i can't like him

There is no kettle at home, Sheng Xinghe ran to the kitchen again, tried several times but couldn’t turn on the fire, called the landlord and asked to reinstall the liquefied petroleum gas, but the noodles have already been disassembled...

The poor living conditions did not allow him to waste food.

"Did you ever eat crispy noodles when you were young?" Sheng Xinghe walked back to the restaurant nonchalantly, "Actually, there are several ways to eat instant noodles, among which dry eating is the best."

He Qinian squinted at him.

"What's that expression on your face?" Sheng Xinghe sprinkled the seasoning packet in and shook it, "Here, try it, I prepared it myself, it will surely ignite your taste buds, and make you eat it so heartily that you can't stop wanting it."

He Qinian: "..."

After a while, the two men started to gnaw on the bread.

A small creamy white candle was lit in the center of the dining table, which was left by the previous tenant. It was as small as a coin, and a faint fragrance of coconut could be smelled faintly.

Sheng Xinghe is not a person who can chat. When He Qinian ate the noodles, he just sat there, sometimes staring at the warm yellow candlelight, and sometimes looking up at the people around him.

He faintly felt a little embarrassment, but this embarrassment didn't make people feel uncomfortable, and he didn't have the idea of ​​hoping that the other party would leave quickly.

When he saw He Qinian trying to pack instant noodles by candlelight, he knew that the embarrassment must have been contagious.

He couldn't help smiling, "Happy birthday."

He Qinian paused for a moment when he gnawed on the noodles, and replied vaguely, "Thank you, let's have fun together."

"Make a wish, and then blow out the candle." Sheng Xinghe said.

He Qinian didn't expect this steel straight man to have such a girlish side, he smiled slightly and closed his eyes with a sense of ritual, but after thinking about it for a while, he didn't know what wish he should make.

He has never had a chance to celebrate his birthday since he was a child, because no one will remember his birthday.

He Zixin didn't remember, and neither did he himself.

What impressed me the most was that in his first year of high school, He Zixin unexpectedly said that he would celebrate his birthday with him. The servants at home prepared a table of meals, but she called to apologize the next night, saying that it was a temporary matter.

He guessed that she probably forgot, but He Zixin didn't admit it, she just said that the crew was too busy and the shooting location was far away, so she couldn't make it back, so she sent a gift back from other places.

It's a box of reference books.

He Qinian doesn't have much feeling about birthdays, but tonight is very different.

"Make a wish for so long?" Sheng Xinghe looked at him with his cheeks propped up, "Don't be too greedy, God won't have time to help you realize it."

"I'm thinking about it." He Qinian said with a smile, "What do you usually wish on your birthday? I'll refer to it."

Sheng Xinghe said honestly: "He is in good health and the game went well."

He Qi Nianxin said that neither of these two things might be realized, which is a fart.

The stars are shining outside the window, and the candles are flickering inside the house.

Sheng Xinghe looked at the opposite person through the dim candlelight.

He suddenly noticed that this guy's eyelashes were quite long, his skin was delicate, and there was a small mole under the end of his left eye.

It is said that what grows in this position is a mole of tears.

Children with tear moles love to cry.

But looking at He Qinian's appearance, he doesn't look like a child who loves to cry, but rather a brat who loves to get into trouble.

The hair should have been dyed for a while, and a little bit of black is coming out from the roots.

A lot of handsome guys are just like that after watching too much, but He Qinian's appearance is actually quite attractive, especially when the corners of his mouth are slightly raised, full of youthful flavor.

He couldn't help but think of the scene of He Qinian running and exercising on the playground, fresh and sunny, full of vigor, smiling with a strong affinity, he is simply a bewitching evildoer.

Before he could think about it carefully, He Qinian suddenly opened his eyes, and he hurriedly looked away.

"What wish did you make?" Sheng Xinghe said casually.

"Great luck and great fortune." He Qinian blew out the candle after saying that.

The shabby venue, the shabby noodles, the leaked candles, the bitter birthday... But He Qinian is still very happy.

It was my first birthday, and the person sitting across from me was an eye-catching coach.

Within seconds, a new message popped up on his WeChat.

It was a red envelope from Sheng Xinghe.

【Happy birthday to my junior brother! 】

He Qinian opened a red envelope with great anticipation.

8.88 yuan.

The smile suddenly solidified.

"It's not like I said, look at the entire national team, no, you can't find a coach who is more stingy than you in the entire high jump circle, right? 8 yuan? Are you sending beggars away?"

Sheng Xinghe was confident: "Correct me, it's 8 yuan 88."

