i can't like him

The temple is surrounded by green smoke, and the bell outside the temple is melodious.

He Qinian bought a few sweet potatoes fatter than his fist from a cart on the side of the road. Zhang Daqi took a bite out of one, grinning his teeth from the heat, but he was still full of praise.

"Super sweet."

He Qinian broke open the sweet potato, picked the most attractive angle, took a short video and sent it to Sheng Xinghe.

[N: Do you want to eat? 】

[Sheng Xinghe: I want to!I haven't had it for a year. 】

[N: Then open your mouth. 】

[Sheng Xinghe: Ah——]

He Qinian took a photo of the sweet potato he bit into and sent it.

[N: Is it sweet? 】

[Sheng Xinghe: Very sweet but a little hot. 】

[N: Hahaha, let me show you off. 】

He Qinian stared at the screen silly while eating.

Zhang Daqi looked at him with a complicated face, and boldly guessed: "Are you in a relationship?"

He Qinian's nerves jumped and he didn't answer.

Zhang Daqi immediately yelled: "You are in love! You must be in love! Who is it with? The one from last time?"

He Qinian showed off calmly: "I'm chatting with the coach."

"Hmm." Zhang Daqi didn't believe it at all.

The two returned along the original road, passed a handicraft shop, and Zhang Daqi turned in with a sweet potato in his hand.

"Boss, has my dad's bracelet been repaired?"

He Qinian followed in.

The store is small in size, and you can see the whole picture when you enter the door. A layer of dark flannelette is nailed to the walls on both sides, and there are all kinds of bracelets and necklaces hanging on it. With some handicrafts.

Inside is a small desk. The boss is a middle-aged man. There is a set of tea sets and some books on the desk.

"It's fixed, I'm still thinking, if you don't come again, I will send it to you." The boss took out a bunch of unicorn-eyed bodhisattvas from the drawer.

He Qinian did not study antiques and bracelets, but was attracted by a pair of bracelets on the wall.

Two small translucent beads were hung on the black string. Upon closer inspection, I found that they were not ordinary glass beads. I don’t know what kind of material they were made of. Inside, the stars are dotted and shining.

There are labels on the bracelets, one is called Deep Sea and the other is called Xinghe.

"Boss, what kind of beads are these?" He Qinian asked.

The boss stretched his neck, "It was made with glue."

"Epoxy?"

Zhang Daqi couldn't believe that such a muscular and tough guy like his brother Nian would be interested in this kind of trinkets and bought them.

"For girlfriend?" Zhang Daqi asked.

He Qinian put the rope in his pocket, "We haven't dated yet."

"Haven't dated yet?" Zhang Daqi teased with a smile, "Then you can't do it either. It's been so long and you haven't fallen in love yet. I thought it would be easy to chase someone who looks like you."

He Qi snorted young, "I call it steady and steady."

Zhang Daqi revealed it mercilessly: "Is it because she hasn't taken a fancy to you yet? Does she know you like her?"

He Qinian thought for a while, then shook his head, "I probably don't know, I haven't confessed."

"Then you're definitely out of luck." Zhang Daqi said.

He Qinian frowned, "Why?"

Singles like Zhang Daqi always have a deep understanding of love.

"Loving someone is like sneezing. You can't hide it. Even if you don't say it, it will show in your eyes. She just doesn't want to fall in love with you, so she keeps pretending not to know."

A word to wake up the dreamer.

He Qinian lowered his eyes in frustration.

Is that the case?

Sheng Xinghe knew that he liked boys, and he had hinted many times, did he really not know or did he not want to start at all, so he deliberately pretended to be stupid?

But if you really don't like it, there's no need to cooperate with him like this.

"Da Qi, let me ask you a question."

"Ah."

"If a boy likes you, what will you think? That kind of relationship is very good."

Zhang Daqi stared at him in horror, put his hands on his chest and took a step back, "You don't really have a crush on me, do you?"

"Fuck." He Qinian didn't hold back, and almost burst out laughing.

"What experience made you have such a wonderful idea, little brother?" Zhang Daqi patted him on the shoulder.

"You answer my question first." He Qinian said.

"Depends on the situation, I might say..." Zhang Daqi still suspected that He Qinian was interested in him, so he secretly glanced at him.

He Qinian rolled his eyes, "What do you think I'm doing, I really don't want to confess my love to you, even if I die, I won't like you okay?"

"Hey, that's unnecessary, am I that bad?"

"Anyway, you can rest assured that I'm not interested in you."

Zhang Daqi's limited IQ and EQ were all gathered at this moment, combined with He Qinian's various strange performances at this stage, his little brain dug out a little unique information.

