i can't like him

After drinking, He Qinian's voice was low and hoarse, as if he turned on the subwoofer specially to seduce people.Sheng Xinghe felt that the chest area had started to heat up, and the heat would soon spread. In order to prevent something that should not happen, he had to go out.

As a result, he was hugged from behind and pulled into his arms.

Sheng Xinghe uttered obscenities in fright, "What the hell are you doing?"

"Let me give you a hug."

Sheng Xinghe tried to break the palm around his waist, but it was all in vain. A drunk man has great strength, and a drunk athlete's strength is even more astonishing.

"Let me go." Because of this strong hug, the blush spread directly from Sheng Xinghe's cheeks to the back of his ears, and even his neck was red.

He had never been hugged like this before, and he was still a man.

"I won't let go." He Qinian's arms tightened even more, he knew that Sheng Xinghe would run away if he let go.

He drank so much tonight to be an invulnerable thick-skinned man at a time like this.

"You drank too much," Sheng Xinghe sighed, "Quickly let go, my intestines are about to come out!"

He Qinian dragged him around half a circle, leaning his back against the wall: "I have something to tell you."

Sheng Xinghe tilted his head, and He Qinian kept pressing against his ear when he spoke, and the heat got into his ear, making his legs weak.

The faint smell of perfume on weekdays has been completely covered by the smell of alcohol, and the whole scene is slightly absurd.

"You drank too much, let's talk about it next time." These words came from the bottom of his heart, he really didn't think He Qinian could express anything clearly or understand something after drinking like this, maybe he would forget it all in one night.

"I didn't drink too much..." He Qinian was breathing heavily, because Sheng Xinghe was also very strong, and he needed a lot of effort to restrain him.

"I'm very sober now. I know what I'm doing and what I'm talking about. At least listen to me, okay?"

Almost begging tone.

Although Sheng Xinghe didn't look back, he could still imagine He Qinian's puppy eyes.

He sighed lightly and didn't speak.

"Don't you really feel it at all?" He Qinian's voice was very soft and slightly hoarse. If Sheng Xinghe could turn his head and take a look, he would see that his eyes were very red and his pupils reflected the light of the chandelier.

"I like you, not the kind of admiration among friends, nor the kind of admiration that students have for coaches, but the kind of liking that wants to fall in love with you."

He Qinian's heart was beating at an unbelievable speed, and every time he uttered a word, he needed all the strength and courage of his whole body.

"After meeting you, I understand what love at first sight is."

Sheng Xinghe blushed, and simply gave up struggling, allowing him to hold him like this.

When He Qinian spoke, he kept sticking to his ear, and even the air nearby became hot and humid.

Just as he was about to speak, a big hand suddenly wrapped around his right arm and covered his mouth.

"Don't reject me," He Qinian said after thinking for a while, "Didn't you say that you can eat people with a soft mouth? Don't reject me in such a hurry. I know that as a straight steel man, it is difficult for you to accept dating a man. But I told you this after serious consideration..."

When He Qinian said the words "steel straight man", Sheng Xinghe almost laughed out loud, but he still tried his best to hold back.

He lowered his head and looked at the hand around his waist.

He Qinian wore an off-white cashmere sweater today, and when he pulled it, the cuffs of the shirt inside were exposed, and obvious veins appeared on the back of his hands.

I don't know if it's because of nervousness or too much force, but the thin fingers are still trembling slightly.

"I will strive to become rational and mature, take care of you in life, and understand every little look in your eyes."

The action is so strong, the tone of voice is indeed soft.

Sheng Xinghe felt that this sounded a little familiar, and he was stunned for two seconds before he remembered that it was the criteria for choosing a mate that he had said casually, but He Qinian actually remembered it clearly.

There are mixed feelings in my heart, and I am full of emotions.

Because of nervousness, He Qinian's thinking consciousness was a little confused, he lowered his eyes, his chin still resting on Sheng Xinghe's shoulder.

"What I said is not a joke. I will cherish and protect you. Are you willing to believe me?"

Every word He Qinian uttered was sincere, but at the same time very nasty.

The blush on Sheng Xinghe's face never disappeared.

After asking the question, He Qinian was unwilling to let go of his hand, because he was afraid of hearing the words of refusal.

20 years old is a very hazy age, already able to plan for the future with an independent mind, but there is no capital to talk about romance.