He Qinian raised his voice: "Are you embarrassed to say it? I'll help you for two hours!"

Sheng Xinghe reached out to snatch his phone, "Forget it, send it back to me."

"..."

Fly meat is also meat.

After He Qinian received the red envelope, he changed the note to "stingy".

On summer nights, the cicadas chirped, they seemed tireless, and occasionally a few clear frogs came from outside the window. Sheng Xinghe suddenly realized that he hadn't listened to the sounds of nature for a long time.

When I was a child, I thought this sound was noisy, but now I feel very comfortable.

The two chatted for a while, but the topic went back to the high jump.

"At what age did you start practicing high jump?" He Qinian asked.

"12 years old." Sheng Xinghe said.

He Qinian calculated it and was surprised, "It's so early, then you have practiced for more than ten years."

Sheng Xinghe nodded, "15 years."

Persisting for an unpredictable thing for 15 years, just listening to it is shocking enough.

"Then why were you suspended later?" He Qinian asked.

Sheng Xinghe's pupils shrank slightly.

Since the urine test report came out, almost everyone has pointed the finger at him and his coach, with reports of malicious interpretation and condemnation overwhelming.

People are more willing to believe what they believe to be the truth.

Few people will stare into his eyes and ask, why on earth was he suspended?

When He Qinian asked this question, he paid careful attention to Sheng Xinghe's expression. Fortunately, the other party's expression did not become heavy because of this, and he knew that he had not stepped on the other party's minefield.

So he tried again: "It's nothing to do with Coach Bian, right?"

Sheng Xinghe felt a little surprised, "Mmm", "Why do you think it has nothing to do with him?"

"Intuition, and I know that people who really love the sport don't touch those things. If you touch it, you've already lost."

indeed.

If you really love it, you are willing to destroy it, but it is such a simple truth that most people will not understand.

It has been a year since this incident, Sheng Xinghe has been working hard to suppress those negative emotions.

Don't think, don't look, don't listen.

He felt that he had done a good job, at least he could face Qin Pei's doubts calmly, he could utter harsh words arrogantly, and he could cross the bar calmly. Feel wrapped up.

"Someone put something in my water." His voice was very soft, as if he was trying to restrain some emotion.

He Qinian frowned.

Sheng Xinghe's journey after entering the national team was not smooth. As early as three years ago, because of an Achilles tendon injury, he had to stop for treatment. During this period, Bian Hanlin paid for many expenses, and the relationship was like a relative.

Due to the double pressure of injuries and economics, Sheng Xinghe suffered from anxiety, and the coach has been encouraging and taking care of him.

Fortunately, his leg injury recovered well, and he continued to refresh his personal best after returning to the field. He also won the indoor high jump finals championship last year.

His physical condition is in the golden period of his sports career, and his future is bright.

Sheng Xinghe's ultimate goal is to hit the World Championships, but at the Track and Field Championships in August, his urine test report was positive.

This means that if the food or medicine he takes contains illegal drug ingredients, his competition results will be canceled on the spot and he will not be able to enter the finals.

Before the truth of the incident came to light, the media rushed to criticize and gossip reports were flying all over the sky, which greatly affected Sheng Xinghe's image and spirit.

In fact, doping scandals are emerging endlessly in both the track and field world and the entire sports world. Athletes from many countries have been involved in doping scandals for various reasons.

Some are active and some are passive.

There are many reasons for being passive, such as being framed, or taking some kind of medicine containing prohibited drugs by mistake, or accidentally eating meat containing hormones, but none of the above is enough for the Athletic Association to issue an amnesty order, because whoever Neither could prove his innocence.

Not long after the anti-doping organization's results came out, the team imposed a four-year suspension on Sheng Xinghe.

The career of an athlete is very short. The explosive period of a high jumper is only a few years. At the age of 26, he was banned for four years, which means that he completely cut off his back road, which is no different from a lifetime ban.

Seeing that his apprentice was driven to a desperate situation, Bian Hanlin felt aggrieved, and asked his superiors again and again to reason and apply for another inspection.

Urine test samples are generally stored in AB bottles, but the test result of B bottle is still positive.

"The evidence is conclusive", this pot is firmly held.

Sheng Xinghe had never taken any medicine in the first six months of the competition, and he was always cautious when eating. He never dared to touch pork, ham sausage and the like. The only thing that was suspicious was the drink in the locker room. Bottle of mineral water.

When Sheng Xinghe drinks mineral water, he has a habit of tearing off the outer packaging so that he can quickly distinguish the water bottle he has drunk when he is with his teammates.