"Then could it be that you are interested in some man and are you going to confess?"

Suddenly being poked at the center, He Qinian's heart skipped a beat, and he raised his voice guiltily, "Who said I'm going to confess! Could it be someone else confessing to me!"

Zhang Daqi squinted his eyes to look at him, the boy's face was getting redder and redder under the sunlight.

"I don't know. I have never been liked by boys. Everyone's experience and ideas are different. The answers I get here have no reference value."

He originally wanted to add that you should ask the person you like, but in the end he didn't say anything.

He felt that someone as smart as He Qinian would definitely understand.

After walking for a while, the blush on He Qinian's face gradually faded.

He really understood the meaning of what Zhang Daqi said, and he also knew that his sexuality had been exposed.

He felt a little embarrassed, but Zhang Daqi suddenly hooked his shoulder, "Are you going to my house for dinner tonight? Tonight, my house has beef hot pot. The bottom of the pot sent by relatives from other places is spicy. You must like it."

He Qinian's heart warmed up, and the corners of his mouth curled up, "Okay."

...

On the eve of the Lantern Festival, Sheng Xinghe finally started the first indoor competition of the first season, which took place in Italy.

There was no live broadcast of this event in China, so He Qinian paid special attention to some sports news media in order to obtain the latest information.

On the third day of the competition day, some media finally released a video of the men's high jump competition.

He Qinian was eating dinner at Zhang Daqi's house, when he accidentally saw this post, he put down the noodles in his hand.

In He Qinian's eyes, Sheng Xinghe's take-off was quite beautiful. Unfortunately, at the height of 2 meters, the bar still landed three times. He only finished fourth with a score of 31 meters.

The champion is a Canadian with a score of 2 meters.

There is a full six centimeters difference.

"It's a pity, you can win a medal by jumping over it. I remember he jumped 2 meters in school. Why can't he jump after training for so long." Zhang Daqi said.

He Qinian snapped his fingers and said, "The venue environment, wind speed, physical condition, and psychological state will all affect the final score. It's impossible for you to get the same score every time you take the exam."

"That's true."

The athletes left the field, and the domestic reporters interviewed the Chinese player Qin Hexuan who won the runner-up.

"How do you feel about your performance in this competition?"

Qin Hexuan is a veteran of the track and field team. He has participated in many international competitions. He Qinian remembers that his personal best score is 2 meters. This time he performed very steadily and remained at this height.

"I performed well. I brought my best state from my usual training to the arena, and I will still try to find a bigger breakthrough." Qin Hexuan smiled, and his state looked very relaxed.

When Sheng Xinghe walked by, the reporter walked up quickly and conducted the same round of interviews.

He Qinian could tell that he was not in a good mood, he walked with his head down, probably because he was under too much pressure.

The reporter added a few more questions at the end.

"After a year and a half of precipitation, do you feel any changes in your mentality or physical fitness?"

Sheng Xinghe: "Physically, I'm fine, but mentally, I'm a little nervous. I haven't played for a long time, so I'm a little nervous."

Reporter: "I heard that you didn't participate in training for the whole year last year. Is it because you have a busy life?"

I don't know if this reporter deliberately picked stabs and stabbed people in the heart.

When He Qinian slapped the table, the chopsticks and spoons all bounced off, "What the hell are you asking?"

Zhang Daqi pressed his arm: "Calm down your anger."

Sheng Xinghe frowned slightly, but his tone was quite peaceful.

"I had an operation on my left leg last year, and I gradually recovered at the end of last year. I really didn't have too much training in the middle, and I will adjust my state as soon as possible after that."

Reporter: "After that, are you planning to return to China to participate in the indoor track and field championships?"

"Correct."

After the game, Sheng Xinghe flew to the country with the team. He thought he could rest for a few days, but he received a call from his aunt, saying that his grandfather had suddenly passed out and was sent to the hospital.

Before he had time to return to the dormitory, he immediately booked the high-speed train back to his hometown, and the agreement with He Qinian had to be postponed.

"I'm really really really sorry." Sheng Xinghe kept apologizing on the phone, "I'm still on the high-speed train back to my hometown."

"It's okay, you didn't do it on purpose, this is force majeure." He Qinian said, "Let's talk about it later when you have time, I hope your grandpa will be fine."

"Well, I hope." Sheng Xinghe didn't want to hang up the phone, and asked again, "Did you go out to play during the Chinese New Year this year?"

"He and Daqi went to the mountain to burn incense," He Qinian said, "I bought a nice gift for you."

"Bought from the temple? Buddhist beads? Could it be a jade pendant or something?"