There are dreams in the future, empty hands, and everything is still on the way, so he only dared to ask weakly if he wants to, but there is no doubt that the answer he hopes to hear is yes.

The two were in a stalemate like this, and every second was infinitely magnified and elongated.

Sheng Xinghe tugged at his arm, but He Qinian still covered his mouth as if he hadn't received the signal.

Sheng Xinghe simply stuck out the tip of his tongue and licked his palm.

A whiff of lemon.

He Qinian didn't realize it at first, but when he realized where the soft touch came from, he loosened his arms as if struck by lightning, and looked down at his palm.

The place that had been licked still glistened faintly under the light.

Sheng Xinghe turned around, and the two stared at each other, their eyes widening.

He Qinian's ears were buzzing, his brain was deprived of oxygen for several seconds, as if an electric current passed through his blood vessels, his tight muscles were trembling crazily, "Why are you licking me?"

"I told you not to let go," Sheng Xinghe curled his lips, showing disgust, "It smells weird."

Compared to little boys, Sheng Xinghe, who has a lot of experience, can easily calm down.

Even though his ears were still red, his speech was calm and calm, and his eyes were even more calm, as if to say: All the fanfare, just for this shit?

He Qinian's drooping arms unconsciously clenched into fists, and his voice was soft: "Then, what do you think?"

"Actually, I can feel your thoughts for me, and I have always felt it."

He Qinian raised his eyes to look at him, his little heart was pounding, it was much more exciting than checking scores in the college entrance examination.

He tried to find out something from Sheng Xinghe's eyes.

Sheng Xinghe met his gaze and said seriously: "I am also willing to believe what you said."

He Qinian's eyes lit up, "Really?"

"Well, but I think..."

Hearing the word "but", the burning eyes dimmed instantly, as if someone had installed a switch on He Qinian.

"Anyway, you still want to reject me, right?"

This is the first time he has interrupted Sheng Xinghe very rudely, his heart is close to collapse, and his tone has become very tough: "I don't want to hear you say 'but', with 'but', those before are all to comfort me Bullshit. I don't need comfort, and I don't need you to be pitiful! What I need is you to accept me! Otherwise, stop talking, and I don't like to hear it anyway!"

Sheng Xinghe's brows moved slightly, "He Qinian, aren't your thoughts a little selfish? Just because you like it, I have to accept it, right?"

At this time, He Qinian's attention had a clear direction, and only the word "selfish" could be heard in his ears.

Ears buzzing.

He is selfish, liking someone is a selfish thing, but when this word came out of Sheng Xinghe's mouth, it was so harsh and uncomfortable.

The strength in his whole body was sucked out in an instant, and his fingers were powerlessly inserted into the roots of his hair.

He Qinian's emotions broke down a little, and he sighed: "Can you stop talking, I really don't want to hear it."

Sheng Xinghe was dumbfounded, and what made him even more at a loss was He Qinian's next reaction.

Like a kindergartner who has been bullied, he sits on the ground with his head hanging down and his right hand covering his eyes.At first, I just rubbed it twice and sniffed, and soon the two big hands covered the whole face.

Sheng Xinghe heard very faint sobs.

……

Cried.

Amazing.

This, is this considered to be made to cry by him?

Sheng Xinghe has never bullied anyone since he was a child, not even a little girl, let alone a 20-year-old boy.

This is beyond his ability.

He froze in place for a long time before he thought of going over to touch his head.

He Qinian grabbed his wrist and pushed it away.

Alcohol magnified one's emotions countless times. The confession just now mobilized all his strength and enthusiasm, and the rest was all embarrassment, bewilderment and disappointment.

"Leave me alone, you can leave if you want." The cold tone was full of helplessness.

"Do you really think so in your heart?" Sheng Xinghe asked.

He Qinian raised his head.

Sheng Xinghe met a pair of listless eyes and the little mole of tears, but there were no tears on He Qinian's face, but the fundus of his eyes were red, and the eyelashes wet with tears revealed his state just now.

"Cry bag."

Sheng Xinghe didn't leave or stay, so he just sat down on the ground, "You make me feel like I'm bullying you."

He Qinian remained silent.

The quiet atmosphere made it easy for people to think calmly, and he began to reflect on his attitude of speaking just now.

"I'm sorry... I shouldn't have yelled at you like that." He Qinian bent his knees and wrapped his arms around his calves.