After changing his clothes that day, he picked up the water bottle on the stool and felt that the water level was a little higher, but there was that bottle of water in the entire locker room. At that time, his mind was full of the game, and he subconsciously thought that he had made a mistake. , didn't think too much at all, and only remembered something was wrong after the accident.

There is no surveillance in the locker room, and there are so many people passing by in the aisle, it is impossible to check.

Everyone is suspicious, but everyone looks innocent.

In desperation, Bian Hanlin confessed his "crime" to the team behind Sheng Zhaolin's back, saying that he had added something to his nutrition for the purpose of getting him a bonus.

Of course, Sheng Xinghe didn't want the coach to lose his job because of this incident. It was the first time he had quarreled with Bian Hanlin, but in the end he was stopped by the coach after giving him a lesson.

"Your two reports were positive! Do you think others will believe what you say now? Ten thousand explanations are not as convincing as a gold medal. Only strength can prove your innocence. Only by jumping over that height can you be You can openly announce to everyone that you don't even bother to take those things!"

"When you win the final victory, the stains of the past will become worthless, but if you give up now, you will be like this for the rest of your life!"

Sheng Xinghe was speechless.

For him, the high jump is a belief engraved in his bones, which is as important as life.

Of course he was not willing to give up.

The final result of this matter was that Bian Hanlin seriously violated the professional code, was expelled from the coaching team and was banned from leading the team for life.

Sheng Xinghe's suspension period was reduced to 18 months, and he was also prohibited from participating in any national team training.

He Qinian was in a state of astonishment the whole time, and it took him a while to come back to his senses: "Since the side coaches are all blamed, why are you still being punished?"

Sheng Xinghe smiled helplessly: "Student A lost his wallet in class, and the teacher found it in classmate B's desk, and he said, 'I don't know, I really don't know anything', do you think there will be people in the class? How many people are willing to believe that he is innocent?"

There are rules of the game, and there are countless pairs of eyes staring at it.

Many things cannot be explained in one sentence.

The ultimate significance of punishment is to ensure the fairness of the competition system, and at the same time warn other athletes not to be opportunistic.

Compared with the truth behind this incident, what makes He Qinian even more incredible is Bian Hanlin's sacrifice.

How many people in this world are willing to sacrifice their reputation and future to pave the way for another?

Obviously, Sheng Xinghe was lucky to meet Bian Hanlin, but what this sacrifice will eventually bring back is unpredictable.

Who can guarantee that they can withstand the pressure from all directions and surpass their past achievements time and time again?

Thinking of this, he felt breathless for Sheng Xinghe, he must have been living in torment for the past 18 months.

It was already eleven o'clock when He Qinian got home.

He subconsciously glanced out the window as he sat on the edge of the bed.

This was the first time he paid attention to the building opposite, and there were five households with lights on.

The apartment buildings are all designed in the same way, with the mailbox on the bottom floor and the lights on from the second floor.

Sheng Xinghe lives on the third floor, and the master bedroom is on the south side, which happens to be within his field of vision. The windows are not closed, and the arrangement of furniture in the room can be seen clearly.

The light was in a warm tone, and the man in front of the desk was looking down at something, turning his pen from time to time.

The pen fell off, he bent down to pick it up, and continued to spin.

He Qi Nianxiao sent a WeChat message.

[N: Are you asleep? 】

[Stingy man: I'm asleep. 】

[N: Reply to my message after falling asleep? 】

[Stingy man: If you fart, let it go. 】

Whoa!This attitude!

He Qinian raised his hand to take a photo and sent it over. Sheng Xinghe looked down and immediately turned to look out the window.

The street lights are also warm yellow, which makes the whole summer night look calm and gentle.

The two smiled at each other across the wide aisle.

[Stingy: You peeped at me. 】

[N: Mingpi, what are you looking at? 】

Sheng Xinghe lifted the book high and pasted it on the window, He Qinian leaned out but couldn't see the name on the book clearly.

[N: What is it? 】

[Stingy: Educational Blue Book, it says how to deal with you bunch of disobedient bad kids. 】

[N: When did I become disobedient? 】

[Stingy: Obedient?Then go to bed now. 】

He Qinian pursed his lips, lay down on the bed, raised his foot and closed the curtains.

[Stingy: Good night, see you tomorrow. 】

Followed by a big red envelope of 200 yuan.

[Stingy: I forgot to mention, the cleaning is quite clean, five-star praise, I will look for you next time. 】

He Qinian kicked his feet and closed his eyes contentedly.