly prohibited any further rumors and discussions inside and outside the school.

Facing the threats of criticism and punishment, the voices related to this matter completely subsided. Although there were still students who were curious, no one dared to continue to ask more questions.

However, what is unexpected is that in X, which was thought to have completely suppressed this "accident" and forced to turn the chapter, after two days of calm, another week of Yu Zhou Tao's death ushered in another one. An even more unprepared storm.

On Tuesday afternoon, at 3:[-], each class of the second year of senior high school was taking the final stage test before class division. Lin An, who was invigilating the exam in class ten, had just distributed the English test papers and answer sheets. Chen Jianliang appeared outside the classroom door with a serious face, knocked He knocked on the door to signal him to go out with him.

After Lin An greeted another invigilator, he walked towards the door.Chen Jianliang looked at him hesitantly, and after a while of silence, he frowned and told him that Zhou Tao's mother came to visit suddenly and was waiting at the door of the office, saying that she wanted to see him.Lin An didn't doubt that he was there, nodded and wanted to follow him, but he didn't expect that before he reached the stairs, he suddenly felt a blur in front of him, and a woman's figure had rushed towards him.

Jiang Yuefang, who was following her, held her tightly, and kept persuading her: "Mother Zhou Tao, calm down, calm down first, we have something to talk about..."

Chen Jianliang also stepped forward quickly, blocked Lin An's way, and said in a low voice: "Mother Zhou Tao, I called Mrs. Lin for you. The children are taking exams now. Let's talk in another place. What do you think?"

Unexpectedly, the other party ignored their proposals at all, and just stared fiercely at Lin An who was standing behind Chen Jianliang, gnashing his teeth and scolding: "What the hell! You recruited a homosexual pervert to harm my son at school. Give me back my child!" As he spoke, he strode forward with all his strength, trying to shake off Jiang Yuefang's grip on her hands, pointed at Lin An's nose and shouted loudly: "Pervert! Give me back my child!!! "

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After thinking about it, let me explain that the time background of this article was 14 years ago, that is, around 2004. At that time, the public opinion environment was still relatively... Of course, it has not improved much now.