The height ratio of high jumpers is strictly measured and screened. He Qinian's limbs are slender and his knees can go over his shoulders, but at this time they are huddled together, looking weak and helpless, pitiful, like a wilted bird Chinese cabbage.

Sheng Xinghe even wanted to take a picture of him and make an emoji.

"I'm just a little uncomfortable." After He Qinian finished speaking, he buried his head in his arms again and began to sob softly.

Sheng Xinghe: "..."

The mood of the young man is really like the weather on the coast. One second the sun is shining brightly, and the next second it is stormy.

He Qinian felt very wronged, but his body was still stubborn, crying secretly was his minimum dignity as a man.

But this dignity was quickly torn apart mercilessly.

"Why are you crying again?"

"..." He Qinian's throat choked, and he became even more desperate.

Sheng Xinghe was helpless, he went over and pinched the tip of his ear, "I haven't said anything yet, what are you always thinking about?"

He Qinian rubbed his eyes, tears blurred his vision, he blinked a few times before he could barely see the outline of the person opposite: "What do you mean?"

"Can I say no now?" Sheng Xinghe asked back.

He Qinian swallowed, "My ears are a little sensitive to this word now, you'd better skip it and say something I like to hear, otherwise I might have a heart attack. Our family has a history of this genetic disease."

God damn genetic medical history.

The bastard has also learned to threaten people.

Sheng Xinghe squatted in front of him, pinched his chin with one hand, and raised it slightly, "Your most important training game and study at this stage, you can hardly keep up with your studies, and you still want to fall in love with me? "

Of course I have thoughts.

He lacks everything and the desire to fall in love.

He Qinian pursed his mouth: "Are you trying to comfort me? Because I'm too embarrassed to refuse, why don't you just find a bad reason?"

Sheng Xinghe was a little helpless: "What kind of understanding do you have? If I want to reject you, I still need to find a reason?"

He Qinian was startled, came back to his senses, and read the most important information from Sheng Xinghe's words.

"You mean you'll accept me as long as I can take care of the mess?"

Sheng Xinghe was shocked, and shouted: "What is a mess? That's what you should pay attention to most right now! How did you promise your mother back then, have you forgotten now?"

of course I remember.

Professional courses cannot be mixed. If you cannot enter the national team within a year, you will go abroad for further studies.

After all, it has been half a year.

But these things can't be rushed, but falling in love can start at any time.

Seeing that he was silent, Sheng Xinghe activated the coaching mode that he hadn't used for a long time.

Be persuasive.

The main traditional point of view that I want to express is that a man should start a career before starting a family, and put aside the matter of falling in love first.

In Sheng Xinghe's view, high jump should be prioritized over love, which is also the message instilled in him by many coaches, teachers, and seniors.

Talking about love will affect emotions more or less, and high jump is an event that always tests concentration and skills, and no one can be distracted.

What's more, their situation is quite special. Once they are found out, the consequences will be unimaginable. If they are talked about by others, it's fine.

But the corners of He Qinian's mouth kept curling up, giving him a subtle, ominous premonition.

"Did I hear what I was talking to you?" Sheng Xinghe glared at him.

"I know you like me," He Qinian said affectionately with watery eyes, "I knew it!"

"..." The whole thing just fell on deaf ears.

Sheng Xinghe frowned: "He Qinian! Can you take my words seriously?"

He Qinian also frowned: "But didn't you tell me before that college time is very short, if you have someone you like, you should hurry up and fight for it, and it's even more difficult to find someone after you're out of school."

Sheng Xinghe was sweating profusely, is this person the reincarnation of Memory Bread?How can such an ancient thing be remembered clearly.

At this moment, he could only pretend to be stupid, "Did I say that? It's impossible."

"You said it! How can you renege on your debts?" He Qinian bluffed to restore the whole story of the incident, "Last year in the school training hall, Da Qi said that I had a crush on a girl, and you encouraged me to chase her. That person I was talking about at that time was you."

Gaining enough confidence, his voice became louder and louder, making Sheng Xinghe dizzy.

After shouting, the two stared again.

Sheng Xinghe threw down his face, "I don't remember."

He Qinian's chest rose and fell with anger.

"Even if there was, it was for you to chase girls, but you didn't say to chase me." Sheng Xinghe said.

"Is there any difference between chasing girls and chasing you? Isn't it all about falling in love." He Qinian said.

"..." It sounds like there is no difference, but the nature is different, "Do you know that boys are not allowed to fall in love with boys in the team?"