"It's down the mountain!"

"What good things, can you send me a courier?"

"No! This thing only makes sense if you give it yourself!"

"what?"

"Don't tell you."

"Then don't tell me so quickly, to whet your appetite." When Sheng Xinghe said this, the corners of his mouth curled up.

He Qinian chuckled, "I want you to look forward to hanging out with me."

Laughter poured into his ears, and Sheng Xinghe's originally worried mood improved a lot.

When he feels lonely, He Qinian's care and encouragement can cheer him up.

Grandpa had a stroke and passed out. Fortunately, he was sent to the doctor immediately when he found out. He was fine, but he was still a little confused after waking up, and his mind was not very bright.

When Sheng Xinghe was still helping to take care of his grandfather in his hometown, He Qinian received a notice from the provincial team, saying that he was to participate in the National Indoor Track and Field Championships in March.

"Didn't you say before that there are no recommended places?"

Coach Kong said: "Wang Yi fell and broke his right leg when he went out during the Chinese New Year. It hurt for [-] days. He couldn't participate in this competition. You can make up for it."

He Qinian was stunned, he remembered that Sheng Xinghe would also participate in this competition.

Seeing that he didn't respond, Coach Kong thought it was because he lacked confidence, "What's wrong with you? You're not happy about the game? I'm not happy that I made a substitution."

"No, no, no!" He Qinian was so excited that he hugged Coach Kong on the spot and picked him up, "Thank you so much!"

Coach Kong is not tall, and his whole body is completely empty. He almost rolled his eyes when he strangled him, "Put me down!"

This year's National Indoor Athletics Championships is divided into four divisions, and each event in each division will determine 8 to 12 athletes to participate in a final.

The finals will be held in H City.

He Qinian knew that this kind of sub-division competition was easy for Sheng Xinghe, so he stepped up his training for a whole month.

In the silent late night, he stayed in the gymnasium alone for additional training. The sound of equipment landing and panting intertwined and echoed in the empty field.

At first, Coach Kong thought that he would not be able to last for a few days, so he didn't take it seriously. After more than a week, he began to worry about whether the child would die from overwork, so he stood by and yawned to accompany the practice, and by the way felt the ruthlessness of the years .

In the past, he could stay up all night and feel full of energy the next day, but now he would feel groggy if he didn't sleep for an hour.

It's better to be young.

In winter in the south, people's teeth chatter from the cold, but He Qinian is still sweating profusely.

One pair of sneakers broke down, and the jumping posture became more standard every time.

Talented people are not terrible, what is terrible is that they work harder than ordinary people.

In the finals of the division, He Qinian directly won the championship and advanced to the finals in City H.

...

Missing the time for a long time, He Qinian was looking forward to the day of the finals, but when it was really approaching the match day, he felt that he was not fully ready yet.

One night before departure, he didn't fall asleep until two o'clock in the morning, drinking hot milk and listening to sleep aid music had no effect.

The main reason is that he has put too much thought into his mind, and the motives for meeting him are not pure anymore.

About how to confess?

Where do you confess?

Under what circumstances do you confess?

How would Sheng Xinghe react?

I thought about a lot of messy things.

The next day, he got up with a heavy head and asked Coach Kong for leave.

Since New Year's Day, he hasn't cleaned himself up much, and his bangs have covered his eyebrows.

He found a barber shop with no people in it. There was no one in the shop, and the boss did it himself.

The operation was as fierce as a tiger, and in the blink of an eye, the head was light.

The hair on the sideburns and behind the ears was pushed very short, almost touching the skin, and some were left on the top, and the broken hair was naturally and fluffy curled. The boss looked at it horizontally and vertically after blowing it, and seemed to be very satisfied with himself. Works, and spray some setting water.

He Qinian saw that the time was still early, so he went to the mall to buy a new set of clothes, went downstairs and passed the perfume counter, took a glance, and everyone was about to walk out of the mall, and finally turned back.

...

When the team assembled, Liu Yuhan stared at it as if he saw a rare protected animal, and even leaned over to sniff it, "Hey, are you still wearing perfume?"

"Well," He Qinian raised his brows slightly, "Does it smell good?"

"It smells good," Liu Yuhan nodded with a smile, "It's just a bit coquettish."

A bunch of people on the side were happy.

The distance between the two cities is quite far, in order to save money, I bought a high-speed rail ticket this time, and He Qinian made up for it on the high-speed rail.

The distance between the second-class seats was narrow, and the two long legs were stuck inside, almost unable to move. He Qinian did not sleep comfortably, but he was still in a happy mood.