He Qinian found a breakthrough, and was a little emotional: "Then secretly, don't be found out, it's fine. After we both retire, we will have a make-up wedding. I know that homosexuality is legal in many countries..."

Before he finished speaking, Sheng Xinghe slapped him on the forehead, "What the hell are you thinking about all day long!"

"Oh," He Qinian rubbed his head, "This is all my dream."

Sheng Xinghe was almost amused by him, "Do you think everything is as simple as you imagined?"

"Maybe it's not easy," He Qinian stared into his eyes, "but as long as you are still willing to stay by my side, all problems can definitely be solved."

This time, when he spoke, he was completely gone from the aggressive posture he had at the beginning, and he was not full of childish complaints. Instead, he made a decision after calm thinking like an adult.

Cautious yet somewhat stubborn.

Sheng Xinghe looked into his eyes, his heart soured.

It is difficult to find a like-minded friend in this world, let alone such a person who holds him on top of his heart.

Taking advantage of his dazed time, He Qinian held his fingertips and pulled them to his lips, kissed him quickly, and then actively compromised: "I promise to take care of everything, as long as you promise to associate with me."

Sheng Xinghe withdrew his right hand: "You really have put your priorities in reverse!"

He Qinian reached out to hold it again, and gently pinched his fingertips, "Because you are always the most important thing to me."

Sheng Xinghe's chest felt hot.

Who can withstand this fierce offensive?

At least he couldn't resist.

Although reason has always reminded him not to be easily shaken, but the fluctuations in his heart cannot be hidden.

Before he could respond, the skin on the back of his hand was kissed gently again.

He Qinian rubbed his joints with one hand, "Loving you is the most certain thing in my life, I have already thought about what we will look like after we retire."

Sheng Xinghe gritted his teeth: "It's really nasty."

He Qinian: "I'm confessing, it's rare for me to feel nauseous."

Sheng Xinghe didn't know how to respond, so he had to change the subject, "What will it be like after retiring?"

"At that time we should have a dog, a cat, or more, they all love to lie on the balcony to bask in the sun, and they will be lazy in winter. When we get home every day, there will be a bunch of puppies swarming over, hugging Thighs meowing. We huddled in the kitchen making dinner, I made our meals, you made theirs..."

Following He Qinian's description, some warm images emerged in Sheng Xinghe's mind.

"After eating, I will take them out for a walk, and then go home and watch a movie on the bed. We will always have endless topics to talk about and the next goal to accomplish."

Sheng Xinghe's lips moved: "You like small animals very much."

"That's right, don't you like it?" He Qinian asked.

"I like it too, but I just haven't had time to raise it."

"Then it's no problem, I will definitely take care of you!" He Qinian raised his brows and looked particularly energetic.

It's not trying to do it, not trying hard, it's a certainty.

This is something Sheng Xinghe is very familiar with, He Qi is confident in his style, just like he is on the field.

Suddenly there is a feeling of being protected.

He Qinian scratched his palm: "If you don't accept me again, I'm afraid I'm going to commit crimes."

Sheng Xinghe frowned, "What the hell?"

He Qinian quickly raised his hand to hook his collar and pulled it forward forcefully.

Sheng Xinghe was originally in a squatting state, but his center of gravity was unstable and he fell forward, and his hands reflexively supported the ground.

Everything happened in a blink of an eye——

The lips touched a small soft area.

Breathing still.

As soon as Sheng Xinghe opened his eyes, before he had time to retreat, someone grabbed the back of his head forcefully, and then, the wet, hot tip of his tongue pressed in eagerly.

The back was hugged tightly, and the chest was pressed against each other.

Sheng Xinghe was dumbfounded by the kiss, at first he didn't intend to let go, until his lower lip was bitten viciously, and he had no choice but to give his pass.

He Qinian's breathing was very hot and fast, and there was even a not-so-strong smell of alcohol squeezed in, which was all for excitement at the moment.

From his feeling, he knew that He Qinian must be kissing someone for the first time, and he basically had no rules or skills to speak of.

Sheng Xinghe put his hand on the back of his neck and stroked it gently. He Qinian's breathing paused for a short while, and his attack became more ferocious.

With lips and teeth entangled, everything is not that important anymore.

Sheng Xinghe felt that he couldn't be wronged, so he gnawed and bit at the same time, secretly swearing - whoever spits out first is a puppy.