Before he left, he sent a message asking Sheng Xinghe what time he would arrive at the hotel. Sheng Xinghe said that he had arrived in City S ahead of time and was staying at the business hotel next to the gymnasium.

He also asked for the room number by insinuating.

The female voice on the radio sounded again and again. He admired the scenery along the way and waited for the destination to approach.

When he was about to get off the high-speed train, his heartbeat accelerated uncontrollably.

A total of 21 people from the provincial team's jumping project department participated in the finals, including athletes, team doctors and coaches. After leaving the train station, everyone took a taxi to the hotel in batches.

He Qinian and the others were the last batch to arrive, and the receptionist of the competition committee was arranging rooms for everyone.

"This time it's all double rooms, and everyone makes up their own combinations." Coach Kong said.

After He Qinian found Yu Shunping, he asked the receptionist for his room card.

"Wow, the scenery here is not bad." Yu Shunping opened all the curtains, "He Qinian, come and see, you can still see the river view from here, this is the first time I live in a river view room."

He Qinian had no interest in meeting Jiang Jing at all, so he couldn't wait to go out after a few vague and perfunctory words.

I happened to bump into Coach Kong in the corridor of the hotel.

Coach Kong stopped him, "It's midnight, where are you going?"

He Qinian was stunned, "Buy supper."

Coach Kong glanced at the time, "It's eleven o'clock, where are you going to buy supper?"

He Qinian said without blushing, "I'll just buy something casually, I'm hungry, and the food on the high-speed rail is too bad."

Coach Kong curled his lips, "You are not allowed to eat messy things, you hear me, especially barbecue, you can't touch the meat outside."

"Don't worry, I'll just buy some milk and bread."

He Qinian escaped successfully, like a happy little Samoyed, hopping all the way to the hotel where Sheng Xinghe was, checking his appearance repeatedly in the elevator mirror.

His hair was not messed up, but he sniffed his wrist and didn't smell anything. He regretted that he had put on perfume too early, and the smell was gone.

But he didn't want to run back to the hotel to spray again, he had waited too long for this second.

He was the only one in the elevator, replaying the lines he thought up in bed last night in his mind repeatedly.

Long time no see, Coach Sheng!

Do you miss me very much! ?

Hurry up and hug me if you miss me!

what--

The more he thought about it, the more ashamed he became. After covering his face and giggling for three seconds, he took a deep breath.

calm down!calm down!

"Dong dong dong."

There was a knock on Sheng Xinghe's door.

He thought it was another colleague from the team coming over to eat, so he opened the door without hesitation, and he saw that familiar smiling face.

Sheng Xinghe was stunned.

I don't know if it's because he hasn't seen each other for a long time, but he feels that He Qinian has changed a lot. Compared with before, his skin is a little tanned, and he is also thinner, but his facial features are more three-dimensional.

"Long time no see, Coach Sheng!"

Sheng Xinghe said in surprise: "Why are you here?! You even got your hair cut."

"You can see all of this." He Qinian closed the door behind his back after entering the room, and quickly answered, "Do you miss me very much!?"

The corners of Sheng Xinghe's lips twitched, "It's okay, I'm too busy with the competition, so I didn't think much about it."

This time it was He Qinian who was stunned.

This dialogue is different from what he imagined!

The room was "L" shaped, both of them were standing in the aisle, the light was a bit dim and a little ambiguous.

Late at night brought endless courage to the young man, He Qinian spread his arms and swooped down to hold Sheng Xinghe's body firmly, then whispered in his ear: "I miss you so much."

A refreshing light fragrance hits the face.

Sheng Xinghe felt dumbfounded when his eyes went dark.

The arms around him got tighter and tighter, and his waist was almost bent.

Sheng Xinghe backed up all the way, his arms stopped in the air with no place to rest, he said "hey hey" several times but he couldn't stop He Qinian's pace.

I don't know when this child's strength became so great.

He Qinian wanted to swing over to the bed, but when they moved backwards, their feet got entangled unexpectedly.He Qinian staggered, his body fell forward uncontrollably, and finally knelt on the ground with a plop.

Fortunately, he reacted quickly, he did not fully lie on the ground with his hands on the ground, Sheng Xinghe's hands were still tightly wrapped around his back, and he was lying on the carpet looking at him.

It was originally a literary and romantic scene like an idol drama. The protagonist stares into each other's eyes with affectionate eyes and an undercurrent in his heart.

It's time to arrange a kiss in the next second.

But the reality is that there are still five colleagues in Sheng Xinghe's room who are eating supper together.

Seeing this scene, spitting rice, squinting squinting, dumbfounded, all petrified.